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Fear Kept Her Hidden
Chapter 2
"it has been 3 weeks since we found her. Is she ever going to wake up?"
Susan heard a voice say. she felt her head throbbing. It was pouncing. It felt like someone kept hitting her with a rock.
She opened her eyes. Then she immediately closed them again. the light was too bright. She opened them again. her vision was blurred. She blinked a few times. Still feeling her head pouncing. She closed her eyes again and tried to remember what happened.
The accident. Peter, Edmund, Lucy. They were all gone. Susan wanted to scream. Aslan. her return to Narnia. She opened her eyes again. she suddenly saw clear. She looked at the person standing beside her. "Doctor Cornelius." She said. Her voice was faint and she had trouble saying the words.
The doctor turned his gaze towards her. "Your Majesty, you're awake. Finally, we thought it would never happen. Do you have any idea what happened." The Doctor asked her. "The accident." She said softly. Images running through her head. "Professor how long have I been here?" The doctor looked at her concerned. "maybe you need to go to sleep, Your Majesty, you might feel better after. Then we will discuss everything."
But Susan didn't sleep well at all. she had a dream.
"You forgot me. I can't believe you wanted to forget about me, about that moment."
Caspian looked at her with eyes full of anger and pain. His usually warm eyes, were dull and empty now.
She put her hand on his arm.
"Caspian, I.. I.." she started. Caspian pulled his arm away. "no, you can't just say sorry for what you've done. You can't come up with an explanation for this. You hurt me Susan, you hurt me bad. When you left my heart froze. It didn't give me warmth anymore. Because I got to know you, I even grew to love you and then you were taken away from me. I felt as if I couldn't feel anymore when you left. But when you made the choice to forget about me, you killed me. You killed the love inside me. My frozen heart broke. It broke into thousands pieces of ice. And when your brothers and sisters tried to talk some sense into you, you pushed it away. It felt like you stamped on those pieces of ice, that once was my heart, to make sure that I was completely dead inside. That's what you did to me."
Susan felt like dying in that moment. She wanted to say something but Caspian continued his rage.
"and you know what, I want to cry right now, because of the pain I'm feeling for saying this to you, but I can't even let those tears go because you tore that emotion from me as well. I have no tears left in me. You broke me, Susan heart and soul, you forgot."
Then the image started to fade. Susan could just see his face. He looked at her with disappointment and anger, but even more he looked at her with pain and hurt.
The image changed. She saw Peter, Edmund and Lucy walking through the fields near Cair Paravel. They walked up to her. She wanted to hug them and never let go, fearing that they would disappear again.
But before she could hug them, Peter started to speak. "well, if it isn't our little sister. I bet you are glad that we had the accident. That way we won't bug you with Narnia anymore. You finally got what you wanted. There is no one who could remind you of Narnia. You can finally forget."
Peter looked at her like she was trash, like she was dirt. She was shocked at her brothers words. She wanted to defend herself, but then Edmund began to talk. "So much for being Queen Susan The Gentle. Some kind of Gentleness if you want to forget about the world that named you Gentle in the first place. Wanting to forget the man who showed you gentleness in return. I bet you never really cared about Caspian to begin with. You were just toying with his heart right, just playing with him, to see what he would do if you pretended to love him. That's what you were doing all along right? Did you even care about us? Or were you pretending that as well. Really Gentle of you Queen Susan." He said sarcastically.
His words cut her like a knife. "Susan." She heard Lucy's soft voice say. "How could you. How could you forget about all the things we went through here. How could you forget the beauty of Narnia, the talking animals, the fauns, the centaurs, the minotaurs. But above all, how could you ever forget about Aslan. How could you forget Him." Lucy looked at her like she was about to cry.
Susan screamed and sat straight in her bed. She looked around and saw where she was. She was in the chamber
that used to be hers, back in the Golden Age of Narnia. They Restored Cair Paraval. She thought happily.
The door opened and in walked Trufflehunter. "My queen, I'm glad to see you awake. How are you feeling?" he asked. "I feel a little better. Trufflehunter, where is Caspian?" "King Caspian is on a journey to the end of the world with High King Peter, King Edmund and Queen Lucy. They went away with the Dawn Treader 6 months ago. We are expecting them back soon though, but of course we don't really know the length of the journey." Trufflehunter said.
He said something else, but Susan didn't hear him. They are here. They are save with Caspian. then she remembered her dream. They hate me. They hate me for forgetting. Caspian hates me for forgetting him. They can't know I'm here. They will ban me from Narnia. They will want to forget about me too. They will forget me.
Susan was haunted by her dream. she looked at Trufflehunter. "I have to get out of the castle." She said. "But Your Majesty. Why do you want to go away?" Trufflehunter looked at her confused. "I just have to get out of here. They can't know I'm in Narnia. You can't tell them. Truffle. Please promise me that you won't tell Caspian and my brothers and sister about me being here." Trufflehunter started to stutter. "But.. But.. Queen Susan.." he started. "No, they just can't know Truffle. Promise me. You have to promise me. You have to."
Tears were streaming down her face. Trufflehunter saw the sorrow and hurt. "I.. I.. I promise." He said with a heavy heart. "Good, now tell everyone in the castle that they can't tell anyone about my presence in Narnia. That is an order." She said. "Your wish is my command, my queen." Trufflehunter said with a bow.
Then he turned around and walked out of the door. As soon as the door closed, Susan started to pack some dresses and some other necessities.
She packed some food and a bottle of wine. Then she went looking for a rope. When she found one she climbed down her balcony. She made sure no one was around. Once she was on the ground she put a black cloak around her and she hood over her head making sure that most of her face was hidden.
Susan didn't hear the sounds of horns in the distance. She didn't hear the noises that came from the harbour. She didn't hear the arrival of High King Peter, King Edmund, Queen Lucy and King Caspian. She just knew that she had to get away.
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