Okay, I am a very bad person for not updating in such a long time and I am sorry for that, I can not promise that I will update every week or so from now on, but I will definitely try to do it more regularly. I hope it was worth the wait and once again, I am very truly sorry.
"King Caspian" Susan said with a bow. "congratulations, I walked in just in time to hear the good news." She said with a fake smile and a breaking heart. Caspian looked at her confused. Susan.. she is here, she is actually here. And she looks so beautiful. All those nights I lay awake, wondering if I would ever see her again.. but why is she being so formal. We are in love, she kissed me, I don't get it. oh no wait. Medina.. I am engaged, soon to be married.
"Caspian?" a small voice said from behind him. Caspian turned around and saw the confused look on Medina's face. Before Caspian could speak, Susan started talking. "Congratulations miss, with your engagement. I trust you will take good care of Narnia and it's king." Susan said with another bow. "Thank you, and who are you if I may ask." "I am.." Susan started, but she was interrupted. "This is Queen Susan the Gentle of Narnia." Carlina said with a small smile on her face. "Queen..?" Medina asked. "That is right dear, queen Susan is the sister of king Peter, king Edmund and queen Lucy." Caspian explained. Susan looked at Caspian's face. He is engaged. Did I mean nothing to him? Was I just a flirt for a few weeks? He meant the world to me, I changed so much because of him. "I am sorry to have interrupted the festivities." Susan said while looking to the ground. "Su, you never interrupt. Without you it would not even be a real party." Peter said while wrapping his arm around her. "Thanks Pete, but I would really want to return to my house now." She replied. "What, Su of course not, you and Carlina have to stay here at the castle, if Caspian agrees of course." Lucy said. "Caspian..?" Edmund asked seeing the distant look on the face of Narnia's king. "Uh.. Uh.. of course you have to stay." He said after a while. "Thank you, Your Majesty, that is very kind of you." Susan said formally."Well, then I would like permission to retreat to my chamber, because I am very tired." She continued. "Oh Su, of course you probably had a tiring day, coming to Narnia again and all." Edmund said. "Well we shall have rooms prepared for you and Carlina." Caspian said, while signing to a servant.
Susan walked out of the door, after hugging her siblings one more time and wishing them good night. And Carlina quickly followed. "Su, wait!" she yelled after a running Susan. Susan fell to the ground and broke down crying. "Su, I am so sorry. This must be so terribly hard for you." Carlina said, while wrapping an arm around her best friend. "Car, he is going to marry her. He will have children with her. She is going to be his queen, ruling beside him and he will love her forever. I cannot stay here and watch him be happy with someone who is not me." Susan said while crying her heart out. "I know, I know. Let's just go to sleep for now and we will see how it goes in the morning. you and your siblings have enough to catch up on." "Thanks Car, I will see you in the morning. Good night." "Good night Su, try not to worry too much." Carlina replied with a worried look on her face. Susan smiled a small, fake smile before walking inside her room and closing the door behind her.
Caspian lay in his bed thinking about the past evening. He kept thinking about the Queen who had captured his heart. He remembered the exact moment he heard Lucy screaming her name and when he looked up and saw her. His heart started beating at an impossible rate and his mind went completely blank except for one single thought. "Susan..!" The name that haunted him for the time that she wasn't around. If he did not think about her during the day, he dreamt about her at night. He never forgot her, nor got over her. And now she finally returned to him. But now that she had, he got engaged. He could not break his vow to Medina. He proposed a few hours ago. He could not take his words back. He could not break her heart, not even if it would cost him his heart in return. With thoughts of Susan running through his mind, he fell into a deep sleep for the first time in a long time.
Susan on the other hand, lay awake. They don't hate me, my dream was just out of fear, it's not real. Well Caspian may not hate me, but he certainly doesn't love me anymore. He is engaged now, Medina will be by his side as his queen, not me. No matter how much I want it or how many times I thought about that perfect image, it will never come true. I will have to find someone else to be happy with. "ow don't be silly, Susan. You can never be happy with anyone else, you know that!" a voice in her head said. I know I can never be happy with anyone else, but i'll just have to try! Then she gasped and sat upright. "Medina.." she whispered, remembering the reason she came to the castle in the first place. No that was just another dream, it probably doesn't mean anything. It is just that I don't like her for taking Caspian from me, but that is all. "So now I'm jealous? Man, can I get anymore pathetic?" she sighed and laid back down again. She tossed and turned for the entire night, but she never fell asleep.
The next day Lucy ran through the castle towards her sisters room. She burst through the door without knocking and stopped dead in her tracks when she didn't see her sister. "Susan?" she asked in a small voice. She was so afraid that she dreamt the events of last evening and that her sister wasn't really back in Narnia. She walked towards the bathroom, but Susan wasn't there either. She walked to the balcony, but no Susan there. She spun around and ran out of the room. "Peter, Edmund!" she yelled panicked. She didn't look where she was going and ran into something, or rather someone. She hit the ground with a hard thud. "Lucy, I'm so sorry I did not look where I was going, I was lost in thought. Are you allright? Are you hurt." Lucy looked up into the worried face of Caspian. She didn't listen to what he said. "Caspian, Was Susan really here last night?" she whispered. Caspian looked at the little girl that was so mature for her age. "Yes Lucy, she was." He said with a small smile. "She really was." He added. Caspian thought about how beautiful the queen looked last night. How he had missed that beauty in the time she was absent. He also remembered the formal tone she used and he still couldn't figure out why she had treated him that way. They had been so much more than friends in the past, there was nothing different this time, right? Oh wait there is. Medina.. Caspian was shocked by his own thoughts. Susan was.. jealous? No of course not. She wanted to forget about me. She is probably acting this way, because I am just a bad experience of her past. He sighed. He trail of thought was broken by a small voice in front of him. "Caspian, if Sue was really here, why isn't she in her room then?" Lucy asked. "She is somewhere around here Lu, she has to be." Trying to convince himself more than the young queen. "Keep looking Lu, if I see her, I will send her to you." He added. "Thank you Caspian." Lucy said. Then she ran away, looking for her sister. Caspian smiled after her and made his way to the stables, to go for a ride on his horse.
Susan stood next to an empty castle. She looked at two trees that were twined together. She thought about how those trees had been seperated to make a way to another world. Then she looked towards the ground she was standing on. This exact spot. This exact place. She thought. She looked up to see Destrier eating some grass. She took Caspian's horse this morning to ride to the telmarine castle. She needed to think and she wanted to come here, to this special place.
"When I found his stable empty this morning, I never figured you would have stole Destrier." Susan heard a voice behind her. She gasped,but did not turn around. That voice. That smooth, once soothing voice. It made her weak in the knees, but she couldn't let him know that. She finally turned around. "Caspian.." she said softly. "I..I..mean Your Majesty." She looked to the ground, not able to stand to look at him, knowing that he would never belong to her. A tear escaping the corner of her eye. "Susan." Caspian whispered, much closer now. Susan looked up and was startled by the sudden closeness of him. She quickly regained her posture. "My king, let me once again congratulate you with your engagement." Caspian smiled when he heard her say the words 'my king.' My king, how good it sounds when she says it. Then his face fell when he thought of what she said after that. Susan noticed her mistake herself. "Uh.. I.. I.. didn't mean My king as in that uh.. you belong to me or something.. uh.. I just meant.." Caspian quickly broke of her rant. "I missed you, Susan." He said. Susan's heart skipped a beat. She looked down again. She didn't want to say the words, but her lips just started moving, forming the words. "I missed you too, so much more than you can imagine." Looking to the ground with tears leaking from her eyes, she felt a hand on her chin. Caspian gently pushed her head up, so that she would have to look at him. When she finally looked him in the eyes, he saw the hurt he felt, reflected in her eyes. He quickly brushed a tear away with his thumb that made it's way down her cheek. "trust me, I can imagine." He replied, while laying his hand on her cheek.
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