Chapter 15

"Bella." I breathed, leaning closer to her. "Don't ever leave me again."

Bella closed her eyes and leaned towards me. We locked lips momentarily before I sat up in my bed. I grabbed my pillow and screamed into it.

It hadn't been the first night I'd dreamt of Bella, but this was the first time I'd kissed her. I shook myself, getting the disgusting feeling out of my head and decided to go brush my teeth. It wasn't a real kiss but I thought it would be a good thing to do.

Jacob's thoughts had affected all of us. He didn't think about anything but her lately, even though she was going to marry her leech and she told him that terrible day that she didn't want to be with him. The conversation had run through his heads so many times I could probably recite it. Jacob needs to get over this.

I darted out the front door and greeted the early morning air. I sniffed lightly and caught Jacob's scent on the wind. I turned and ran after the smell.

Everything had pretty much gone back to normal. Everyone hated me, and I was alone again. And it looked like I wouldn't be given any second chances. I still wanted to be a part of them but I saw no way that would happen. I'd gone to breakfast a couple times but they would always ignore me or shoot me glares. I clearly wasn't wanted.

Jacob was sitting on the edge of the cliff. I could tell he wanted to be alone but when you were a werewolf that just didn't happen. I walked up behind him and he casually glanced over his shoulder at me.

"Jacob, do you think this is going to take too much longer?" If they could complain about me I could most defiantly complain about them.

He looked up at me and pointed to the cliff. "Jump off a cliff Leah."

I sat down beside him. "Really kid, you have no idea how hard this is for me." Ok maybe I was being a little mean but this was getting annoying.

"For you?" He asked raising his voice. "You have to be the most self-absorbed person alive, Leah. I'd hate to shatter the dream world you live in – the one where the sun is orbiting the place where you stand – so I won't tell you how little I care what you're problem is. Go Away!"

Ouch. "Just look at this from my perspective for a minute, okay?"

He started laughing. I frowned. "Stop snorting and pay attention!" I snapped.

"If I pretend to listen, will you leave?" he sneered. I watched his eyes run up and down my body as if appraising me and his face changed to an uninterested half smirk. I nearly growled.

"This is making me sick, Jacob. Can you imagine what this feels like to me? I don't even like Bella Swan. And you've got me grieving over this leech lover like I'm in love with her, too. Can you see where that might be a little confusing? I dreamed about kissing her last night! What the hell am I supposed to do with that?"

"Do I care?"

"I can't stand being in your head anymore! Get over her already! She's going to marry that thing. He's going to try to change her into one of them! Time to move on, boy."

"Shut up," he snarled. He had his hands in tight fists and he was clenching his jaw. I half smiled.

"He'll probably just kill her anyway, all the stories say that happens more often than not. Maybe a funeral will be better closure than a wedding." I laughed at my joke but I obviously pissed Jacob off. He started shaking and I watched with amused eyes.

Once he calmed himself he turned and spoke slowly. "If you're upset about gender confusion, Leah . . . How do you think the rest of us like looking at Sam through your eyes? It's bad enough that Emily has to deal with your fixation. She doesn't need us guys panting after him, too."

Each word stabbed my heart like a dagger. How dare he compare me and Sam to this! But the worst thing was, he was completely right. I stood up spitting in his direction before running off to the woods. He mumbled something but I couldn't hear him over the roaring in my ears from my anger. I barely made it to the cover of the woods before exploding out of my clothes. I leapt forward in my wolf form and darted between the trees using the wind against my face as an escape in my inescapable world.