Ellen POV

I woke up and looked at the clock, it was 6:35am so I sat up and looked around. The sheets smelled like him and my head was hurting a little from the wine. I quietly walked to the door and cracked it open, Patrick wasn't on the couch but I could smell the coffee going.

"Morning," he smiled at me as he came out of the hall bathroom. He was always a morning person but I didn't get it.

"Morning, how did you sleep?" I yawned and leaned against the counter and he poured himself coffee.

"Pretty good, help yourself," he went over and sat down on the couch and turned on the news.

"Thanks," I flashed a smiled before taking a mug and pouring some coffee into it. I went over and sat on the single chair and stared at the tv.

"I think we should talk-"

"Not now, I have to think about some things. So when does T go back with Jill?"

"Jill is picking her up today after she finishes work. Do you need a ride to the studio? All I have I do is drop Tallulah off at daycare."

"No I can drive myself. Thanks though," I shot him a smile while I sipped my coffee and watched the news along with him.

"You can use my bathroom to get ready in if you need to, Tal is going to be up soon so she will be wanting to use her bathroom."

"Ok," I finished my coffee and went into his bathroom. I poured some water over my face to clean it off and patted it down and came across a tiny scratch that was on my outer cheekbone where Chris's ring must have left a mark. I fixed my hair and straightened out the clothes from yesterday and went back into the living room.

"I'll see you at the table read," he said as I grabbed my keys and purse.

"Ok," I shot him a smile as I walked out the door and took the short drive over to the studio.

"Morning Ms Pompeo," the guard said at the gates as he opened up the gate.

"Morning," I didn't even bother giving him a smile as I drove through the gate and straight into my parking space. I looked at the rear view mirror and saw Justin, Sandra, and TR all walking in a group toward the doors.

"Wait up," I called out the window as I hopped out and hurried over to them.

"Hey Ellen," TR smiled and gave me a hug.

"Morning guys, how was your break?" We all walk toward the studio together.

"Same ole, took a vacation with Keisha and the kids to the Caribbean for a few weeks," Justin said taking a drink out of the mug that read 'World's Best Dad'.

"I didn't do much, Jamie and I spent most of the time going to bars, I went to visit my parents," TR said, Jamie was his best friend and they both spent a lot of time together, we were convinced he was his secret partner.

"I didn't do much, recorded my voice for a movie and relaxed on the beach, went to Canada," Sandra said as she opened up the studio door and we walked in, grabbing our scripts that was on the table by the door.

"Morning guys, have you seen Katie?" Shonda came to us as we entered.

"She was in her trailer a few minutes ago," Justin pointed out and Shonda nodded then went out the door. She seemed pissed about something, Katie was probably being a diva like always. We went into the large room where tables were set up and sat down at our spots, mine in between Chyler Leigh, which was new on set and we haven't really gotten to know each other yet but she seemed sweet, and Sandra.

"Morning Ellen," Chyler looked up at me as I set my stuff down. Her glasses sat at the bridge of her nose and she looked exhausted but still smiled.

"Morning Chyler," I smiled as I sat down. We sat and all of us chatted and soon Shonda walked in looking irritated and sat down at the table in the front of the room next to the head director and co-writer.

Katie came in after her looking upset, they must have fought. She sat beside Eric and one of the extras.

"Where is Patrick?" Shonda said looking around, "also where is some of the intern people?"

We all shrugged but I spoke up, "Patrick is dropping Tallulah off then he will be here shortly."

"Thank you Ellen, someone find those intern people," she said and a few assistants went flying looking for them.

After ten minutes, Patrick came in apologizing for being late and Shonda said it was fine. He sat next to James and Chandra. We all read the first quarter lines, everyone spoke about some minor sentence rearrangements and medical corrections.

"Alright guys, you can take a lunch break," Shonda said standing up and walking into one of the rooms and the writers joined her.

"You guys wanna go grab something?" Patrick came over with Sara and Chandra.

"Sure," We all nodded. Justin, Sandra, T.R., Sara, Patrick, Chandra, and I all climbed into Justin's Tahoe and went to a local bistro. We all joked around and Patrick and I tried to act normal but Sandra knew something was up.

"What's up between you and Patrick," she whispered over to me while no one was looking.

"Nothing," I said and my phone started to vibrate. Chris was calling again and I hit ignore and smiled up and Sandra.

"Mhm," she squinted her eyes and continued to eat.

We all finished and hurried back so Shonda wouldn't be upset. As we got there, everyone came back in and sat at our original spots. During the reading, I would glance up and catch Patrick looking at me then would smile when our eyes met which made me feel all tingly inside. We finished at around 8pm and I went to my trailer to lay down as I heard a knock on the door.

"Go away Sandra, there's nothing going on," I yell out on the bed. There is another knock and I let out a large gush of air and stood up to go open it.

"San- oh sorry," I looked up and down at Patrick standing in front of me.

"It's fine, can I come in?" He says stepping inside anyway.

"Sure," I went over and sat down on the couch and pulled one of the pillows in my lap.

"I have been thinking..." I cut him off.

"I don't think we should get together, I mean not right away."

"Why not?" He gave me a questioning look.

"Because, I don't want anyone to get any ideas about us being together before and we have to think about Jill and everyone else too," I bit my lower lip waiting for him to answer.

"They don't have to know about us yet, we could be together. I love you Ellie," he sat down on the other side of the couch and grabbed my hand. I thought about moving my hand but his touch always made me better.

"Paddy, how would no one find out?" I looked up at him and held back the tears. I wanted to be with him so badly, it hurt. I love his so much and it's hard to do this but I can't let Chris know about us, at least no right away.

"We would figure it out, just I want to call you mine Ellen, I have been in love with you since I first saw your eyes when I walked through that audition door, and your long blonde hair came past your shoulders," he reached up and moved my hair behind my ear and laid his hand on my cheek, moving his thumb across it gently.

"I love you Patrick, you know that and I just," he cut me off.

"Don't say it, I will make sure if you say yes to me, no one will ever find out until we are ready to tell them," he flashed his ocean blue eyes at me and I crumbled.

"Alright, we can start dating but no hugging or kissing in public, no hand holding, nothing. We are only friends outside our circle," he smiled wide and gently pulled me into a kiss, our lips barely touching and I could taste him on my lips. He stood up and pulled me up, moving is over to the bed and he laid down and pulled his shoes and shirt off.

"What are you doing?" I questioned.

"Going to sleep, you going to join?" He reached out his hand. I pulled the pants I had on off then climbed next to him and wrapped myself in his arms. It felt so right to be there in that moment.

"I love you Ellen," he caressed his thumb against my shoulder and held me tight, kissing the top of my head and I felt him sniff my hair before pulling away slightly.

"I love you Paddy," I drew circles in his chest and slowly fell asleep to his heartbeat.

AN: Hey guys, I was suppose to put this up a few days ago but I've been ill and I feel terrible. I plan on putting a few more chapters up within the next few days so hang tight and thank you so much for all the love and support you guys give me, it makes me want to write all the time. Please leave a review to tell me how you like it.