A/N - Are you guys proud that I've already added two chapters in a week? I might not be able to post next week cause I'm going on holiday to the sunny part of the UK called Wales (note sarcasm) but really I do love wales it's just I'm not sure if I'll have wifi to post so just incase here's two chapters this week rather than just one! Please follow, favourite and review to let us know if you still want us to write the fan fiction and update this story! :D ~ Holly
I am desperate. They can't find out. They'll hate me as much as I hate myself. No, no one could hate me more than me. I left the car and walked across the gravel toward the building. I heard the others get out and follow me. I need a way out of telling them. "Hey sweetheart, it's this way!" called dean.
"I'm not your sweetheart!" I spat, turning on my heel to follow them into a small cramped room.
The bland, unloved motel room reminded me of myself. Not having anything constant in my life, not being loved, being ignored and used by people for their own pleasure. Stepping into the room the heat attacked me, making me break out into a sweat. Why did I have to tell my sister and Cas like this ? Hell, why did I have to tell two arrogant men the truth about why Em and I are like this. Not quite human and not quite angel.
The room has a strange smell emanating from a corner. My eyes searched for the source of the foul stench. I quickly found it. A pile of pizza and take away boxes stacked on top of eachother. The pile was surrounded by flies. Dean threw himself of the bed and grinned.
"Sit down sweetheart " he said.
"I told you, I'm nobody's sweetheart. " I retaliated. Still, I sat on the corner of a table in the corner.
"Dean, I won't tell you again, behave" muttered Sam.
"Pig's." I muttered, utterly disgusted by the way the winchesters lived. I mean Em and myself had been living fairly rough what with trying not to draw attention to ourselves but Sam and Dean... They were living just plain rough. The dark, burgundy carpet held the stains from dropped pizza sauce littering it's expanse. Sam seemed nice enough as he unsuccessfully tried to hide the empty containers from mine and Em's sight.
"This is a nice place." Em said as I daw her trying not to focus of the growing pile of mess in the corner of the room. Em is too nice for her own good but thankfully I'm not...
"This place is filthy. When was the last time you went to the rubbish bins?" I glanced from Dean to Sam."Please say you throw your rubbish out and don't leave it for the house maids?" At least Sam had the courtesy to look guilty.
"What? They're paid to do it" Dean protested
"Em we can't stay here " I said getting ready to leave. My sister couldn't stay in here.
" The door is over there sweetheart ." Dean called.
" Belle wait! Just stay okay? Where can we go? " said Em. She looked at me desperately, "we'll leave later."
"Fine" I huffed.
" So what's the deal with the adoptive dad then? " asked Dean as he picked up a half chewed pizza crust and began to eat.
"Em, please don't hate me after I tell you all this. I haven't been entirely honest with you. I couldn't bare to lose you so listen with an open mind. Okay?" I stared intensely at Em hoping and praying that she would listen to what really happened to get us to where we are today.
"I'll listen to you. And Belle I would never leave you. You're all I have." She glanced over to Cas, "Sorry Cas."
"I know you're having another bonding moment again, but let's get on with story time." Maybe it is only Dean who's arrogant... Taking a deep breath I start
"You were 4 and I was 8. You were playing right near a pond. Mum and dad had gone to get a drink inside the house and I was left in charge of you. God I was so stupid. I turned around for a second to move the cat and when I looked back." Tears stung my eyes and a lump appeared in my throat. I was NOT going to cry. "I turned back and you had fallen in. The pond was deep and I mean like 7 foot deep. I jumped in and grabbed you. I pulled you out and left you on the grass crying. The weeds got my leg and pulled me down. I couldn't breathe. " I was finding it hard to breathe now as I carried on with mine and Em's life story.
"Mum and Dad came running out and tried to get me, but I fell deeper and deeper, spiralling into a darkness that I'd never known," blinking back the tears I carried on. "All I cared about was you and you surviving. So much that I sacrificed myself. Dad jumped in but by the time he'd pulled me out you were inhaling your last breath." Em came over to me and hugged me like she had done before she'd almost died,"Em all I cared about was you! And I couldn't take care of you for two minutes! I basically killed you ! " I looked away from my baby sister. Guilt and shame mixed together like a tornado in my stomach making me feel ill.I looked over at Em and blinked through my tear filled eyes.
"Did you know why you wondered over to the pond ? "
Em was starting to cry too "No. Why was I near the pond?"
I took another deep breath "You saw grandma."
Em's breath hitched in her throat
"But grandma had died !"
"That's the thing though... It wasn't Grandma. It was a shape shifter."
Dean interrupted my confessions about my past "Damn hard to kill, the bitches!"
I was thankful for dean's interruption because it gave me a chance to smile despite the situation. He smiled back at me.
" You nearly died Em. Mum and dad, they made a deal with the...with the...the yellow eyed demon " I drew breath. Sam's head turned quickly to look at me
" What did you say?" he asked softly.