Bella's Point Of View

.Beep.

My eyes fluttered open, only to stare at a bare, white wall before me. The silence around me was louder than anything, making everything about waking up uneasy.

.Beep.

My left hand stung. As I wiggled my fingers around, I could feel something sharp moving beneath my skin. An IV.

.Beep.

My. Head. Throbbed.

.Beep.

"Bella..." Charlie's voice tore my attention away from the distractions around me. "How are you feeling? It's me... dad..."

"I know who you are." Was I diagnosed with stupidity? My eyes strained to catch the expression on his face. "Jacob told me you went cliff diving... Were you trying to get yourself killed?"

Yes.

"No."

Charlie sighed deeply, his hand resting against my shoulder. "You were in surgery for eight hours, Bells... They couldn't stop the bleeding, you're lucky Edward called Dr. Cullen in so quickly. You're lucky to be alive."

'Edward' and 'lucky to be alive' didn't deserve to be in the same paragraph. I sighed softly as I glanced at the machine to my side, displaying my breaths, my pulse, my heart beats... I was amazed that after hearing his name, it continued on. I was amazed to remember the sound of his voice whispering my name after Jacob had pulled me from the water. I was amazed Charlie hadn't murdered him for the way he had left me. Worse than the condition I was in now. "It was a stupid idea that seemed fun at the time... I didn't anticipate rocks, neither did Jacob." I refused to mention Edward, he played no role in my life any longer. His name no longer deserved to flow from my mouth as freely as it once had. "I'm sorry..."

Charlie responded to my words with a smile, thanking everything around him for saving me. I knew at that moment I could never leave him, despite what pain anyone ever put me through. He loved me more than anyone ever loved another, I seen that now. Irregardless of our separate views and interests, I was his world.

Our conversation, or lack there of, was interrupted by a nurse. A big smile painted across her face at the realization of my awareness. She carried a large glass of orange juice, setting it at the table beside my hospital bed. I didn't have to be told the purpose of the juice, my body still lacked it's own blood, this would speed up the process of making it's own. Charlie soon exited the room, giving the nurse and I privacy as she checked the dressings around my wound. It didn't take long for a second presence to seize Charlie's absence and bombard me with unwanted company.

The nurse smiled like a school girl at Edward's presence, his dazzling effect clearly winning her over. I, however, no longer seen it. He waited until she was done with the check up and until she left the room before focusing his eyes on mine. I challenged him, not blinking once.

"Bella..." His voice sounded the same as it had mid-death on the beach. The same as it always did. Too soft. Flawed. I no longer seen him as a god, as perfection. How could I? "Bella, you truly have an eye for danger... I'd think you'd have learned your lesson after all the times before." His voice teased. I was not amused.

"You'd think after all these months you'd have learned to keep a promise." My voice shot back angrily. How dare he break not one, but two promises to me. The first that he would never leave, the second that he would never come back. I found it disgusting how used to his lies I was becoming, though judging from the look on his face, he wasn't expecting it. He looked almost guilty... almost.

"I couldn't stay away from you any longer, I was stupid and foolish to have left you in the woods. To have left you at all." His eyes refused to leave mine, challenging me in return. "I thought I would be able to live my life with only our memories, to... to somehow go on without you. I was wrong, Bella... So, so wrong..."

Edward said everything I imagined he would if he came back. The only difference was that in my dream, I believed and accepted his words. In reality I felt sick to my stomach listening to him. "You couldn't have asked Alice for the outcome before you broke my heart?! You go to her for everything else!" I didn't want to drag the rest of his family into this, but I was just as angry with them as I was with him. "She could have saved us six months! She could have saved me from what I've become!"

The beeping of the stupid monitor beside me grew more frantic as my blood pressure increased, my heart's beats growing more rapid. I took a single, calming breath before tearing my eyes away from Edward's in defeat.

"Get out..."