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"Humor is a rubber sword - it allows you to make a point without drawing blood." – Mary Hirsch

Chapter Four.

I headed up towards Alaska. I wasn't sure why I was going up here, but I figured, it'd be easier to stay away from everyone for awhile. I was emotional and irrational. I couldn't be trusted with my choices because apparently I hurt people. And I push people to do things. I'm a pusher and I've pushed Emmett away from me forever.

I got to Alaska and I didn't know anybody. I just checked into a hotel. My phone was ringing. That was strange; no one knew I was here.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Hi Lorelai." It was Carlisle. How did he know I was here?

"Hi Carlisle… how'd you know I'm here?" I asked.

"Alice saw you head up towards Alaska… I was wondering why the sudden urge to leave?" He asked in his calm manner.

"It was time…" I lied smoothly.

"I see… will you be coming back soon?" He inquired.

"I do not know." I answered this honestly. It was silent.

"Carlisle?" I asked.

"Yes?"

"Why did you really call?"

"Emmett wanted me to see if you were okay." He finally admitted after a slight pause.

"Oh… I should go."

He said goodbye and I hung up. I grabbed my room key and some money and went out. I was wandering around the wild. I found this great place to sit. It was in this clearing of trees I laid in the snow staring up at the sky. The stars were out but I could not locate the moon. I stared up looking for the answer I hoped would be in the stars.

I have no idea how long I laid there before I heard something. It was day but it was dark. I sighed.

"Hello…" Said a voice. I froze. I sat up a little.

"What are you doing?"

I sighed. "I'm sitting here." I mumbled.

"Where have you been?"

"Tyler, I told you, I needed some time." I sighed.

"I felt bad about the fight we had." He said.

"Its fine, but I'd still like to be alone for awhile." I said. I don't know why he came I was pretty clear when I left that I was annoyed with him. Maybe he thought if he came he'd be the hero or something but that isn't it. When you tell someone you're mad at them… having them come doesn't help, for me it just bothers me. Maybe he thought he'd get lucky. That wouldn't happen. I felt weird now that I was still technically still married, I thought of things differently.

"What happened when you came out here?" He asked softly.

"Nothing, I told you I was visiting old friends." I said letting the annoyance color my tone.

"Well you take off with out saying much." He said. I shook my head.

"How does saying, I want to get away, I need to get away, not make things clear enough for you, Tyler? I wanted to be alone and I was until you showed up!" I snapped.

"You're always leaving…" He muttered.

"That's it!" I shouted. "You leave me alone!"

I was upset enough that Emmet was telling me that I always left but I didn't need this from Tyler either.

"I said I needed alone time. Damnit Tyler! I seriously need time to figure things out. You're future as a vampire is safe but your future as my friend, not so much." I said in a shaky voice. I ran. He didn't chase after me. I ran back towards the hotel. I was checking out and going to Washington and catching the next plane to New York.

I checked out and got on a plane I was heading to New York to go back on living my life. The plane ride seemed rather fast today. I caught a cab back to my apartment. I started looking for a new place to live. I found an apartment. I went to look at it. It was a perfect two bedroom two bathroom (not that I need them) apartment. I bought it on the spot. I hired some movers to come and haul my stuff out to the new house. Tyler came as I boxed the last of my stuff.

"What are you doing? Are we moving?" He asked as I moved at vampire speed to get this done before the movers came back for the rest.

"No, I'm moving you can live here but I'm going to live by myself. I've given this a lot of thought. I don't want to live with you anymore… I feel like it isn't working. We of course and still go hunting and hang out… but I feel like your more of a brother." I told him. I wasn't sure if this was a lie. There was a very good chance I was moving out because Emmett is still alive and I felt like I was cheating on him, even though we aren't really together anymore.

"What is this really about?" He asked.

"Tyler, I told you… I don't want a boyfriend and you're like a big brother and I don't want to lead you on." I said. I got the rest of my stuff done in time for the movers. They came back and took the last of my stuff.

"Wait… Lorelai… you aren't really going to leave are you?" He asked. I sighed, "Yes Tyler, I told you… we just… we don't work anymore. It's too much work. But we should definitely be friends. I'll call when I have the house set up for you too see it." I said and gave him a hug and left.

I got to my empty box filled apartment and decided to pain the white walls. I bought pain and got started. It was early morning when I finished. I started setting up my house. Keeping my hands and mind busy.

It had been a busy few weeks repainting and readjusting in my new house. I felt strangely lonely.

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