"Change is never easy, you fight to hold on, you fight to let go" – Unknown
I know it's been awhile since I last updated but I plan to finish this story before starting anything else.
Chapter Seven
Alice and I walked through the door. The Cullens were sitting around watching TV. Emmett wasn't there. Neither were Esme or Carlisle. I held my breath.
"Alice… what did you do?" Jasper asked. We walked in. I slowly started panicking.
"Hello Lorelai… it's nice to see you again." Edward smiled. I sat next to him on the couch. Jasper and Alice were fighting about something.
"So, how'd Alice convince you to come back with her?" Edward asked.
"I'm not even sure myself." I muttered. I kept thinking about Emmett.
"He's off hunting he should be back tonight." Edward said. I sighed. Great so he wasn't here so he'd just get back and see me. It was getting dark. Jasper's phone was ringing. He answered. He quickly shut the phone with a click.
"Emmett should be back in fifteen minutes." He said. I froze.
"I'm going to get some fresh air quickly… clear my head…" I muttered. Edward could see, I had no plans I coming back. I raced out. I wandered the lonely streets of Forks. I saw teenagers hanging out. I saw what it was like to be human. I kept walking. The sun was coming up when I decided to head back to the Cullen's house. I heard Emmett's booming laugh. I smiled. I slowly made my way up the driveway. I saw the door open. Emmett and Jasper were racing each other. They were playfully wrestling. I saw everyone laughing and cheering. I couldn't stay here. I would just mess up this great thing Emmett had going. He needed to be around people who were going to help him. This was the last time I'd ever see him again. I felt sad. Edward's eyes met mind.
Please don't tell Emmett I was here… I'm just going to leave… Alice was wrong he doesn't need me anymore. He's got you… you're his family.
Edward moved his eyes from side to side, as if he was shaking his head no.
It's too late.
I felt extremely sad. It was overwhelming despair that washed threw me. I felt numb… like there was a giant hole that had opened up in my chest and was ripping me apart. Jasper stopped and stood perfectly still. Edward's eyes met with Jasper's.
"Jazz, what is it?" Alice asked worried. I too wanted to know if he was alright.
"I… I feel someone who's utterly unhappy and sad… and it isn't coming from any of us." He said. He looked around and saw me. I stared at him trying to get him to look away before Emmett saw me. But Emmett looked over. I ran.
"LORELAI!" Emmett called. I ran threw the shadows, running faster than I'd ever ran before. I didn't want to leave Emmett but I couldn't mess things up for him. I felt them closing in around me. I quickly stopped running. I saw all the Cullens.
"Lorelai…" Edward and Jasper looked at each other. I focused. I was focusing on making a glass box encase me so the Cullens couldn't reach me. Emmett came forward and I closed my eyes.
"What the hell is that?" Someone asked. I opened my eyes and saw the glass box appear around me. I rarely used my power. But I did when I needed to. My power was the power of mind. I could move things and make things appear with my mind… I could even make you think what I was thinking.
Emmett started pounding on the glass. I concentrated on keeping it from breaking under his massive fists.
"Lorelai… what's going on?" He asked. I looked at him with big eyes.
"Emmett…" Edward started. "You should let her go." Jasper finished.
"No… She doesn't get to leave again." Emmett said. I sighed. My eyes dilated.
Emmett you don't need me. I filled my thoughts in his head.
"What's going on?" Emmett shouted.
"She's using her power to fill her thoughts in your head… I've never seen anything like her power in all my years." Edward said. I focused on going back to the Cullen's house.
"Lorelai…" Edward started. I disappeared. I opened my eyes and was back at their house. I sat there for a minute. I heard them coming. I ran down the river.
"Alice, can you see where she went?" Emmett asked. I sighed. I shouldn't have come back.
"No." Alice said.
"Edward can you hear her thoughts?" He tired again.
"No." Edward said after a minute. That wasn't true; he knew I was down here.
Thank you Edward.
"Em, we'll be inside." Carlisle said. Everyone went inside.
"Emmett, can I have a word quickly?" Esme asked.
"I know this is hard for you. But… maybe she's only trying to help you… maybe she doesn't think she's good enough for you… you've got to think that maybe she's scared that you don't love her anymore… Ah…" Esme said. "…Maybe you should think about this… write her a letter or something." She said. I heard the door close. I sat down by the river. I sat there thinking that maybe Emmett would hook up with the blonde girl and he'd forget about and he'd have the life I always wanted for him.
"Lorelai?"
I didn't say anything. He sat down next to me.
"Um… you're power is pretty cool." He said. I glanced at him.
"Thanks Em." I muttered. I locked eyes with the sun.
"You came back." He said.
"Yes… but then I left when I found out you weren't home… I came back and I saw you guys and you were a real family… and I couldn't and didn't want to mess that up. So I was going to run but then Edward heard my thoughts and I don 't know why Jasper looked at me…" I admitted.
"He can feel emotions… control them… taste them… but your emotions had to be pretty strong for him to stop…" he said. I shook my head.
"Why won't you tell me?" He whispered. I sighed, "I can't hurt you anymore." I whispered.
"Please?" He whispered and then I looked up into his topaz eyes.
"I had a strong overwhelming wash of despair… and I was numb… I was sad and I knew I would be alone. I saw you with Carlisle's family and you belonged… I don't belong and you need them and they need you Em…" I whispered as I fought back the tears.
"No… Lorelai… you're important to me… they know that…" He said. I couldn't help it the tears streamed down my face. I locked my gaze with the sun.
"Emmett… You're better off without me… I can't commit to a pair of shoes for more than a week… how am I going to be with you?" I whispered.
"Lorelai… have you forgotten… that's why I'm in love with you? Your craziness and your personality is exactly what I need… you're what I need." He said. My tears blurred my vision.
"Emmett…" My voice was thick. I shook my head. "Em, I love you…" My voice cracked. "But I'm no good for anybody anymore… I'm a mess." I whispered.
"You're my mess… I can help you… please… I don't want to walk back to my house alone." He said.
"Emmett, please don't… I can't…" I started. He looked annoyed. He put his hands on both sides of my face. His lips came crushing down upon mine. His kiss had such passion and urgency. If I was human my heart would have been pounding. I wrapped my arms around his neck. I felt his hands slide down my back and to my waist. He pulled me closer to him. Our lips moved together… I never remember him kissing me like this. I finally pulled away gasping for air.
"Emmett…" I gasped. He just smiled as his chest was rising and falling just as madly as mine.
"You can't tell me that didn't mean anything…" He said. I was still trying to breathe normally.
"Emmett… I never said that I didn't love you…" I gasped. "It's… just that I'm no good for you…" I said. He was upset. He punched the giant rock next to me. Shards of the rock flew everywhere. I flinched.
"Damnit Lorelai! When will you realize you are what I want? You are what I need! When are you going to see that?" he shouted. I just sat there. I'd never seen him so mad or upset. It actually terrified me.
"Emmett!" Jasper shouted. He and Edward grabbed Emmett.
"What the hell's going on?" Jasper asked. I just stared still frozen with fear. Edward and Jasper had Emmett's arms behind is back. He was shouting and cursing.
"God! Just get me go!" He shouted. I just stared at them.
"He didn't hurt me." I whispered. Everyone stopped.
"What?" Jasper asked.
"But… you were terrified and all the shouting…" He muttered. They let Emmett go.
"Emmett wouldn't hurt me… He's… just upset… I guess." I whispered.
"Excuse me?" I asked and I ran. Nobody followed me. I put my thoughts in Emmett's head.
Em, I'm not mad at you… I just need to think.
I kept running. I was sitting in some wild meadow. The sun was set. It was dark now. I decided to head back towards the house. I stopped just on the edge of their land.
"…Emmett, what happened? You've got to tell us! She's been gone for almost four hours." Alice said. Alice, Jasper and Edward were outside with Emmett. He was sitting in the grass with his back to the house.
"Em…" Alice whispered. Emmett's head went into his hands.
"She was telling me she wasn't good for me… that I had a great thing going here and she didn't want to mess it up… and I told her that I needed her… that she was my life… She didn't believe me." His voice was raw.
"Emmett," Alice started. "She's completely nervous… maybe you guys should go somewhere and talk…" Jasper finished.
"Go to the Cabin…" Edward said.
"Lorelai's not even here guys…" Emmett mumbled.
"You sure?" Edward asked. I sighed. I stepped out of the woods and into the back yard.
"Where's this cabin?" I muttered. Emmett looked up. I tried to smile for him. He got up and made his way over to me.
"Your head cleared now?" he whispered.
"No." I smiled. We walked off back into the woods. We got there and he unlocked the door and we walked in.
"Cozy." I muttered.
"Want to sit?" He asked. I nodded we sat down. I just wanted him to hold me and tell me nothing bad would ever happen again. I didn't care at this point I just wanted to be with him. I've always wanted him to take me back and I finally have it and I'm almost pushing him away.
"Lorelai… I love you. I always have loved you… I'm not going anywhere so if you need a few weeks or a few years… you can have it… we've got all the time in the world… and I'll give it to you… I'll give you anything you want… you know that…" He whispered with big eyes. I looked at his chest.
"Em…" I whispered. He grabbed me and pulled me in for a hug. I buried my head into his chest.
"I love you Emmett. And I don't need to wait any longer… I'm here and I always will be." I promised. He kissed the top of my head.
"I can't tell you how long I've waited to hear those words Lor…" He whispered. I curled up against his chest.
"Nothing's changed has it?" He asked. I smiled up at him.
"Everything's changed… but yet nothing's changed." I said. He laughed.
"So…" he smiled. I looked up at him but he leaned down his lips were resting on top on mine.
"I love you." He said. I smiled. "I love you Emmett McCarty." I breathed as his lips came crushing down on mine.
Emmett and I had spent the night talking about what we've been doing with our lives since we parted. We were getting to know each other again. I was in an utter bliss. My Emmett right here in my reach. I wasn't going to take him for grant it. I loved him and I wanted to spend every moment together.
"Emmett…?" I asked. He was in the middle of a sentence.
"What is it?" He asked slightly worried.
"Promise me something…" I said I looked up into his beautiful face. And put my hand on the side of his face.
"Don't ever leave me again." I whispered. I started to cry.
"Oh babe I won't ever leave you again." He promised. He looked like he was in pain. He pulled me in for a hug. I breathed in his scent. Having Emmett hold me again made my memories look so weak. I just wanted him to never let go. All the pain and loneliness was gone. The hole in my chest was finally filled with love. I had a family.
Hit or miss?