I usually put a quote up that has to do with the story but I have this one and I just wanted to share it… um… I don't want to offend anyone, so if it upsets you I'm sorry now.
"First they put away the dealers, then they put away the prostitutes, they shooed away the bums, beat and bashed the queers. Turned away asylum seekers, fed us suspicions and fears. We didn't raise our voice, we didn't make a fuss. It's funny, there was no one left to notice, when they came for us." – Victor Jara.
A little information on Victor Jara – He was this musician who fought in justice with his songs, and when they broke his hands, and when they taunted him, He just sang even louder. They would be the Chile Government men. They didn't like his songs so they punished him. They ended up killing him after four days of torture.
Chapter Eight.
I woke up early to make Emmett his favorite breakfast. I was quietly sneaking around the house trying to be quiet so he wouldn't wake. I was pulling out all the stops this morning. Emmett deserved it. He'd been threw a lot and I couldn't help him really at all but I could do small things. I was making French toast bacon and sausages. I'd gotten a tray and put his food and milk on the tray. And quietly headed towards our room. I opened the door and he'd just woken up.
"I wake up and you're gone? I don't know how I feel about that…." He smiled. I set the tray down next to him.
"I woke up early and cooked." I smiled as I sat next to him on the bed.
"You cooked?" he asked.
"It's safe to eat! One time…" I muttered not forgetting that day.
"Relax… it'll be fine." He smiled. We ate and laughed. Everything was perfect.
"Lorelai…" Emmett called. I shook my head.
"Day dreaming?" he asked. Day dreaming was like our sleep… only I was reliving my past in memories.
"Um… yeah… sorry." I stammered. He smiled and grabbed my arm and we headed back to the house. We got there and there was shouting. I gulped.
"Em…" I whispered. We got in there and the Rosalie, Jasper, and Edward were fighting. Alice was standing behind Jasper.
"What's going on?" Emmett's voice boomed. Everyone turned to stare at us. I could feel the tension.
"Rose is being difficult." Jasper snarled. I wondered if I could just put random thoughts in their heads long enough for them to calm down. Edward glanced at me.
You're all fighting about me aren't you?
He looked down. I looked down myself. Jasper and Rose went back to their fighting.
Edward looked at me. I nodded. I concentrated.
I like ponies. I want to eat pudding. I like flowers… I continued this endless banter. Which gave Edward more than enough time to grab Rosalie and leave the room. I stopped.
"What was that for?" Jasper growled at me. I looked him dead in the eyes.
"Families work out their problems with out ripping each other's heads off." I said coldly. He stared at me.
"What family?" He laughed hardly. "We aren't a family. We never will be a family." He said. I didn't say anything I just stared at him.
"That's touching… You're all such caring people. I'm really glad that you've all found each other." I said harshly.
"You don't know anything." He laughed. "I've been through more than you can imagine." He spit the words at me. I stared at him.
"Well that's funny." I muttered. I wanted to show him the hell I'd been threw. I wanted to make him see that my life hasn't been good.
"Lorelai…" Alice and Emmett said together. I could feel the power pulse threw me.
"Lor… you're eyes are dilating." Emmett whispered. I just stared at Jasper.
"You want to know what I've been threw Jasper? You want to see it first hand?" I asked darkly.
"It'll be like watching a movie." He said. I made my thoughts his before he could say anything. I didn't hear the rest of the people in the room.
"You've got to let me in! I'm family!" I shouted over the noise of the ER.
"I'm sorry but nobody's allowed in." The nurse said. I stood there as they closed the door. I started shaking. I couldn't stop. My whole body, just shaking. I walked into the waiting room and sat there. It felt like hours but it could've only been minutes when they walked out.
"I'm sorry Miss… We did everything we could. He's gone." The doctor said. I started at him.
"What did you do to him?" I shouted. I was fourteen years old. And I was alone. My only family just died.
"What did you do or rather what didn't you do to save my father's life? You're not a doctor you're a killer! He's gone because you couldn't save him." I fell back into my seat as the realization of my words hit me.
"You took my only family! I hope you're happy!" I shouted as I pointed a shaky finger at him.
"Miss… I…" His eyes started to twinkle with tears.
"Save it. I don't care…" I cried and walked out. My mom was around but she did drugs. Ever since my dad got sick, she started. My sister was the biggest gang leader's girlfriend who was almost always in jail. My dad was the only sane one in the family beside me. I walked home and it was almost five in the morning.
"Lorelai! Is that you?" My mother barked.
"Yes mom… I was at the hospital with dad…" I said. I wiped away my tears so she couldn't yell at me.
"Well, where is she?" She asked. She was sober. "He died the doctors couldn't save him." I whispered. She didn't take that very well. She started shouting and throwing things around the house. Then she decided she ought to smack me around a little. I fell into broken glass and I cut my arm open.
"Lorelai… I'm sorry!" She gasped.
"I know mom… I'm going to go for a walk." I said quickly. I ran out of the house just before the tears fell on my cheeks. I ran to the old abandoned house on the bluffs. It was my hide away. I went there to get away from everyone. I went there to cry. I was sitting out in the yard and someone came up behind me.
"Excuse me… are you alright?" Asked a voice. I turned around. I started up at this boy who looked like an angel but he looked, scared and lonely. I wiped my tears away.
"I'm fine." I said as I cleared my throat. He sat down.
"You don't look fine." He said. I glanced at him.
"Are you new here?" I asked. I hadn't seen him around a lot before.
"Um… yes…" He said. "I'm a freshman." He said.
"I'll see you in class." I said and walked away. I got back to the house and the phone was ringing. I answered. No shocker there my sister was in jail. My mom was pasted out on the couch. This was my life. Emmett and I ended up hanging out. He kept me floating.
I had one other memory I wanted to show him before I released him.
I had a long day at school. I hurried home with my bag full of homework. My mom was sober.
"Hi mom." I said when I saw her.
"What's this?" She asked. She'd been holding up my notebook. I swallowed hard. I'd written things in that notebook… it was a story of sorts.
"Um… it's my notebook mom…" I said. She looked at me.
"This notebook? Why would you write such awful things?" She shouted. She screamed and cursed. She threw me down against the title. I hated it when she was sober, she was abusive. I didn't try to get away because that only made her more mad. I waited until she was done beating me. But this one didn't end.
"Mom stop!" I finally said.
"Mom stop?" She asked with a hard edge to her voice. She walked over to the counter where there was a knife laying on the counter.
"Well I'll stop you." She said she grabbed the knife and jabbed it into my chest. I screamed out in agony. I gasped. I fought to get away from her. I ran as fast as I could to the house on the bluffs. If I was going to die which I was, I was doing to do it at the bluffs the house I loved. I fell over in the grass when I heard my name.
"Lorelai!" Shouted a voice. They came over and I didn't move. They rolled me over and I was bleeding and I was a mess.
"Lorelai… I'm going to get your help." It was Emmett. I awoke in the hospital later. I ended up living at the house on the bluffs. I never saw my mom or my sister. I cut myself off from them because I couldn't stand to go near them.
I pulled out of Jasper's mind. He was no longer mad… he was sad. It was in his eyes. Edward and Rosalie where back. Everyone just stared. I fell over. Emmett caught me.
"Lorelai… what happened?" he asked. He set me down on the couch next to Jasper.
"I had no idea…" He whispered with big eyes. I looked at him.
"I don't want anyone to know." I whispered.
"Know what?" Alice asked. Edward just stared as Jasper I'm sure was reliving my painful memories.
"Wow…" Edward let out a low whistle.
"You showed him your childhood." It wasn't a question. I looked at Emmett's feet. He grabbed my hand.
"Lorelai's childhood was unpleasant. It was horrible." Emmett said. He started shaking.
"Emmett relax…" I said. Edward gasped.
"She stabbed you?" He asked with wide eyes.
"Who?" Rose and Alice said. Rose no longer looked upset.
"Well, when I was fourteen my father died of cancer. He was the only sane one in my family besides me. When my dad found out he was sick my mom started doing drugs. My sister started to hang out with gangs. I paid the bills did the shopping and when to school. My mom was sober the night I came home and told her that dad had died. She didn't like that very much so she started hitting me. It only happened when she was sober which wasn't too often so I just waited until she was done and then I'd run to the house on the bluffs. My hide away. It's where I met Emmett. Things were fine. My sister wasn't in too much trouble and my mom was behaving. But I come home from school one day and she's sober and found my notebook. It just had stuff jotted down in it. But she didn't like what was in there. So she was beating me and shouting and cursing. It was bad. I finally told her to stop. And she said…" I shivered. Even though I was in their living room I was years back. "Well, I'll stop you. And she stabbed me with a kitchen knife." I down my shirt a little and you could see the scar. "After that I ran away. I knew I was going to die… or that's what I thought… so I wanted to die at the bluffs it had been my dream… and Emmett found me and saved my life." I whispered staring off at the floor.
No one spoke they just sat there taking in what I had said.
"I don't remember my human life." Alice said. I looked at her.
"My husband to be rapped me and left me in the street to die." Rosalie said.
"I don't remember much of my human days." Edward admitted.
"My friends died next to me in war." Jasper said.
"I never new my birth parents." Emmett said. We just sat around.
"Let's do something fun… and not depressing." I said. Emmett laughed.
"Let's swim…" Jasper said. I glanced at him. "I don't have a suit… oh darn… I'll just sit this one out." I said not really wanting to admit why else I didn't want to swim.
"Lorelai we've got suits you can borrow." Rose said. I smiled. "Alright." I said. I couldn't tell them why I didn't want to swim because even Emmett didn't know. We ran upstairs to change. Someone turned on the radio. I was the last one down stairs.
"Um… guys this thing is tiny…" I said. I walked down the stairs and Emmett just stared. I looked down. I would've been blushing if I could. We made it to the back door when I new this song.
"Oh man! Emmett you still have this song?" I smiled. I laughed.
"Lorelai come dance!" Rose and Alice pulled me off into the grass we danced. This was this Spanish song Emmett insisted we play at the wedding.
"Em, come dance!" I laughed. He joined in.
"I can't believe you remember this!" He laughed. Edward and Jasper joined in.
"What's this song from?" Alice asked.
"Our wedding." I laughed. Carlisle and Esme walked out in suits as well.
"What are you doing?" Carlisle laughed while Esme ran over and danced with us.
"Carlisle, join us!" She laughed he ran over and we were all dancing. We must have looked hysterical. It was the best. The song finally ended and we were all just laughing. Emmett put his hands around my waist and rested his chin on my. Esme laughed.
"Where'd you get this CD from?" She asked.
"Um… I just found it." Alice smiled.
"You like this song?" Carlisle joked. I was confused.
"This is the song Carlisle and Esme played at their wedding." Emmett smiled. Jasper and Alice were holding hands. Even Rose and Edward had their arms linked.
"Let's swim!" Emmett boomed. We walked over there. Alice and Jasper jumped in. Emmett followed. Soon I was the last one in.
"You coming in?" Emmett cocked an eyebrow. I nodded. I jumped in. I hurried to reach the surface.
"You do swim right?" Emmett asked.
"Sometimes." I qualified.
"What's going on?" He asked. We weren't near his family but they could still hear.
"It'll upset you." I whispered. He shook his head.
"Well, my mom… before you came along. Had gotten upset with me and filled the tub with water and tried to drown me… I don't really like swimming." I whispered as I looked at his perfectly sculpted chest. His family stopped talking.
"Do you not want to swim?" He asked. I could hear the pain in his voice.
"No… no… swimming's fine… I just don't want my head to go under." I whispered really quietly. His family started talking again. We got back over there and we hung out. Esme came over by me and hugged me.
"I'm glad you're apart of our family." She whispered. I smiled. "Thanks." It made me realize. Lorelai I'd have to go back. We finished swimming and went inside. We got cleaned up and Emmett leant me some sweats.
"Em, I've got to go back to New York." I said. Jasper and Alice were playing video games and Edward and Rose watched as did Emmett and I.
"Why?" he asked.
"Um… well I should get back and see Lorelai…" I said. He looked sad. "What's with the face?" I asked. I laughed, "You didn't think I'd make you stay here did you?" I asked.
"Yes…" He mumbled. I shook my head. "She's been waiting to see you… I figured you just come with me…" I muttered. He smiled.
Hit or miss?
I realized once I finished the story that the quote works in to the story. Again I'm sorry if the quote offended you. I didn't say it but I'm repeating only because it's got meaning. I just wanted to say that Davis Parker has been a great help in writing this. Without her it most likely wouldn't be out.
Songs I recommend:
Drift Away – Uncle Kracker
El Tiburon - Proyecto Uno (That's the Spanish song in the story as well)