"When we turn out the lights, it's all the same darkness." – Unknown
Chapter Ten
We'd been back to the Cullen's for a few months. School had started and we all attended. It was weird to be back at school. I mean I was almost a hundred and twenty, and going to school seemed silly.
While we were gone Edward had found somebody. Rosalie decided she wanted to try out modeling so she left to go to L.A. She was having a great time. She came home some nights. I really liked being apart of this family.
"Edward, when do we get to meet you're new friend?" Alice teased.
"Yeah Eddie, we want to meet her." I smiled. We were sitting around the living room. It was a nice day so we couldn't go to school. Emmett held me in his arms as we sat around the TV.
"Um… I don't know." Edward said.
"Oh come on!" Alice said exasperated. "I already know you two are going to be friends… just get over it already!" Jasper put his hand on Alice's shoulder, as if the restrain her. She looked so small; I could never picture her actually hurting someone. Edward started laughing.
"What's so funny?" Alice asked.
"Lorelai's thoughts." He laughed. I sighed.
"Thanks man." I muttered. They all looked at me.
"What were you thinking?" Jasper asked.
"I was thinking that I couldn't picture Alice hurting anyone. So I thought it was strange you put your hand on her shoulder to keep her in check." I said. Everyone laughed. I sighed.
"I'm glad I amuse you all." I muttered. We hung out the rest of the day. Jasper and Emmett played video games. Edward and I read. And Alice was on her computer. I looked up.
"Emmett can you teach me to play?" I asked. He looked at me and smiled. "Can I finish this game quickly?" He asked. I laughed it was… typical Emmett.
"Sure Em." I laughed. Alice looked up. "Jazz I want to play too." She smiled. The boys finished their game and showed Alice and I how to play. We hung out until it Carlisle came home.
"How was work?" Alice asked. He was quiet. I looked up at him.
"Um, not good. A local girl was in…" He muttered. Carlisle always cared for everyone.
"Who?" Edward asked. He seemed to almost already know.
"Bella was in." Carlisle said. We all stopped at stared.
"For what?" Edward asked.
"Well it was just to check out her arm but she fell so we took a cat scan." Carlisle said.
"Carlisle what did you find?" Edward asked.
"Um, a tumor." He said softly. I just stared at them.
"How bad?" Edward asked his eyes were closed.
"She's got until summer. Maybe." He said after a minute. Edward looked down.
"I was just getting to know her." Edward whispered. "Doesn't she want treatment?" He asked after a minute.
"She said she stopped responding so she was going to live her life best she could." Carlisle said.
"Does Charlie know?" Alice asked suddenly.
"Um… I don't know… maybe." Carlisle said.
"Did you ever think to change her?" I asked. Everyone stared at me.
"Why?" Edward sounded repulsed at the idea.
"Because, if you like her, and she likes you, then why don't you change her over so you can be together forever?" I asked. This only made Edward more upset.
"I'd never want to commend someone to our fate." He said. "I can't make Bella a monster." He said. I stared at him.
"So, you'll watch her die and you'll live out the rest of your days? You're going to run?" I asked. I couldn't believe that he wasn't going to stop this.
"That's an awful fate… to have cancer… and she's going threw this alone? And you won't even be there to see her go because you'll be hiding out? That's childish and stupid. If you love her go be with her." I said. I stood up. I couldn't believe none of them wanted to help this girl.
"Lorelai… we don't want to change someone unless they're dying." Carlisle said.
"She is dying. And none of you care. This little girl is dying. She does only a baby… you're going to let her die when she clearly wants to be with Edward, and you won't even give her the choice? That to me is selfish and cruel." I said. I walked to the porch. I sat down staring off into the star lit sky. I slammed the door with so much force it broke and flew into the house.
Bella knew we were vampires and yet Edward was willing to let her die so he could be in pain just to save her from our fate? We didn't have it that badly. Sure the days get long and living forever isn't always fun… but it's better than dying and never seeing the end of your house…
Someone sat down next to me.
"Edward's dead set against changing Bella." It was Jasper. "And Carlisle hates to do it unless your about to die. We all want Bella to live… but Edward thinks of us as monsters who kill… he'd never wish this on anyone, so he'd risk his own happiness to let her live the life she's suppose to have." Jasper said. I locked my eyes with the stars.
"He's a fool. He shouldn't choose her fate for her. I remember those years I thought Emmett was dead. I wouldn't have made it if I didn't have Lorelai with me. He'll need someone and I'm not sure who's going to be able to help him. He should give her the choice…" I whispered. I don't know how long we sat there.
"Carlisle?" I called. I got up and headed inside.
"Yes Lorelai…?" Carlisle was in the dining room working on something.
"Um… can I talk to you?" I asked quietly. He set down his papers and looked at me.
"What's on your mind?" He asked.
"Well… back in New York I was working in the cancer wing… Maybe I could take a look at Bella see if there's something we can do…" I said.
"Of course… but we couldn't let any of the staff see you because they think you're in high school." He said.
I went to work with Carlisle and we took x-rays of Bella. I was going to save her.
"Carlisle. We can fix this… I've done this surgery a million times. It's a simple out-patient operation. Just get me an O.R. where nobody can see me doing it and she'll be fine. I swear." I said.
He wasn't totally sure. I explained the procurer.
"If Bella's alright with it I'll plan a late surgery. I'm covering tonight so it'll be fine." He said. We headed off to see Bella.
"Hey Bella." I said.
"Lorelai… what are you doing here?" She asked. I closed the door.
"Well… I've been working in a hospital for years in the cancer wing. I don't know who your doctor was… but there's a simple out-patient operation…" I explained what I was going to do. "I've done this many a time. If you'll allow me Carlisle will book an O.R. for tonight and I'll operate. If you do not wish to have this surgery… I won't. It's your call." I told her. She thought for a long minute.
"Yes… I want to live… I don't want to die…" She whispered. I nodded.
"I'll tell Carlisle." I smiled. I hurried from the room. I told Carlisle to book the O.R. and that I'd come back later tonight and prep Bella for surgery. I was going home to break the news to everyone that Bella could be saved. School was out when I pulled up the long drive way.
"Where's Edward?" I said when I got into the house.
"Is Bella okay?" He asked as he raced down the stairs. Everyone waited.
"I'm going to do a simple out-patient operation on her tonight. You should come and see her before I take her in… She'd like that." I said. Edward hugged me.
"Thank you for saving her." He said. He made it sound like I was god. I wasn't.
"I know." He answered my thoughts.
I nodded. I walked over by Emmett. We all sat around and waited until Esme got back. She went down to visit Rosalie. She came back and we were about to leave. She came with us and we all visited her.
"Bella!" We all smiled and gushed over her. We sat there for hours talking to her until it was time I get her ready.
"Out… I've got to get her ready." I said. Everyone left. I got Bella ready for her surgery.
"You'll be fine… I promise nothing will happen to you." I whispered. I wheeled her out. Everyone was waiting. They all walked with us until Carlisle told them to go wait in the room above the O.R. We got scrubbed in. I smiled. Carlisle was about to put her to sleep when I smiled.
"Tonight's a great night to save lives." I said. Bella smiled and she was out. I'd cut into her brain and saw that the tumor had grown larger than we'd thought.
"Carlisle…" I said. I was well aware that everyone could hear me upstairs.
"What is it Lorelai?"
"It's the tumor… it's on her memories now."
"You can do it…" he said.
"It's never been this bad before…" I said.
"Lorelai, if you can't do this then we'll stop." He said.
"No, a promise is a promise no matter what size." I said.
"Alright." He said. I carefully removed the tumor from her brain.
"Done." I said. Carlisle smiled.
"Where am I?" I froze.
"Carlisle she can't be awake yet." The panic crept into my voice.
"Bella relax…" I said Carlisle put her back under.
"Watch her monitor now…" I ordered. My voice shook. I carefully closed up her head.
"She's good." He said. We wheeled her back to her room. Edward started asking me questions.
"What happened is she alright?" he asked.
"She woke up during surgery but she's fine… the tumors gone. She's resting but you guys can go in and wait for her. She'll be out for awhile. But you should know… rehabs going to be horrible. It's going to be hard. She'll be tired a lot but she should only be like that for two weeks but no longer than a month since we caught the tumor be for it spread over too much of her brain. But…" I said. I glanced back at Bella threw the little peep-hole in the door.
"You might have to be patient with her… Memory wise. The tumor was on a good part of her memory… so she might have forgotten things." I said.
"But she's healthy?" Edward asked.
"She's tumor free." I whispered.
Hope you liked this chapter.
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