5:30 PM
August 17, 2016
Maya's POV
I had a fabulous time catching up with my friends. Riley and Lucas haven't changed since the last time that I saw them, which was not so long ago. Even Farkle ended up coming to the bay window and joining our talk. Farkle went to Italy this summer, which I consider him lucky to spend the summer there. I looked out my window, the sun was setting, casting a bright glow in the memorabilia shelf in the corner.
There was a big clump of feelings in my heart. For the first time in my life, I didn't know what to do. I used to do whatever my conscience tells me to do. Or even sometimes, I act without thinking. Now I just feel like my conscience has left me, alone in the dark. The feelings are scattered around, and I know how Riley feels now. She used to not know how to feel at all, and that's how I felt now.
Do I like Lucas? Maybe I do. But do I have the heart to tell him that? And will he like me back, or will this change everything that we had? The questions popped out of me so fast, as if somebody is throwing rocks at me. I realized something. Mr. Matthews and Lucas said that big changes will happen, and nobody is able to predict it. Are these the changes?
I decided to go to Topanga's to get ice cream and just relax. I took a walk there, the place was about five minutes from my house, so I took my time. As the sky got dark, the street light brightened. One shone on my face, I took the nearest bench and closed my eyes. Relax. I said to myself. I then felt my body slowly beginning to relax. I got up from the bench and continued my walk.
When I got there, Topanga was standing behind the counter. My mom wasn't there behind the counter, where she usually was, so I figured that she was helping out in the kitchen. "Hey Maya. What do you want?" Topanga said nicely.
"Can I get three scoops of ice cream on a cone? Strawberry, chocolate, and vanilla. In that order please," I said. Then I took out my wallet and prepared to pay.
"It's okay. This one is on me. Just think of it as a first day of high school surprise," Topanga said, handing me the ice cream.
"Thanks. Can I ask you a question? Several questions actually," I said, taking a seat at our usual spot.
"Anything you want," Topanga said, taking the seat next to me.
"Have you ever felt like you just can't feel. Like your feelings are all scattered around the place?" I asked.
"Yeah, all the time. Especially when I was your age. You are going through something that almost everyone goes through at a certain age," Topanga said.
"Did it get better?" I asked.
"Absolutely. You just need time to figure out your feelings," Topanga said.
"Thanks. You are a great mother figure to have," I said. I then took the last bite of my ice cream, and headed home. You just need time to figure out your feelings. I just going to take her advice and not over think anything. Tomorrow is only my second day of high school, but I and thrilled.