Hey it's me. I'm sorry about the last chapter I was in a hurry. I promise this one will be better. I already have a sneak peek in mind at the end of this story so stay tuned.

Chapter 2: the letter

It had been a couple hours since Raven's visit. Beast boy stared at a mirror looking at his well torn up body. All of the scars brought him back to the days that he was in the circus. He was thankful that he told someone about his life. It felt like something inside of him just clicked on. He truly felt good.

He decided to head out to the common room. Maybe something good is on TV. He quickly put his shirt back on and headed out.

Raven had been meditating for about a hour now. She just couldn't believe the story that Beast boy had told her. She imagined how he looked when he got the scars. She cringed in discuss at the thought of his torso all bloody and nasty. But at the same time she was happy. She was happy that he shared a part of his life he really didn't feel comfortable with.

She was done with meditation and decided to get herself a cup of tea. When she got to the common room, only Beast boy was there. He was flipping through the TV channels. He also looked bored. As soon as she walked in his ears twitched a bit.

"Hey Raven." he said not looking up at her.

"Hey." she said as she continued to make her tea. She tried not to think about the story, but every time she looked over at him, she would remember those scars. It was becoming quite weird.

Then-

"Mail call!" Raven was glad Cyborg interrupted them. She was starting to get nervous yet she didn't quite know why. Cyborg held a small box in one hand and a letter in the other. He usually always got something. He would order items of the internet without permition or telling any body that he bought it. Robin and Starfire shortly entered when they heard the mail was here.

"Yes my new Max 8 is finally here." he said.

"Did you not learn anything from when you bought the Max 7?" Robin said. Cyborg just shook his head. When he opened the box his smile turned into a frown and his excited look turned into one of confusion.

As he pulls out the styrofoam cylinder and opens it he is even more confused. There was a vile with a greenish liquid in it. "What is this? This isn't what I ordered." Cyborg said.

"Why don't you read the letter and find out." Robin said in 'smart-ass' tone. Cyborg mumbled something under his breath as he opened the envelope. As he read his eyes widened and his face drained of color.

"Uh...Beast boy," he said, "I think it's for you." Beast boy walked up to Cyborg and took the letter from him.

"Dear, Garfield Mark Logan..." he paused. 'How dose he know my name?' he wondered. He just shook it off and continued to read aloud."You don't know me, but I know you. Let me first tell you how sorry I am for what happened to your parents. Yes I know. They were good people. I also want to say that I'm sorry for what happened in your life after that. Yes I know about all of the scars and terrible things that those people did to you. I thought you were dead. I thought you died in that circus, but when I found out that you were Beast boy of the Teen Titans I just had to wright. I guess your wondering what is in the vile. Well I know how much you hate your powers, so I made you a little something. The vile containes a hard drug that will knock out any non-human DNA. A sort of gene cleanser if you will. It will even take care of that disease you have. With this you can be normal again. You can get the life you've always wanted. I just hope that this helps.

Sincerely,

Mr. S

P.S. If you take the drug, it will take twelve hours for it to take full effect."

Beast boy just stood there reading the letter over and over again to make sure he got it right. After a couple minuets of silence he finally says something.

"I...I can be...normal again?" he studdered. With out hesitation he grabs the vile and pulls the cork off.

"Whoa wait, lets think about this for a minute." Cyborg said. "Let me scan it. It could be poison."

"I've had six-teen years to think about it. Of course I'm going to take it. I've finally got the chance to be normal again. If you had that chance, wouldn't you take it?" Beast boy said. Cyborg opened his mouth to protest but then shut it.

"Yep. That's what I thought yo..."

"No I wouldn't." Beast boy stood there dumbfounded.

"That's right you heard me. I said I wouldn't take it. Because I'm happy with my life. I'm happy with the way things are going in my life. I'm happy being here with friends. I'm happy with my job. Being able to kick some bad guy but. If I took that chance to be normal again, I wouldn't have any of that." Cyborg said.

Beast boy nodded and said, "That's true, but let me ask you this." Cyborg waited anxiously for his question.

"When were you turned into a cyborg?" It was an unusual question, but Cyborg answered anyway.

"My sofmore year in high school." he said.

"That's right. You were still in high school. Guess what, I wasn't even allowed to go to kindergarten. Every thing I learned I had to learn it myself. I remember you saying that you were in a car crash with you parents and older sister correct." Cyborg nodded. "My parents died when I was four, and I was turned green at three. My parents saw what happened to me. My dad said he would find a cure but died one year later. At least I finally have the chance to get the education I've always wanted."

Beast boy was about to drink the liquid when Starfire stopped him.

"Friend why do you want to leave us? We must all stay together. Besides if you go, who will help us kick the bad guys but? Who will argue with Cyborg about tofu and meat? Who will make the jokes to Raven and then be hit by her? Who will help me understand earthly customs?" As she said this tears were forming in her eyes.

"I don't want to leave you guys. I just want to be normal again. You don't know what it is like Starfire. You were born this way, I wasn't. Did you know I had tan skin, blonde hair, blue eyes, and no pointed ears?" Starfire just shook her head.

"That was what I was born with. I want that back so badly Star, and this is how to get it." Starfire was now sobbing. She always hated when good friends had to split up. As she sobbed Beast boy eyed Robin waiting for his argument.

"I'm not going to argue with you. I understand your predicament, but I just hope you make the right decision in the end." Robin said. Beast boy did not expect that. He expected him to give him a lecture on 'it's a bad decision' or something of that nature. Beast boy nodded his head in understandment. Then turned his attention on the last Titan. Raven. He knew she would be happy. No more Beast boy, she would say. But when he saw her, he could have swarn he say tears in her eyes.

"Beast boy you can't leave me." she said. Every one stared at her like the end of the world was happening all over again. Beast boy was speechless. Raven, the one who hated his guts, was telling him to stay. He just couldn't believe it.

"Beast boy," Raven said, "you can't leave me. I don't want to be alone again. Please Beast boy. Stay with us. I don't want to lose my best friend." she said with tears threatening to escape.

"Raven, I-I never knew you thought of me as your best friend." he said.

"How could you not?" she said. "I couldn't ask for a better friend. I just wish I could have been a better friend to you, like you are to me."

"Raven, you are the perfect just the way you are. Trust me." he said.

"This is crazy. Please don't do this." she said tears running down her cheek.

Beast boy took in a deep sigh and finally said, "I have to. You know what I went through as a child. This will finally make up for it." With that he gussled down the green liquid. After he finished, he through the vile on the ground smashing it to bits. Raven finally lost it and started to sob. She ran out of the room her head in her hands. Beast boy eyed the door and let out a long sad sigh. Robin placed a hand on his shoulder and smiled at him.

"I didn't think she would take it so hard." Robin said. Beast boy nodded in response.

"Starfire, do you think you can talk to her? Try to calm her down a bit?" Robin asked.

"Of course. I shall give her the 'girl talk' as you earthlings call it." With that she made her way to Ravens room. Robin then directed his attention back to Beast boy.

"Listen, with you losing you powers and all, I can't let you live in the tower anymore. I'm sorry, but your going to have to move out. I can give you a week to get things packed and to find a new place, but that's all the time I can give you." Robin said. Beast boy nodded his head in understandment. He still worried about Raven. Her reaction to him leaving was not what he expected. He hated to see her cry. Eyes as beautiful as them didn't deserve tears in them.

Back at Ravens room...

Raven opened her door and ran inside. As the door slammed behind her, she fell onto her bed crying her eyes out. She cryed and cryed until she could cry no more. It just hurt so much. 'Why am I crying anyway?' she wondered.

'Because he was always there for you.' a little voice said.

"Who's there?" Raven said.

'Why it's me, Knowledge.' she said.

"Oh. Well, what do you want." Raven said whipping away her tears.

"Oh Raven, I know it hurts." Knowledge said.

"Yeah, but why dose it hurt so much? I keep getting this funny feeling when I'm around him, and when I heard he was leaving, my heart felt like it was braking. I haven't felt this hurt since that d-dragon." she said. Even mentioning his name would send Raven into depression. She hated him. He took her heart and smashed it with a hammer. He used her, and Raven had an even harder time trusting anyone after that.

"Well Raven, that's an easy question. Your in love." Raven gasped at her emotion's answer. 'That can't be possible,' she thought, 'or could it?' It all made seance now. Why she got those feelings when ever she's around him. Why it hurts so much to have him leave.

"Your right. I'm in love with him." she admitted.

"Wow. I thought we were going to have to fight whether you love him or not. Normally your not so easy to convince about something like this. You really stepped up to the plate Raven. I'm very proud of you." Knowledge said. Raven was about to say something when a knock came to her door. Finishing her conversation with her emotions she very calmly said, "Who is it?"

"It is Starfire. May I come in?" Raven got off of her bed and opened the door relieving Starfire. She motioned her to come in. As Starfire walked in she could tell that Raven was crying for a long time. Her pillow was soaking wet, and her face and eyes were red. Once inside Starfire got right to the point to why she was here.

"Raven, I want to talk to you about Beast boy." she said. Raven felt her heart flutter as his name was said.

"What about him?" Raven said trying to keep her composer.

"You were really upset about him leaving I thought we could have the girl talk." she said. Raven thought about it for a minuet, and actually said yes. Raven told Starfire all about how she felt. She even told her about his life before he became a Titan. Starfire took in every word Raven told her.

"...and that's when I realized how much I need him, and how much I love him." Starfire felt like jumping up in joy. She knew they liked each other, but she never thought either of them would admit it. In one quick move Starfire engulfed Raven in a bear hug.

"Oh friend I am so happy for you. You found love for friend Beast boy. I am so happy for you." she said. She released Raven from her embrace.

"No, it's not a good thing Starfire." Raven said.

"Why is it not a good thing Raven?" she asked.

"Because he's leaving. We could never be together anyway. I was not meant to love or be loved in return. I can't give him the proper love he deserves. Besides, how could any one love someone like me? Lets face it Star, it's hopeless." Raven said. Starfire just shook her head.

"No I do not believe you. Every one is meant to be loved. It doesn't matter if you can or can not give him the proper love. Just as long as you both are happy is all that matters. It is not hopeless. It is never hopeless. How could someone not love someone like you? Plus, you'll never know if he dose love you until you try." Raven gave a small smile at Starfire. Her love for everything under the sun was just unbelievable. Raven knew she was right. 'Maybe I should go talk with him.' she thought. After that she asked Starfire for any and all advice she had for talking to boys, and to wish her luck. God knows she will need all the luck he can get.

It had been six hours since he took the drug. He had already started to pack his things. After a while he took a break and just lied on his bed. "Only six more hours to go." he said picking up a picture frame. As he looked at it, he couldn't help the smile that was spreading on his face. It was a scroll of pictures taken in a photo booth. The pictures were of him a Raven. Some how he had convinced Raven to go in with him. One of them was just them smiling and some were of him making funny faces, but Raven had just smiled the whole time in there. He remembered that day like it was yesterday. The teem thought it would be nice to go to the carnival. He had to beg Raven to go in the photo booth with him. They went through a whole roll of quarters. There was a huge line outside when they were done. Beast boy chuckled a little at the memory. Then he thought of Raven. How he would miss her the most. Those beautiful eyes, and perfect body. Her sarcastic yet funny remarks. Her soft and beautiful hair. He would just miss all of her.

"Maybe I should tell her how I feel?" he said to himself.

"Nah. She couldn't possibly feel the same way about me. I'm just an little green freak. Oh well. The least I could to is say goodbye to her." he said. He decided to do it tomorrow. After all he would be heading of to high school then. Just then a knock came to his door. He knew every one of the titans signature knocks. Cyborg's were loud and heavy, Starfire's were soft and light, Robin's were a mixed between Starfire's and Cyborg's, and Ravens were like Starfire's but just a little bit softer. If that was even possible. The knock came again and he knew it was Raven. He hopped down from the top bunk from which he was laying on and came up to the door. The door opened and just as he expected Raven was standing just outside his room.

"Hey there Raven. How may I help you?" he asked giving her his signature grins. Though his grin didn't last long because he could have sworn he saw her...blush.

"Hey Beast boy." she said nervously. She tried her best not to get nervous, but that was not going so well. Beast boy raised his eyebrows at her as she just stared at him with dreamy eyes. He then all of sudden became nervous too. A couple moments past and things were starting to feel awkward.

"Um...okay. Nice talking to you." he said as he began to close the door when Raven stopped him screaming "Wait!" Beast boy jumped a little by the sudden outburst but opened the door again.

"Um B-Beast boy, there's s-something I have t-to t-ell you before you leave." she studdered. Beast boy could tell she was nervous. He could see the sweat dripping from her face.

"I...um...I..." she gulped loud enough for Beast boy to hear.

"I just wanted to...um...to tell you that..." but she was interrupted by a loud siren and red lights flashing. They both heard Robin's voice over the intercom saying, "All Titans report to the common room. This is not a drill. I repeat, this is not a drill." Raven mentally cursed him off for interrupting her moment. She was so close to telling Beast boy how she felt when bird boy just had to ruin it for her.

'I'll tell him later.' she said to herself.

Yes I finally finished. I am so sorry it took me so long to get it updated. Things happened and I won't go into detail, but thank you for reading. The next chapter will be up soon I promise. R&R please. And NO FLAMES. Oh and one more thing, sorry about my spelling my spell check won't work. My entire opporating system has been shut down. I can't even bring up Microsoft word. I had to type this on the Fanfic page. Please don't harras me on my spelling I know it's bad. Sorry.