amy pov
weeks after prom i finally got the courage to ask him...
so i try messaging him
" bump... meet me at our secret garden the one where you,me, beca and jesse hangout" - amy
" okay be there in a few " - bump
i go get dressed
put on make up
fixed my hair
so i decided to make a set up
a beautiful dinner
under the stars
everything perfect
mexican food, pastries and all foods he loves
and i hear foot steps
" ooh, whats all this ? " - bump
" its dinner "
" wow so fancy"
"you deserve the best, you helped my through alot let me help you"
then we both sit
" so hows life ?" - bump
" its fine..."
- after eating -
he starts to get up
"thanks fo— "
" ummm, bump can you stay for a while?"
" sure "
then he sits
" so what was it that you wanted to talk about?"
" okay"
i can do this i can do this just breathe
" ummm, bumper ive been holding this for a while and i swear if i didnt tell you sooner I probably already died from regreting not to tell you"
" so what are you trying to say ?"
" im trying to say is that"
" what..."
" i like you"
" as friend ?"
" no, more than friends"
"but..."
"i even have a promise ring, im wearing mine right now... and i have one for you"
"..."
" i promise to you that i will always love you, even if there are times you dont notice that i do , i do , i love you from the second i laid my eyes on you"
" amy ... "
"just please say yes"
"amy... i cant i love Aubrey... im so sorry"
" YOURE SORRY ? "
" yeah"
and then i start tearing up
" NO, THIS CANT BE HAPPENING"
"amy, Aubrey is my girlfriend i cant just cheat on her with my bestfriend"
"YOUR NOT CHEATING ON HER YOUR LETTING HER GO"
" I cant ."
"why?"
"cause i love her"
" YOU LOVE HER.?
YOU DO KNOW WHAT SHE DID TO ME ? RIGHT? "
"yes, now why are you crying?"
then i cry even harder
" BECAUSE I LOVE YOU. OKAY IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR?! AND. NOW I DONT KNOW WHAT TO F*CKING DO ANYMORE I LOST MY F*CKING MIND! YOU KNOW WHAT I CANT TAKE THIS. IM LEAVING. TELL AUBREY SHE WINS I GIVE UP. YOU LOVE HER. THATS IT. IM DYING A VIRGIN"
then i took my ring off slammed it on the table and left it on top of his ring box
" Just saying... if you didn't understand what i said earlier. i really really really loved you and you broke me"
" where are you going? "
" anywhere but here "
i drive away
anywhere it would take me no routes and especially not home
bumper
bumper
bumper
i love u
this was a mistake
a mistake that I should've kept to myself
he doesn't love me
he loves Aubrey
Aubrey
only Aubrey
can i kill myself now
that bi*ch won
i hope she's very happy
like nothing ever happened
there still a couple
and there will never be a me
and there will never be my feelings
my feelings that are fragile
and annoying af
then
i get lost its 12:30 am
and i my eyes are getting hella blurry from all the crying
its like im slowly giving up
my heart started aching
im having trouble breathing
then all of a sudden a car crashes into mine
and everything went black
good bye
good bye bumper
a/n: dont worry there's more