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So ya'll are waiting to find out why Lucas hates Brooke so much and I'm happy to tell you that it will be revealed in this story... I bet ya'll are happy to know that and scroll down just so you can read what happened. I know I do that sometimes when I read a story lol
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"So whose party is it we're going to on Friday?" I ask Rachel as we stop at my locker. I put in my code and hear it click open "I saw it was a three day party"
"Alex's boyfriend Julian is hosting it at his cabin about an hour from here" Rachel tell me as I swap over my books "he sent me three invites for my friends, but apparently his younger brother Chris goes to our school and his invited half the school"
"So there's a chance Lucas could be going?"
"I'm not sure if Chris invited him, but yeah there's a chance" Rachel nods receiving a sigh from me.
Is it so much to ask for one weekend without seeing that jerk face. Apparently it is.
"You're still coming though... right?" I shut my locker and give her a smile.
"Of course I am Rach... when I ever let that douche dictate my partying" We head down the hall on our way across the school for our first class.
"So I heard Felix hooked up with Maci at that frat party the other night" I shrug and hold my books close to my chest.
Is it weird that I don't care about that?
Probably.
"He hooks up with everything that has a pulse Rach" I tell her which was the truth. Felix has probably slept with half the girls in this school let alone the whole female population of this town. Like I told Felix at that party his only a bed warmer to me and I didn't even need him that night since I never went home.
"Maybe you and he should break up" Rachel suggest and I know she was doing that for my benefit, but I really didn't care what anyone thought of the relationship I have with Felix. It might be unhealthy, but at least it worked and at least he came back to me every time. I didn't feel needed or wanted, but I didn't want to. Not by Felix anyway. All the other guys I sleep with make me feel wanted and needed for at least one night.
Yes I sound crazy and yes I sounded messed up. That's because I am. Thank you Lucas Scott for messing me up inside. I curse myself every day for knocking on his door when I was 5 and asking him to come out and play with me.
"You sound like Jake" I state stopping at my first class "But no I'm not breaking up with Felix, not yet anyway" I don't wait for her response. I just turn around and walk into the class.
•••
I had to call a cheer practice because there was a game coming up next weekend and I wanted to be on point. Cheer practice was over and I was walking to my car. I press the blue button on my keys for the doors to my car to unlock.
"Hey girlfriend" I roll my eyes to myself before slapping a fake smile on my face and turning to face Felix.
For some reason after Rachel pointed out just like Jake that Felix is basically an asshole to me I've become wary and was thinking to end things with him before they got worse than what they are now.
"Hi Felix" he smiled at me then leaned in and kissed me softly on the lips.
"So I was thinking we could hang out today" he suggested "we haven't spent much time together and after that party I just thought maybe we should hang out more and..."
"We should break up" I suddenly blurt out. The funny thing is I wasn't even planning to. I was just thinking it for a moment or two, but once I said it I realised it was true. I did indeed think I should break up with this tool.
He might be good looking and he might be great in bed, but he wasn't doing it for me anymore and I wanted to... I needed to end it now.
"Wait... What!" The smile he had on his face turned to a frown "are you dumping me?"
I look around the parking lot to see it rather empty other than the players cars scattered around. I then look pass Felix and see Lucas talking with some newbie I haven't seen him with before. She lean leaning against his car and he was hovering over her in a flirty manner. I force my gaze from him and look back at Felix.
"Yeah Felix I'm dumping you" I tell him opening my car door.
Felix turns around and sees what I just saw. He scoffed and shook his head with a scowl on his face "he doesn't want you anymore Brooke; he doesn't even like you"
"I'm not breaking up with you because of that jerk Felix. I'm breaking up with you because what we're doing to each other isn't healthy and you know as well as I do that there's nothing real between us. I'm jut freeing us both from the knot we are in" I state the truth and that's when I see the anger shift from his body and dance into the air. I mean in and miss him lightly on the cheek "thank you for warming my bed at night Felix, I really do appreciate that"
"Just be happy Brooke. Lucas might not want you, but someone will some day. I believe that" I nod giving him a small smile and then he walks away and over to his car.
I let out a sigh of relief that it went better than I thought it would. I close my eyes for a moment and when I open them again I notice Lucas looking over at me. It was like he actually wanted to come over and speak to me, but he doesn't. He just gives me his famous smirk that I've grown to hate and leans down kissing the girl in front of him.
A small hit of jealousy rushed through my body along with hurt and pain, but I shrug it off and shake my head at his attempt to hurt me. I then get into my car and drive home.
That seemed to be my safe haven.
•••
"Brooke darling is that you" I stopped as I walked into my house and slowly lowered my keys into the bowl by the door as My Mother came into view.
"Mom" my eyes light up at the sight of the women I idolise so much "I didn't know you were coming in from Paris today" I rush over to her embracing her into a hug.
"I did email you sweetheart to let you know" Mom tells me as we pull away.
"Yeah, but you said you'll be here Sunday. It's Thursday" I smile at her and hug her again "I've missed you so much"
"I've missed you just as much Cookie" she used the nickname I was given when I was younger. I had the craziest faze of eating just cookies and milk when I was about 6, do dad called me the Cookie Monster and it stuck ever since "so I spoke to Karen on my flight over and she invited us over for dinner tonight"
I froze and all the blood in me drained from my body. I now felt cold with Mom telling me the awful news that I'll be going to dinner with Lucas Scott. The jerk face I hate o so much. His Mom is lovely she treated me like her own ever since I befriended Lucas, but I haven't really seen her in 2 years and Mom would ask me about it and I'd ways make up some excuse as to why I never went over, but I guess this time I have to suck it up and go.
This was going to be one hell of a night.
"She said to come by round 7, so you should go get ready sweetie. I'm currently baking a cake which should be ready soon" I just nod and make my way to my room.
If I didn't miss Mom so bad then I wouldn't be going. I'd fake sick or something. God Damn it I need Haley.
But before I could text her she texted me first.
R u going 2 da Scott house 4 dinner 2nite? H xxx
Yeah... Y? B xxx
Nathan invited me, shud I go? H xxx
I needed Haley. I really needed her there. She was my support. My comfort.
Of course. Plz come Hales. Mom is back and Karen invited us over. B xxx
Oh that's awesome Brookie, okay I'll c u soon den. H xxx
See u den Hales. B xxx
I now had Haley with me tonight. Maybe it won't be so bad after all. Well that's just me hoping. Hoping for a miracle that is.
•••
"Oh come on Brooke... I don't want to watch this again" Lucas whined walking into the living room with a bowl of sweet popcorn.
"Oh Lucas don't act like you don't like this film" I tease as he plonks himself down beside me
"That doesn't change the fact that I really don't want to watch this again" I dive my hand into the popcorn bowl and shuffle a hand full of popcorn into my mouth.
"Okay fine we'll watch something else" I lean forward and pick up the DVD case that Lucas had brought just the other week. He then got me to help him organise his DVD's and put them in the new case he brought "Just know you suck"
"But you love me anyway" Lucas gave me a cheesy smile getting me to laugh too.
"That I do Broody" I lean in and give him a soft kiss "Now can you please put a film on before I kiss your face off"
"We wouldn't want that would we Pretty Girl" I shake my head with a giggle.
"You guys are sickly cute you know that" Nathan comments walking pass the living room "I doubt you'll ever break up"
I grasped as did Lucas getting Nathan to stop by the living room door "I would never break up with my Pretty Girl" Lucas made clear kissing the tip of my nose "There will be no talk to breakup's"
Nathan just sighed giving us an eye roll and carried on walking "You guys are also losers"
"Losers in love" I shout out to Nathan when he disappears and heard Lucas laugh.
"You're cute when you crinkle your nose Pretty Girl" Lucas then leaned in and kissed me again.
•••
Isn't it funny how Lucas and I live next door to each other, but we rarely bump into each other. I mean the first couple of months of him publicly slaying me in front of the whole student body I avoided him at all cost. I would ditch offers Karen had made my way and I would ignore the call from Nathan and when Mom mentioned it I would change the subject so I was safe. I was safe until now.
We lived only seconds away and yet it feels so far.
I took a deep breath as Mom held out her arm for me to take which I do, but mostly for the comfort and to calm my nerves down. I noticed Nathan's car and Haley's were parked outside. Thank the heavens that Haley actually made it.
Mom knocked on the door and we were greeted by Nathan with his big smile.
"Mrs D, long time no see" Nathan brought Mom in for a hug which she returned.
"Wow Nate you've grown so much" Mom complimented pulling away from their hug "I bet all the ladies are after you"
"I only have my eye on one" Nathan sheepishly says and I could see the blush rise to his cheeks "anyway Ma is in the kitchen and Luke is upstairs"
Mom nodded and looked at me, I just shake my head and head down the hall to hopefully find Karen and Haley. I walk into the kitchen and still no Haley insight. I shrug that off and see Karen standing by the stove. I slowly walk up to her and place my hands over her eyes "Guess who?" I chirp in a sing song voice.
"Could it be Brooke Davis" Karen replies turning around to face me "Oh my Brooke you are gorgeous aren't you sweetie" I couldn't help, but blush at that. I could feel the heat rise to my cheeks "I haven't seen you in a long time"
"Yeah I'm sorry about that" And I was. I was really sorry not going around to see her. I wanted to. I wanted to everyday, but I couldn't handle it. I couldn't bump into Lucas. I refused to. Seeing him at school was hard enough for me.
"So dinner will be ready in 10 minutes. Luke is in his room why don't you go on up" Karen says
"Nah it's okay Karen... I think..." I start to protest until My Mom interferes.
"We'll call you for dinner" Mom then literally pushed me out the kitchen so I had no choice, but to go up to Lucas's room.
I remember this house like it was only yesterday I was here with Lucas and his family like we use to be. I walked up the stairs slowly and down the hall to his room which was actually opposite mine. I stood outside his door taking deep breaths my heart was racing like it hadn't before. I was about to walk into Lucas's room again. I haven't been in this room for 2 years. I raise my fist and knock on the white door three times and waited patiently for his response.
"It's open" Came his brooding voice. I brace myself and place my hand on the door handle and push it open. Lucas was sitting at a table in the corner on his laptop. I stood idly by the door as Lucas turns around in his chair to look at me. His eyes turned into a scowl and I shivered under his gaze "What you doing here?"
"Your Mom invited us over for dinner tonight" I answer in a soft voice "She sent me up here, my Mom too"
"Well you can leave and not come back" Lucas grumbles turning back to his laptop.
I was about to turn around and leave when my inner Brooke... The Brooke that used to be known came to the surface and took over for just a minute "No!" I state looking at Lucas. He span his chair round and glared at me "I want to know why you're like this with me"
"Brooke... don't..." Lucas warned still staring at me.
I was standing my ground on this one. I wanted to know why Lucas had done this to me. Why he would have done this to me "No Lucas. I want to know why... Why you changed"
"Brooke... I'm warning you"
"And I said no Lucas" I cross my arms across my chest and leaned back against the door frame "I want to know and I want to know now"
"It's your fault" He finally says standing up from his chair and walking to his bed "I'm broke your heart because it's your fault Brooke... It's all your fault"
"I don't understand"
"My dad died Brooke... My dad died and it's your fault"
I grasped, it was a loud grasp and my hand went straight to my heart and tears filled my eyes. I could believe Lucas would say that to me let alone think it "You... you think I'm the reason Keith died"
"I don't think Brooke. I know you was. I was your boyfriend and you needed me so I wasn't there for when dad came to get me. He died because I chose to be with you instead of waiting for him" Lucas tells me with venom in his voice "therefore it's your fault I haven't got a dad anymore"
"Wow" Was the only thing that came to me. He was actually thinking like that and has for the past 2 years "You're unbelievable Lucas" I then turn around and leave his room and head back down the stairs.
•••
We were all sat around the dining table. Karen had placed the food on the table and we were filling our plates with the spaghetti she had cooked. Lucas sat across from me and the chatter around the table was heard, but I sat back and said nothing the whole mean. What Lucas had accused me of up in his room killed me even more inside. How dare he suggest it was my fault that Keith died. I loved Keith too. I was devastated too when he died. I was the one that was in the room when he left this world. I promised him I would look after Lucas and his family, but when Lucas kicked me to the curb I had no choice, but to break that promise which killed me too.
Lucas was even more of a jerk than I originally thought.
"So Brooke your awfully quite" Karen points out
I look up just briefly to catch a glimpse of Lucas looking at me like everyone else, I don't hold his gaze long and look back down to my plate. My heart was racing with how much anger I had built up inside me. I was mad. I was so fricking mad and I could feel I was about to explode and I didn't want to. Not here, but I could feel the anger bubble inside of me.
"Brooke..." I look up again at Karen's voice being heard "Nathan tells me you and Lucas aren't friends anymore"
I look at Lucas and see him trying to communicate with me through his eyes, but I ignore it "Yeah that's right we're not"
"Oh what happened, I wondered why I haven't seen you around"
I put down my folk and place one of my hands under the table feeling Haley give it a small squeeze. I turned and smiled at her receiving a small smile back "so Luke, you going to tell your Mom why you humiliated me in front of everyone 2 years ago or shall I"
"Brooke..." there it was again his warning tone which I wasn't taking likely "Don't even..."
"Don't even what Lucas..." That was it my anger was spilling out and my target is the jerk face I poured my soul to ever since we met. The jerk face I fell in love with all those years ago "don't tell your Mom how you think I'm the reason why her husband is dead right now or maybe I should let Nathan know you think I took his dad away from him" The table fell silent and I could see everyone look between Lucas and I "Or maybe I should tell this whole table how you've made my life a living hell for the past 2 years because you believe in your twisted sick mind that I'm the reason why Keith isn't here right now; how it's because of me he isn't sitting at the head of the table like he use to, well too bad Lucas because I'm sick and tired of the bullshit you have put me through and I'm tired of blaming myself for you hating me so much. I went months racking my brain to know what I did to you and you come out with the most stupidest reason I've ever known and for you to even think or believe I'm the reason why your dad is dead then it's a good job you ended our friendship and relationship 2 years ago" I push my chair back hearing it scrap across the lino flooring "you Lucas Scott are the worst kind of person I've ever met and I'll be damned if I let you blame me for something that wasn't my fault"
"Brooke..." Lucas says my name with such ease, but I ignore him and turn to Karen.
I push a smile to my face "Thank you for dinner Karen it was lovely, but I want to go home now" Karen just nods. I walk around the table and say my goodbyes. Haley said she would carpool with me to school tomorrow and then I was gone.
So ya'll know what happened between Brooke and Lucas. Lucas blames Brooke for his fathers death which is of course not her thought, but he sees it differently.
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