Hey guys...
I know it has been a while since I've updated, but I've had writers block and then I've been writing my other books for wattpad which are doing great also.
I've been off work for like 3 weeks on holiday, but tomorrow I'm back to work and I'm not looking forward to it at all. I can't wait to start my new job.
Oooo total random thing... I'm going to Rome in December which is so exciting to me because I've never left the country before and I'm looking forward to it.
Anyway here's the next chapter... ENJOY!
"You look pretty Brooke" I smiled at Lucas and the he span me around so my back was to him and his arms were circled around me and his chin was on my sh0ulder "Red really suits you Pretty Good" he then kissed my cheek making my face turn red lucky for me we were in a dark hall so he couldn't see the affect he has on me.
We were currently at a friend's birthday party. It was her 14th and Lucas and I had been dating for 2 years now and everything was so perfect and I felt so happy and so loved when I was around him and his family. I mean my parents always sp we love when they're home, but Lucas and his family are my family too. We're like one big happy family.
"You guys look so cute together" I looked up at some photographer with a big camera in his hand. Chloe had hired out the most expensive place for her party so I wasn't surprised when I saw she had a photo booth at the doors. She was only turning 14 and her parents went all out for her. Lucky for her she was an only child "a total perfect picture moment" And with one snap the guy took the picture and gave us a smile "the picture will be with the others by the exit door so pick it up when you leave" He tells us, Lucas and I nod and then he walked away taking pictures of others.
"Marry me" Lucas says softly. I opened my once closed eyes and turned around to face him seeing a smile still on his face.
"Er... wh-hat" I stutter still looking at him.
Lucas snaked his arm around my waist and brought me closer to him "Marry me Pretty Girl, be my Cinderella"
"Lucas you can't be serious, we're only 14"
"I am very serious Brooke... I want you to be mine forever, so promise me that you'll marry me... not now, but someday" Hearing that someday made my heart flutter. Lucas Scott was asking me to be his forever.
"I promise" I whisper to him as he leans down and places his lips to mine giving me our first real kiss together. It was perfect and I was happy. That's the moment I knew I was truly in love with Lucas Scott.
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"If you're trying to hurt him I think your succeeding" came a voice from behind me. I slowly put my shirt back on as I turn around to come face to face with Nathan. After the party games Jessie and I went to a private part of the beach and hooked I up which of course isn't a big deal, well to me it wasn't "His moping around Brooke so I think he gets that his hurt you, but doing this isn't going to change that fact" I scoff at that and go to walk pass Nathan when he grabs onto my arm to keep in place "sleeping around doesn't make you cool Brooke it makes you a slut"
I pull my hand out of his grasp "Oh I guess you didn't hear, apparently according to Lucas I've been a slut way before we ended; I'm just doing what his labelled me as already Nathan"
"But you're so much better than this Brooke. I know you can be better than this"
"You were away too long for me to actually believe that Nathan. You don't understand because you haven't been here" I state and it was the truth. I guess if you keep getting told that you're a slut and a nothing then you're going to slowly start to believe it and Lucas and his friends have been saying it for the past 2 years and since he was the one I gave my everything too I believed it. I believed it a lot faster than I usually would have and Nathan trying to tell me different wasn't going to get me to change
"you just don't understand"
I'm Brooke Davis the slut of the town... I'm Brooke Davis who isn't worth anything from anybody. I'm only good for one thing according to Lucas and his friends... this was a lot deeper than most would think. Lucas had be downgrading me for years. I couldn't just forgive him so easily, not after everything his done to me. I was fighting back this time. I'm not just going to let him waltz back into my life because everyone is hating on him right now, because he finally realised that what he had done was wrong.
He might have realised that it's not my fault why Keith died, but what about what he had done to me for the past 2 years. Lucas and I aren't friends and I seriously doubt we'll become friends again.
"But I'm here now Brooke"
"And that is all good and everything Nathan and you know I love you like a brother and I'm glad you're back and with Haley and everything is good for you, but it's too late for me, I'm damaged "
"Brooke you are not damaged, you just need your self esteem rebuilt" Nathan tells me with a small smile on his face.
"That would mean for me to talk to someone Nate and I don't feel like talking... talking makes every so very real and I don't want to do real right now" I tell him "Lucas doesn't want me Nathan, his only trying because you and Karen were on his ass about what he had done" and with that I walk away from Nathan and join back in with everyone else.
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We've been back from the long weekend party for at least a couple of days now. After I basically slept with Jessie who I'll probably never see again I tried to avoid Nathan and Lucas as much as I could until we had to leave and of course they were driving back with us. The whole car ride was quite expect for a few murmurs from Haley and Jake and sometimes Nathan talking to Haley.
Lucas didn't say anything and neither did I. I drove us back without swapping with Rachel. I just wanted to make myself busy and if I was driving I could tune out anything else.
So now I'm in my bed room sat on my bed with my knees up against my chest with tear streaks down my cheeks feeling like shit. I sniffle back some tears as my phone rings for the fourth time today. it was Jake once again. I heard him come by this morning, but I made sure to double lock the front door so he couldn't get in. I was meant to be in school, but I hadn't gone for the past 3 days and I'm not sure if I could face it right now; I guess I'm officially a slut. Lucas and his friends were right after all.
I was a couple days late on my period and I was freaking out like really bad. I know I used something with Jessie, but I guess I was that 1% out of the 99% protection it has. The past 2 days my life has flashed before me and with each moment I became more frightened of what the hell I was going to do.
I'm the biggest slut going and now I have that proof, I could be pregnant at the age of 18 and my life could officially end any day now.
My phone started to ring again. I lift my head to see Jake's name flash on my screen again. I let out a loud sigh with a small groan and flop myself back on my bed placing my hands on my stomach.
"Everyone's worried about you at school?" I open my eyes to look at the ceiling when I hear that familiar voice that I've tried so hard to avoid "Brooke?"
I slowly sat up to see Lucas standing in my door way with his arms crossed and his foot crossed over the other. His shabby blond hair was longer than it normally is, but it suited I'm just right. Lucas looked up from the floor and out eyes met for a second before I looked away and crossed my legs wiping my wet face.
"What you doing here Lucas?"
"I saw you haven't been at school for a few days and I just... everyone's getting worried Brooke. They haven't heard from you in a while" He answers leaning up from the door frame.
"And they sent you out of all people they sent the one person I don't want to see" I huff with a shake of my head. I then stand up and walk to my bedroom window and sit down on the windowsill with me knees up against my chest.
"No they didn't. I overheard Jake talking to Rachel and Haley saying you double locked the front door and that he didn't know the combination for the back gate so I just thought I'd come and make sure you were okay" He tells me and the energy in the room right now wasn't anything I liked. It was awful and I just wanted him to go.
Yeah okay so I'm grateful that he came to check on me, but I seriously have doubt our friendship could go anywhere. I loved him. I loved him with everything in me and he broke that, he broke me and like I've said before I'm not going to let him in again just so he cane break me all over again. I have hardly any self esteem left after what his done and I need to hold onto the little I have.
"You shouldn't be here Lucas" I state glancing at him before looking back out the window "you have no more rights to be here. You hated me a couple weeks ago and now you're trying to apologise and you're coming to check on me and all that bullshit when you never cared before"
"It's not like that" Lucas says stepping closer to my bed "Brooke I've always cared"
"Oh really" I snap my eyes back to him "because if I remember rightly you're the one who started the rumour that I was pregnant last year or what about a couple months ago when I was dating Felix you started the rumour that I had crabs, You made my life hell Lucas and for what... because you believed in your sick twisted mind that I'm the reason Keith isn't here anymore, well I don't want you here anymore Lucas. I don't want you in my life anymore"
"I apologised for all that Brooke" He utters "I really am sorry, I was messed up okay"
"No Lucas it's not okay. You hurt me, you've hurt me really bad and that isn't going to go away" I express "I am what I am because of you Lucas. You've ruined me and I hope your damn well happy with yourself about it"
"Brooke I'm not happy about it... I'm an idiot and I was stupid and an ass to you and I know it's not yourself that Dad isn't here and I shouldn't have blamed you and I know saying sorry isn't going to stop the fact you hate me and that's okay because I understand that I've screwed up and I understand that you hate me" the sadness in his voice was evident, but he had no right to be sad. He ruined my life. He was meant to be my bestfriend, he was meant to love me and he ruined my life; what bestfriend does that "I only came to check on you, I'll eh... I'll let everyone know your okay" Lucas turns around and goes to walk out of my door when I blurt one the thing I wasn't meant to say.
"I think I'm pregnant Lucas" He froze and slowly turned around to face me "I've screwed up as well Lucas and that's why I haven't been to school because it seems you was right... I am a slut who screws up" Lucas didn't say anything, he just walk back over to my bed and sits down on it.
I have no idea what was or is going to happen from here, but I needed someone to talk to and it looks like Lucas might just be that person.
So it looks like Brooke could be pregnant which wouldn't be a good thing.
Could Lucas stick around and help Brooke through this?
You know what to do...
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Much Love Always Roch