Hey guys,

I know I haven't updated in nearly a month and I really am sorry. I've just been busy with work and family stuff and my bestfriend has needed my help and everything has just become so stressful lately.

I'm moving work places too which has also been stressful to deal with, but I'm back now and with another chapter.

I appreciate the PM I got from brookenlucas4eva03 asking me when I was going to update... It put me into gear and got me to finally finish this chapter.

Anyway hope you guys have a lovely rest of the weekend and I hope ya'll are having a good summer too.

Enjoy!

xxx

I was sat on the edge of my bath with the pregnancy test Lucas went out to get for me. He hadn't left y side since yesterday when I blurted out that I might be pregnant. He stayed with me all night even though not much was said. He stayed in the spare room down the hall. When we both woke this morning he said he was going to blow of school with me and run to the drug store for the test. I protested against that... one because I really didn't want Lucas to stay with me all day and two because I didn't want him to miss school for me.

So that brings me to now... Sitting on the edge of my bath with the test sitting on the sink a few inches away from me.

Ding!

I jumped by that sound even though it came from the other side of the door in my room. Lucas was sat on my bed where I left him. I heard my bed creak so I knew Lucas stood up of it. I could hear the shuffle of his feet as he came closer to the bathroom door.

"Brooke... the 3 minutes are up" His voice sounded just as scared as mine was when I told him I was going to do it that very moment. I needed to know if I just ended my life and bringing a new one into my world.

I closed my eyes when I heard Lucas's voice. I felt tears slowly fall down my cheeks as I reached for the test. The tip of my fingers found it so I clasped the white stick in my hand and squeezed tight slowly opening my eyes.

"Brooke... Brooke are you okay?" I said nothing. Silence filled my ears as Lucas's voice became distant. I gradually opened my clasped hand that was holding the white stick. I looked down at the test and my heart literally stopped as I looked at the result "Brooke..."

I stood up from the bath and step by step I made it to the bathroom door placing my hand on the cold door handle. I pushed down and slowly opened the door to see Lucas standing there with a worried look on his face "Brooke... did you do it?" I gradually nodded my head as tear by tear fell down my cheek hitting the floor.

I held the test up and Lucas smiled... His eyes lit up by his smile as he saw one pink line that formed on the stick "I'm not pregnant" I beamed my own smile as Lucas scooped me up in his arms and swung me around my bedroom with the white stick still in my hand. I've never felt so much relief before.

"I was so worried" Lucas muttered as he put me down "but I want you to know I wouldn't have let you do it alone Brooke. I would have been there for you until the end" I look up into his big blue eyes and that's when I realise that I still have love for him. I'm still in love with Lucas Scott.

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"Oh look who's finally decided to show her face in town again?" I roll my eyes at my friends as I walk further into Karen's cafe.

It had been two days since I found out I wasn't pregnant and two days since Lucas told me that he would have helped me through everything if my life did indeed turn upside down and its been two days since I realised I still had feelings for the guy that ruined y life for years after breaking my heart.

I now understand why everything affected me the way it did. I now understand why my life spiralled out of control... it was all because I cared. I cared what Lucas thought about me way to much which made me believe everything that he labelled me as. I made myself into the slut and whore of town because that's what Lucas rumoured me as.

I was still in love with him. I am still in love with him and that's a problem... It's a big problem because part of me hates him too. Part of me hates what his done to me and what he accused me off and the whole reason why he broke my heart in the first place makes part of me hate him a whole lot.

"Oh stop over reacting Rach" I sat down across from her and Haley "I just haven't been feeling all that well is all"

"So you locked yourself away in your house because you haven't been well" I nod "Hmm... I don't buy it" she retorts looking to Haley who nods agreeing with her.

"Well that's the story I'm going with right now, so let's just drop it okay" they both eyed me carefully before nodding. Subject was dropped. That's why I love my girls... They know when to not push something. They also know when I'm ready I'll tell them what happened.

"Subject is dropped" Haley smiled "So what we doing tomorrow night then?"

Tomorrow is the biggest basketball game ever to be known. It was the championship and it was our school v the Bobcats in charlotte. they were our biggest rival which meant we had to win for us to have a good send off because this time tomorrow we would be graduating high school.

"Well the cheer we've been learning we will use that and then our winning cheer we will use when they sound the last buzzer and we win" I tell the girls.

"Oh someone sounds confident that the Raven will win" And just as Rachel says that the bell above the door opens, I look up from my bestfriends to see Lucas walk in with some of his friends that I still don't like including that stupid blond bitch Peyton. Our eyes met for a split second. He gave me a smile and a small nod which I returned with a dimpled smile. I have no idea why I smiled since I'm meant to hate him, but my body seems to be acting differently to my hatred for him.

"I'm very confident because I have faith that the Ravens will win" I then take my eyes off Lucas and look back at my friends who turn to see Lucas and his friends sit at a booth on the other side of the cafe.

"Could it be that Brooke Davis is letting Lucas Scott back into her heart?" Haley mutters turning to look back at me.

"What!" I say louder than I should have. I slump back into the seat and run a hand over my face "No... I'm not letting him back in, I'm just not fighting with him either"

"Well that's a step closer to being the Brooke Davis you used to be" Haley states giving me a smile then sipping at her diet coke "Nathan will be glad to hear you're not fighting with Lucas anymore"

"How are you and Nathan?" I question changing the subject from me and Lucas

"I really like him" she tells us and I could see the giddy look appear on her face "His so sweet and lovely to me and for a couple of weeks this summer his taking me away just the two if us"

Ahh yes the summer. Its approaching faster than I thought it would. I got into 3 top collages that I applied to for my fashion design course I'm doing and I've decided that I'm moving to London after graduation. I got into Westminster University and over the summer I was offered an internship that I accepted. So I'll be in London 3 months before university begins. I was excited to explore a new country and make a new life for myself.

"Aww that all seemed lovely Hales" I gush "Nathan really is a good guy"

"That he is" Haley smiles "So Brooke you still moving to London after graduation?"

"Well I don't start my internship until a couple of weeks into the summer, but yes I'm still moving to London this summer"

"I'm going to miss you B" Haley tells me once again and I was going to miss my girls like crazy too, but I promised them that we'd talk at least every night even though we're going to be in different time zones.

"I'm going to miss you girls too" I reach out and take their hands in mine "But I promise nothing will change, nit much anyway. We'll always talk and on holidays I'll come to visit when I can"

"Just promise us you'll come for Christmas and new year"

"I promise"

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So it seems Brooke might let Lucas back in eventually. Maybe it will just take some time. Keep reading to find out.

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Much Love Always Roch xoxo