For her first try, she did about as well as I thought she was going to; she wore more than she actually swallowed. The little lady however, could apparently give a fuck. She was currently sitting cross legged on the ground lapping at her fingers and hands like a kitten cleaning the blood from her stone skin completely ignoring the three corpses lying next to her. I had raised quite a few babies in my day but this was a first. I just continued to lounge in the tree above her head and out of her direct line of sight, watching her as she sniffed at herself trying to find every salvageable drop of blood. I knew better than too so much as speak until she moved away from her kills. They might be dead and drained but they were still hers and she would fight you for them until she decided she was done with them. I would be the one to dispose of them when that happened though since she didn't know how to do that yet.

Once she decided that she was clean enough, she turned back to the bodies, licking at their necks and faces, doing much the same with them as she did with herself, making damn sure she didn't miss anything. She took her time and cleaned them up proper. When she dubbed herself fully finished with them, she moved off to the side a few steps before plopping back down on the ground, looking up at me like she didn't have a care in the world; and to her, she probably didn't. She was fully sated and had the protection of someone that was clearly not to be fucked with. To her, everything was probably near perfect.

I however, wasn't stupid. Before I dropped to the ground to dispose of her dinner, I made fucking sure she was done. She had just fed making her a force to be reckoned with should something set her off. So I waited for her nod before I got anywhere near those bodies.

Once they were never to be found again, I got her up and she followed silently behind me towards my house and her new home. As far as I was concerned, until I found out just what the fuck happened to have her end up all the way out past BFE, I wasn't giving her back to the Cullen Coven and I didn't give a fuck. Jasper could get as pissed as he liked at me for it, but this was his mess I was cleaning up as far as I was concerned and he owed me a fucking explanation for this shit.

Once we got to the house, I got her a shower going, laying out everything she would need and told her not to touch it if she didn't absolutely need to. Her face was one of pure amusement at the order so I took it upon myself to explain to her that if she touched it, it would break and that I would break her in retaliation. It was a threat made in jest and I think that somewhere she knew that, but the absolute terror on her face and unchecked fear in her eyes told me that it was probably too soon to fuck with her like that since she was changed into a vampire out of revenge.

Giving myself a mental crack upside the head, I pulled her to my chest and ran my fingers through her hair until she stopped shaking, apologizing repeatedly for my fucked up sense of humor and swearing up, down and sideways that I wouldn't harm her or allow anyone else to. Once she settled a little more I went into a full explanation about her new found strength and that until she was a little older and a little more in control of her heightened abilities, she needed to let me do most everything for her so that she didn't accidentally break something. When I was done she seemed to understand that I really didn't mean to freak her out and promised not to touch anything and would call me when she was done getting a shower.

Leaving her to do that, I went to my room to hunt her up something to wear. She was such a short shit and I didn't have anything left of my ex having used it as knelling the last time I was here so in the end it was boxers and a tee shirt. It wasn't like she was going to get cold. I would set up the satellite and electronics a little later so she could use my computer to order clothing because there was no why in fuck I was going shopping for her. I wouldn't do that for Char when she was alive and I wasn't doing that shit now. I hate shopping with a blinding passion and avoid it like the fucking plague. I wouldn't even do that shit online. I would help her not break my computer, but SHE was picking that shit out. I didn't care what she got, that was up to her and her style and it wasn't like I didn't have the money for her to splurge a little. It was going to be over a year before she would be controlled enough to join civilization again so she was going have get a hefty amount of crap. Most of it was going to be lost to her strength, others to the hunt, and since she can't just run out to replace it, well, that was going to be really big package.

Running different things though my head that needed done around the place, I took the time she was in the shower to start the generators in the basement and hooking shit up. I wasn't going to get it all done before she called for me, but I could at least get a start on it.

While hunting for the wires and cords I needed I heard a scream coming from the little lady that actually made me jump. Not knowing what the hell the problem was, I dropped everything in my hands and tore ass up the steps, all but ripping the bathroom door off the hinges, blinking at the sight in front of me. Cocking my head to the side, I just looked at the girl that looked absolutely terrified staring at the mirror; or rather the reflection in it.

Sighing a little, I moved to stand behind her, setting my hand on her shoulder and locking my eyes with her reflection. "You get used to it, Sugar."

Her mouth opened and closed a few times before she seemed to get a grip on herself, actually looking a little sheepish, "Sorry."

I cocked a brow at her, "For what? I was a newborn once too, Little Lady. I understand exactly what you're dealing with right now. It takes time to get used to the life and I ain't gonna lie, sometimes it's hard as fuck, but you deal and move on to the next adventure."

She looked back at the mirror and gave her head a little shake, "no, that's not it; not really." She shrugged a little helplessly, not really knowing where to take that statement thinking that I didn't understand what she was going through when I actually did.

Grabbing the towel off the counter, I turned her to face me and wrapped it around her shoulders, looking back in her eyes, giving her a little smile, "You don't have to explain shit to me, Sugar. While my sire wasn't out for revenge when I was turned, he was out to recruit me into an army of mismatched misfits fighting over feeding rights. I know what it's like to be brought into this world for fucked up reasons. Like I said, it takes time but you learn to deal with it and move on. Trust me when I say, it does get easier, it just takes time. Well, that and a fuckton of practice."

Her lips thinned as she looked down a little, her eyes swirling with both anger and irritation. She swallowed before speaking, "How long until I don't see her eyes looking back at me? How long until I don't want to kill her too?"

At that I gave a little tisk as I started to dry her off. That was a little harder of an answer. I have been part of this world for a very long time and there are times that I do harbor a lot of anger at Jasper for turning me. They are a lot more infrequent now that I am not constantly fighting for my life and food, but they are there on random occasions. I did however decide to be honest with her. "It took me over 50 years before I didn't want to kill him for doing this to me. However, before you get your panties in a twist over that, I told you that I was changed to be a soldier in a war.

"My beginning to this life was dangerous and deadly. I was always looking over my shoulder for threats. I was constantly fighting amongst the others that were created for the same reason I was. I was nearly always hungry. I lived like that for a long time and resentment was strong for him, was for a long time after I left that life too. Then I figured out that he didn't know any better. He had been created for the same reason I was and didn't know that there was a life outside war over feeding grounds. It took a while, but I was able to move past my anger and hatred for him and I went back and pulled him away from that life. I showed him that there was more to this afterlife than fighting to eat and survive.

"Once he learned that he didn't always have to be a badass little fucker and fight every last vampire that gave him a dirty look or questioned his orders or just flat out told him to go fuck himself, he let go of a lot of the negative that was bred into him and now, I couldn't imagine my life without him as my brother. Don't get wrong, my sire is still not one to fuck with. He learned to take a joke over the years but he is still every bit the son of a bitch he was then but now that anger and hatred that he holds in his core is used for different purposes. NOW it's used to protect those he cares about.

"As far as your sire is concerned, I can't answer that." Heaving a light sigh as I led her to my room where I had her clothing laying out, I thought about how to continue that as I helped her get dressed. After a moment I went with, "You have to decide what is more important. Revenge on her for what she did you by killing her off or getting revenge on her by doing the opposite she intended for you. From the little I got from you earlier, it sounds like she wants your life to be full of misery and upset. You're probably always going to hate her for the reason she bit you. You're probably always going to want to kill her for it as well. However, the choice you have to make is are you going to lower yourself to her level or are you going to raise to the challenge she presented you with and tell her to fuck the fuck off and have a kick ass afterlife. Personally, I would go with the latter, but that's just me. I like to piss people off." If you don't believe me, ask the mutant midget.

She had sat on my bed after I was done dressing her, listening to me as I laid it on the line for her. I was blunt and to the point, giving her as little pretty word bullshit to sort through as I could knowing that she wouldn't have the patience to do that for long. She pulled her bottom lip into between her teeth and chewed on it a little as her brow down in thought.

A few minutes later she looked up at me, "What were we talking about?"

I chuckled as I grabbed her hands and pulled her to her feet, "I'll take that as you are going with the latter option. Come on, you can give me a hand making this place a little more habitable."

For the next couple of hours she did her best to lend a hand when needed, being overly careful not to break anything. She wasn't very successful but I wasn't really expecting her to be; that's why I gave her things to carry that didn't fucking matter. I just wanted her to have a feeling of accomplishment for a little while before I had to take her hunting again.

Since I couldn't take her back to the last place because it was so small, I didn't wait until she was on the brink of insanity before tossing her a hoodie and leading her back out into the wilderness. At the look she got on her face as we passed a herd of reindeer, I figured that the animal diet was out for her; good. It was an hour run to the bigger city and I posted her ass about a mile from the border, deadly serious when I told her not to move if she wanted to eat. Once she was as relaxed as she could be that close to human habitation, I went in to the slimier part of the city and collected prime choice humans for her to eat. I really hated rapists and could think of no better end to them than feeding them to a newborn. Once those were delivered and I knew she was going to be staying put with them, I took the time to eat myself before getting her a portly mother fucker to finish filling her up. Keeping my distance from the feeding infant, I tossed her her third victim and hopped up on a tree branch to keep an eye on her and the surrounding area while she was distracted.

Once again, just as before, she went all adorable kitten on me and lapped at the blood she was covered in and then cleaned up her meals as well, moving off to the side a little to tell me she was as done as she was gonna get. Double checking with her, I disposed of the bodies but instead of taking her straight back the house, I let her get out a bit of her pent up aggression on the forest.

She spent the better part of an hour just ripping it apart; knocking down trees, ripping them into splinters or into sawdust. By the time she ran out of steam there was a sizable clearing that had not been there before but looked so natural that had you not know that there used to be trees, you never would have known the difference. Also by the time she was done, she had spent all her excess energy and since she was stuffed silly from her meal, I actually thought that she was about to fall asleep. With a quiet chuckle at her easy and lazy smile, I offered her my back and ran her the rest of the home.

After getting her cleaned back up, I got the computer hooked up and set up with internet and all that fun shit before calling her over from the couch and book she had gotten ahold of. When she first picked it up I was a little worried she would end up ripping it apart but when I saw the title I realized it didn't matter if she did or not.

When she was behind me looking over my shoulder, I brought up a couple of different sites and told her to pick some shit out. I gave a look of confusion when she hesitated, "Something wrong?"

She bit her lip and scratched her head, "I don't, I mean I can't…" Then she sighed, "I don't have any way to pay for it."

I still did not understand the problem. I stood up and pulled my wallet out of my back pocket, "I am aware of that." Pulling my credit card out I tossed it on the desk, "Pick your shit and I'll take care of it from there."

She looked at the card a moment before looking back at me, "Are you sure? I can't pay you back."

I nodded as I pushed her to sit down, "I am aware of that too. You have a long time before you can go out and do this in person and eventually I am going to run out of clothes if you keep wearing them to hunt in. Around the house is one thing but you are one hell of a messy eater and blood don't come out. Pick out whatever you want and I'll take care of it."

She still looked pensive but nodded none the less and turned to the computer squinting her eyes a little at the sting of the brightness. Leaving her to entertain herself with that, I started the massive undertaking of hooking up the TV and other necessities for this place; DVD player, gaming systems, surround sound, things like that while every once and awhile checking on the little one's progress and computer status. She was on the desktop and I had a laptop if she killed it, but she seemed to be alright for the most part. I had a box of mousses if she crushed the one she was using, which she did not long after she began. I just smiled at her as I replaced it and sent her back on her shopping spree. I took a quick glance at the 'shopping cart' and snorted at the numbers I saw there. The poor little thing was out of her ever loving fucking mind if she thought that was going to be anywhere near enough clothing. If that was all she was going to get, this was going to be a weekly thing for her and I didn't have that many mousses and I really didn't want to sacrifice my laptop to a newborn if I didn't have too. With a shrug and decision to simply take matters into my own hands when she was done, I went back to work setting up the place.

She spent a few good hours on the computer and by the time she was done, she had picked out a decent amount of things. When she told me she was done, her face was a little worried as I went over to enter in my information and where to send it.

As I was looking at the screen and reviewing the order to make sure this was not going to be a weekly think, she whispered, "It's not too much is it? It was just…"

I clamped my hand over her mouth to shut her up. Looking at her from the corner of my eye, I shook my head as I scrolled through her orders on the different sites, "don't you worry that pretty little head about anything, Sugar. You could buy an island and it ain't gonna break my bank. Is this all you want for now?" I had to suppress a smirk at the widening of her eyes at the question and statement.

She blinked at me a few times before looking back at the screen, pulling my hand away from her, "You mean that I am going to need MORE than that?"

I nodded as I began to type in my credit card numbers and P.O. Box shit, "An order this size will last you about two months give or take. Think about it, Sugar. For the next little while there are going to be five or six trips to feed you a day, and then there is you trying to dress yourself and ripping the shit out of whatever you're holding. You're going to go through pants faster than tops because of running. Being a newborn is about learning and clothing takes the brunt of that. Until you learn to eat without making a mess and get enough control over your strength, your wardrobe is going to suffer massive casualties. That is just the way it is." After the order was paid for and posted express priority mailings even though it would still be about a week until they arrived, I turned and leaned against the desk and crossed my arms, taking in her expression. I wasn't sure if she was upset or just annoyed. Hmm, seems she wasn't a fan of shopping either.

Deciding to take her mind off clothing, I turned her thoughts to something else. "Have you remembered anything else about you yet?" Her eyes snapped up to mine, irritation swirling in the darkening depths. It was almost time to take her hunting again. After making that notation, I focused on her.

She was silent a moment before nodding a little, "It's vague and blurry, really hard to make out and none of it looks the slightest bit familiar. It's like a movie that I have seen but can't remember ever doing to so before. I can see faces but don't know who they are. I can smell things but can't name them. I almost feel like a trespasser when I think about them, like they are someone else's memories that I have no right to look at."

I nodded, "That's normal, don't worry about it. Let's see if we can't clear 'em up any. Pick anything you want, it doesn't matter if it's a single still snapshot of someone or some place. Just describe it in as much detail as you can and let's see if you don't get a better view as you actually look for different things." We would get maybe one talked about before it was time to take her hunting, but I was maybe a little too interested in her memories. I needed to know more about the vampires in them than anything.

She shifted her position in the computer chair, pulling one leg under her and the other bent at the knee where she set her chin as she began to look all starry eyed as they went distant. It was actually very difficult for us to look at and understand our human memories, some more than others, and so far she wasn't anything abnormal. She was a typical newborn baby; a fact that I am over joyed about. If she was a weird one this would be a lot more difficult.

I focused back on her when she started to speak. "It's a forest, I think; there are trees all around and it smells like pine and wintergreen, and I don't see anything else but there's a boy, and he looks vaguely familiar. He has hair the color of a penny and it's absolutely everywhere on his head, like the poor fucker doesn't own a brush. It's the eyes though, that I feel like I should feel something over."

Ah, she's recalling Edward. Wonderful. Moving on; "What are feeling while looking at him?"

She made a noise in the back of her throat as she wrapped her arms around her shin, "Honestly, nothing, absolutely nothing. I know this was someone I should feel SOMEthing for, but I just don't."

"Alright, let's move on to sound. You said you smell the trees so now tell me what you hear?"

Her eyes sparked at my order, her words coming out much like they did when she first woke up and in that same royally pissed off, clipped tone. "Don't want you… not good enough… never see me… never existed… live for Charlie… already gone…" She seemed to snap out of whatever that was again well enough on her own then began to pick at a thread on the pants she was wearing, "Then he's gone and there is nothing but trees. I can see them get closer and vanish like I'm moving through them but I don't know why, where I'm going, or what happened next. After that, there's nothing."

I sighed hard and rubbed my eyes with a thumb and forefinger. Well, that might explain a few different things. I wish she remembered more than just tiny snippets but going off just that, it kinda sounds like the little bastard broke things off with and then left her in the woods. Pussy ass little bitch. "What do you feel seeing it play out?"

She snarled quietly and a growl rumbled in her chest, "resentment and anger, lots and lots of anger. I THINK I should be sad or hurt or maybe crushed, but all I want to do is beat the fuck out him."

It took more effort than I cared to admit not to smirk at that. There is a line around the planet waiting to get their hands on that little fucker; myself included for a stunt he pulled a few decades ago. He would get his; I fully planned on personally seeing to it. However, looking at her, I decided to ask her one last thing before taking her to eat, "Do you remember what he called you? Really, you can let your memories slip away if you want as soon as we surface your name."

Her lips pulled from her teeth as her temper rose. Oh, this should be good. "He called me 'Love'. Somehow, I doubt that's what my parents called me when I came out of my mother's snatch."

I had to cover my mouth to cover the bark of choked laughter at that. Wow, this chick was blunt. Snorting and shaking my head, "You're probably right. Don't worry about it, Sugar, we'll get there. If not, we'll call you something else. It really isn't a big deal. Truthfully, when I get your new identity and shit, you're not really going to be able to use your human name anyways."

She narrowed her eyes at me, "Then why are you so gung –ho about me remembering it if I can't even use it?"

I smirked at her, "intuitive little bitch aren't you? I need your human name so I can find out if you're missed in the human world. If you are there are things that have to be done to make you less so."

She cocked a brow, "beg pardon?"

"If you are a missing person, I have to kill you in the eyes of the humans so they stop looking for you. Your human life is over; you cannot go back to it or anyone that knew you. We have rules in this world and the punishment for breaking them is steep. If humans continue to look for you and they find you, it's death or the change for them. Do you want to sentence someone else to life as a vampire?" She shook her head, "I didn't think so. We still have time to figure everything out so don't worry about it right now. Let's head to the city and get you fed. We can work on surfacing your name later."