You found me crying in the toilets. High school AU
Eren sat on the floor of the bathroom, rubbing his already red eyes and sobbing. God he hated himself so much right now. He was feeling like a complete failure. He had just gotten a test back and he had failed it, something he was used to since he never studied. But he had studied for an entire week for this test. He actually thought he did a pretty good job, but instead, he fot a big fat F on the paper.
He sniffles some more and more tears fell out if his eyes. There was so much pressure on them right now, he couldn't handle it. Every adult in his life was constantly telling him that he had to study hard to go to a good college and get a degree and find a good career. But how could he do that when he can't even pass a test he studied for, or when he doesn't even know what he wants to do in life.
Eren brought his knees up and buried his face in his arms, "stupid, stupid, stupid," he kept repeating to himself. He kept mumbling that he didn't even hear the door of the bathroom open.
It wasn't until there was a knock on his stall that he completely froze.
"You alright in there?"
Fuck, Eren knew that voice anywhere. It was Levi. They had had classes in the past years, and Levi was one of the smartest students in the entire school. Not to mention he was utterly handsome. Eren had a crush on him since the first day of school freshman year, but Levi was intimating so he never grew the balls to ever talk to him outside of school.
"Yeah, I'm alright," he sniffled again.
"Eren?" shit, he knows my name? "open the door, let me in,"
"Umm...I'm fine. Thanks,"
"I swear to god, Eren. Open this goddamn door or next time I see you I'm throwing you out a window," Levi was small, but Eren knew better than to underestimate his strength, so he scrambled up and tried to clean his face a bit before he opened the door. He looked down at Levi and sniffled again.
"Ugh, disgusting," Levi reached into his book back and pulled out a packet of tissues and gave it to Eren.
Eren took the packet and used one to blow his nose, "thanks,"
"Why are you crying in the bathroom as though this were a teenage movie?"
Eren felt the tears in his eyes again, "you wouldn't understand," he looked down at his feet, refusing to look at Levi.
"Typical teenage movie line. Is this where I'm supposed to say "try me," and then you spill your heart out to me about an unrequited love?"
Eren laughed a little and the comment, "no, this has nothing to do with that. It's something else,"
"Try me,"
Eren looked up at Levi, expecting to see him smirking, but instead he looked dead serious.
Eren took a deep breath, "I'm a failure,"
"You really are stupid Yaeger,"
Eren looked at Levi wide-eyed and surprised. That's not how you comfort someone. But Eren was being pushed back into the stall and the door was locked behind Levi. They sat down on the floor, well Eren on the floor, Levi sat next to him but on top of Eren's sweater.
Eren resumed his position and hid his face. He could feel the tears burning his eyes and he tried to hide the fact that he was crying, but he knew he was failing.
"You're not a failure, Eren. You just haven't found what you're really good at,"
"I'm good at video games," Eren mumbled.
"Typical,"
Eren chuckled a bit and looked up, he was suffocating himself and he needed another tissue.
"But you don't get it Levi, you're perfect,"
"Who said I was perfect," Eren looked over at Levi to see him furrowing his eyebrows.
"Everyone says that,"
"So you're just going to believe what everyone else says?"
Eren frowned, "well no, but I've made that conclusion myself,"
"Oh yeah? How?"
"Well you're really smart and you always get good grades. You're the freaking track star of the school. And have you seen yourself? You're like a goddamn porcelain figure come to life," Eren blushed at his last reason, but he hoped it could pass as part of his crying.
"Had I known this would turn into you confessing your love for me, I would have worn something nice," Eren blushed even harder and tried to speak but when he opened his mouth, nothing came out, "I'm kidding Yaegar, no need to try and get defensive,"
Eren closed his mouth and ran his fingers through his hair a couple times.
"Why do you think you're a failure?"
"Because I failed a test I actually studied for. And I can't do anything right. I tried out for football and they said I was better off cheerleading,"
"Did you try cheerleading?" Eren slowly nodded his head, "and?"
"They laughed at me,"
"They're all bitches anyway. You said you were good at video games,"
"Yeah but how is that going to help me in life?" Eren extended his legs out in front of him and leaned back against the wall.
"What do you do when there's a level you can't pass or a boss you can't beat,"
"Well it depends, sometimes I go back and level up and try again, or I try to find a new strategy,"
"That's good, apply that," Levi stood up and Eren looked up at him.
"Where are you going?"
"My ass in going numb," he held out his hand to help Eren stand, "come on,"
Eren followed Levi through the empty hallways and into Mr. Smith's office.
"Should we be in here?" Eren whispered once they were inside.
"You don't have to whisper, it's perfectly fine. Erwin is a family friend and I've known him all my life. He lets me come in here as long as I don't touch anything. Which means you can't touch anything,"
Eren, who had just picked up a small figurine off Mr. Smith's desk put it back down, "right,"
"So as I was saying," Levi sat down at Mr. Smith's chair and propped his legs up on the desk, "if you apply what you do in video games, they can help you. If something doesn't work, try to figure out a better way to do it, and if that doesn't work, then step back and try to study or practice or whatever,"
"Is that what you do?"
"I'm not as smart as you might think I am, I just have nothing better to do than to study during my free time,"
"I thought you were dating Hange,"
"That's gross,"
"Well I always see you two together, I guess I just assumed," Eren said.
"Then I suppose you're dating Armin?"
"What? No!"
"Exactly," Levi put his feet down and leaned across the desk, "don't believe rumors, Eren. They fill in spaces in your brain that could be better filled with more practical information. Like how to do your taxes and the quadratic equation," he said the last part with a hint of sarcasm in his tone and Eren smiled.
"I guess I feel a little better," Eren admitted.
"Good," Levi leaned back, "and if you do become a failure I'll let you live in my pool house,"
Eren laughed, "what if you become a failure,"
"Hadn't thought about that," he shrugged, "I guess we could roommate in Armin's pool house then,"
"Sounds like a solid plan,"
"I think this is the part in the movie where we go out and get ice cream,"
"School still isn't over," Eren pointed out.
"But ice cream, Eren. Ice cream is of the highest priority," Levi looked through his book bag and took out his keys, waving them in front of Eren's face, "Come on, I don't want to go by myself. Nothing is more depressing than eating ice cream alone,"
Eren jumped up out the chair, "ok, but can you help me go over Mr. Smith's last test?"
Levi lead the way to Mr. Smith's window and opened it, it was conveniently right by the parking lot, "sure, then we can fall in love and live happily ever after in Armin's pool house,"
"Just like a teenage movie,"
I'm reaching the end of my prompts/ AU list guyyysss! So if you have any ideas send them to me! I'd be happy to try my best to write them for Confessions
