They approached the large cruise ship that seemed overly exuberant for a rehabilitation facility. It was a large ship that seemed to have multiple levels and it also seemed to include facilities of enjoyment, including: A large pool with a water slide, an arcade, an indoor movie theater, and other places that made it seem more like a vacation ship than that of a rehabilitation facility. The woman tried to hold Jack's hand, but at every attempt he avoided her grapple. She had always noticed how he wouldn't touch people, even by accident. This concerned her because it's natural human behavior to want to connect to people, but for him it was more like a poison. She truly cared about Jack, but she thought that he would never understand this.
The approached the entrance to the ship and Jack looked up at his future 'home' and only seemed to scowl a bit. He didn't show any real emotion to dictate what he was feeling at that moment, but he definitely didn't look happy. His lifeless eyes scanned the ship and he thought this place was something out of a cheesy fairy tale. He wanted to believe this was a sick joke that the woman had played on him to make him go on vacation and be 'happy'. He wanted to be happy, he really did, but he was incapable of feeling such an emotion, or any positive emotion. They entered the ship and Jack gripped himself quickly as he felt the air conditioning kick in.
"Oh hello there!" A cheerful voice spoke as they were met with a happy looking older male wearing a white suit with a nametag saying, "Hi I'm Jacob, welcome to the Sacred Ship!". Jack thought that was completely ridiculous and instantly lost interest in the male.
"Hello, you must be Jacob the manager of this facility?" The woman asked the male who looked at Jack and Jack felt uncomfortable under his stare.
"That is correct! This must be Jack, how are you buddy?" Jacob spoke as he extended his hand to ruffle Jack's hair, and seeing the male's hand moving towards him, he avoided it by jumping away and this made Jacob frown, "Okay, how about a handshake?" He asked extending his hand, and Jack only looked at it if it was poisoned or something.
"I don't want to touch your dirty hand!" Jack wanted to yell, but the words wouldn't come out of his mouth, and he stood there staring at the man's hand who then quickly retracted it.
"His case is more drastic than you let on," Jacob said as he then told them he would give them a quick tour before Jack would have to return to his room.
Jacob led them around the ship, and began talking on and on about how old the ship was and when the ship was built, but Jack turned the man out as he seemed to go into a daze as he was admiring the area around him. He felt hollow inside and he knew he should feel happy that he was getting help. That someone was going to make all the painful memories and his past disappear, but he wasn't able to feel anything. He was beginning to believe that no one was actually going to help him, and that they had sent him here to be kept away from society because he was truly a monster. This thought made him stop and causes the two adults to stop as well and look at him.
They began speaking his name, but he was too deep in his own thoughts to even hear him. His eyes began to water as tears swelled in them, and he realized that what people had said about him was true. He was a monster. He was a freak. He didn't belong in normal society, because he wasn't normal. He gripped his head and went to his knees with mental pain. The pain that his parents put him through rang true. When they told him no one loved him, no one cared about him, he was nothing but a disaster, and he deserved to die.
He began to believe everything they had told him, and he began crying and the woman walked over, but hesitated to touch him. He realized that he was a bad boy and deserved to be punished, he deserved to be kept away, and this thought just made him cry even harder. Jacob placed a hand on Jack's shoulder and this caused Jack's head to shoot up as he glared at the male and moved away from him. Jack thought the male was actually going to abuse him, and he believed that he was just like the others. Jack didn't want to be hurt, and even though he knew he deserved it he knew he had to run. So he got up and ran off.
He ran through the hallways of the ship passing other patients and people who were aboard the ship. He ran all the way down to what looked like a resting room, because it had a large window and couches and a couple televisions. It had began to rain outside again, and instinctively he sat down and hugged his knees as he watched the rain outside. He couldn't stop crying, and he just wanted all the pain to go away. He took out the pocket knife he kept in his pocket and placed the blade against his skin closing his eyes.
"Don't do it," A female voice spoke quietly and this caused Jack's head to shoot up and he noticed a girl who looked his age. She had flowing blond hair, but it looked as if she had just woke up. She had crystal blue eyes, but Jack could tell that they had a lot of pain behind them. She was wearing normal clothes. A pair of black UGGs, a long black skirt, and a white shirt with a black cardigan over it, "I know it hurts, but please don't do it," She spoke again as she moved towards Jack and Jack got scared as he began to get up and leave, "Don't go," She said and something about this woman made him sit back down again.
"Who are you?" He wanted to ask, but now more than ever the words wouldn't come and he just looked at the girl with blood shot eyes. She walked forward slowly and kneeled beside him before realizing it was okay to sit and she hugged her knees too.
"My name is Daisy," She said and Jack didn't reply, but he felt it was odd that she'd have such a feminine name for being a patient on this ship. She knew that he wouldn't reply, and she didn't push him any more. She just sat there, "You look like you've been through much more than me, and it's obvious that it had affected you drastically. People here push to hard, but I will make sure that they never overwhelm you," Daisy said, and Jack refused to believe that she actually cared, because there was no way that someone would actually care. He could feel that she would use him for some reason. He just sat there staring at the woman and she smiled a bit before Jacob and the woman ran in.
"Jack! Thank god you're all right!" The woman said running over and tried to hug Jack who rolled away and stood up moving away slowly.
"Daisy? You're supposed to be in your room getting ready for orientation. What are you doing here?" Jacob asked her and she looked at Jack.
"So his name is Jack," She said to herself before she turned to Jacob, "I was getting ready, and then I saw Jack running and he was obviously upset. Jacob, I've been here a while and don't ever seem to understand people. You can't push people, and Jack is obviously a special case. I don't know what he's been through, but just leave him alone. Alright?" Daisy said and Jacob scowled at her.
"Miss, please wait outside," Jacob said as the woman left, and he turned to Daisy and slapped her. Jack's eyes went wide and moved back even more, "Daisy, you never seem to listen. I am not a doctor, I don't have to be nice to disobedient rats like you. You listen to me, I don't have to listen to you!" Jacob said to Daisy who had fallen from the slap and he turned to Jack grabbing his arm, "And you are going to your room. I will not chase you anymore!"
Once the man had touched Jack's arm he had an instinctual reaction to him, and he grabbed the male's arm and used all his force to flip the man onto his back. Then he took off once again as he opened the door and ran right past the woman outside. The woman looked utterly confused as Jack ran away. She walked into the room and saw the girl on the floor and understood what had happen. She scowled and left the room looking for the boy who had recently ran away. She couldn't believe that she sent him to a place where he would get abused even more.
Jack was now spiraling and he couldn't even understand what was happening. He was becoming more and more delusional as he ran through the halls. His eyes blinded the tears of fear and confusion. He couldn't understand how this place was supposed to help him if the staff hit their patients. He knew people couldn't be genuine he knew he couldn't allow people to enter his walls. He had to close up, he had to get away, he was bad, and he didn't deserve even the luxury of these amenities even while getting beat. He had to get off this boat.
In midst of these insane thoughts he bumped into a large man, and he looked up as the towering man stood over him. He cried even harder as he raised his hands preparing himself for the hit that was bound to come, but the man just chuckled and he opened his eyes to see a large African American man stand over him, and his name tag indicated he was the owner. The male watched as Jack got off the ground and Jack couldn't look the male in the eye.
"My, if it isn't Jack, what are you doing running around here by yourself?" The male had a gentle voice, but Jack backed up as his eyes even looked more lifeless than other.
"Jack! We're getting out of here now! We can find you a better home," The woman spoke as she approached Jack and looked towards the man, "Oh, you're the owner of the facility?" She asked eying the man up and down.
"Miss! It's not what you think!" Jacob said running towards them as he noticed his superior his demeanor changed, "Oh, how unexpected, hello Mister Sacred " Jacob said looking extremely nervous.
"Mister Sacred , how can you call yourself a man who wants to help children, and have employees who hit the patients you seek to protect?" The woman yelled at the man.
During this whole argument Jack stood apart even more confused about what was going on. People were yelling, people were fighting, and he thought it was his entire fault. He had done it again and he caused peopled to be angry at each other and at himself. He was nothing but a disaster and he finally, finally accepted it. Holding his head trying to hold back the memories of all the times people had hurt him, and all the times people had abused him. He thought if he even deserved to be alive. His eyes once again filled with tears and for once he showed the only emotion he could muster. Saddness. With this he began to cry as he slid down the wall crying.
"Jacob, we've discussed this already. You lay another hand on a child, and you're through. You're fired! Plus, Kayla was better suited for the job as the manager than you," said Mister Sacred
They all finally noticed that Jack was crying, and Jacob for once looked genuinely concerned and he moved near the boy, and kneeled beside him. They all allowed him to get near because he looked genuinely caring, but that care quickly changed when he backhanded Jack who took the hit falling over. He had lost all the feeling he ever had, and he was officially closed off. Before getting dragged off by security Jacob grabbed a handful of Jack's hair and brought his ear to his mouth.
"You deserved everything that you got. You're hear because you deserved it. You're nothing but trash and no matter where you go, or what you become, you'll always be trash," Jacob whispered into Jack's ear before getting dragged off by the boat's security.
Jack felt nothing, absolutely nothing. He lied there on the ground his eyes wide open as he just watched everyone called his name. He knew he was trash, he knew he wasn't worth living, but, and only but, he knew that he didn't deserve death. Not because he didn't want to disappear, but because death would be too easy for him and he deserved to suffer more than this. He slowly got off the ground and looked at the owner who said he'd lead Jack to his room, and now that Jack had finally realized that this was his life. He closed his eyes and shed a single last tear before following the male.