Hello, lovely readers!
We got a bit touchy feely between our couple during the last chapter, didn't we? The feelings are emerging and they're getting closer, folks! This one is the aftermath, and we get a deep look into Ellie's head. It's a bit of a broken chapter, but hopefully it flows alright and makes sense to you all. Hope you enjoy!
Lilygirl95 – The last one was a shocker in the sense of the two of them getting closer, but also Seth finally speaking his mind over her and Randy. Glad you enjoyed it.
BeckyLynch'sTheme – I had to throw Zahra in for dramatic effect haha! Thank you for the continued support.
Tantoune – It's wrong for him to flirt with a taken girl… but we all know we want it to happen!
Sexy mexy666 – Thank you!
Dutchangel1979 – I know what you mean, its like 'you can't do it now… but it's about bloody time!'
Beautifultragedyxxx – It's the way her mind works. Randy has blinded her and his abuse controls her more than she realises. But at least Seth stood up for himself and spoke his mind. It means they're one step closer to being together.
MsConCon – I needed to show the chemistry they clearly have, so I'm glad it worked. It's just a constant build on their relationship and it's clear to see they are getiing closer and closer. I don't think it'll be long now until the big moment…
Guest – Aw, so glad you liked it
SisterAbby – Very intense. Everything is building for Seth now. He clearly wants this woman and I know it won't be long until he finally gets her.
This chapter is named after 'Can't Stop The Rain' by Cascada.
Elizabeth Chapman's Point Of View
I wasn't aware how aggressively I was sifting through my clothes to pick an outfit for Raw until Charlotte called me out on it. I was throwing dresses around, my approach a little heavy handed as I cast the ones I didn't want to wear away.
"You okay?" she asked me. "You don't seem yourself, Ellie."
"I'm fine," I said, even though that was far from the truth.
It was strange to know what I was feeling. On one hand, I was so completely confused over our almost kiss, something I refused to admit to Charlotte. Even though I knew she'd never tell Randy, the fewer people who knew the better. He'd leaned in, he'd touched me in… places, he'd made me feel more alive and turned on than I had been in years and his lips hadn't even touched mine.
It was so insanely clear now how Seth felt about me, and I knew now how I felt about him.
This led to my next emotion – dismay. I couldn't like him! I simply couldn't. I had a boyfriend for fuck's sake, one that I loved dearly and wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Yes we'd had our ups and downs, but at the end of the day we were still in a relationship and I was still dedicated to him.
But Seth gave me a new lease on life. He made my heart pound like a 16 year old girl being with her first love. He made me laugh more than I'd ever laughed before. And he gave a damn, he honestly and openly cared about me. No one had ever made me feel so loved before, and I knew I was falling for him hook, line and sinker.
His handsome face, his good heart, his generous nature. He was every girl's dream and I was seeing him as so much more than the friend he should be. And I knew he felt the same, I knew he wanted more than the friendship I'd been offering him.
But this led to my next emotion – pure annoyance and anger. Yes, my feelings had evolved for Seth, but they still burned bright for Randy, and Seth had no fucking right to comment on my relationship with him! How dare he tell me to leave him, how dare he call Randy the things that he had. Seth was the one trying to involve himself in a relationship that was none of his business, so wasn't he the bad guy?
He'd attempted to kiss a taken woman, he'd tried to lock lips with someone who didn't want to be a cheat, he was the one who was admitting feelings to an unattainable girl. And to a neutral third party, that was totally out of order.
Yes, Randy had put me through some shit, but he'd tried to make amends, something which I'd accepted. And even though Seth had helped me through those times, and even though I cared for him more than I should, the last thing he should be doing was trying to control what happened between Randy and I.
My head was confused and lost, and we hadn't spoken since I'd left the locker room after our almost kiss. This meant that thoughts and emotions had sporadically been running through my paranoid and anxious head, and we'd not had chance to talk about it at all.
Thing was, as much as I had fallen for him, anger was the more dominant emotion right now. Anger that he'd called Randy such terrible things, anger that he'd tried to kiss me even though I was with someone, anger that he was getting himself involved in my relationship.
And this anger was clear for everyone to see right now, especially Charlotte. She could clearly see I was lying, that I was far from fine.
"Has something happened between you and Randy?" she enquired.
"Nope. We're good," I said as I threw another dress to the floor.
"Did something happen with Seth then?" she enquired. "You haven't been in touch with him lately."
I had to give it Charlotte, she'd proven herself a true friend. Even though I knew I was rooming with her because Randy knew her father, she'd let nothing slip once. She'd remained loyal and kind to me, and I honestly counted her as a close and dear friend.
"The world doesn't revolve around Seth fucking Rollins," I said. "I haven't been in touch because I don't want to be in touch."
This was true, partly because I was scared to see if these feelings I had for him expanded into something more, and I was scared of how I was falling for him. But mostly it was because he'd pissed me off big time and I didn't care to see him. If he wants to act like a baby, then I could too.
Suddenly her hand was on mine, the action stopping me in my tracks. I slowly turned to look at her.
"Listen," she began. "I don't pretend to know everything that goes on with you and Seth, that's your business. But I see how close you are and I know you don't mean the words you say. You two are fantastic friends, and whatever has happened, I know you guys need to work through it."
"I'll work through it when he apologises," I argued.
"Just don't be too harsh on him, okay?" she said. "I don't know what he's done, but whatever it is, I'm sure he did it because he cares."
I sighed, looking away, continuing to sort through my clothes. "As I said, he needs to apologise first."
And I was determined to stand my ground. Seth had pissed me off in more ways than one, and until he admitted he shouldn't have done or said those things, I was keeping away.
xXx
I was waiting back stage at Raw, anticipating my next interview. It was an after match talk with Dolph Ziggler about his reaction to his fight. The match was currently still taking place with Barrett, so I ran through my questions until the match finished.
Eventually it did and he appeared, shaking my hand before we got our cue for the interview to begin. He stood behind the camera, ready to make his entrance.
"Ladies and gentleman, please welcome my guest at this time, Dolph Ziggler."
Dolph came into camera shot, a smile on his face due to his win.
"Hi there, Ellie," he smiled, running a hand through his hair.
"So tell me, how do you feel about your victory against Bad News Barrett tonight?"
"Well, Ellie," he began. "I can't say I didn't see it coming. Barrett has been on my back for weeks now." I nodded, listening to him as I held the microphone to his lips. "He's been nothing but a thorn is my side…"
And then I saw movement out the corner of my eye.
I didn't listen to the rest of his speech. I simply held the mic to his mouth and allowed him continue talking to the camera because my attention had gone elsewhere.
No sooner had Dolph begun talking to me did Seth appear a few meters behind the camera, his arms folded, watching my every move.
I could help the flutter in my stomach as I laid eyes on him, my heart melting at the sight of his handsome face. His hair was wet and pushed back, and I had to bite my lip as memories of the last time I saw him flashed into my mind.
The way he touched me… the way he pressed against me… the closeness we had… the way my body had been alight and flushed…
I wanted to moan, but I held it in, knowing I was on TV.
But Randy's handsome face soon pushed itself to the forefront of my mind and I quickly remembered why I was pissed off with him in the first place. So my teeth let go of my lip and my domineer changed.
I glared at him, his big brown eyes glaring right back, his jaw set into a tight line.
I wasn't sure why he was here, whether it was to talk to me or to put me off my interview, but I was in no mood to talk to him. I was still mad over the shit he spouted about Randy, so he was the last person I wanted to see.
He didn't exactly seem happy to see me, but he didn't seem angry. I wondered if he'd come to apologise at all over what he said. So I'd give him a chance and speak after my talk with Dolph was over.
So I turned back to The Show Off and finished my interview professionally, behaving myself until the camera man yelled cut. Dolph rushed away and Seth took a step forward towards me.
"Can we talk?" he asked.
"You going to apologise for what you said about Randy and my relationship?" I questioned as I switched off the microphone and handed it to a backstage-hand.
"No, I won't apologise for that," he said. "Because I meant every word that I said."
"Then I don't want to talk until you do," I said sternly, walking away before he had another chance to talk.
xXx
Charlotte had chosen to travel to the next city with Becky Lynch due to their on going storyline on Raw, so I was alone in my hire car tonight. I didn't mind this. I wanted the silence and solitude my own company provided. Besides, I had enough anger in me for Seth Rollins that I wouldn't want some poor unsuspecting soul in the car with me in case I unleashed my anger at them.
I drove along the freeway, rain lashing down onto the windscreen, my fingers tightly gripping the steering wheel as I drove, my head unable to comprehend the fact that Seth had refused to apologise for his words.
Randy was far from perfect, and so was our relationship. I knew he'd hurt me, and he'd put marks on my skin that no man should to a woman. But he'd apologised for that, he'd tried to make amends, and it wouldn't be right of me to not give him a second chance. He'd done bad things in the past, but he was trying to change for our future. I loved Randy, and I had to give him room to do that in order to give our relationship another shot.
And even though I had a growing relationship and feelings for Seth, I was currently in with and held feelings for Randy. I knew a Randy that Seth didn't, the kind and loving Randy who took care of me and made me feel like the only girl in the world. He had to respect that, he had to know the decision over what happened between my boyfriend and I lay solely within me.
Not him.
Me.
I understood his anger, and I knew why he said what he had, but he had to respect my decision.
This entire thing was just made so much harder by my constant growing feelings for Seth and the fact that I saw him as so much more than my friend now, my heart yearning for him more than it should be.
My head was so screwed up, nothing making sense to me anymore.
As great as it may look on the outside, my life was pretty sucky right now.
Something that was made worse as I drove off the free way, the hire car's warning light flashing, the engine making noises it shouldn't be. I frowned, hoping with all my heart that this didn't mean what I thought it meant. Sadly, it did. Slowly, I lost drive and the car eventually came to a halt on the side of the road.
"You have to be fucking kidding me!" I groaned, dropping my forehead onto the steering wheel in annoyance.
Yep, I fucking hate my life right now!
This was just what I needed, being all alone at night in a strange town where my car didn't work and it was pissing it down with rain. This was absolutely fantastic.
The engine was dead, as well as the entire car, the heating cutting off immediately. I lifted my head and watched the rain outside, the cold, wet, night air causing me to shiver. Condensation left my mouth with every breath I took and I knew I needed help and I needed to get to shelter. So I ran through a list of people in my head and decided Renee would be my best option. I wasn't talking to Seth and Charlotte was otherwise detained with Becky.
So I pulled out my phone, I hit the call button and lifted the phone to my ears. It took her five rings to answer.
"Hello?" she said in a breathy voice. She sounded busy but I needed her help.
"Uh, Renee? It's Ellie," I replied.
"Ellie? It's like 11.30 at night. Why are you phoning me when you are in the same hotel?"
"I'm not there," I explained. "I sort of drove by myself from the arena and my car has broken down. I've gotten myself kind of lost." I felt like such an idiot.
"Lost?" She asked.
"Yeah, I don't recognize where I am and my car is totally screwed."
"Ok, can you see anything around you? A building or a road sign?"
I gazed around the area I was in and noticed a big brown building a little further down the road. The large cross on the building's roof gave its identity away.
"I can see a church," I told her, feeling a little more optimistic now.
"Ok, stay in the car so you don't get wet and I'll come pick you up," she said.
"Thanks, Renee."
"No problem. See you in a while. I'll be as quick as I can."
"Ok. Bye," I said before I ended the call, resting back in my seat, hoping she wouldn't be long. I was getting colder and colder and I'd need a cosy bed as soon as I was able to get one. I wrapped my arms tightly around myself, hoping that body warmth would be enough to sustain me for now.
Only I could break down when it rained! This shit was always typical of me. The bad luck certainly showed no signs of slowing down after this.
After a short while, I saw headlights in the distance approaching me, so I sat up in my seat, hoping Renee had the heating on in her car. It came to a halt in front of mine, the driver getting out of the car, an umbrella over their head. I knew the shock on my face was pretty apparent when I saw their face.
It was Seth.
What the fuck is he doing here?
My body tensed, annoyance clear within me as he walked towards me, opening my car door once he'd reached me.
He sighed when he saw my face. "Look, I know I'm probably the last person you want to see right now."
"You can say that again," I mumbled. "Where's Renee?
"She sent me," he replied. "She's knows I'm a quicker driver and I know the area better."
"I asked for Renee," I said stubbornly.
"Well you got me."
"Just what I need," I said, letting out an exasperated breath.
He ran a hand through his hair. "Look, you don't have to talk to me, but you do need my help. It's either come with me and we get you somewhere warm, or you stay in this car all night and freeze to death."
I folded my arms and looked away, annoyed that he was right.
What other option did I have? I couldn't stay here all night. Lord knows how long this rain would last for and it was absolutely freezing. I'd be ill before the morning and that wasn't good. So it was either go with Seth or freeze. And as much as I hated to admit it, I knew I had to go with Seth.
"Fine," I muttered, getting out the car and hiding under his umbrella. "But I can't say I'm happy about it."
"I never said you had to be," he replied.
I shut the car door and Seth and I both went to the trunk to retrieve my bags. We got them quickly then locked up the car to keep it safe and secure until we could get it fixed.
"You should have said you were travelling alone," he said to me as we walked over to his car. "I'd have suggested you come with us."
"I wanted the solitude," I said as I made my way to the passenger side and got in the car, closing the door behind me. Just as I had hoped, the heating was on the car. It was so snug and warm.
"I see," he said as he entered the car. "Well look where that has gotten you..."
He waited for me to put my seatbelt on and I glared at him as we pulled away and headed down the road, driving to the hotel.
Again, a huge thanks to Lilygirl95, BeckyLynch'sTheme, Tantoune, sexy mexy666, dutchangel1979, beautifultragedyxxx, MsConCon, SisterAbby and my guest reviewer for their kind words about the last chapter.
