You Have Potential
A Buffy The Vampire Slayer Fan Fiction Story
Chapter 4:
Oh my god I was freaking out inside my head. I had just seen Spikes memory. I relived it with him, and I saw and felt exactly what he felt. I was there for this, it was the final battle, but it was after everyone except Buffy and Spike left for the school bus to take us out of Sunnydale. I never knew what happened in those last few minutes, but now I felt like I was really there. I tried to slow my heart down, standing there staring at Spike, who looked terrified.
" What the Bloody Hell was that?" He asked me.
" I don't know. Nothing like that had ever happened to me before, you?" he shook his head.
" We both relived my memory?" I nodded looking worried and hoping he wasn't angry. I didn't mean to do it, it just happened.
" It happened when I touched you" I looked at him, and he just walked closer to me.
" It happens with touch? So if you touch me you can see my memories?" I shrugged.
" I don't think so, because I helped you up in my apartment when you first came out of the necklace, and nothing happened then." He reached out and touched my shoulder, and nothing happened. He did it again, and still nothing.
" Stop that!" I slapped his hand away. " I don't know what happened. I do know that we need to find some one with answers. We need to find Buffy"
" Do you even know how to find her, or contact her?" he asked walking behind me to my apartment.
" No" I never really needed to find her or any one she contacted before. I just figured I'd live a normal life, but boy was I wrong. I tried to figure out a way to find out where we needed to go to get to her, but Spike had and idea.
" That's ok, I have a few contacts in L.A. that may know a thing or two about how to find her, or may even be able to help." I was relieved at least Spike had an idea about where to go from here.
When we had made it to the apartment I had to invite him inside.
" Spike I wish You would come in with out being asked" I smirked. " Like how I threw that last bit in there?"
" Yea , now I can enter your apartment any time I want"
" Ok, so tell be about your contacts in L.A. are they demons?" Spike smirked at my curiosity.
" Sort of…" He looked up at me as we both sat down on the couch in my living room " What do you know about Angel?" My expression grew dark and I leaned back against the couch. I did know about Angel. I knew a lot about a lot actually. After the battle was over I was sick of surprises so I did a lot of research about the slayer, her friends, and demons, as well as Vampires. A lot came up in my studies. One in particular being Angel. Angel, or Angelus as he was formally known before he was cursed with his soul from a couple of old gypsies. Once he had his soul he went crazy at first and was able to hear the voices of every kill he ever made, and fell in love with the slayer. He found out that only true happiness could only rid him of his soul, and he was evil again. After he got his soul back for the second time he made it his mission to protect the world against evil and make up for all of the wrong that he had ever done. There was something about that I didn't trust. Yes he had a soul and was good and everything, but it wasn't natural for him. Now Spike on the other hand has a soul as well ,but it is not a curse, or punishment. Before he had gotten his soul he helped Buffy ,and fought on the side of good, and went to get a soul on his own free will to prove his worth as a good man.
" Know him?" I was zoning out and missed what Spike had been saying.
" What" I looked back at him.
" I mentioned Angel and you got really pale looked scared. I just asked if you know him?" I shook my head.
" No I just know of him. I've done a lot of research and who he was come up in it." Spike laughed at me.
" I hate to break it too you love but I had done far worse in death than Angel had. I killed two slayers, hell I am known as William The Bloody, and do you even know why they call me Spike?" I smiled at him.
" I do know about you too." I sat up again, and put my hands in my lap. " After I found out who I was, I mean could become, I didn't want to live in ignorance any more. I had no one to teach me so I wanted to find out everything I could about the slayer world. I wanted to know about Buffy and all the other slayers. I wanted to learn about all sorts of demons and Vampires ,and also the ones that Buffy had faced over the years. I know that Angelus was created by Darla, and she sired Angelus , he sired Drusilla, and she sired you. You all banded together for a while causing all sorts of mayhem. I do know why they call you Spike, and William to bloody. I know all of those things. This isn't what scares me. You both have a soul am I right?" He nodded. " Well Angel was evil with out a soul, the kind of evil you wouldn't want to meet in any situation, and then he was cursed by angry gypsies with a soul. He didn't want the soul, but yet he had it and it forced him to become a better person. He fell in love with the slayer, and he ended up being her first love." I watched as Spike looked hurt at that statement. I knew how he felt about her, and it must have hurt. " I know that the only way for him to rid of the soul was to find a moment of true happiness… that he found if I'm not mistaken, in Buffy." I took a deep breath. " He went back to being the evil he was before, and Buffy had to send him to hell to save the world from him, but before he went back he got his soul back, and now he has vowed to live in redemption to make up for his evil ways." He watched me explain.
" And then there is you. You were the big bad, probably just as evil as Angel, if not more so. Over time you began to feel. You saw things as not just what you were used to you had that chip in your head so that you couldn't hurt humans. That I think gave you the ability to get in touch with your humanity again. It is what caused you to realize that you loved the slayer. You fought by her side and the side of her friends. You did this all with out the help of a soul. Something inside of you changed, and you took it upon yourself to prove your self that you could be a good man and got your soul back with no chance of it to be taken away. It's different. You both have a soul but you see why I am a little on edge about Angel?"
Spike took my hand in his.
" Well, you really did your homework didn't you?" I blushed.
" That's a bit much isn't it?"
" I may not be a big fan of tall dark and forehead, but he really may have the answer were looking for. And for the record I am still the big bad, more terrifying and evil than any one or any thing!" I got up and was about to make my self some coffee.
" Ok Big Bad would you like some coffee?" I mocked standing in front of the coffee maker.
" Yea, and I'll take it black, because that's how evil drinks there coffee!" I laughed and sat back down next to him on the couch handing him my cell phone.
He took the phone and dialed the number he remembered. While I went to get the coffee ,and heated up some blueberry muffins. By the time I had gotten back, he was off the phone.
" Well we need to make our way out to L.A. love."
" You talked to Angel already?"
" No, he wasn't available, I talked to his assistant. He will know that we are coming."
" That's Cordellia Chase isn't it? She used to be friends with Buffy ,and go to the same high school?"
" Your creepy you know that?" I smirked and sipped my coffee. " But yes." I was startling to have trouble staying awake, and Spike seemed to notice. He motioned for me to lay on his shoulder. I just shook my head.
" What just went on this big rant about how I was less scary than angel and you don't trust me enough to rest your eyes for a bit?" He laughed under his breath. I punched him in the shoulder, and it ended up being harder than I anticipated, damn slayer strength. He started rubbing his shoulder.
" Sorry, I don't really know my own strength" I was still struggling to keep my eyes open, and this time let out a yawn. I laid my head back against his shoulder, and he put his arm around me.
" Relax Alexis I wont bite you!" he teased ,but I was already fast a sleep. Spike watched me fall a sleep. " your going to be a handful aren't you?" he said knowing I was sleep but not minding either.