You Have Potential

A Buffy The Vampire Slayer Fan Fiction Story

Chapter 8:

I was able to calm down, and about to take the stage with my guitar wearing a white one shoulder lace dress that came to my knees, and a pair of white flats with a lace bow. I had my hair parted to the one side and straightened. I closed my eyes and stared at the microphone. This was a different place than I was usually used to performing in, but I could do this.

" In the company of strangers I am less than fineI am turning into wallpaper before your eyesSomehow I always end up on the wrong side of this fightOne day I will get it rightAnd I am not so hollowI have nothing left for you to borrowMaybe it's not too late For me to fly Maybe you underestimated meAnd now it's timeCause I am tired of this fireAnd I don't need your reasons whyNo more choking on regrets to keep you satisfiedI am coming up for air out of this heavy nightOh, the scenery is different when you're not so smallI think I can take this fallI am not so hollowI have nothing left to borrowAnd I am not so hollowI have nothing left for you to borrowMaybe it's not too late For me to fly Maybe you underestimated meAnd now it's timeCause I am tired of this fireAnd I don't need your reasons whyLight up the sky for me, oh I've been down too longAnd when you turn your eyes to see me, I'll be goneAnd I am not so hollowI have nothing left for you to borrowMaybe it's not too late For me to fly Maybe you underestimated meAnd now it's timeCause I am tired of this fireAnd I don't need your reasons why"

When I stopped playing I was able to take a deep breath when I heard the crowed roaring. I went got off stage and ran straight for the bathroom to calm down.

Meanwhile Mike and Spike sat at the bar watching me. The whole time I sang Neither on could look at anything else.

" I was thinking" Mike looked over at Spike. " Compared to a Slayer, and a Vampire I am pretty defenseless." Spike raised an eyebrow. He wanted to agree, but also wanted to see where he was going with this. " What I mean is I want you guys to train me!"

" Do you even know what your asking?"

" Yes, I am asking to not be defenseless, and feel emasculated by a very attractive woman." He laughed. And Spike just stared hard at him.

" That aint up to me mate… you have to ask Alexis what she thinks, I mean she's the reason your hear any way" He shrugged.

" I guess you have to ask her permission any way!" Sometimes Mike really got under Spikes skin, and instead of punching him out, he went out side for a smoke, and to clear his head.

I came back out and sat next to Mike.

" Where's Spike? My singing bored him that much he couldn't bear to stay here?" I didn't even want to order a drink I just wanted to get back in the RV and find out what ever I can about that amulet Spike came out of. Our connection had to be tied to that some how. " Ya know what I just want to go back on the RV, when you two are ready you can just meet me there." Mike was about to stop me, but I was already gone.

I walked right out of the bar, not even noticing Spike leaning up against the wall smoking. He perked up as soon as I came out.

" Alexis!" I stopped dead in my tracks once I recognized that voice, the voice that was haunting me. I took a deep breath and started walking again. " Come on Lexie wait !" I stopped again. There was only one other person who ever called me that and that was my father ,and he died may years ago. I turned around with tears filled in my eyes.

" What did you just call me?"

" Lexie!" He said again. I ran up to him slapped him across the face. He looked at me with confusion, and I went to slap him again, but this time he grabbed my hand before I could. He held tight to my hand.

" Spike… please tell me why?"

" Why what?" He questioned not taking his eyes off of me.

I let the tears fall down my cheeks.

" Never mind" I just stared at him. I tried to walk away but he still hand my hand.

" You know, I know your afraid of this spell of what ever it is ,because your afraid of what you might wish me to do ,and you think I'm loosing my free will. You think that some how with out my free will I'm just some demon." I took deep breath. " Well you want to know what I wish? I wish you would just get over your self" I snatched my arm back from him and started to walk away again, this time with every intention of not turning back around. " I wish you would just come back and let me kiss you like I so desperately want to ,and I know you do as well" I turned around and ran back over to him, and wrapped my arms around him and kissed him. When his lips touched mine again, I felt all of my senses enhance, and when he kissed me in return with so much passion I felt like my whole body would just explode right there, but then I pulled away. I backed away slowly.

" I didn't wish that! I had every intention of going back to the RV and ignoring you the rest of the night" Spike stared at the ground and then back up at me.

" I did?…I wished that!" My eyes got wider and I felt my stomach do flips.

" What does that mean?" I already knew, and I was afraid to hear it.

" Well love it looks like I can wish too" now would be a great time to research that amulet.

" But …I didn't come out of the amulet? And I don't understand." I looked at the ground refusing to look at him, because now he had control as well. I stood in front of him, and he rand his hands down my sides, to my thighs, and slowly lifted up my dress an inch. " Don't" I moaned.

" Is that what you wish?" I pushed him against the wall, pinning his arms.

" I wish you would just go back to the RV." I smirked.

" And I wish you would come with me"

We both made our way hand in hand to the RV. Mike was still in the club, so we had the place to ourselves. He led me back to the bedroom, and closed the door behind us. I lifted this black tee shirt over his head, and tried to undo his belt , but he started kissing my neck, And I lost all control over what I was doing. He slid his hands down at my sides and lifted my dress up over my head, an pushed me down on the bed. I let out a yelp, as he jumped up on the bed straddling me. I reached down and pulled off his pants with one swoop. This time I felt my hear t race so fast I thought It would explode right through me. I knew this wasn't right, but it felt that way at least.

About an hour later Mike came back on the RV, and Spike and I were so thrown I threw him on the floor.

" Alexis?" He shouted " Are you sleeping because I am pretty drunk and I need the bed." oh shit I panicked.

" Mike wait… don't come back here!"

" Why, not?" He chuckled.

" Um … I sleep in the nude" Spike looked at me from the floor with a silly grin.

" Oh… really? I don't mind at all. If you want I could come in thee and show you what a real man is" I rolled my eyes. Why is it that every guy thinks that they are the epitome of a real man? I don't know about real man but the events that just happened in here still have my body aching. I couldn't take this. I Wrapped a blanket around myself and swung the door open. I walked up to Mike and Slapped him across the face.

" I'm sorry I had to do that, but your drunk and don't know what your saying." I grabbed some fresh clothes out of my suitcase that I had brought, and went into the bathroom to get dressed.

We had stayed parked there for the remainder of the night so that everyone could get a cool head about everything that happened. I couldn't sleep so I spend that time on my computer researching that amulet. I searched all night and I couldn't find it any where. I was getting so frustrated. I laid my head against the table, until I remembered something Spike had said. He said that Angel had given it originally to Buffy. So if any one was going to know about it, Angel was. I looked up Angel Investigations on my lap top and there it was the phone number so I took a deep breath and called it.

I could feel my heart pound with nerves every time I heard a ring.

" Hello, Angel Investigations! How can I help you?" It was the voice of a peppy young female. It had to be Cordelia Chase.

" Is this Cordelia?" I asked

" Yes it is, do I know you?"

" I think you know of me. I am Alexis the potential slayer. Spike had called a few days ago…"

" Alexis… that's right! I was shocked to hear from Spike because Angel said Buffy told him he had died during that battle, but he said that you found the amulet he was trapped in and now you are sort of connected?" I was relived she sort of knew the situation.

" Yes, but I was calling because I was hoping to speak with Angel"

" Why?" she cleared her throat. " I mean he is out on a mission." I sighed.

" Cordelia, I need your help. We are on our was there now, and should be there by the end of the week. This amulet I need to know everything about it. It is extremely important." I was starting to panic.

" Ok.. Calm down. I can try to do some research and find out all I can about it. I mean how bad can it be?"

" So bad that at first I just controlled Spikes free will with wishing, I can relive his memories when I touch him… and now I have no free will either. He can now wish as well. It is only connected to us. I need to know how to break the curse of what ever it is" Cordelia was silent for a moment. I heard her breathing , but it was like she was afraid to say anything at all.

" Alexis I will have Angel call you soon"

" Thank you!"

We hung up and I laid my head down on the table until everyone else had gotten up. This made me feel a little relief but not so much because Cordelia seemed just as panicked as I was about this.

" Alexis" I looked up to see Mike standing over me. I just stared at him waiting for him to say what he needed to say. " Spike and I were talking last night. I want you to train me to fight along side of you, you know since I am in this thing with you. I am here by your side… you know to help, so I want to be useful." I thought about it and he was right. It would be a big help if he culd help fight off what ever came our way with us. I could always use more help. He was with us now. I nodded.

" Ok" I put my head back on the table, still looking up at him. " If you drive I'll show you a few things as soon as it gets dark." he smiled and then turned to drive. I needed to be positive, and keep pushing through. The only way I knew to clear my head was to sing. So I reached for my guitar, and stated to sing a song I was working on perfecting. While I tuned, Spike came out and got out some of his blood and sat down next to me.

" That stuff smells!" I made a face at him.

" It's blood.. You bought it for me. What's your problem?" I shrugged.

" No problem" I stood still for a moment deciding if I should tell him. " I called Angel Investigations, and spoke with Cordelia." He looked to me with curiosity. " She seems just as scared as I am abut this power the amulet holds against you… and I guess now me. She said she was going to have Angel call me"

" So that really is what you care about?"

" What?"

" Unloading me on Angel, and getting rid of this sodding thing that happened as soon as I came back?" Now it was my turn to get annoyed. How could he say that.

" Well yea I do kinds of want my free will back, and I hate what it is doing to you. You have none at all… not really"

" OH so your just thinking about me?"

" Why are you getting so angry? I thought you would want your free will back?"

" No, its more than that and you know it Lexie!" I wasn't going to sit here and let Spike tell me what I felt.

" Mike wants to learn everything we can teach him, and your going to help me." I stood up and sat In the passengers seat next to Mike, to get away from Spike. Spike just looked at me in awe as I walked away.

As soon as it got dark, Mike pulled off into an abandoned park. This was perfect I thought. Spacious, and leaves me plenty of opportunity to really show him a lot. WE got out of the RV.

" You want to learn? Fine I will teach you. We will start with the basics. I reached into my pocket and pulled out my trusty stake. " This is a stake. It kills Vampires, just aim for the heart and they are dusted." I started to walk further into the park, and Mike followed.

" So… that's how you kill Spike!" He laughed, but I didn't find any of it funny.

" There will be no staking of my vampire." I realized what I had just said and quickly corrected my self. " I mean this .. This vampire!" I looked around me and Spike was staring at me with raised eyebrows. He had apparently heard what I had said, but Mike didn't catch it thank God!

" Relax.. Joking!" He chuckled.

" Lesson number one you may be thinking in any situation that this isn't really happening ,and it couldn't be real. It is Always real, and it is always coming after you." I began pacing around the park. " Another thing you need to remember is instinct. You have it, I have it , they have it. You have to always do what your instincts tell you to do, they wont steer you wrong. Know in what situation, who has the power." He kept nodding. " So right now there is a vampire on your tail. Who's got the power?"

" I do ,because I have the stake" He said looking at the stake that I still had in my hand.

" Wrong the vampire does, your running for your life." He rubbed his forehead, and sighed. " Now Mike I want you to run"

" What?"

" Run!" He started running and soon Spike was behind him chasing him. Until Spike knocked him to the ground, and leaned over him. He turned into his Vampire form, and Mike shielded his face.

I walked over to them. Spike got off Mike.

" You cant be afraid of their true form, or your will die." I held out my hand and helped him up. We did this role playing for about a half an hour.

" Instincts Mike !… what are they… know them … feel them and then do." Mike was starting to catch on.

" Ok I'll show you how it's done!" Spike looked at me and I nodded. Spike and I stated to fight. I showed him how to doge, and get a Vampire cornered. We went back and forth for a good while. HE was really strong, but I was stronger, is what I had to tell myself. I had him pinned to the ground. " This is the point where you have your opponent beat, and your instincts should tell you to stake him." I felt my heat racing laying on top of him like that. He just stared up at me with longing eyes. I lost my train of thought ,and forgot where I was for a moment. I started lean down, I as about to kiss him, but quickly stood up, and dusted my self off. Spike stayed on the ground.

" When do I get to dust a real vamp?" I smirked and put my arm around his shoulder as we walked back to the RV.

" When we come across one… you will know."

" I really can't dust Spike? " he asked again calmly.

" You cant dust Spike" I said just as calmly.