You Have Potential

A Buffy The Vampire Slayer Fan Fiction Story

Authors Note: I forgot to note in my last chapter that the song in there was By Saving Jane called Reasons Why, and I do not own any of the characters from Buffy, Angel, or any of the songs that Alexis sings. Enjoy!

Chapter 9:

It was my turn to drive, mostly because It gave me the chance to stay away from Spike and keep my thoughts to myself. It has been two days since we fist started teaching Mike some basics to help us. Mike and Spike seemed to be getting along, when they weren't trying to mark their manly territory. Then there were still were some moments where they wanted to kill each other. We were coming close to L.A. and I still hadn't heard back from Angel. I sighed trying to keep my self awake and went to reach for the coffee cup I had sitting in a cup holder next to me, but it was gone.

" Want to switch for a bit love?" I looked over for a second to see Spike sitting next to me holding my coffee cup. I reached out and he handed it to me.

" No, I'm thanks" I said in between yawning.

" You sure about that?"

" I just need to stay awake in case Angel Calls with information about the amulet."

" Can I ask you something?" I didn't say anything. " But you have to promise to be honest" I took a deep breath and nodded.

" I promise"

" I know you feel something for me, since I first came out of that amulet in your living room. You remembered me, but I didn't remember you."

" None of those are questions" I laughed.

" Ok smart ass I wasn't finished" He looked over at me as I drove on waiting for him to get to his point. " what I was trying to say was… I know I am a vampire, and in a lot of peoples eyes a monster." I gasped when he said that I never thought he was a monster. " You treat me like a man, just like Buffy once did, and in a lot of respects you remind me of her. I just need to know what you feel about me." I honestly didn't know what I felt, but I knew I shouldn't because I knew he was in love with Buffy. I couldn't do that to either of them. " You wanted me as much as I wanted you ,and you told Mike I was your vampire."

" I meant to say that vampire…as in you.. Your not mine" I said coldly with out looking at him, but I felt his presence. " I don't know what I feel Spike. I get what your trying to say… but its just the power the amulet has over us… you don't feel anything real for me." I could feel a rush of sadness come over me.

" How can you even say that. You believe in me enough to know that I am a good man and not a monster. You never once treated me like that. You trust me and I know you do. Its not because of the amulet, because you already felt that. I looked over at him and pulled off to the side of the road.

" Spike I'm not stupid, I know what you feel for Buffy. I am not her, even though I may still have her strength and power. You Love her Spike. Even if I did feel anything at all for you, I couldn't get in the way. It's not who I am. So there is your answer." Spike said nothing, he just sat there and stared out of the window, and I pulled back off the side of the road and drove on again in silence.

We were about an hour away from California, and I pulled into a bar.

" Ok, guys were almost there and I think we could all use a moral booster."

" A Bar?" Spike asked but I turned away.

" Yes" I forced a smile and left the RV making my way into the crowded bar. I didn't want to tell them that I spoken with a contact that might be able to help me, and I was to meet him in here. It looked like a biker bar, but I didn't care. Mike ran up to me and grabbed my shoulder.

" Why are we here? Alexis I am worried abut you!" I pulled out of his grasp.

" There's nothing to worry about, I have to meet some one here, so just have a drink"

" About what?"

" Does it matter?" He looked at me with hurt and confusion.

" What has gotten into you?" I couldn't believe how crazy I was being. Why couldn't I just let Mike in.

" Look Mike I am sorry , but I need this connection gone before I go insane." he nodded but walked away angry. I didn't have time to pick up everyone's ego. I walked to the back of the bar and there was a small both. I saw him there, drinking a Zima. I laughed to myself, and sat down across from him.

" Ah Alexis, I had a feeling you would show eventually."

" Yea, because I called you!" I looked u pat him. " I need your help Andrew" Yes the same Andrew that was once evil, and banded together to make Buffy's life miserable. Since he had switched sides he has helped Buffy and her friends with what ever they needed. I found his number online and took advantage of his resources.

" Talk to me" I sat there and told him everything.

Meanwhile Spike was coming from outside to look for me. He had a feeling that I had a connection in here with a demon or so me other evil soul. He look around anxiously until he saw me in the back corner. He walked over to where I was then his mouth dropped open.

" This is your contact?" He pointed at Andrew

" Hi Spike" He said smirking, and looking back and forth from me to Spike.

" He knows where to find Buffy. I thought you'd be happy!" I folded my arms across my chest.

" But he's a bloody idiot! I thought you were going to talk to Angel"

" I am! Angel is going to help me with my little problem of being connected to you, and I need Buffy to help me figure out why I still have her power, and why"

" Fine I'm such a problem to you then stake me here." I rolled my eyes. He tore open his button up black shirt he wore.

" No!" I stood up and started to walk out, but he blocked me. " Spike I'm not staking you!"

" Why not? It would end all of your problems and you'd have your free will back!" I tried to walk away again, but he blocked me again.

" Spike don' t make me fight you"

" Why not?"

" Because !" I shouted and made my way out. " Andrew lets go!" I shouted to him as he scurried aboard the RV.

" I wish you would stop and look at me!" I couldn't help but stop and look at him.

" What do you want me to say to you?" I unfolded my arms. " Andrew is going to help us find Buffy after we locate Angel, who can help us figure out the power of the Amulet. It's why were here." He was now inches from me.

" Wish you would say what you really feel for once"

" Because I'm falling in love with you and that is scaring me. I can barely let Mike in and he is my friend, let a lone you. Not to mention you are in love with the slayer and right before you turned to dust and got trapped inside that amulet she told you she loved you as well ,and that is all you wanted to do is go and find her. Don't lie to me and say you didn't because I felt it. My only mission is to get rid of you, and have the slayer fix me, and tell me what to do." I stood there in front of him breathing heavy. I didn't want to be so harsh, but it was the truth. I was in love with him, but having him around all of the time was making it harder for me, when I know all he wants to do is find Buffy. I started to sub consciously wish…

Spike pushed me up against the outside of the RV. I gasped.

"What are you doing?" He crashed his lips down on mine, I tried to push him away, but he grabbed both of my hands so I couldn't hit him, until I gave him an opening and returned his kiss. He loosened his grip on my hands and I wrapped then around his neck, and moaned into his kiss. Then he was the one to pull away leaving me breath less. He stared down at me and walked onto the RV. I just stood there trying to collect my bearings. Before I started to move again I got one of those all too familiar head aches.

Spike: Do you know what happens to vampires who don't get to feed?Giles: I always wondered about that actually...Spike: Living skeletons, mate. Like famine pictures from those dusty countries...only not half as funny.

Spike: Do you know what has blood in it? Blood.

Buffy: Look at my poor neck. All bare and tender and exposed. All that blood just pumping : Oh please!Spike: Giles! Make her stop.

Spike: What are you looking at?Buffy: The man I : Can I be blind too?

Riley: That's hostile seventeen.Spike: No. I'm just a friend of Xander's... Bugger it. I'm your guy.Buffy: This is Spike. He's um... it's a really long story. But he's not bad anymore!Spike: Hey! What am I, a bleeding broken record? I'm bad! It's just... I can't bite anymore, thanks to you wankers.

Riley: We've been looking all over the place for him - but you've known where's he's been all along. Buffy: It's not like that. Riley: Then what is it like? What's he doing here? Spike: Leaving you swabs to your dramatics, thanks. I've got my stories on the telly for that.

Riley: Do you actually think you've got a shot with her? Spike: No, I don't. Fellow's gotta do what he can, though. Got to try. Riley: You touch her, you know I'd kill you, for real. Spike: I had this chip out, I'd a killed you long ago. Ain't love grand.

Spike: Sometimes I envy you so much it chokes me. And then sometimes I think I've got the better deal. To be that close to her and not have her... To be all alone even when you're holding her, feeling her, feeling her beneath you, surrounding you, the scent of - no, you've got the better deal.

My mind kept jumping from Spikes different memories feeling his hurt, love and pain. I was on the ground in pain when I finally came too trying to catch my breath.

" No more please…" I whispered holding onto my head. I looked up to see a hand held out to me. " Please help me" Spike bent down and lifted me off the ground, and carried me into the RV.