You Have Potential

A Buffy The Vampire Slayer Fan Fiction Story

Chapter 13:

Spike and Buffy had went into a different room to talk. They obviously had a lot to talk about. I wanted to see him happy, so I had to get rid of this connection so that I can push these feelings a side.

Willow had left with her date, Buffy had said there was no use in ruining a perfectly good evening, after all Willow deserved a break, and to be with some one that made her truly happy. She hadn't found that perfect person since Tara had died. There was Kennedy one of the potentials, but after the war ended and she lost her full slayer strength he and willow would fight all of the time, because Kennedy wanted things her way ,with no room for compromise, not to mention her and Buffy would always bump heads. She dated a few other girls but none of them wanted some thing more than a one night stand. She even tried her hand in men again to see if there was still something there, but she was wrong she was completely gay, no question about that. This was her third date with Reyna, and so far so good.

Giles had asked me to come take a walk with him, and at first I was nervous then it seemed right, he was a watcher and if I had any questions he was the guy to ask. I always thought he to be very wise.

" Alexis Gray…" He said as we took a walk down the street. " Was your watcher Wade Giles?" I nodded.

" He died at the hands of one of the bringers, and he was also my God father, and guardian, when my parents died."

" I don't know if you are aware of this but Wade was my brother. I never knew you were his potential slayer, until I did some research on you. My brother and I didn't speak very much ,but I know that if you were in his care he cared for you very much." I started to remember all of the good times growing up and I really did miss him. He was really the only father figure that I had ever really known.

" I do miss him very much" If Giles kept going I would sure start to cry.

" Did he ever train you before you came here 5 years ago?" I shook my head.

" No I didn't even know who I was until it was too late. IF I would have known … maybe I could have saved him, or done some thing…" That was the only thing that I did regret growing up. It made me feel like my whole life had been a lie.

" I don't mean to bring up hard memories, what I mean to get at is." He pulled his glasses off and started to clean them nervously and when he put them back on his face he spoke again. " I mean since you have full slayer strength, at least for now until we figure out how to return your powers. I was wondering if you would like me to train you, and prepare you for certain situations?" I thought about it for a minute, and listened to Giles ask to be un official watcher.

" I guess it would be only right, I never had my watcher train me, and you are like family. In a way your like my uncle." I laughed and I got him smiling as well, as much as the English show emotion.

" I suppose that does make us family." I stopped walking and looked to Giles.

" I would like it very much if you would train me!" He nodded.

" Very well I can start training you tomorrow."

Buffy and spike had gone to the basement that was much like the one in her old house in Sunnydale. It may have been a little bigger with more training supplies.

" This feels like a dream." Buffy said to Spike as they stood there looking at each other like none of this was real and it was all part of some dream.

" I know what you mean. I thought that I had died as well. When I was brought back to life the first thing I thought about was I had to find you" Buffy walked closer to Spike slowly.

" I still don't understand I say you dust… Are you real?" She reached out to touch him, and caressed his cheek. He closed his eyes at her touch, but then flashed back to my face. He quickly opened his eyes. To see her with tear filled eyes. " Spike … I meant what I had said I think I do Love you"

" Be careful with those words love they can hurt if you really don't mean it." Spike said wrapping his arms around her.

" I want to, I really do." Spike pushed her away

" But?" He said with annoyance.

" It had been a long time, and You are still very much in my heart. I haven't been the same since you left. I just want to know if we can have some thing more than what we had before"

" Buffy…" He paced back and forth. " So how's Dawnie?" She rolled her head back and smiled.

" Dawn is studying abroad in Oxford, to get her masters in Criminal Justice. She's going to make one hell of a Lawyer"

" I believe it"

" Spike What I am saying is I want to take things slow, and see where it goes!"

" I can do that" they stood there awkwardly for a few minutes.

" So if Alexis controls your free will how are you doing anything right now?"

" We can do it telepathically. I think its because of her seer power? I'm not really sure why. All she really has to do is wish me to do what I wish. I wish what I want in my mind and it happens and it is the same thing with her. It can get really confusing."

" I bet, I can only deal with me inside my head, and sometimes that's too much." She sat down and he sat next to her, as she laid her head against his chest. They stayed down there until Giles and I had gotten back from our walk. Ten they came back upstairs.

" Buffy." Giles said as we walked in. " I want you and Alexis to meet me over at my place tomorrow. I am going to train you both. Alexis has agreed to let me train her. Since she is very much ion the demon fight with or with out your powers it will be useful." Buffy just nodded.

" Good idea. She should train with us. Until we can figure everything out."

Every one started to talk about me as if I wasn't there any more. It got to be a bit much so I walked into the kitchen, to get some thing to drink. Buffy had said to make my self at home, and to help my self to anything I wanted. So I opened the fridge and pulled out a bottle of water. As soon as I closed the fridge I saw Spike standing right there. I jumped as soon as I saw him.

" Oh Jeepers Spike you scared me!" He smirked and leaned against the fridge that I had just closed.

" I guess I still have some evil instincts inside of me." I giggled. Then we stood there staring at each other for a while.

" I found out Giles is my uncle" Spike started laughing and looked at me with disbelief.

" The man that raised me, Wade Giles was his brother, and I agreed to let him train me like he did for Buffy. "

" Oh, man that is rich." He laughed to himself. " Did you know old Rupert tried to have me killed at one point?" My eyes went wide and I tried to remember that not many people really liked Spike, or even understood him.

" Pre or Post soul?"

" Post" I sighed.

" How could he?" I was at a loss for words. " He has no idea how far you have come, and .." I walked toward the door. I turned back around to face him. I wanted to get angry and hate Rupert and tell him how good of a man Spike was, but I fought against it because it wasn't the right thing to do under the circumstances. I wanted to ask if he was able to work things out with Buffy, but it wouldn't make it out of my mouth.

" Not everyone can see the good in me like Buffy, and You" I tried to hide the frustration I was feeling.

" Well , I should get to bed and get some rest. I have a long day of training a head of me tomorrow" Spike leaned into me and was pushing the hair out of my face. I closed my eyes and tried really hard to wish him not to ,when I felt one of Spikes memories coming on as I got one of those head aches. I grabbed my head.

" Alexis!" Spike screamed and then soon we were both sharing the head ach and fell to the floor being taken away into his past.

There he stood down at an elderly woman who looked to be a little sickly. She was his mother, I could feel the love and bond that they shared. He was reading her poetry. E spoke so beautifully.

The memory jumped

Spike looked to his mother and he told her that he had the answers to everything ,and that he found a way fro them to be together forever. He turned his mother.

I saw the fear in her eyes as her very son turned his mother into a creature of the night.

The memory jumped again

It must have been days later His mother felt much better, and said that she owed it all to her son. Then she didn't needed to hold back any more she didn't have her mortal coil to hold her back. She said all kinds of hateful things to her son, about what she really felt, and I felt Spike's pain.

When I finally snapped out of it I was laying on the floor next to Spike with Everyone standing over us trying to figure out what happened.