You Have Potential

A Buffy The Vampire Slayer

Chapter 22:

I just stood in the doorway, I was stunned from what I had just heard.

" What do you mean you almost died?" Could this demon have more of an upper hand than I had thought? Meanwhile Xander walked around and looked around the room to see Cordelia sitting on a chair with an ice pack on her head.

" Well" Xander said with his hands in his pockets and walking toward Cordelia. " Now clearly Ms. Cordelia Chase is over reacting, she probably just had a panic attack" She shot him a death glare shaking her head.

" Oh, Xander Harris, like always … wrong!" She laughed and put the ice pack down.

He laughed and then stopped abruptly, and I instantly noticed the tension in the room. I walked in between them.

" Ok, enough this isn't helping" I looked from Cordelia, back to Xander. I lowered my hands and sat across from Cordelia, " What exactly happened? How do you know it was Lilith?" She sighed and put her hand on her head. She shot one more glare at Xander before she continued.

" Well, Buffy had called me and told me the situation with Lilith, and what happened with you." She looked at Buffy " At first I didn't think much of it"

" Well yea, because it didn't have to deal directly with Cordelia Chase.." Xander interrupted.

" Shut up Xander!" she shouted. " No, because I was coming here any ways to help Alexis with the spell to ride her and Spike's connection, and if she shared some sort of connection through Alexis's Seer ability I thought it best to stay low until I'm needed." She paused, leaving ample time for Xander to remark again.

" So please do tell us why you sacrificed your self to come so early when clearly it would put you in danger?" she just rolled her eyes, and everyone else including me ignored there bickering like children. I just had to concentrate on what was happening in front of me. This was why I didn't have time for personal relationships.

" As soon as I'd spoken to Buffy I had a very dark premonition. I saw that Lilith was a bigger threat that you all thought. She isn't just connected to anyone with Seer abilities, she is creating an army, for an apocalypse." I started to let voices, from her explaining fade as soon as I heard all I needed to. I felt as if I couldn't breath and all I heard was my own heart beating rapidly. Could I really handle another apocalypse, especially one where I may be responsible? I faded back to reality to catch the end of what she was saying. " Then I just figured that since she was a Vampire she couldn't affect any one in the daylight, but clearly she has a hold on Seer's in any condition."

" Let me get this straight…" I paused. " She is connecting to all Seers that she apparently made, for the end of the world? Then Why torture us if she needs us?" I asked hoping for clarity.

" We think that she may be targeting you and Cordelia, because she knows that you are working with the Slayer ,and could stop her" Giles said removing his glasses, and looking through a book. " But I will look further into it." This time Willow stood up.

" Which is why Cordelia and I and performing that spell on you and Spike tonight, we need both of you to be at your full strength." I nodded, and looked around to notice Spike was not around. I was actually relived he wasn't around to see me come back from my date, but wondered why he wasn't here.

" Good" I stood back up. " I need to do some research, and learn all I can about this baddy, especially if she can get in my head, when ever she wants."

" Alexis, are you sure your up for it?" Giles asked. " We have already hit most of the more adequate books and they don't tell us much." I shook my head and walked into the basement.

" I'm not hitting the books for my information" I needed Intel from someone who has actually faced her , whether he knew it or not. Drusilla was his sire, and he knew how weak she made her.

The basement was dark, but I knew he was down here.

" Spike?" I looked around and I didn't see him. I turned the corner coming down the stairs, and came face to face with him, and I jumped.

" Looking for me love?" He pulled a cigarette out of his pocket and lit it up. He just stared at me, waiting for me to say something.

" I need to know… how did she do it?" He looked at me with his head tilted, and raised eyebrow, looking like he needed more information from me, but I knew he really knew what I was talking about.

" I don't know what your talking about?" he walked toward me backing me into the wall. I gasped when I hit the wall. He put both of his hands on wither side of me, on the wall.

I looked into his eyes ,and had to instantly close my eyes to keep from melting into his gaze. Why did he keep making me feel this way. I took a deep breath, and pushed him back.

" Don't play games with me" I said with a stern tone. " I saw your past to know you had a personal experience with out new best friend Lilith!" I started to raise my voice. " You saw what she can do!" I pushed him again ,and backed him against the other side of the room. " How did she do it?" He sighed, and garbed my hand before I could push him again. I don't know when my anger became panic, but he seemed to notice.

" Ok," He grabbed my other hand before I could punch him, and wouldn't let them go. " Quit that!" he said calmly. "Your right. I was there when she got inside of Dru's head and made her insane, but I got her out of her way ,and off her radar temporarily." I stopped resisting , but he didn't let go. " I may have been soulless then, but I hated seeing her like that, and I couldn't bear it if I had to watch you go through it as well" he let go of my hands ,and I couldn't tare my eyes away from his.

" What?" I was making sure I wasn't hearing things.

" I saw her mess with her mind in such a way that I caught Dru trying to stake herself on couple different occasions" He looked hurt and worried.

" Cordelia said that she saw in a vision that Lilith is starting u pan army to end the world? Do you ever remember any mention of this before?" He shook his head.

" No, I don't know much, just what I witnessed, but it is possible that she did have a bigger purpose." I put my hand on the wall.

" Spike, I'm scared. She can control my will and get inside my head." He looked at me, and I laughed a little. " I just got used to you inside my head, and I can trust that your not going to try to kill me, and start to apocalypse" I wrapped my arms around him, and laid my head in his chest. He wrapped his arms around me as well, and we just stood there for several minutes.

" It doesn't scare you any more that I can do what ever I want to your free will?" I shook my head. " Though what ever I do to you, you could probably do right back to me" I giggled at how dirty that sounded and then he chuckled as well, and rubbed my back. I subconsciously moaned.

" Mmmm… that feels good" I sighed ,then realized what I had just said. I backed away and caught him staring at me, with curiosity.

" Enjoying yourself too much?" I blushed, answering his question and made my way back up the stairs.

I needed to collect myself before I went into training mode and into everyone's gazes. I scolded my self internally, and nearly jumped out o my skin when I turned around to see Xander standing there.

" Oh Jeepers you scared me!" I threw my arms around him for a hug, and I was glad he returned the hug.

" Was he useful?"

" Huh?"

" Spike… I may not like him, but if he can help us shed some light on Lilith, then… hey I'll be his best friend and even share my girlfriend" I looked u pat him smirking.

" You called me your girlfriend?" He leaned down and kissed my cheek.

" I was hoping you would be!" I couldn't stop smiling. "So… what do you think?" My head was rushing I could barely keep up

" I think I would like that very much to be yours… and no one else's!" he took that opportunity to lean down and kiss my lips.

" Well now that we had a happy moment, Giles wants you to go his house next door and practice your mental ability to fight." I sighed inwardly, and made my way over to his place.

I walked into his house, and he had handed me a blindfold. I sjut stared at it in shock.

" Um… what is this for?"

" Put this on" I was skeptical, did he lose his mind? " It is not enough that you can fight what you see in front of you. You must learn to tune into all of your senses, because sometimes you wont have them all to rely on." I shrugged and put it on.

" Ok now what?" I asked trying not to laugh.

" I want you to try to hear what is around you, what do you smell ,and what do you feel?"

" All I feel is silly. Giles how can I fight when I cant see?"

" What makes you think you will always see Lilith?"

" Touché!" All of a sudden I hear footsteps behind me and came a force behind me punching me to the ground.

" Ahh!" I fell to the ground and got back up.

" Listen to what you hear, and stop Buffy from attacking you!" I got up, and didn't seem to get it and I was getting frustrated because I kept getting knocked out. I was getting tired and it seemed useless, I needed to see. " Alexis, listen to footsteps, and sense where she is going to strike next. You have those instincts, just listen to them!" Giles shouted at me. I stopped trying to punch at the air and guess where she was, and listened for any sound. I felt gusts of air, and I could sense there was some one behind me and about to punch again, so I ducked and jumped over her, dodging her, and now I was able to block, al that came toward me. I understood now, and we practiced this exercise until I felt like I didn't have a blind fold on at all.

" Good, very good!" Giles said. I stopped and took of the blind fold and nodded.

" What if we cant beat her, and I cant really fight her off?"

" Don't think like that!" Buffy said " We will win, I always do!" I smirked and felt a little better knowing she has yet to fail in fact was the truth.

" Can we call it quits, I need to go see Willow and Cordelia for the Spell in a few hours?"

" Very well, I will see you after to make sure you are well" I nodded. I had faith in those two that they knew what they were doing.

I felt so tense and exhausted. I made my way to the guest room I was staying in and laid face down on the bed.

" So how was training?" I looked over my shoulder to see Xander standing in my doorway.

" Rough" He nodded. " I'm all tense and a little worried" He walked into the room and sat on the bed next to me.

" Well," He put his hands on my shoulders. " I can help with some of that. I do have carpenter's hands, and I do wonders" I giggled, and he stated to rub my shoulders. It was true his hands were amazing. I never realized how tense I was.

" Xander?"

" Yea?"

" Do you think that the spell will change me?"

" Why don't you ask me after and I will tell you, that you have nothing to be worried about!" I think I was more worried about what was going to happen to me when Spike was no longer in my head. I started to feel my self to relax, he moved his hands further down my back. He was now rubbing my lower back, I felt every inch of me throbbing. He was being a complete gentleman and it was making it harder.

I looked over at the clock on the wall and noticed I needed to get over to Willow's room.

" I have to go, but I will be back after, will you be here?" he nodded.

" I'll be here when you return, un harmed and better!" I smiled and made my way a couple of doors down the hall. I knocked on the door, when it creaked open to see a white chalk circle in the middle of the room. I peaked my head in.

" Come in Alexis, we need to get started, this spell is time sensitive" I walked in and felt my heart flutter as I saw Spike standing behind the door.

" Lets get started!" Willow said to Cordelia, and she nodded, looking at both Spike and I. Well here goes nothing I thought.