You Have Potential
A Buffy The Vampire Slayer Fan Fiction Story
Chapter 23:
" Lets do this" I said looking to Spike once more. He nodded at me and the feeling of doubt that I had been having went away. The room was dark , except for a few candles around the circle, and the ones that Willow and Cordelia were holding.
" I need you two to get inside of the circle, and join hands." Willow said. I took a deep breath, and followed Spike into the circle. I looked into his eyes and grabbed both of his hands. As soon as our hands met he intertwined his hands into mine, and I felt a jolt run through my body.
" What ever you do, don't let go until the spell is over or else things could go terribly wrong!" Cordelia warned walking to the south part of the circle, while Willow walked to the north part. At the sound of Cordelia's warning, I must have put a tighter grasp on Spike's hands because he looked to me and whispered.
" Don't worry love, I wont let go if you wont!" I smiled.
" I wont let go either" I nervously laughed under my breath.
Meanwhile Willow and Cordelia each had a bowl of blood that they were pouring all around the outside of the circle, as sort of a seal. I sighed, guess every real good spell had to deal with blood. Then They had stopped when the blood had run out and went back to where they started, the north and the south part of the circle. They extended their hands as if they would reach all the way around to each other. Not a moment later a bright white light appeared around the circle, and the only thing I could see was Spike I front of me. I couldn't see them but I heard them chanting around the circle, and I got that nervous feeling again when a strong wind started to push around us. I moved closer to Spike, so that now I was up against his chest, and our hands still intertwined. The wind blew through my hair and I couldn't really hear very much, but I got a strange pang in my head. I closed my eyes, to try to avoid it, but it took my inside of my own mind.
It is dark out, and I seem to be walking toward a burning pile of rubble, and all I smell is the charred smell of burnt flesh. I am walking toward the burning pile, and all of a sudden I see a body lying there. As I am digging through the rubble, I see who it is. I start to cry, letting a tear fall down my cheek. I cover my mouth. This wasn't the truth that I had known, was it? My parents died in a innocent car crash, or at least that is what I was lead to believe. Were my parents really normal? All of my reality shifted, because here lying in the middle of this burning pile was the body of my father.
" father?" I whispered through the roaring crackles. I walked closer and my face seemed to be burning up. A piece of wood came down, causing me to jump, and my fathers hand to open up revealing a necklace. I looked closer ,and then realized that I knew what this piece of jewelry my father had in his possession was… It was the same amulet that Spike had gotten trapped into ,and I had found ,releasing him from. But why did my father have it, and who were my parents really? I had so many questions. I was suddenly jolted back to reality when I saw a bright white light.
I had just had a vision from the past that didn't directly involve Spike. The spell must have worked. I came to, and fluttered my eyes open. I was still holding onto Spikes hands, except now we were both laying on the ground, still inside of the circle. The candles around us were burning out, and the light outside was coming up, thought it was shielding by heavy curtains, so Spike wouldn't burn up. I tried to sit up, looking around, seeing Willow and Cordelia sitting now cross legged in the same spot they were. They looked to be meditating. I saw both of their eyes open at once, and Willow looked over at me and smiled.
" How do you feel Alexis? I looked from her to Cordelia, and then over at Spike and nodded.
" Is it over?" Willow nodded. " Then I think it worked, I had a vision, but it doesn't make any sense." I stood up, and let go of Spikes hands, and exited the circle. Why do I feel empty?
" First I need to be sure if the spell worked." I nodded. " I need both of you to wish each other to do something."
" I wish" I started. Staring into his eyes, pleading that it worked. " that you would" I started to think about how much I wish he would kiss me, but I ended up saying something else at the same time. " dance" realizing how stupid that sounded, though I waited and he didn't dance, or kiss me.
" I wish" Spike started, also wishing how much I would kiss him as well, looking deep into my eyes. " That you would sing for me" I felt something inside of me burn, but I didn't feel the need to sing, or instantly have to kiss him. I forced a smile, and then we both turned to them.
" It worked" We both said at once, staring at each other, knowing very well what the other had wished.
" Oh thank god!" Cordelia laughed in relief.
" Now were all free will having! I think this deserves pie!" Willow said and they both walked down stairs. I needed to know what my vision meant. Who were my parents? How did they really die, and what did they have to do with that amulet?" If any one would know it would be Giles.
I knew it was early, but also knew I had to see Giles, he had the answers that I needed. I knocked three times, and he answered, with a cup of coffee.
" Ah, Alexis! How are you feeling?" He looked nervous asking me if the spell had infact worked, or messed me up any further.
" It worked" I smiled and he stepped aside letting me in.
" Why do you look so worried?" He asking looking at me skeptically.
" I need to ask you something, and I need you to be honest with me" He nodded and handed me a cup of coffee, and we both sat down in his living room.
" Quite right, you do deserve honesty. What.. Uh is it that you wish to know?" There was that word again wish.. I sighed and decided to start.
" Well sometime during the spell, I was sent into a vision from the past. Thankfully not one of Spikes, but it left me with a lot of questions." I told him exactly how the dream had gone. When I had finished he removed his glasses and got a look of reutilization on his face.
" Oh good lord!" he sat back.
" Giles, who were my parents, and why did my father have that same amulet Spike came out of? What does this all mean?"
" Very well Alexis, I do know everything." Finally some answers. I sat forward and gave him all of my attention. " When I was very young my brother and I were very close, and so were Deidre Smith, and Thomas Gray. My brother and I were told that we were to be watchers, and we didn't really respond the way that we should have responded. My brother was always the more responsible one and said that it was our duty to protect the Slayer, but I wanted to be a musician. Deidre at the time was very much involved with me, so she and I traveled the world, until I found she had a gift. She for saw visions into the future, and said that she didn't see her self with me but Thomas. I was so heart broken that I went away to England. I haven't spoken to Deidre or Thomas since their wedding, and right after she bear his child' a little girl. I found out that immediately my brother had called me up and told me that his assignment was that little girl. She was not the slayer ,but a potential, and he knew he wanted my help. I refused, still hurting." Giles stopped talking and rubbed his eyes for a moment. " Deidre had become a very gifted Seer, and she knew there was something coming , someone, and she tried to warn Wade to get her little girl out of danger ,and not train her to become what she is meant to become, and it might save her." I sighed.
" My mother was a Seer as well, is that how I got it?" Giles nodded.
" I would assume so, but then again if your meant to be something you will." I gasped, trying not to cry.
" Wait but where does the amulet come into play?"
" That amulet was made by very powerful magic, forged by Thomas Gray."
" My father was a witch?" he nodded, this was a lot to take. I don't think that I was prepared for all of this.
" He and Deidre were very powerful. She had convinced him to come up with something fit for a hero, that was more than human that had a good soul, to protect the world. They wanted to preserve that goodness until an appropriate time when it would be needed again. It was said that the champion could only be released by a wish for help, coming from great power." I listened and took it all in. Now it was all starting to make sense to me.
" Oh my god, I get it now, I get it all!" I said shaking my head , trying so hard not to cry. "I was meant to find that amulet all along wasn't I?" I laughed thinking about how funny it all was now. " I had been wishing for extra help, with my identity, and what to do with the slayer power that never went away, and soon Spike appears about of that same amulet my parents forged." I laughed. " They knew that Lilith would come back some day, and I would need help." I gasped. " Being connected to Spike wasn't holding me back… it was protecting me!" I stood up. " Is that why I feel this way?" Giles looked at me with a little worry and curiosity.
" Do you feel like the spell was the wrong idea?" I shook my head.
" No, I just now know why!" I ran back out of his house so fast and up to the guest bed room I was in so fast I couldn't believe where I was going. I saw Xander laying there staring at the ceiling. I stood in the door way smiling a him.
" Ask me" I walked toward him on the bed. " Ask me now how I feel?" I carefully got on the bed and straddled him looking down at him.
" How do you feel?" I smirked at him slowly undressing my self.
" I feel free, and full of life. I am my own person, and right now I am going to take full advantage of you!" He leaned up and grabbed hold on me rolling me over so that he was now on top of me. I squealed a little and couldn't take my eyes off of him. He leaned down and kissed me with such passion I thought I might explode. For a long time I didn't have to worry about tripping up and wishing Spike was around, and having him in the back of my head, and being sucked into his past. I was free to be with Xander with no interruptions.
Little did I know that Spike was standing in the doorway watching the whole thing.