You Have Potential
A Buffy the Vampire Slayer Fan Fiction Story
Chapter 24:
I flickered my eyes open, I could see the sun shinning in. I couldn't believe that I had just slept with Xander. Last night was great, but did I really want to jump right to having sex, because that is usually the part that guys leave. That is when I realized that he was not in my bed. He was gone. Was I right he was like other guys after all. I felt fear welling up in my stomach, and I wrapped the blanket around me and walked around my room, but there was no one there.
" Xander? Are you here?" I walked across the hard wood floor, and creaked open the door, and I saw Spike standing there turned to stone. " Oh my god Spike!" I touched the piece of rock that was once Spike and it was solid. What was going on here? I ran down the hall to Buffy's room, but when I had gotten half way down the hall I fell through the floor.
" Ahh!" I hit the ground with a thud, and looked up to see a little blonde girl about 5 now just standing over me laughing. It was Lilith!
" Silly Alexis…" She laughed again. She reached down and brought my chin up to her. " I think you're my favorite pet!"
I felt my self shaking, and I felt like I was covered in sweat.
" Alexis…" I heard his voice " Alexis?" I opened my eyes, and I realized I was in my bed again, and Xander was right next to me. He looked at me with a worried expression, and I didn't know if this was real. He reached out to touch my cheek, but I back ed away.
" Is this real?" I having a hard time breathing. Xander grabbed my hands in his, and put then to his chest. I could feel the beating of his heat and warmth in my hands. I closed my eyes and smiled.
" This is real, I am here. What happened?" I leaned into Xander and he put his arm around me.
" I think Lilith was trying to manipulate my reality, through my dreams." I looked up into his eyes ,and I told him my dream and how it mixed with my fear.
" I'm not going any where I promise, not unless you want me to" I smiled u pat him.
" I don't want you to go any where" He ran his hand through my hair and I just laid there in his arms for a while longer.
When we both managed to get dressed, it was a little passed nine am. I put on a pair of old jeans and a white tee shirt, and made my way to the kitchen ,while Xander went to clean up, and get dressed in his room. I needed some coffee, after everything. The kitchen was empty, and I made my way to make a pot of coffee, when I heard some one behind me. I put the coffee pot down ,and turned around.
" OH geez Spike!" I grabbed my heart. " What are you doing?" He shrugged, and gave me a confused stare.
" Do you feel funny?" I tilted my head
" Funny how?"
" Like you feel empty?" I shook my head.
" I don't even have time to feel anything, I have Lilith manipulating my dreams, to the point where I woke up with a gray hair, and questioning my own reality! He reached behind me into the fridge to grab a bag of blood, and stuck it in the microwave.
" Manipulate how?"
" It's like she knew exactly what I was afraid of, and brought that to life. She also said I was her favorite pet, what does that mean?" I looked him over and was glad to find he was not solid rock.
" Having yourself a nice look?" I blushed
" What?" I sighed " No, She just made me think you had turned to stone, and I'm really glad your not" I reached my arms out and hugged him, he was thrown at first by my gesture, but then wrapped his arms around me as well. " The whole thing was so real!" I said into his shoulder, and he grabbed my shoulders, and made me look at him.
" Look love, Buffy and everyone is going to find out how to block her from your mind with a spell something, but why are you telling me this and not Xander?" I stood still, and looked at him with sadness.
" I did tell him, but I wanted to tell you too!"
" Why?" I shrugged.
" I don't know, I just used to you already being in my head , I guess its just going to take time to get used to. I am sorry I bothered you!" I went back to grab my coffee, and continued to ignore Spike. He left the room, to go back to Buffy's bedroom, where he had been spending his time. I sat alone in the kitchen drinking my coffee.
" Rough morning?" I looked to up to see Mike sitting down across from me. I grinned, drinking my coffee.
" Something like that!" He looked behind me,
" Is it Spike?" I looked up at the mention of Spike.
" Is what Spike?" I almost spilled my coffee nervously setting my mug down.
" Alexis, you cant be this thick, I mean you have to know?" I just looked at him with even more confusion. " Ok, may be you don't realize it, because you are you!"
" What is that supposed to mean?" He laughed in defense
" Nothing just that something the only things you see are right in front of your face." I wasn't liking where this conversation was going. " Ok I guess I'm going to have to simplify it for you. For years I came to watch you sing, and even rearranged my schedule so that I was working on days you would show up. Alexis I have always had thing for you, you're my best friend. I know who and what you are, and I still want to be here, and I always will be. I also know that as long as I have known you and as many people as I have seen you with, I have never seen you give your heart to any one , until there was Spike" I gasped.
" Mike, I'm with Xander, you know an actual relationship, more than a fling, and you only thought I had something with Spike because of that connection we shared since he came out of that amulet" He shook his head.
" Did you convince your self?" I sighed.
" What makes you think.."
" Alexis I don't think I know, I see the way you two look at each other, even though you are with some one else. I don't like the guy, but I get how you feel when you look at him it's the same thing I feel when I look at you"
" I don't like you that way Mike, I never did, you were always just my best friend as well, the only friend I had." He nodded.
" I figured as much" I smiled, and we both smiled in unison. " don't worry I wont say anything, I just"
" I know" we both sat there in silence enjoying each others company. It felt good that I could talk to some one else about how I felt.