Hello. Sorry it's taken a while for another update. I was readying myself for the show I went to on Sunday. In short it was amazing; I met Juliet Simms (again), and now have a permanent smile on my face. She is by far my biggest inspiration in life, so I was ecstatic meeting her again.

Stolen Hearts

Spencer's P.O.V

I'm not sure what is worse about being in love, the fact that no matter what that person has a piece of you, or knowing that no matter how much you want to you just can't let that person go. Now that I've listened to everything Ash had to say, I know even more that I couldn't let her get up and just walk out of my life, no matter how much she hurt me.

"So, you really hurt me. I won't sugar coat that, because I've been broken. I tried so hard to forget you, to hate you even, but I never could. I tried getting rid of everything that could remind me of you. All of it, all the memories, I threw under my bed. I really hoped that would help me forget, but it didn't."

I don't even know why I'm explaining myself to her. I'm positive she feels bad enough, but maybe for once, she needs to hear it. She's always had this signature puppy pout, and right now, it's on full force.

"It was like the more I hid everything, the more I wanted it. Everywhere I go somehow, you're there too. And no matter how much it hurt that you and Aiden had something, it hurt even more that you completely left me in the cold, when my brother was dead. I needed you so much right then and I get losing Aiden sucked, because that was yet another death added to my list, but God Ashley. You just ran away, like you seem to always do when something gets too hard."

Well, it's true, she does run. Sorry if I'm being harsh but the girl broke me.

"I get that Spencer, I run all the time, because I don't know how to deal with things. But guess what Spencer, I'm right here. In freaking nowhere Ohio and you want to know why? Because when you moved after prom, you took my heart with you. I have a bad track record, and I am so sorry for everything I have put you through, I'm sorry for every time I ran. But here I am Spencer, and I'm sure as hell not going anywhere."

She's right. She's here, she did come. I don't want her to be right; I want her to be wrong. It would make this so much easier. I would be able to just send her away, which is what I should do. But we both know I can't, I wouldn't.

"You're right, and I'm so glad you're here don't get me wrong. It's just hard, I mean, I've wanted to have this conversation with you for the past month. Except, in my head it all played out easier. It was me yelling, me doing the talking. In my version, you weren't this girl."

Now I honestly have no idea what I'm trying to explain. No idea how I feel. Everything is just blank at the moment.

"What girl? A girl who cares about you? I've always, always cared about you. That is one thing that has never, and will never stop."

"No, that's not what I mean, not at all. I don't even know what I did mean… I don't know why I keep talking."

"I told you I'd leave Spence, and I will. As much as it hurts, I'll leave so you can forget."

No. Forget? That can't ever happen, who are we trying to kid? We can sit here and bash and spill our souls, but one thing we will never change is the fact that we will always remember. Every moment, every conversation, that will always be embedded in our minds, and she knows it.

"You don't get it at all do you? We won't forget it. Yeah the memories will fade a bit, but we both know that everything I am will always be engraved into your mind. Just like you're in mine. Everything else can fade, and everything around us can change, but we won't ever be able to forget each other."

I've never yelled at her like I just did. Hell, I've probably never yelled at anyone like that. It's like the times your mom or dad yells at you for something you did, and I mean REALLY yells. But then later they come in and apologize, not because they were wrong to yell, but because they love you. They tell you that everything they do, including yelling, is because they love you. I never really understood that, until now. I'm not yelling at Ashley because I'm angry, I'm yelling because I love her, and she needs to hear everything I have to say.

"I don't want this. I didn't come here to make you upset, even though I do deserve to be yelled at. You're right, I won't forget you, and I sure as hell don't want you to forget me, but you kind of gave the impression that you wanted to forget. You'd be better off forgetting. You'd have less hurt, I always mess things up. But I'm trying here… I'm trying hard."

She's trying. With each tear she sits there crying, I finally see she really is trying. I wasn't the only one who was broken… was I?

"I know Ashley, I know you are. I'm sorry, and don't tell me not to apologize because I'm going to anyway. I only thought of myself these past however many minuets, and I forgot that everything that has happened doesn't just affect me. It broke you too didn't it?"

She doesn't answer me. She's trying so hard not to cry in front of me, she always thinks she needs to be strong. That's where we are so different. But maybe that's why we're so perfect. We really are perfect, even if I didn't want to see it.

"Where do we go now?"

Good question Ash. Where do we go?

"I'm not sure. But I do know I'm not letting you leave."

Ashley just looks up at me and starts smiling. Then she starts singing, out of nowhere…

"You think the battle's won, no use for shields and guns.
You'll need them now.
That the lump takes a home in your throat,
With the words that you're choking as you try
To tell yourself it's ok flying by time to gaze but never face.

Your stuck in the moment when you thought you were rolling but you can't move on
you feel like you're able to love past the moment but you can't move on asking why.

Ask me why I can't move on."

She's always been able to sing. It's amazing really how effortlessly everything just flows from her mouth. She's always so amazing in what she has to say to, it's like in song she gains a confidence that I couldn't even begin to describe to anyone.

"Why Ash, why can't you move on?"

[Ah so there is the new chapter, it kind of is horrid I apologize. It was harder to write this chapter then I had originally thought. Oh and I will love you FOREVER if you know what song Ashley was singing, without looking it up. Because if you have to look it up, it's totally cheating.]