You Have Potential

A Buffy The Vampire Slayer Fan Fiction Story

Chapter 34:

I sat up and tried to hide the fact that I just saw Buffy Die. In the end the slayer and I both die I guess, but one the other half that leaves the mission complete and the world saved. I mean that was our job after all; to protect and serve … then die and another is born. I sighed as I walked through the house trying to conceal my fear. I wasn't afraid to die, but it wasn't fair. Buffy had died twice, yet I barely lived at all.

My head was pounding so hard from the back to back premonitions and the Lilith mind swap, so I went in search so some Aspirin.

Spike and Xander were still sitting in the room together, but neither said anything, they both now knew my secret, but neither wanted to admit it. It was still something I was trying to process. Occasionally they would look at each other awkwardly, or just stare in general.

Suddenly the door burst open and Angel walked in with Cordelia followed behind him. They stopped dead in their tracks to stare at the duo staring at each other. Angel and Cordelia looked to each other and shrugged.

" Do you two need to get a room?" Angel laughed looking back at Cordelia, who looked at the too.

" God Xander don't tell me your into Spike too?" Cordelia joked still standing in the door way with Angel. This snapped the two out of there glare. They looked away at the same time.

" OH look its Cordelia Chase… who had nothing witty to say at all!" She nervously folded his arms and leaned back on the couch he was sitting on. She walked past Angel and stood in between Spike who was sitting on the floor and Xander on the couch.

" Shut up Harris, you and Spike looked as if your in some sort of Romance trance, what else are we going to think?"

" EW! " Both Spike and Xander said and once. Angel made a face and walked in the living room as well.

" What were you two…" he shook his head " Never mind I don't want to know" He put his hand to his head. " Where's Buffy?" Spike stood up and stood in front of Angel.

" Funny how that's who you ask for?" she smirked shaking his head at him.

" Buffy called me, and Cordelia here she said she needed our help with the demon possessing Alexis" He folded his arms.

They stared each other down for several minutes before Spike backed down and told him she was down stairs in the basement with Willow and Giles researching the potion that was given to the m by Gabriel. He sauntered past him shaking his head laughing as he walked past to him self.

" Well" Spike said " I need a nice hot cup of blood" And with that announcing he left the room to leave Cordelia and Xander stuck in a room together. She sat down on the couch next to him nervously, and looked over at him.

" So" She said

" So" He replied smiling at her.

" So, look if you really are into dead evil Vampires now… who are guys I am sorry I made that comment" He looked up at her and started to laugh.

" How do I say this nicely?" He searched for the right words. " Hell no!" He scratched his head. " Why would you of all people think that I was … well gay… and hot for Spike?" he laughed a little more. She laughed a little too and shrugged.

" Well what else am I supposed to think? I mean you two were just staring at each other with out blinking, or moving , it looked like you were ready to jump each others bones!" She looked offended as she explained playing with the hem on her dress nervously.

" Perhaps that we hate each other so much that we were deciding who was going to kill who first."

" Please" She laughed harder. " Like you could kill any one!"

" I asked Alexis to marry me, but she didn't answer me because she is in love with Spike" She looked at him, half already having a feeling of such. He sighed. " And I think he loves her too even though he claims to love Buffy so much… or maybe he loves them both?" He leaned back against the couch and opened up to Cordelia about the situation. " I don't know Cordy… I'm starting to think that I might have really been cursed by Anya when she came out of revenge for me cheating on you back in high school with Willow" Cordelia was leaning closer to Xander and she felt bad for him. " I mean now it all sounds so ironic. Willow is now gay, I fell in love with the demon who was sent to curse me and now she's dead, and now I find some one else l love and she is in love with the evil dead vampire, who wont ever go away." He paused closing his eye.

" Xander?"

" Yea?"

" It will get better, and I am sorry" she reached out and touched his hand. He smiled at her touch and so did she.

Angel made his way to the basement where Willow, Giles, and Buffy were.

" Buffy" She turned around and walked over to Angel and leaned into him for a hug.

" Angel thank god you're here, we need all of the help we can get. We can't let Lilith completely take over Alexis, or else it's the end as we know it"

" Another Apocalypse… hmm" He laughed. " Haven't had one of those in a while" She laughed and turned back around to face the others. " What do we know?" He asked them.

" We know that Alexis's abilities are tied to Lilith as well as every seer out there. That means that Cordy isn't safe either." he nodded. " We know there is a reason she chose Alexis, but we don't know why, only that she is inside of her head already ,and she already controlled her completely once. Honestly I am surprised that she had enough strength to fight her off and win. " Angel started to walk in place for a minute then stroked his chin.

" She fought her off from inside her mind?" Buffy nodded.

" She said that once inside she could hear and feel what she was thinking and what she was going to do next ,but she fought to change that. She fought so hard she won"

" She won this time Buffy!" Giles said removing his glasses. They all knew the truth. " Who's to say next time Lilith wont be stronger and Alexis wouldn't be able to come back from it?" Buffy glared at him and slammed her fist into the wall.

" We aren't going to kill her! There has to be another way!" This time it was Buffy and her watcher who were having the angry staring contest.

" Buffy your not looking at the bigger picture!"

" I'm sorry Giles but I am not a killer and I wont do it. I am going to find a way to save her." They went on like that for several minutes. That is until Willow and Buffy calmly explained everything to Angel.

I sat on my bed with my head in my hand s thinking about everything. How was I going to save Buffy. If I had to die in the end the least i could do was save her… for Spike. If this was one thing I couldn't do it was tell Buffy about how she was going to die.

I heard a knock at the door.

" Come in" I shouted through the door. And I wasn't surprised at who was knocking. I was actually terrified because now my secret was revealed to him for sure.

" What is it Spike?" I looked up and he came to sit next to me on the bed.

" I need to ask you something and I want you to be honest with me." I nodded. I had nothing to hide now.

" I promise"

" Earlier you asked me how you felt about Xander, because you were questioning your feelings as well as his. You had implied that you were in love with some one else, but didn't say for sure." He looked at me ,and I couldn't look away. " You had implied that some one else may be one of the reasons you needed time to think about Xander's proposal to you… and that person it is me isn't it?" I felt my heart race when he nailed it right on. How could I admit that and hurt so many people because of it, but it was true.

" Spike…" I tried to get it out. " I do love you, but I tried so hard not to"

" Why?"

" Why what? " I felt kind of hurt when he said that. " I just fell for you I don't know?" I got frustrated now and wanted to be just left alone.

" No, why wouldn't you just tell me how you felt why would you want to fight it?"

" Because I know how much you love Buffy, I have seen and felt it, and letting my self love you I would not only be hurting you but hurting Buffy as well, and I cant do that." He reached out and grabbed my hands and I squeezed his as he held tight.

" Lexi…" He whispered and I closed my eyes to feel his presence next to me.

" I'm going to die" I tried to laugh through tears. " And the funny thing is I get to die like the slayer ,but I never got a chance to become her"

" Aren't you?" He questioned. " I mean you have slayer strength and powers. There is another slayer out there; Faith." He looked at me smiling.

" So your saying I could be the third slayer, there is only supposed to be one!"

" Think about it love, has any one heard from Faith since right after we defeated The First?" I stopped to think about it. He did have a point. Faith insisted on going her own way. Buffy and the rest of the gang went to L.A., but once the rest of the potentials including me went back home, Faith just sort of disappeared.

" But we don't know that she is dead, and that that is the reason that I still have …" I shook my head. " No…" I looked up at him and reached into my pants pocket for my phone to dial the number that she had given us for her many years ago.

The wireless number you are trying to reach is no longer in service.

" Maybe she changed her number?" I looked at Spike still trying to figure out if he was right about me being the slayer after all.

" It's you love… Alexis you're a vampire slayer!"