You Have Potential

A Buffy The Vampire Slayer Fan Fiction Story

Authors Note: I am bringing this story back from the dead, and hope to finish it soon... sorry to keep you all waiting and in the dark. I hope you enjoy! I do not own anything about this story!

Chapter 38:

A cage... trapped in a cage, unable to move or say anything just watch as an evil bitch takes over my body, my life, and the world. It felt like I was suffocating, and the harder I tried to fight my way out of it the weaker I became. Lilith was unconscious but I was alert in my lifeless body, just hoping that the gang can fix this before she comes back and takes her revenge.

Spike sat down on the cot in the basement staring at me, hoping that there was another way to save me, but he knew I was right the only way to save me was to kill me. The rest of the Scooby's agreed to re do the mind transmogrification spell to put the connection with Spike and myself back, but we don''t know how bad Lilith is going to fight back, that I may not make it through, or Spike might be able to control her long enough to kill her, but it would kill me as well.

"I'm sorry love" he lit up a cigarette because it was easier for him to deal if he had a distraction. "Some protector I turned out to be huh?" Spike scoffed again just looking at my floating, unconscious body. "I wish things were different" He stood up after several minutes with me and made his way upstairs with the others.

Cordelia and Willow were busy setting up for the ritual. It entailed drawling a red circle of blood and some Latin symbols to trap a demon inside the circle,so that Lilith couldn't move until the spell is complete. Willow was reading the spell quietly to herself when Reyna walked in, distracting her girlfriend to look up.

"Hey Rey, just give me a minute..." Willow looked over at Cordelia,and they both waved their hands in the air, and whispered an incantation that caused the room to be engulfed in a bright white light and then slowly fade away. Willow smiled closing the spell book in her hands and turned around. "OK, now I can talk."

"Buffy wanted me to come up here to tell you that we should do it now before Lilith wakes up, and stops us."

"Right... we have no time to waste... unless Spike knocks her out again?" Willow asked hopeful but both Cordelia and Reyna both stared at her shaking their heads. "Ok... or not" She chuckled to herself. Reyna ran back down the stairs to the others.

"They are ready" She said simply, and stared at Giles who was busy cleaning his glasses in the corner of the room. Buffy was the first to stand up, and pace the floor.

"This is it, it's show time!" Buffy presented herself as strong and confident but in reality she was afraid. Lilith wasn't like anyone they had ever fought before. "Xander grab the potion that I Gabriel gave us, and meet us upstairs." He nodded and then Buffy turned to Spike. "Go upstairs and get into the circle, I'm going to get Lilith" Spike paused looking Buffy over as if she was crazy.

"Don't you mean Alexis?"

"No" She replied coldly. "She isn't Alexis anymore, she is pure evil... until we destroy that part inside of her, Alexis isn't Alexis ,and she doesn't stand a chance."

"How can you, of all people say that?" Spike wasn't convinced fully that I couldn't be saved, he was the only one who hasn't given up hope. Buffy and Spike just stared at each other for a moment, but what she said next really shocked Spike.

"Do you love her?"

"What?"

"Spike... Do you love Alexis?" He ran a hand nervously through his hair. Everyone already knew it but admitting it to Buffy was like a stab in the heart.

"Yes" he finally said ,and she just nodded, turning down the basement steps. He couldn't tell if she was upset, happy, or relieved, she remained emotionless. This only made Spike more nervous for what was yet to come. Spike turned to go to the circle and prepare for the spell, just as Buffy said he should do, while Buffy walked down the stairs to the basement,still seeing I was in the same state as before; unconscious, and un moving.

Buffy sighed looking at me.

"I'm sorry Alexis" Everyone seemed to be apologizing to me lately. "If there is any way to save you for him... I will try." She knew about me and Spike and she wanted to do the same thing I did; save the woman he loves so that he could live on and be happy, but instead of Buffy, it's me? I was stunned, I wanted to argue and say..no it's you two that are supposed to be together in the end not me,and wanted to hug her,but unfortunately I'm stuck in this cage inside my head.

Buffy slowly untied my restraints, and carried me upstairs. It would have looked rather odd had it not been for slayer strength.

Slayer, that was another word that keeps popping up. I was the slayer now, If only I had known before, maybe I could have tried more, or made more of a difference. I tried too hard to fight it and live a normal life, when I should have been embracing my destiny. This wasn't fair, I didn't want to die, at least not yet.

Buffy laid my body down inside of the circle. This time it had to be a bit different. I couldn't stand on my own, in this state, so Spike picked up my lifeless body ,and held my close to him. It felt so nice to feel him one last time. As Buffy slowly backed up, nodding to Spike, she got in the circle with everyone else. Willow stood to the north, and Cordelia to the south, completing the circle. Willow started chanting, and her hair and eyes turned bright white. A white light surrounded the circle, and Cordelia joined in chanting.

I felt my body rustle, from inside of me, Lilith was waking up. Spike felt my body move, and he quickly looked down at me. He was hopeful that it was just me, but he was wrong when my eyes opened revealing dark black eyes, and an evil smirk.

The spell wasn't over yet, and they had to keep going, Spike had to keep her occupied. Spike held tight to my body so she couldn't escape him, she soon realized she couldn't leave the circle because of the spell that was performed. Lilith emitted a shrieking evil giggle, causing everyone to realize the beast had awaken.

"Keep going!" Willow screamed out in between chants. "Do not stop!" then continued chanting again.

Lilith knew something was up, and started fighting against it, screaming ,and trying to break Spikes grip on her.

"Let go Vampire!" She screamed. "I'll destroy her from the inside out!" Would she really destroy me? I thought I was the one true vessel she needed. Then again she has an army of seers.

"Lexie, I'm going to save you!" This just caused Lilith the giggle uncontrollably.

"Silly goose, I'm not Alexis, but I am going to Kill her!" As the spell progressed a tight wind engulfed the two of us inside of the circle. I tried to fight through to the surface, like the last time, but she was stronger.

"No!"

"Yes!"

"Listen to me, Lexie I know you're still in there fighting tooth and nail to get out." I listened to Spike not give up hope on me and it made me fight even harder. "I love you. You are not destroying my happiness, you were really the only one who ever got me. I'm not as evil as I was intended to be, I'm a good man, and I know that now. You made me see there is good in me. You can't kill me,and you can't be happy with Xander because you love me too, I know it! I will not give up on you, because you are the one!" I had to do this, fight... fight... fight...

"Spike" I whispered, and he looked down at me slightly alarmed, she saw my eyes go back to normal, and knew it was me, I had fought her back and won... but for how long was the question.

"Lexie?" I nodded.

"I broke through ,but only for a minute, she will take back, she is pissed ,and I can feel it." I tried to take a deep breath.

"Save your strength, the spell is almost over."

"NO, Spike,I don't have that much time, no matter where you are in the spell you have to throw the potion at me and kill her, while I have her under control."

"NO! It will kill you!" I coughed, feeling the demon try to take back over. I let a single tear fall from my cheek.

"I love you Spike, but you have to do this, I have to save the world, before she destroys it and everyone in it. I know what she is planning and it's not pretty." Spike just stared at me at a loss for words ,because all he heard was that I love him too. He leaned down and kissed my lips, wanting to taste me just one last time.

Lilith was almost through, and I was barely me, my eyes were fading back to black, and my body was getting weaker.

Willow and Cordelia had just finished the spell, and everyone let go of each others hands.

"It's done!" Willow screamed, and noticed Spike unconscious in the circle, but Lilith was alive and kicking in my body, standing there smirking at everyone.

"What happened to Spike?" Buffy asked hoping he wasn't dead.

"The last time we did this it knocked both Alexis and Spike unconscious, but I guess it doesn't work on her now that she has Lilith inside of her?" Willow informed everyone. Lilith just giggled, looking at everyone, but she was pissed, because she still couldn't leave the circle.

The spell may not have knocked Lilith unconscious but it did knock me out, as well as Spike. Some how, because of our connection Spike could enter my unconscious psyche.

I knew I was dreaming because I stood up in a bright white room. I was wearing a white sundress, and I looked up to see Spike there ,also in all white; which looked very odd for him, but he pulled it off looking as handsome as ever. I slowly walked toward Spike,and he stared down at me with a curious glance, trying to figure out if this was real. I gently caressed the side of his face with my fingertips.

"Spike, it's me" HE gasped, smiling, and pulling me closer to him. I felt safe, even in the dream state.

"Did the spell backfire?" he asked hoping that I would know. I looked around, seeing nothing but a white room, and the two of us.

" I don't think it did, we are both knocked out, and you got pulled inside of my mind." I smiled feeling a bit more hopeful.

"So... Lilith?" HE asked hoping she was dead, but I shook my head.

"No, she was too powerful to get knocked unconscious after the spell." I pulled away for a moment looking into his eyes. "You have to listen to me, now is your shot, throw the potion at me while her guard is down, and if you have to... wish. She won't figure it out right away so you can probably get the slip on her , but she will. Also by the time you come to Buffy will be minutes from death. Lilith is killing her as we speak. I saw this in my vision, but you can still save her, with my blood. She has to drink my blood to save her."

"But..." I felt a tug, we were both waking up.

"Remember Spike, do not forget!"

A bright light engulfed everything,and soon Spike's eyes flickered open. Lilith was still in the circle ,but she had taken control of Cordelia and had her stab Buffy, and now she lay on the floor gasping for breath, trying her hardest to fight. Willow was knocked up in the corner, Reyna had glass through her lifeless body, Xander was clinging to the potion in his pocket ,waiting for the right time to strike. Angel was the only one still of almost full strength. Spike stood up slowly witnessing the horror round him. Lilith was paying no attention to the bleach blonde Vampire behind her she was having too much fun torturing everyone else with just her mind. Spike knew he had to do it.

"I wish you would Freeze, and turn to look at me" As the words left Spike's mouth Lilith stopped, unable to move, until she turned to look at him. She gave him a stare of curiosity.

"How did you do that?" She shouted.

Xander must have caught on to what was going on and thought this was a great opportunity to throw the potion. So he cupped the vile In his hands ,and tossed it toward me, but Spike lunged up to grab it first.

"What the hell?" Spike glared over at the boy, shaking his head, while Lilith laughed at him.

"Sorry Harris, but it has to be done right, it calls for true love,and I'm sorry but that ain't you!" Spike looked at the vile, and back at me. "I wish Lexie would come through and help me kill this demon." All we could hear was Lilith scream as the potion broke hitting my skin and causing it to bubble an boil. I hurt, but I felt her dying, as I too fell to the floor. Spike stared down at me, and watched as the black smoke that was once Lilith leave my body and fade away into nothing. We had done it, Lilith was destroyed, but I wasn't surviving, and by the looks of it Buffy was as well.

Authors Note: Cliff hanger... let me know what you think before I end it.