Sorry for the late update. I was choosing whether to start updating every three days instead of two to have more time plus my big bro only let me use the computer for half an hour yesterday because he had university projects. So I didn't get time to finish the chapter. I wanted to add more things too! =-= Any ways, enjoy. *Sniff* *sniff * poor Allen. Baka Earl! X[

PS: I don't like using ( , ) but I asked my teacher back at school and she told me to use them. I think I used them wrong though... :P

Disclaimer: I do not own D. Gray Man.

Chapter 10: Cold

It was early morning when the white haired teen stared up at the morning sky. He sat beside the window, and looked up toward the sunshine. His tears had long dried and his smile had long disappeared. His hair faintly blew along with the morning wind. It was faintly cold. His breath was visible, under the faint light. His cursed eye was still injured, but the pain had faintly disappeared already.

Allen could hear someone softly knock the door.

" Can we enter, uh, Allen was it? " He heard a female voice ask him politely.

" Allen Walker, and, it's fine... " Allen murmured. He didn't even bother to look towards the door.

Allen heard whispers for a moment.

" I'm coming in, ok? " He heard the female voice say, but this time with worry in her voice.

Allen didn't answer this time as the door quickly opened. He hid his eyes as he heard footsteps approach him. Soon he could hear as the person was placing something on the table beside him. He did not bother to look at whoever it was that entered , or at whatever it was she placed ,at the table, though the sweet smell of milk hinted him something. Allen could soon feel the warm sensation of a hand touching his shoulder.

" Are you hungry? ; It's already morning and you spent the whole night with no food... " The voice said, as soft as it could.

The hand suddenly stopped touching Allen's shoulder, as soon as it saw Allen raise his head slowly toward it. He stared up, a bit sad, at the green haired girl he had seen the other day. Ever since the first time he saw her she always carried a face of pity and concern. Something, that annoyed him a bit ,as he hated to be pitied. He already had enough with the Earl, who was supposedly making him happy right now.

Allen smiled a bit toward the green haired teen. " Good Morning uh... "

" Lenalee Lee. " She chuckled, a bit more at peace now that, the boy, had finally spoken to her.

" Lenalee Lee? " He stared at her, confused, for a bit. " So your related to the Ko- whatever guy? "

She nodded, still, with her polite smile. " Yes, he is my older brother actually. "

Allen looked at her, with fragile eyes, and dropping his faint smile. He looked back, toward the window, silently.

" Ah! And his name is Komui Lee! "

Lenalee walked beside him, and looked at the window also. " What are you watching Allen? "

" The snow... " Lenalee saw as Allen raised his right arm towards the window. It was blood red, and on it a green cross was stuck to it. She was a bit startled out of it, but hold any comment from slipping out of her mouth, as that might bring him onto more depression. She stared in pity at his eyes. That of someone who grieved a loss. Of somebody who was purely tired, but at the same time was strong enough to hold a smile.

" It's beautiful isn't it? " She smiled to comfort him.

Allen widened his eyes, and looked back at her quickly. He looked at her sad, and like if he was about to say something ,as he raised his arm toward her, but then stopped.

Allen sighed. " It's not pretty...

" Hm? "

Allen lowered his view. " It's hideous. " He gritted his teeth. " Snow is ugly, empty, sad, nothing , but a sad glimpse of nothingness."

Lenalee looked up at him a bit surprised. She looked the other way a bit sad. She quickly looked back at him and got closer to him. She placed her hand on top of his hand that was placed on the window. He looked at her quickly.

" What are you saying? " She started with a soothing voice. Her expression unknown.

" Snow is not ugly, empty, sad or full of nothingness... "

His eyes widened as he saw the soft gentle smile of the teen girl. She stared directly at his startled eyes. " In fact, snow is more like hope that gently falls to the ground to make a beautiful white carpet. "

Allen almost left a laugh out. " Those words make no sense! Hope? How could the white snow possibly give hope? ; if all it does is kill poor plants, and make us starve to death as we freeze in our cold selves. "

Lenalee's smile dropped, a bit glumly. She picked up a cup of milk accompanied by a small bowl of cereal. She smiled gently as she offered the cup of milk to him. Allen picked it up and greeted thanks to her.

" You are right Allen, snow does in fact bring about many deaths but even so..."She trailed off ,as she stared at the boy enjoy the, small, bowl of cereal. A little bit too much. She let a small chuckle out.

" I'm sorry ; I must be boring you. I'm not very good at this. "

Allen suddenly placed his spoon down. " No, it's ok. "

He smiled, this time for real, and raised his right arm, behind his head. " I feel much better now. ; thank you. " He closed his, lone, eye.

Lenalee looked up at him, quietly, for a bit ; not really finding words. She soon felt the, empty, bowl bump onto her shoulder. She looked down at him, dumfounded, as she heard the, loud, sound of Allen's stomach.

Allen's face was bright red, as he smiled nervously. " Uh - uh, Can I get 50 more bowls of this cereal ; more or less? "

" Eh! fifty! Yes we have that much, but won't that be bad for your stomach! " Lenalee widened her mouth, in disbelief.

Allen raised his hand, in defense. " Sorry, sorry I have a huge appetite! "

Allen united his hands, pleading, and closed his eyes, as he was bright red." Please, give me more! "

" H- how old are you! "Lenalee still stared down at him dumfounded.

" 15. " Allen said a bit proud of his age and with a huge smile.

Suddenly they heard the laugh of a man who seemed to hold his laughter at the door.

" Komui! When did you enter! " Allen shouted in surprise.

" Hahaha, sorry to startle you, Allen. "

Komui knocked the door that was already open. " Are you feeling well? "

Allen flinched for a second, but then quickly smiled faintly. " Yes, I'm fine. "

" Ni- san! Will this small child actually be able to eat so much! "

" SMALL CHILD! " Allen shouted in defense.

" Don't worry so much Lelalee. This is how parasitic type innocence are! " Komui still laughed.

" Huh? " Lenalee asked, a bit confused.

She looked over towards Allen, who seemed to hide his left hand. " Oh, right, I noticed earlier... " She turned glum for a bit.

" Where are we anyway? " Allen asked almost like changing the topic plus it had been bothering all this time to know. " How much time has it been since you found me? "

Komui turned serious for a bit. " We are still at China. When Lavi found you, you were still in a critical condition. That was a month ago. "

He sighed. " We had no choice but to bring you to a close hospital beside the attacked city. "

Allen held himself from going crazy. A month? No way...

" What about the people? "Allen asked as to stop himself from over thinking all that might have occurred during his sleep.

Komui hid his eyes under his glasses." There were at most 500 casualties. "

Lenalee hid her hair under her long green hair.

Allen looked back down. He seemed to murmur something unbearable but then quickly looked back up at Komui. He spoke no words but stared at him with cold fearful eyes. Komui not really understanding why.

HOSPITAL CAFETERIA

Everyone remained wide mouthed as the young child devoured 50 plates of cereal in a matter of seconds. Komui had left to sign some documents, and Lenalee went to make him some coffee.

" Can I have seconds? " Allen smiled. Worried, the men hurried to bring him 50 plates more. Meanwhile, the red haired teen had stood, smirking hugely, on the same table as Allen's. He had not said anything up till now, but still carried an annoying smirk that almost reminded Allen of the Earl's smile. Only not carried with evil.

" So this is a parasitic type innocence! " Lavi had his jaw almost dropped on top of the table.

Allen cleaned his mouth with a tissue; He looked toward Lavi, and smiled.

" It's not like I like it all that much ; it shortens my life span. "

" You know that smile of yours is starting to piss me off! " Lavi frowned.

Allen chuckled. But his smile quickly dropped, as he raised both of his hands toward his chin. " Ok, cut the fake friendliness; what is it that you want from me? "

Lavi blinked. " Your quite sharp for being such a stupid boy. "

" WHAT did you say about me! "

" Nothing, nothing so anyways - "

Allen crossed his arms. " Hmph! I'll let it go for now. "

Lavi whistled with a glimpse of irony.

" You want to interrogate me don't you Exorcist? " Allen looked at Lavi in annoyance as he began to eat his second round of cereals.

Lavi looked the other way annoyed but he let it slip. " It's nothing much, really, we are just curious as to how you are related to General Cross Marian. "

Lavi saw as Allen's expression was that of sadness for a moment., but he then quickly hid it. Allen looked at all directions, a bit concerned. He eyed the group of people that surrounded them.

" Can't we go some other place to talk? "

" How about a walk? " Lavi offered.

Allen seemed to think for a bit but then quickly nodded.

THE ARK

A young fat man walked through a vast corridor. He carried good old Lero on his arms. He hummed a soft song. He seemed cheerful as ever. He watched from the corner of his eyes as two fellow Noah's spied on him.

From behind a wall two pair of boys, one with long blond hair, and the other with short black hair, looked on the Earl. Golden guns gripped at their fingers.
The blond haired one trembled at the Earl's passing. The black haired one viewed angrily.

" Tsk! Stupid Earl! " The black haired one gritted his teeth.

" Baka Earl! " The blond haired one repeated.

" Shouldn't we help Road, David? "

" We can't, Jasdero, it is way too dangerous! "

Jasdero raised his hands towards his face. " Sniff. Sniff. "

" Stop it! We can't... we can't " David looked down a bit.

Soon tears fell from both of the boy's eyes.

" Allen! " Jasdero screamed as he fell to David's shoulder on a hug.

Road battled to look up as she heard, the creaking sound, of the door open. Everything was blurry. Her body was numb, as blood quickly splashed away from it.

" Earl... " She murmured battling to speak words.

The Earl kneeled down toward the bloody girl on the floor. He caressed her hair. " I'm sorry Road, but, after what you did, DISCIPLINE, is necessary "

" Tsk! " Road bit her lips. She held tears from falling.

" Damn you Earl, why! " Her voice raised a bit.

" Why did you sent Allen with the Exorcists! What if - What if - "

" What if he actually joins them? " The Earl finished her sentence. His tone cold as ever.

Road widened her eyes a bit. " Yes. "

" He won't. " The Earl smiled nicely.

" How do YOU know! "

The Earl sighed. He stood up. " How many times do I just have to tell you ; I trust him! "

" SHUT UP! SHUT UP MORRON! - " Road suddenly felt as she was hugged by the Earl. He raised her from the floor, as to do so.

" I'm sorry... " She felt the man tightening his grasp on her back.

Road closed her eyes. " Earl you are so crazy you disgust me " .

She grinned a bit evilly. " Though it's definitely fun at times. "

She then dropped her smile seriously again. She opened her eyes.

" But this is Allen we are talking about. He had never liked the Noah's much to begin with. He had never liked us. So, what makes you think? Sending them to the damn exorcist's side will help towards the path of a full Noah? Ha! Don't make me laugh! "

She pushed the Earl away from the hug and fell again to the blood covered floor." I am not telling this to you as fan girl Road Kamelot ; I am telling this to you as the Noah's First Child. "

Earl blinked. " He won't betray us. He has the Noah genes. "

Road felt as she almost spit out blood but hold herself. " BAKA Earl! " Some blood came out of her mouth unwillingly.

" Damn you Earl ; how come you are so blind! "

The Earl opened the door to leave.

Road felt like tacking Lero away from the Earls arms and hitting him with it." Ah! And don't you even dare hug me again fatty! "

He smashed the door tight.

Road stared in disbelief at the shut door. Now, that she was alone, she let a tear fall down her cheek.

" Allen… " She muttered till she fainted.

The Earl was surprised as he soon found Lulu and Tyki. They stood beside the door. Lulu seemed quite serious while Tyki carried a face of boredom.

" What are you doing here my children? " Earl asked innocently.

" To check Road's condition what else? " Tyki grunted.

" Calm down Tyki! " Lulu scolded him.

She took her dark glasses off. " Millennium we were just passing by and overheard a little. "

" Ah! So how much did you heard? "

" Everything. " Tyki spat out.

" Please forgive us Millennium, we were just worried about Road. " Lulu explained to him.

" Hmm. I see. " Earl threw Lero to Tyki's arms.

" Huh? Why are you giving me Lero! " Tyki asked a bit confused.

The Earl ignored Tyki's question and continued walking through the corridor. Tyki sighed. He gripped Lero on his hand.

" Hey Earl, just when is Allen going to come back? " Tyki asked indifferently.

The Earl stopped walking for a moment and turned his head towards Tyki. " When the mission is finished. "

" Hmmm. Somehow I don't fully believe this whole Allen went toward a mission thing but oh well. "

Lulu quickly reached towards Tyki's ears." That's because it's more of a test of loyalty, Tyki. " She whispered soflty.

Tyki walked by Lulu and the Earl with Lero. Lero had stood silent all this time as he could feel the tense air that surrounded the Noah. Since Allen had left with the exorcists things had changed a bit. The twins barely played anymore. Allen had always been their prank target. Road had been locked up in her room as she only wished to runaway and recruit Allen. Earl knowing this, had locked her up in her room, suppressing her Noah powers. Cyril, obviously not knowing this. Tyki seemed the same as usual but tended to ask every know and then about Allen. Lulu seemed to be more social now, something she had never done. The only thing that was still the same was Skin who didn't really care for anything that was happening. The family meals were also extremely quiet now and the left over food was thrown out. No Allen to eat it.

But out of all what most scared Lero was the change in the Earl's attitude. He had been very grumpy lately and not much of a playful friend, as he used to be. Though it pained all the Noah's, as well as himself to admit ; Truth was the Earl WAS changing and not for the better either...

He soon looked up to see Tyki greeting the twins into some casino games.

CHINA

Allen caressed his empty eye as he walked past a group of clowns. They gave away free lollypops and balloons to young children. Something that reminded him dearly of Mana. Mana had cursed his eye, something he would never forget.

Lavi had kept quiet up until now, finding the words into what to ask. He looked up toward his shoulder. Suddenly he could see Allen caressing his cursed eye. His face that of a lost boy.

He reached his arm up to him. " That eye will grow back don't worry. "

Allen looked up in surprise. " I know that already since I have lost it before, but - "

" How do I know it? " Lavi finished Allen's sentence.

" Yes. How do you know that! " Allen asked a bit forceful.

Lavi giggled. He raised his index finger with a smirk. " It's because I am Bookman! Bookman's apprentice actually."

" Huh? Bookman? Aren't you an exorcist? "

" That too but, well ,you see Bookmen are men that record information. You see I am a recorder. I am recording you as well as this war and all that occurs on it. "

Allen blinked. " I'm not quite getting it... "

Lavi petted Allen on the shoulder. " The war is composed of a fight between the exorcists and the Noah, what you carry in you arm is an innocence. People with innocence are called exorcists. You carry an innocence on your left arm so you are none other than an exorcist! One of the many members in the war. "

Lavi was going to continue his speech. He stopped abruptly as he saw Allen stop walking and pressing his fists.

Lavi blinked. " What's wrong Allen? "

Allen hid his eyes under his pure white hair. He gritted his teeth. " I - I am an exorcist? "

Lavi's mocking smile fell. " Well, yeah! As soon as you recover we are going toward the Black Order. There Hevlaska - "

" SHUT UP! "

Lavi's mouth was still wide open as his words were completely cut out. He slowly closed back his mouth and his finger fell as he stared at Allen in horror.

Allen raised his hand toward his face. " Speak one more word and I SWEAR I'll kill you! I swear it to the god damn Earl! "

Allen breathed heavily. He seemed to be scratching his face slightly almost as if he were holding himslef from actually doing the things he was saying.

" A - Allen? " For a moment Lavi stared at a different Allen he had spoken to during all this time. He spoke to a truly terrifying Allen, that just starved down at him similar to that of a raved animal that suppressed its instincts.

Allen flinched. He realized what he had just said. He quickly smiled gently. " Ah, I'm sorry! ; I didn't mean it like that, for real! "

Allen raised his hand toward his forehead. " I get nervous at times and speak total nonsense, sorry. " He laughed nervously.

Lavi saw as the boy looked the other way hiding his expression from him. " For real... "

" HE IS LYING! " Was the only thing Lavi could hear on his head.

" I'm fine really! ' Allen reassured him once more.

" Allen are you really all right? " Lavi spited out. He looked at Allen in nothing more but disbelief and concern.

Allen's smile dropped. So did his arm. He stared in front of him at the worried Lavi. He looked down at the floor glumly.

" Not really... "

Lavi exhaled a sigh. " No helping it then ; rest a bit for today."

A smile escaped his mouth. " Tomorrow we start our route toward the Black Order after all."

" Wha? - " Before Allen could ask Lavi had long continued his walk.

" Oh man! And I wanted to interrogate you today too! "

" Black Order huh… "

Allen looked back towards the circus. He then stared at Lavi's coat with crystals eyes. " I said I'm fine Lavi… " He tried to scream out but instead a soft whisper came out instead. Lavi not seeming to notice as he kept walking without flinching

" I'll always be fine, everything is ok, I just have to keep walking. " His voice trembled drily though he offered himself a fake smile.

Allen looked up toward the sky and raised his hand. " Mana, Cross, Earl, I will keep on walking. I can not forgive myself for talking like this with the Exorcists, but what else am I to do? "

" I let go of myself to Cross for a moment and now… "Allen felt as though he was about to cry again, but nothing came out. Absolutely nothing. There were no more tears to shed. His eyes were cold. " My family has abandoned me… "

The deep cold snow devoured Allen into the profound white of nothingness.

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