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Chapter 16: Nostalgia

A small finger she felt poke her sweaty forehead. A man in scientist clothes looked at her from up the bed. He's huge glasses with swirls almost falling off from his eyes. He's blond brown hair curled up in a short ponytail. Her view was blurry. Everything was cold.

She blinked in response. " J - Johnny? "

The scientist flinched as he now noticed the now up Chinese teen.

She got up from the bed. " What are you doing he - " She could not finish the phrase as dry coughs escaped her mouth. She covered her mouth with her hands.

"L- Lenalee are you ok! " Johnny quickly held Lenalee's hand.

Lenalee slowly raised her head and nodded. A small smile on her face. Johnny sighed in relief. Johnny noticed as Lenalee looked around, similar to that of when you search for somebody. Johnny blinked.

" Who are you searching for Lenalee? "

Lenalee stopped looking around the room. She looked down at her hands sighing.

" Hey Johnny, where's Nii-chan? "

Johnny's body stiffened. " Ah Crap! "

He leaned in closer towards Lenalee with a smile. " He went out to accompany Kanda on a mission. "

Johnny's smiled dropped as he noticed Lenalee's horrified face.

" Le- Lenalee? " Johnny tried to speak out before Lenalee punched her bed.

" Where did my brother go! "

" H- huh? "

Lenalee grasped Johnny's lab coat. " What happened! "

Johnny widened his eyes as he saw tears fal downl Lenalee's eyes.

" Where - Where did he go to! - " Lenalee pleaded him but was interrupted with heavy coughs once again. Johnny quickly placed her back on the bed.

" L - Lenalee calm down! There's a limit to your brother complex you know!"

" Shut up! " She slapped his hand.

" E- Eh? "

" Nii- chan NEVER goes out unless something bad has happened! "

Johnny looked the other way. " She's right. "

" So tell me... " She trailed off as she began to sob.

She raised her hand to her face. " What happened... "

Johnny kneeled down towards the teen on the floor. He patted her head and smiled. " How about we start with what happened to you? "

Lenalee seemed to paralyze at the question. " Your big bro was worried sick you know! "

She looked up at him with frozen eyes.

" That's right, I have to... "

CHINA

Lavi sighed as he almost threw himself on top of a red couch. Bookman accompanied, but instead, he sat politely. They stared up at the huge bald woman that sat on the couch in front of them. She hid her eyes as she stared down. Her hands trembled vigorously as she pressed them together. Tears fell down her eyes.

Lavi felt his heart throb. He did he's best as to maintain his composure with a cold face. Bookman sipped a cup of tea. Both Bookmen just listened silently to her response.

" I c - couldn't protect her! " She shouted in sobs.

Bookman placed the cup of tea on the table in front of them. A table that divided both of the couches.

" Who couldn't you protect? "

The woman looked up. Her face that of tired eyes. " M - Miss Anita... " She trailed off.

" Can you be a bit more accurate Mahoja? " Bookman grunted at her annoyed.

" Miss Anita and the crew! " She shouted even louder.

Lavi just looked towards the window, as he knew, that if he were to look at the woman's tears, he's heart would just rip apart.

Bookman wrote some notes on a small notebook as he heard Mahoja talk.

" And just who exactly killed them Mahoja? " Bookman continued.

Mahoja's eyes suddenly shifted from that of sadness into that of hatred. " The Noah... "

Bookman widened his eyes but kept quite. Lavi's hair almost froze up at the mention of the word 'Noah'.

" I don't know which, but there were three of them; a young man that seemed in his 20's with a black tuxedo and a tall hat, a young girl with a purple dress and a boy that seemed as if he were 16 or 18 with white clothes. "

The two bookmen could barely breath as they heard the woman unravel her story.

" All of them had gray skin and stigmata's in their foreheads, except for the teen that had three huge eyes on his forehead instead of stigmatas. " Mahoja shut her eyes tight.

She got up from the couch an bowed down slightly. " I am so sorry! But I can't remember anything else! "

She looked up at the shocked Bookmen. " Please, I beg of you... "

The woman bowed down even lower, towards the ground. " I am far too weak so please... "

Mahoja gripped on both the bookman's feet. " Please just find a way to avenge Anita and the crew for me! " Wet tears fell from her face to the ground.

" Tsk! " Lavi raised his finger quickly to his eye cleaning a small tear. Bookman looked the other way on purpose to fake he had not seen. He got up and reached towards the door. Lavi followed with his shoulder hiding his eyes.

The woman remained in her position.

" We'll do what we can Mahoja. " Bookman said without looking back. Lavi raised his face in surprise. Bookman walked out. Lavi ran after him afterward.

LONDON TRAIN

Allen Walker boarded the train once again. He laid down on the train chair. He's stomach growled.

" Damn it, I'm so hungry... " He whispered to himself raising his arm to his stomach.

" Stupid Neah made me run away from the Order to find Timcampy - "

Allen stopped for a moment in order to coordinate his thoughts. He sat up.

" Wait, wait, wait, how do I even KNOW he's called Timcampy! Why the hell is this golem golden and not black to begin with! "

Allen almost pulled his hair from his head.

" I wasted my last bit of money on this train and I am so freaking lost! "

The people faked not noticing but in between, a small boy stared directly at him. A stare of curiosity. His hair was brown and he's eyes blue. He wore a helmet in his head and stripped clothes. He held a bag in his arms.

The boy flinched as he noticed the white haired teen lowered his gaze.

" Am I really murderer...? "

Allen raised his hand towards his mouth as the thought sickened him.

" I always wondered what it would feel like when I'd kill my first human as a Noah... "

Allen half closed his eyes. " Noah..."

Allen almost felt like crying at the thought of his family. " Noah! My family! Even now I still miss them. I wanted to stay a Noah but be an Exorcist, such a moron I am! "

Allen crawled up as the nostalgic feelings began to hunt him once again. " That's all I wanted! So why? Why is it that even after finally having my wish granted, to be an Exorcist, I am still empty! "

Allen looked up at the train roof hopeless. " I'm not happy. I am not. But...why? "

A tear fell down as he gritted his teeth and hid his eyes underneath he's hair. " Why is it that even now I still keep my word...? "

FLASHBACK

Allen finally seemed to control his sobs. He got up and looked at Cross seriously. " I'm sorry Cross, you will forever be my one and only master, but no matter how I may look like, it had never been in my options to join you. "

Allen walked forward in front of Cross who had lost his balance, both for the deep cuts on his back and for the huge shock that hit him. " I am NOAH and I will not now, not ever and never till the day I die! - " Allen pointed his claws at Crosses throat.

" Be able to stand the thought of betraying my family, myself, my beliefs or my father! "

FLASHBACK END

Allen punched the window. " Even now I still keep my words Cross! " He shouted loudly startling the people on the train.

" This Exorcist bullshit haunts me! I'm ashamed, truly ashamed! All I wanted was to make sure you hated me Cross, kill you and continue with my Noah life but then that idiotic STUPID Earl just HAD to 'make me happy' and grant my wish to send me to live with the Exorcists! "

Allen was about to continue his thoughts until suddenly he felt as somebody sat beside him and put a bread in front of his face. Allen blinked. He looked beside him as to find a little boy with a helmet in his head. He carried roller skates in his arms and looked the other way hiding his embarrassment. Allen blinked once again.

" Ummm... "

" Eat it! " The boy shouted. His face turning red.

Allen looked down at the bread and then up at the child again.

" A - Are you sure about that! " Allen pointed at the bread laughing nervously.

" JUST EAT IT! "

" Y - yes! "

Allen quickly devoured the bread in one bite. He looked the other way embarrassed, just like the boy.

" Ummmm, I don't know what's up but thank you for the bread. " Allen muttered softly but the boy heard anyways. Allen was so red he couldn't even come to smile or look at the boy.

" You were sa because you were hungry right? " The boy declared.

" No! " Allen shouted even more red than before.

Allen then noticed as the boy smiled towards him instead. He raised his hand hinting Allen to shake hands with him. " Hiya! My name is Jean! "

Allen blinked. He shook hands with Jean not really catching up. He smiled politely.. " Hello there, my name is Allen Walker. "

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