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Chapter 17: Peace and grief

Kanda and Komui walked in between what seemed the ruins of some sort. There were tables, beds, ornaments, paintings and all types of common household objects scattered on the ground. The floor was covered in dust. The wall had a huge hole in it.

Komui kneeled down. He took out a tube. A tube in which he placed the dust inside. Kanda on the other hand investigated the markings on the wall. He could easily tell the cause of the explosion had been that of an Akuma's bullet. He looked back.

" Oy! Komui! "

Komui got up and looked at Kanda. " Yeah? " He said in a non caring tone.

Kanda pointed at the wall. " This was made by an Akuma. "

Komui raised his hand towards his chin. " Hmmm, then it was probably an Akuma attack? "

Kanda nodded. Komui smiled and patted Kanda's back. " Well it's decided then, Allen Walker just happened to be here when an Akuma attack appeared. "

Kanda felt like punching Komui but held himself. " That doesn't remove the fact he might be a traitor. "

Komui sighed. " What if he was just weak and couldn't stand even a level one Akuma? "

Both men blinked and looked at each other suddenly in shock. " Wait, he couldn't defeat a LEVEL ONE AKUMA! " They shouted in unison.

Kanda ched. " And where is he to top it off! Damn Beansprout! "

" Beansprout? "

" Hmph! "

BACK TO ALLEN

Allen arrived at what seemed to be a commoners home. He stared at Jean who in happiness seemed to toy with some machinery in what seemed to be his room. Allen remained wide mouthed at the huge amount of junk that piled it. He didn't speak a word as he wanted to remain polite of the child who, just hours ago, had saved him a little bit from his starvation.

Allen blinked. He looked over at Jean. He hadn't spoken a word since they arrived.

" Ummm Jean? "

" Yes? " Jean continued to screwdriver some type of black thing, not really looking back.

A sweat drop fell down Allen's head as he smiled politely. " You like to invent stuff huh? "

Jean stopped screwdriving and looked back. He offered an excite smile. " Yes! "

Jean jumped down from his seat towards Allen. " Just like my daddy Russell I want to be a scientist in the Black Order! "

Allen smiled. " Eh? That's ni- " Suddenly Allen felt Jean punch his stomach.

" Eh! What are you doing! "

Jean stomped towards the door. " Hmph! Treating me like a little kid, you jerk! "

Allen glared at Jean who walked outside. He sighed and sat on Jean's bed. He looked up at Timcampy who seemed to always be on his shoulder now.

" Damn brat! " Allen screamed loud enough so Jean could hear down stairs.

" Damn you bastard! " He heard from downstairs.

Allen stood irritated for a moment. He held himself from screaming again. " Ah- that's right, Jean saved my life... "

" I'd better be polite! " He grunted to himself in a whisper.

For a second Allen stared blankly at the air. " Now that I come to think of it, Black Order? "

Allen looked around the room curiously. There were strange box looking things with a paper beside it that read ' Finder gadgets to paralyze Akuma. ' On the wall there was a chalkboard, one in which there was a drawing of two boys, one that read Jean and the other that read Leo. Both of the boys in the drawing had squares in their arms that emanated light that paralyzed Akuma. The title of the drawing read Akuma Hunters.

Allen stared confused and a little worried. " I don't know much of the Black Order or anything about Exorcists but... "

Allen looked up at at the door. " Isn't this dangerous? "

Allen then noticed a black ball on the table. It was the object Jean had been screwdriving before. Allen got closer as to investigate. The black ball had wings and a huge eye on it. Allen picked it up quickly. He's eye's widened. A smile slipped his mouth in excitement as he's eyes glittered.

" Wha? This look's exactly the same as the thing Cross used to talk with Komui! "

Allen closed his eyes and scratched he's head. " I don't remember how it was called but if this thing works I can call and get back to the Black Order- "

Allen stopped midway on he's words. More sweats fell from the back of his head. " W - wait what am I saying? Go back to the Black Order? What am I saying? "

" What are you whispering about? "

" Eck! " The black ball fell from Allen's hands to the floor. He looked back quickly to find Jean. Jean had a plate of cookies and a glass of milk in he's hands. He looked up at Allen surprised and then down at the broken Golem. Allen stared in horror at the broken golem while he's stomach grumbled extremely loud. Jean burned with fury.

" WHAT ARE YOU DOING TOUCHING MY STUFF! " Was heard from even the outsides of the home.

Allen sat on the bed trying to hide his view as he at the cookies. Jean sat on the floor fixing the black ball. " You dumb ass, you stealer, you meanie! Who gave you permission to go snatching my precious belongings! "

" Curiosity! Curiosity Je - "

" Curiosity my ass! You were totally about to steal my golem! "

Allen blinked. " Yours? " He frowned his eyebrows and pointed at the golem. " Isn't that something that belongs to the Black Order?"

Jean punched the floor with his screwdriver." No! It's mine! My dad gave it to me so I could talk with him! "

Allen's eyes glittered again all of a sudden. " D - does it work! Can I call them to pick me up right now! "

Jean suddenly stopped fixing the golem. The Golem flew up the room. Jean stared at the ground paralyzed. The golem flew up. Allen looked up, staring in awe.

" You... "

" Eh? " Allen looked down from his shoulder. " Yes? "

Allen almost startled himself as he saw Jean stare at him in admiration. " How do you know of the Black Order? Your not wearing any robes like a Finder... " He drifted off.

Allen raised he's hand in defense. " Hey calm down, I'm a good guy! "

" Finder? What's that? "

Jean jumped on top of Allen on a hug. Allen tried to break free. " If your not a Finder, then you must be an Exorcist right! Right! "

Allen widened his eyes. " E - Exorcist... "

He looked down. " That's right, I'm an exorcist... "

Jean's smile dropped. " Allen? "

" This is the first time... "

Jean got up from on top of Allen. He walked in front of him and tried to stare at Allen's face. " Allen? A - Are you ok? First time what? " His words trembled.

Suddenly Allen got up and sat. Jean's eye's widened as he saw Allen smile innocently. A tear in his eyes. " Thank you Jean... "

" Huh? "

" This is the first time anybody has called me an Exorcist! Thank you, Jean! " Allen quickly cleaned his tear with his sleeve.

Jean blinked. " W- Wait, I was just kidding, you really are an Exorcist! "

Allen looked down at his hands. " Am I...?"

He half closed his eyes. " Nobody on the Black Order has actually told me I am an Exorcist yet... "

He then looked up at the worried Jean and smiled in reassurance.

Allen chuckled hiding his face with his forearm. Jean flinched. " What a moron I am, before I knew it, I came to instinctively think of myself as an Exorcist!"

FLASHBACK

- Allen... - The Earl said trying to hide his slight anger and replacing it with sadness - That's your innocence that's making you think that -

Allen who was looking at the floor raised his head a bit.

- Every person compatible with innocence has the natural instinct to want to be an Exorcist. I knew this day would come so it's not your fault. It's just an instinct you can overcome. - The Earl smiled even more than he could. - And I know your strong enough to overcome it... -

FLASHBACK END

More tears fell down Allen's cheek. " I am so sorry Earl! It seems as how things are now I won't be able to overcome my Innocence after all! "

" Damn you! " Jean fell down at the floor. Allen had accidentally pushed him away. Jean looked the other way.

" Umm, umm sorry if asking you if you were an Exorcist offended you Allen... "

Jean felt Allen pat his head. " Don't apologize Jean. "

Jean widened his eyes as he saw Allen kneel down towards him. " On the contrary I should be apologizing to you. "

" H - huh? "

Allen offered a deep innocent fragile smile. A smile that almost brought Jean himself to tears. " Yes I am an Exorcist, Jean. "

Jean could not find words as he could not understand a thing.

BLACK ORDER

The whole group of scientists remained wide mouthed as they heard the conversation that was taking place on Russell's Golem. Lenalee herself was dripping tears down her eyes. Their eye's were that of surprise mixed with a deep remorse and happiness. The room was silent so Jean and Allen would not notice the entire scientist group was hearing. Suddenly they heard whispers and how the communication fell.

Lenalee dropped shocked to the floor. " Allen! " She creamed out tears she had been holding.

Reever ran to hug her. He who was also crying.

" I can't believe it Lenalee! How could we have even thought he was a traitor! "

Lenalee sobs grew louder by each second. She sobbed on Reever's shoulder. " We have to welcome him! " She looked up. " We just have to welcome our new Exorcist! "

Johnny cleaned his mucus and tears with a tissue. " What is this? Why won't my tears stop! " He shouted.

Other scientist also dripped tears.

" We don't even know that boy. " Johnny continued. " But somehow, in some way, he is so pure I can't help but cry! "

Russell himself had silent tears drip down his eyes. " It's because we are guilty. "

Reever pressed Lenalee's hug. " It's because up till now, we had never actually considered him an Exorcist! "

" We just considered him a traitor we were holding down... " Lenalee whispered in sobs.

" This happiness, this peace... " Lenalee opened her closed eyes. " Why do I - no - we feel like this? "

LONDON CHURCH

Kanda hid his face as tears fell down them. Komui also. Both men were embarrassed of the sudden cry.

" What is this? " Komui muttered as he looked down.

" Che! " Kanda felt like wanting to rip he's eye out. " What the hell? How come we started to cry all of a sudden! "

Komui started to laugh. " Kanda is it only me " His hands trembled. "But don't you also feel as if..."

Komui tightened his hat. " We have just gained a new family member? "

Kanda though annoyed nodded with shyness " I can not remember the last time I felt so happy.. "

" What? Did you say something? " Komui mocked him.

" Nothing! "

Komui could not understand why but suddenly Allen's face crossed his mind. The same happened to Kanda.

ARK

Road raised her head from the bloody floor. She felt unknown tears fall down her eyes. " E- Eh? "

Her heart felt as if it were to tear apart. She felt as if she had lost something. Something so important, she could not come to put into words.

" Wha? Huh ? "

" Allen...? " She whispered. Suddenly a horrible thought crossed her mind.

" Allen! " Road sobbed on the ground not really holding herself. She tried to get other words out of her mouth but only the word Allen came out of her dry throat.

" Allen what did you do! Allen! "

" Damn this isn't good something bad... "

Tyki's cards fell from his hands by accident. He softly raised his hand towards his cheek. " A..."

He felt a wet tear. " llen? "

Jasdero and David hugged themselves in a hug. One crying on top of the other. " Allen! "

Lulu slowly closed her book. Tears fell down her eyes. She whispered unheard words.

Skin hit the wall continuously. He couldn't explain why but he was crying. " I hate to cry! Damn you Allen! "

The Earl sat on his rocking chair. He cried loudly. Wisely laid on the ground beside him, his entire body scratched. Wisely hid his tears under his hair.

" What! Huh? Allen! What did Allen do! "The Earl cried out loudly.

" Somehow I feel as though my little Allen is drifting away! "

Wisely stood quietly. The Earl looked down towards him. " Wisely! I trust Allen! He couldn't have right! "

Wisely remained silent once again. " WISE - "

" HELL SHOULD I KNOW! "

The Earl widened his eyes. Wisely got up and slapped the Earl. " WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU CRYING ABOUT! "

The Earl was about to speak up but Wisely slapped him once again. " HUH! YOU FUCKING HYPOCRITE! "

Wisely frowned and grit he's teeth. " JUST HOW MANY TIMES DID I TELL YOU EARL? HOW MANY TIMES DID I TELL YOU HE WOULD BETRAY US YOU ASSHOLE! "

The Earl could not even drop tears. " Huh? M - My fault? But he was supposed to miss us! "

Wisely burned in fury. " He does! He does miss us, like crazy too! " He looked the other way. " H - he just took it the wrong way is all! "

Wisely quickly started to sob himself. Something the Earl had NEVER seen him do. Suddenly Wisely felt as the Earl caressed his hair.

" I can't believe how little faith you have in Allen Wisely... " The Earl said in a soothing voice. Suddenly he felt as Wisely pushed him and headed towards the door.

" WHO SAID WE DON'T HAVE FAITH IN ALLEN! " Wisely lost balance and fell on the wall. " Who said... " His voice became lighter but completely covered with pain.

" Stupid Earl who in the fuck's mind said we don't believe in Allen...? "

Wisely left huge sobs out once again. He looked up with his eye's open. " Maybe it's because I can read other people's hearts but this hurts Earl... "

Wisely raised his hands at his face. " We, Tyki, Road, Jasdero, David, Lulu and even Skin - ! "

The Earl stared blankly with his huge smile.

Wisely got up and reached the doorknob. " Have ALWAYS believed in Allen! "

The Earl flinched. " Wait, Wisely if you go out threw there - ! "

" The others will see me? " Wisely looked back. He spit that out completely not hiding his irritation.

" U - uh yeah? " The Earl said softly.

" YEAH AND YOU KNOW WHAT! SCREW YOU EARL! " Wisely closed the door shut.

" Wha? Did Wisely just - "

The Earl hid his face with his hat. " Is this really all my fault? Allen... " Even the Earl was too ashamed to drop tears now.

Wisely almost jumped up as he found all the Noah, except Road, remained wide mouthed in front of the Earl's door.

" W -Wisely I didn't know you could talk like that! " Tyki said totally in shock.

Lulu, the twins and Skin exchanged confused faces.

" Who the hell are you? " Jasdero spit out with no shame.

" Jasdero! " David tried to hush him. " We don't want to make him even more mad! "

" Uhhh... " Tyki tried to find a proper explanation.

Skin looked over at Tyki. He pointed a finger at the new Noah. " Is this Allen's replacement? "

" No! " Wisely himself shouted.

Lulu raised her hand towards her chin. " I never thought the day would come you would reveal yourself Wisely. "

" You know him too Lulu? " Tyki asked not much surprised as Lulu always knew everything. Lulu nodded. Wisely rolled his eyes.

Wisely passed beside all the Noah's trying to hide his presence. " Oh God, how embarrassing! " His face grew red.

JEAN'S HOME

Allen rubbed his stomach as he ate almost the entire meal. Jean and a woman in clown clothes almost felt like puking by just staring at him. Suddenly Allen looked up as the clown woman offered him a towel.

" Why don't you take a bath Allen? "

Allen smiled. " Thank you mam and sorry I ate all the food. "

The clown woman smiled even more. " It's ok Allen, we are happy to help. "

Allen blinked. Minutes later water was falling onto his body. Allen chuckled in silence and continued his bath.

Downstairs Jean jumped up and down. The clown woman shouted, " Leo's here! "

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