Thank you so much to everyone who reviewed. I love to hear from you all. This chapter is mostly Sam angst and then after this it will get more into the supernatural stuff. So I hope that you all enjoy.

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Chapter 6:

The three of them drove in silence all the way to the motel. Sam was sitting in the front while Isabel had her arms wrapped around him from the back. Dean just kept stealing glances at his little brother. Afraid that if he said anything Sam would break. When they got to the motel Dean went to check in while Sam and Isabel grabbed the bags.

"Ok so umm how do we want to do this?" Dan asked as he walked into the hotel room.

"I'll share with Sam." Isabel said putting her stuff down on the chair.

"I'm going to go shower." Sam whispered as he walked towards the bathroom.

Dean and Isabel waited until they heard the water running.

"Dean what are we going to do." Isabel asked quietly.

"I have no idea Iz." Dean said sitting down next to her.

"I can't stand to see him like this. Dean how could this happen we were supposed to protect him. It's are job." Isabel said getting angry with herself.

"Isabel there was nothing that we could have done. All we can do now is just kill that fucking demon so that it can't ruin anyone else's lives." Dean said putting his arm around her.

"I know. I just god Dean I can't stand seeing him like this. What if this is it Dean. What if this is the thing that finally breaks are little brother?" She said with glassy eyes.

"Then we will be there for him. Sam is strong Iz he is going to make it through this and we are going to help him to do it." Dean said giving her arm a squeeze.

"I thought that you didn't do chick flick." Isabel grinned.

"Hey that was not chick flick. I was just carrying out my big brother duty." Dean defended.

"Whatever you say big brother." Isabel said giving him a kiss on the cheek and getting on the laptop.

Sam was in the shower just trying to wash away the pain from the day. It seemed like no matter how hard he scrubbed he couldn't get the smell of smoke off of his body. He knew that it wasn't really there but it didn't make it any less real to him.

The water had turned cold a long time ago but it didn't faze him. Sam was already numb. Jessica was gone and his life was never going to be the same. He had loved her so much. They were supposed to get married and have kids together. They were going to have a normal life. She was never supposed to be dragged into what his family did. No matter what anyone said Sam knew that it was his fault and he was never going to be able to forgive himself.

A knock on the bathroom door brought Sam out of his thoughts.

"Sam you need to get out of there. I know that water isn't warm anymore and I really need to pee." Isabel said.

Sam almost smiled. But he just couldn't "I'll be out in a minute Bella." Sam said turning of the freezing water.

Sam come out of the bathroom in his towel and went to his duffel.

"Sam your shaking." Isabel said touching his arm. "Oh my gosh your freezing. Sam why would you stay in the shower if the water was that cold."

"I guess that I didn't notice it." Sam said as he realized that he was shivering.

"Well get on some warm clothes and lets go to sleep." Isabel said looking at him worriedly.

"Yeah sure whatever." Sam said slipping back into the bathroom.

Dean and Isabel just shared a glance before getting into their beds.

Sam came out a couple of minutes later and slipped into the bed that he was sharing with Isabel. As much as he tried he couldn't stop his body from shaking.

"Sam stop moving." Isabel murmured in her sleep.

"Sorry." Sam whispered.

When the shaking didn't stop Isabel turned and put her arm around her little brother rubbing up and down his arm.

After awhile she heard his breathing even out and the shaking had stopped. However when she went to pull her arm back she realized that Sam had it in a death grip. She smiled to herself and used Sam's shoulder as her pillow.

Dean had been awake the whole time and couldn't help but feel pained. The two of them had something special. A bond that he would never be able to have with either of them. It wasn't that he was heartless he just didn't do the whole emotions thing. It was good to know that they would have each other. With that thought he drifted off to sleep clutching his dagger a little tighter then usual.

It was around 4 in the morning when Dean and Isabel woke with a jolt.

"What the hell was that." Dean asked looking at her.

"I have no ides. Where's Sam." Isabel asked with her eyes full of fear.

Then they heard it again the sound of glass breaking.

"Isabel go get the first aid kit now." Dean said as he ran to the bathroom. He tried to open it but the door was locked.

"Sammy open the door." Dean yelled.

He was only met with the sounds of glass once again.

"Sam open the door or I'm going to kick it in."

Dean heard the click of the lock but the door stayed shut. When he opened the door he couldn't believe what he saw. Sam was hunched in front of the mirror blood all over the place.

"Oh god Sammy what did you do." Dean asked looking around.

"I…I just couldn't look at myself." Sam said softly.

"Come on we need to get you out of here and cleaned up." Dean said grabbing his shoulders and leading him out to the room.

"I don't deserve it."

"You don't deserve what?" Dean asked.

"To live it should have been me instead Dean." Sam said looking up at his brother with tears in his eyes.

Before Dean could say anything Isabel came rushing into the room.

"Oh my god Sammy." She said taking his hand and looking at it.

"Dean I think that we are going to have to go to the hospital these are really deep."

"No." Sam said taking his hand from hers. "I deserve at least this."

Isabel went to say something but Dean just shook his head at her. They both knew that there was nothing that they could say to fix what had happened.

"Sam please just hold still and let me stitch this up ok." Isabel pleaded.

"Whatever." Sam said sitting back in the chair with his eyes closed.

Dean looked at the two of them and once again felt unneeded so he decided to go and clean up the bathroom.

By the time that Dean was done Isabel was just finishing up with Sam.

"There you go little brother. Now come on lets go back to bed." Isabel said grabbing onto his arm.

"I can't go to sleep Bella." Sam said hoarsely.

"Why not." She said crouching down so that she could look into his eyes.

"Because I see her. It happens again." Sam said closing his eyes tight to stop the tears.

"We don't have to go to sleep. Lets just go lay down buddy."

Sam nodded and let Isabel guide him over to the bed. Once she got him under the covers she turned and looked at Dean.

Dean just stood there he had no idea what to do.

"Sammy you stay here ok buddy Dean and I are just going to go outside and talk for a minute or two ok." Isabel said moving the bangs out of his eyes.

Sam just turned over in the bed. Isabel and Dean walked outside and just stood there for a moment.

"I can't do this." Isabel finally said.

"What are you talking about?" Dean asked confused.

"Dean I can't watch him slowly kill himself. What if the cuts had been deeper what if he had hit it just right?" Isabel said with tears in her eyes.

"Iz calm down ok he didn't. I don't think it will happen again. That was just his way of dealing with it." Dean reasoned.

"How can you just stand here and not care." Isabel asked angrily.

Dean just looked at her shocked and hurt. "You think that I don't care. You don't think that I'm scared by all this. My little brother is in there lying around like a freaking vegetable. And there is nothing that I can do to help him."

"I'm sorry Dean I didn't mean it. I just I just don't know what to do."

"Neither do I but Sammy needs us so come on lets go back inside."

"Your gonna have to sleep with him." Isabel said quietly.

"Whoa wait what." Dean asked taken off guard.

"Dean I sleep to heavily I didn't even know that he had gotten out of bed. You would have felt it as soon as he moved. It's just safer right now if you're with him." Isabel said rationally.

"Iz I'm all for loving you guys but I'm not about to love up on Sam." Dean said awkwardly.

"Look Dean just swallow your macho pride for a night and be there for your little brother ok." Isabel said glaring at him.

"I have a better idea." Dean said.

"Oh yeah and what is that." Isabel asked.

"We'll keep watch on him instead. I'll take the first two hours then we'll switch." Dean said satisfied with his answer.

"Fine Dean whatever lets just get back inside." Isabel said opening the door.

Sam unknown to them had heard the whole thing. He felt like such a burden. And it seemed as though his siblings were always fighting over him. It really was true everyone would be better off if he were just dead.

He was saved from his own thoughts though when he felt Isabel slip into bed next to him. He kept his eyes closed so that she would think he was sleeping. Isabel however wasn't falling for it. She grabbed Sam's shoulder and turned him around. Sam opened his eyes and was met with her tear filled ones. Isabel wrapped her arms around him and Sam settled his head into the crook of her neck and just sobbed.

"I don't care what you think Sammy. This is not your fault. I love you and I would die if something ever happened to you. I know that it must hurt like hell. But Dean and I are going to be here for you. You're our little brother and we're going to help you through this I promise. Just please don't hurt yourself again Sammy." Isabel said rubbing his back. After awhile of whispering to him Isabel could feel his breath even out on her neck.

She looked up and saw Dean looking at the two of them. Their eyes locked and Isabel immediately felt bad for anything hurtful that she had ever said to him. "I love you." She mouthed to him. Dean just nodded his head and went back to watching Sam.

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Delia