Its only been two weeks or so but I feel like I haven't updated in a year XD
This chapter is all about feelings so apologies to everyone expecting hot sex, I'm saving that for later :D
Byakuya flash stepped outside on the roof, and sat down to make himself less inconspicuous. He had no idea what to do now, what to say. Last night, he had succumbed to desire and let Kurosaki Ichigo have his way, but what next? There were a few moments in life where Kuchiki Byakuya did not know what to do, and this was one of them. What if Kurosaki Ichigo wanted a relationship? Was he ready for it? What if he didn't? Was he ready for that either? Was it just a meaningless mistake, never to happen again? He was tormented, but he knew whatever he felt inside, he would never let it slip. He could not let it out. It was taught to him from his childhood, and now had become deeply ingrained in him.
Meanwhile, Ichigo climbed down the stairs, sighing at his overexcited sister. Sometimes, he wished Yuzu was more like Karin, who was calmly sitting and sipping orange juice. It wasn't like he didn't love Yuzu, but right now he resented her interruption a little. Okay, he resented it a lot. He sat down and grabbed some toast.
"Morning, Ichi-nii." Karin said.
"Onii-chan! You'll never guess who we ran into!" Yuzu bobbed up and down with excitement.
"ICHIGOOOOO MY SOOOONNNN GLAD TO SEE YOU ALIVE!" Came Isshin's voice as he tried to kick Ichigo's head. Ichigo caught him and flung him to the floor.
"You've gotten better, my son! Daddy's proud of you!" Ichigo considered punching him, but didn't bother as he was about to leave already.
"Masakiiiii, I'm leaving! Ichigo, watch after your sisters!" Isshin yelled from the doorstep.
"Damn old man" Ichigo muttered.
"Oh yeah, Ichi-nii, where's Byakuya-San?" Karin asked, noticing his absence.
"Ehhh, don't tell me he left already, onii-chan!"
"Nah guys, he's still here, he told me he was going out."
"Yay! Anyways, listen..." Yuzu started, but Ichigo tuned her out. She was his adorable little sis but now, he really needed time to think.
"What the hell are we supposed to act like after last night? I don't think Byakuya would want a relationship, but was it just a one night stand? No, Byakuya did say that he wanted to top next time. So...that makes us fuck buddies? This shit is confusing..."
Then, another thought came to Ichigo. "What if Byakuya wants nothing to do with me? Can we pretend like it never happened? Crap, I need someone to discuss this with..."
In his mind, he ruled out Rukia because he sure as hell wasn't going to Soul Society to tell Rukia that he fucked her brother and now didn't know what to do now. She would hit him with a broom or something. "That woman's bat-shit crazy sometimes..." He shuddered as he remembered the times when he had been hit multiple times with a shoe because he called her chappy drawing crappy.
"Yeah, I'm not telling Rukia. So, Renji's left? I might as well try him, as I sure am not asking Ikkaku or Rangiku-San."
"...and so they said goodbye and left. Hey, onii-chan, were you listening?"
"Of course I was, Yuzu." He lied and ignored Karin's scoff. He finished the toast and got up to go, when he remembered he had a bedroom to clean.
"Dammit! I guess Renji's gonna have to wait..." He trooped up to clean the room.
Kuchiki Byakuya was wondering where to go. He knew he couldn't stay up here, and Kurosaki Ichigo's bedroom was not a feasible option. He knew he could walk in through the front door, but he was not ready to talk to Kurosaki Ichigo yet. He stood up, and he could see the lush greenery of the nearby park. He flash stepped down to the road and set off, hoping to clear his mind there. He was unsure about his feelings for Ichigo. He always had an inkling that the boy might've liked him more than friends or whatever it is he said they were, but he had brushed it off, thinking that even if he was right, he could never reciprocate his feelings.
But no matter what he said, something has changed, and he knew it. Whether it was for good or for bad was yet to be determined. Byakuya certainly didn't love Ichigo. He didn't feel about him the same way he had felt about Hisana. But it was due to this hot headed man that Byakuya was able to refer to his feelings for his wife in the past tense. Hisana was gone, and Kurosaki Ichigo might just be the one who had helped him accept that and move on. Move on? Byakuya caught himself thinking this. Had he moved on? If he had, was it because of Kurosaki Ichigo? He remembered his grandfather telling him: "Byakuya, one thing leads to another, and when you start overthinking something, you will never be able to look at it as you had done before." Whether this was true or not, or whether this applied to everyone or not he didn't know, but what he did know was simple: something had changed.
Okay...I'll be honest here, this was pretty much a philosophical (and short) chapter focusing on their feelings. Some of you might think it's unnecessary, but please understand that their situation is not exactly an ideal one, Byakuya being like 200 years older and dead and everything so...
Anyways reviews. favourites and follows are much appreciated! A huge thank you to everyone whom I haven't gotten around to personally thank for supporting me!
Also, exams are near but I'll try to update soon.. Wish me luck, I really need it to not fail T-T