Christmas holidays had begun. Harry found the manor was at least more comfortable then before. He and Draco at least had become friends. Harry had taken to riding in the summer. It was a mild winter so he and Draco went riding. He had even gone riding with his husband. Lucius had offered to teach him in the summer. But Severus had. Harry had not been willing to share it with Lucius. Bailey had been his one escape from his husband. He had hid in the stalls for privacy. And learned to care for horses. Riding had definitely been a better alternative for him. Harry was surprised to learn Bailey was going to be a daddy. Lucius originally bought him for breeding and one of the mares was pregnant off Bailey. Lucius told him when the foul was born it would belong to him and he could name it. Harry had actually smiled at that,

On Christmas Eve Draco's friends, well Harry's new friends, arrived. As well as Tonks and her parents. Harry was happy to see Tonks. He was reminded they were family. Tonks and her mum were Sirius' cousins. As well as Draco's family. He had not wanted to see his dads but he was happy to see them. Or he had been until Tonks came over to talk to him. She had meant to cheer him up but did the opposite.

She handed him a gift. "I am not sure if you heard but you're going to be a big brother. Sirius told Alastor he will need to be on desk and then paternity leave."

Harry stared at her in shock. "He is pregnant?"

He had known they were going to try. And he had been picturing a little sister or brother on the way. But he felt like he had been slapped in the face. He should be happy. He had wanted it. He had been all for it. But it felt like they were starting a real family. They were having their own kids. They had sold off the fake kid. He had not been good enough. He was only the child of their best friends. They needed one of their own blood. He hoped his siblings would be more loved then he was. He prayed that they did not suffer the same fate that he had. Well he did not give his dads enough credit. They would not try to get away with the same crime twice.

Tonks saw his face fall. "I am sorry Harry. Your dads told me they have been writing to you. I didn't think it would be such a surprise to you."

Harry shook away the thoughts. "No. Of course not. If you see them wish them luck. I should go and find Draco and my friends."

She watched him leave. Looking at her mum they shared a worried look. She had no idea that Harry had been sending the letters back unopened. Severus had them. Or that his dads were coming the next day to see him. She had been quite angry at her cousin. In a way she understood. She understood the contract to end the war. But she thought Harry had deserved to know before he had. And that he had deserved the choice. Her mother quite agreed with her on the subject. Lucius was low on their list as well. They had com though for Harry and Draco. Andromeda was Draco's Aunt. And since the death of his mother she was the only family with Tonks he had. She had regretted not knowing him sooner. But though Lucius was a spy her sister was not. She had been happy when Lucius had reached out after the war.

Tonks noticed she was not the only one watching Harry with his friends. Severus was from across the room. He looked quite worried as well. She had never expected that. She was under the impression the two hated each other. But she assumed Harry could use any comfort he could get.

She walked over to the man. "I mentioned to Harry that his dads were pregnant. He seemed shocked and angry. Am I missing something?"

Severus nodded. "I have a stack of letters Remus sent to me that Harry sent back unopened. He hoped Harry might take them from me eventually."

Reminded that the man was once good friends with Remus and Lily he assumed that was where the concern now was stemming from. He seemed quite saddened. He was friends with Lucius as well. Brothers really. She wondered where he came down on the topic. She had assumed he would likely come down with Lucius. She may have been wrong she realized. His comment about the letters hit home.

She pressed. "He has had no contact with his dads at all since the wedding? I know he was upset but I am surprised he would not want to have his fathers around."

Severus stopped her. "He accused them of selling him into slavery. And I can't blame him. He misses them a lot. But I think part of him is scared to even consider it."

They spoke for a time. He mentioned that Remus had been at the wedding and given his son away. But Harry had allowed no other contact. He barely allowed Remus there. Harry was struggling badly. He was dealing with the fear of this marriage. And being petrified of having sex. And so many doubts about his future. And he needed someone. Not to mention the trouble he was having with Ron. He could see Harry wanted his dads. He wanted to be able to turn to them. He wanted that comfort and support. But he was so badly hurt by what they had done to him. The wounds had not healed. And he was frightened to death of getting hurt again.

Tonks shook her head. "I offered to bring a gift from them with me but they turned down my offer. I assumed they would try sending one on their own."

Severus surprised her. "The twins are not Lucius' only invite. Harry's dads are coming tomorrow morning. But after your news I am even more worried now."

He had been concerned how Harry would take having them there. He had told Lucius to tell Harry they were coming. But of course Lucius had not listened to that. The news would make it harder. Harry was already battling with enough pain. The news that his dads were having a child of their blood now, would be a painful blow. He watched Harry. He was Lily's son and he had to admit he was starting to see Harry like a son. Or at least like a beloved nephew like Draco. Harry had come to him a bit. In need of someone to talk to an in absence of his dads or the twins being around. He hoped for Harry's sake that tomorrow might not be explosive.

Tonks looked at the twins who Harry was greeting. "Thankfully those two and you will b here tomorrow. I think by the sounds of it, Harry might need them."

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Other then Severus, the twins were the only non Malfoys still there the next day. They were up bright and early opening gifts. Harry knew he would be heading off tomorrow on his trip with his husband. He was surprised by a beautiful magically adapted digital camera, one that ran off and developed by magic. His husband had thought that h might make some use of it on their trip. Harry thought about their trip they had taken to Rome and admitted he could have taken some lovely photos when he had been there and in Italy. Harry tried to keep his mind off of what Tonks had told him but that was hard for him to do.

He was surprised when his husband led him out after lunch into the entrance hall and the door opened. He was even more shocked when his dads had come through the door. For a moment Harry was happy. For a moment he wanted to run into their arms and hug them. But that moment passed. And the pain came flooding back.

Sirius was drinking in his first sight of his son since the end of June. "Merry Christmas cub. I have missed you so much. I am so sorry sweet heart."

Harry shook his head. "You missed me so much? You ran off and got pregnant as soon as possible. You sold off your fake son, so you could have a real one."

There was anguish in the faces of both men. They had both been scared that when Harry heard the news he would be hurt by it. They loved him. He was and always would be their precious cub, their first born son. Nothing would change that. They had always wanted to add to their family. They were actually hoping for a girl. But if it was a son it would not take away their love for Harry. He was their son. Their heir. They loved him so much.

Remus tried to come to him. "You are our son and a part of our family. You know that. Harry we love you. We just want a chance to try and make things right."

Harry stepped away from him. "Make things right for my sibling. Don't sell my sibling off to the highest bidder. I don't want to see you."

Lucius tried to stop him but Harry fled up the stairs. He did not stop until he got to their bedroom. He sunk onto the window seat sobbing madly. He wanted them. Oh Merlin he wanted them. He wanted to be in their arms. He wanted his dads so badly. But he couldn't. He was so scared they'd hurt him. It nearly destroyed him. He wasn't sure he could survive letting them back in and having them hurt him again. As badly as he wanted to be in their arms right now, he could not take getting hurt again. For a moment he thought of his wedding. Severus had been right. He had wanted his dad there. It meant so much to have Remus there. But it did not change this. It could not change this. This hurt so much.

The door opened and he turned expecting his husband and instead found Remus. "I told you to leave me alone. This is not like THAT DAY. I won't let you stay."

Remus came across and handed him something. "You are our son. We will never stop. Push us away all you want but we will never give up trying cub. Never."

For a moment Harry looked down. There was a stack of letters. Severus had given them to Remus downstairs. The ones Harry had sent back. And there was gift, a scrapbook Harry could see under the ribbon. He tried to hand them back to Remus but he would not take them.

Remus sighed. "I will leave. But read those please. Even if you burn them after. We will always love you. And we will always, always, be there if you want us."

Harry watched him leave and he looked down at the book and the letters. "Dad."

He sat there looking at them. He did not open the letters. He instead looked at the first few pages of the book. Pictures when he was a baby, letters from his birth parents to the marauders, his bracelet from the hospital. They were a few things that they managed to save. Harry was tracing the bracelet when the door opened again and this time he knew without looking it was George and he sunk into his brother's arms.

Harry hated this. "Why can't I just forgive them? I want my Dads. I want to be able to forgive them but I am so scared and it hurts so much."