Harry found himself after another brush with Ron in herbology that afternoon headed for the dungeons. He was not heading for Slytherin though. He knew he should talk to his husband about it. But he was a bit worried. It was not like the incident with his arm. He knew that his husband would have been concerned and he definitely believed it when his husband said that he cared about him. But there was a difference between his husband caring for him and loving him, and he returning it. But it was not even a question of it. He knew his husband had a temper. And more then that he knew his husband had never been fond of Weasleys. Lucius was already angry enough at Ron over the wrist incident and he was worried what he would do if Harry told him that Ron had made several veiled threats towards him.
He needed to talk to someone though. He had thought about his dads and wished that he could have contacted them. But of course he had shaken away that thought. He hated that he finally had dads after all of this time and he was not even able to turn to them any more. But when he thought about his dads one person came to his mind. He was not even sure why it did but h was growing used to it. Once again he found himself at the door of Severus' potions lab. If someone had told him a year ago he would have started to consider Severus something like a father figure he would have laughed at them. But he could not even deny it any more.
Severus looked up from the potion he was working on when he heard the door open. He knew it would be one of the three Malfoys. They were the only ones who came in without knocking first. Anyone else knew they stood to be hexed or chewed out, even the headmaster. He was happy to see Harry. He had been meaning to speak to him soon. He had spoken to Remus a few days before. And he had promised to pass along a message. He was not sure how it would go down. He knew how Harry had reacted to the news he was going to be a big brother. But Sirius and Remus had booked an ultrasound for a few weeks from now as they would be three months at the start of February and had asked Severus to pass an invitation for Harry to come.
Severus knew something was wrong though. "Is it your husband or your former friend?
Harry was not surprised that Severus seemed to know. "My former friend."
Sitting down in the stool Severus motioned to Harry explained what had been going on. He knew Severus was going to tell him the same thing he had been thinking. He should have gone to his husband about this, Lucius would want to know. Harry had sworn to give his husband a proper chance. But he was scared of his husband's temper and he didn't know if Lucius could handle it.
Severus sat down across from him. "I am glad you told someone Harry. I have something I am going to give you and one I would like you to give your husband too."
Harry looked up surprised when Severus went to a drawer and took out two pendants that he realized were phoenixes. "What are these?"
Severus placed them in his hand. He explained they had once been used by members of the Order during the original war. They were used by partners or teams. It was a way to contact them to signal an attack or to call for help. Severus told him that in the case of some of the original order all they had got back from them were their pendants. He had kept the ones which he belonged to the McKinnon brothers who had been old friends of his and he had worked closely with. Molly had the ones her brothers had worn and Harry realized he had seen his dads wearing one and knew James must have had on as well.
Severus touched his own. "It is linked to me Harry but there is the second one. I had nearly forgotten about them, they were in my vault. I retrieved them two days ago."
Harry looked at the pendant. "You really think I should give one of these to my husband? I know I said I would try but I am scared he'll lock me up or something."
Putting one around Harry's neck Severus shook his head. Lucius would respect that Harry was doing something to keep himself safe and would be happy as well Harry had come to him with it. Severus swore he would continue to wear his as well. Harry only needed to touch it if he was in trouble and his husband and Severus would both know that he was in trouble of some kind. As log as they were in the same place, like in the school, they could use the pendant to track him as well. The order originally would have known where their partner was and would not have needed the tracking.
Harry spoke to Severus for a bit longer and reluctantly agreed he would tell his husband. Severus reminded him that Lucius had been good about his arm. His husband simply wanted to protect him. Severus watched Harry go from the room. He would wait for a bit to tell Harry. It was another three weeks and Harry had enough on his plate anyways. He doubted Harry would agree to go but he swore to Remus he would ask Harry. Again he felt caught between one of his friends and Harry who he was feeling more and more like a father to with every passing month.
Lucius was a bit surprised when he caught his husband going for the Hall for dinner and asked to have dinner in their rooms instead. "Are you sure you're okay?"
Harry saw the concern in his husband's eyes and he shook his head. "I really need to talk to you about something Luc please."
Nodding Lucius directed him home. Lucius called for some dinner to be brought but as they were waiting Harry told his husband what was going on. Lucius knew Harry had gone to Severus first of course when he saw the pendant but he was glad his husband had come to him on his own this time. Lucius had confronted him about the arm. And he believed Harry when he told him that he had just been a bit worried Lucius would want to lock him up and throw away the key.
Lucius put the third pendant on and reached down to kiss him. "I am glad Severus gave this to you. No locking up, but please, please be safe. I don't want you hurt."
Harry nodded and sat with him down for dinner. "I promise I will stay close to my friends and will always have this. I am not anxious for a run in with him either."
Watching his husband over dinner Harry was hit with the concern he had hurt his husband's feelings. He realized that was a new thing. He had never really considered hurting Lucius before. It likely had to do with the fact he had never thought Lucius cared about his feelings either. But he had come to realize that in his own way Lucius definitely card about his feelings and even loved him. And while he could not return the love or care to his husband, he did felt bad that perhaps he had hurt Lucius. The man was doing his best to over come his up bringing. And while Harry was having a hard time because of the way they had come to be married, Harry knew it had been a step in the wrong direction for the promise he had made Lucius to attempt to work on this with him. And he wanted Lucius to understand he had not meant to hurt him and he was bothered by the fact that he really might have.
After dinner he kissed his husband lightly. "I am sorry for going to Severus first. I should have trusted you could handle this. He just seems easier to lean on still."