Tomoya

"Nagisa!"

Wait a moment, this must be a nightmare. No God of any kinds will be merciless and cruel enough to take away Nagisa away from me. Now I'll just have to pinch myself and...

"Ouch!" THIS IS'N FAIR!

For the 101th times, I have tried to convince myself that all this have been a dream. I would so like to trade place with her! I had begun to lose hope. Already, I have missed her, her cheerful smile, her lovely face... If only she known that I miss her so much, I'm sure she would sure to return to my side. Oh, if there is anyway I could tell her so... I touch her delicate, soft hands, hoping to transmit my feelings to her.

The siren of the ambulance burst through my ears. So relieving! I have been longing to hear it for eternity. A surge of hope rushed through me, as positive thoughts filled me full like never before, new-found positive energy hurled itself straight into me.

She might have a...NO!...She will make it!

"Nagisa, just hang on there!"

Maybe I'm imagining it, but I thought I saw Nagisa nodding in response. The old (but, still rather young) me, will just myself that I am a total Idiot - with a capital I. The new me, totally believing it. Meeting Nagisa had led me to change - for the better, almost losing her made an enormous impact too - my swollen puffy eyes were red from my tears, but I could feel a smile replacing my sad face as the siren drew closer.

(at the hospital)

Nagisa's is now in the A&E. It's a hard time waiting for the news, especially when you don't know what news is installed for you, whether it is pleasant, or not. All the positive thoughts, energy and spirits have long left me. Pacing on the hospital floor was of no use too. Restless and tired, I slumpled on the hospital bench, my eyes focused on the A&E door, waiting and waiting...

Finally, the A&E's light was off - not a moment too soon, a doctor in white coat came out.

"Are you Nagisa's -"

"Yes! I'm her husband! Is she alright?..." I fired a whole ball of questions straight at the doctor. (Yes, I know I'm being rude by cutting the doc of his sentence, but( shrug shoulders) who give a damm?)

I could sense a slight irritation in him (after all, who wouldn't?)

" Nagisa-" I could feel the tension building up in me.

"is-" I think I've got ants in my pants. Oh, I think the doctor's just trying to tense me up by saying it ASAP(as. slow. as. possible.)

"Fine, in fact, you can see her right away!"

OMG! You will never guess how happy I am. .

It felt like a dream!

Wait a minute, ...

Now, I'm back on the bench, sitting nice and dainty. The A&E's light is still on.

ARG! GOD HAVE MADE A FOOL OUT OF ME!

I REALLY OUGHT TO PUNCH MY FACE...

Just then, the A&E's light went off and the doors was swing open, out came a doctor, smartly dressed in white. Convinced that this was another stupid dream of mine, I generously gave myself a pinch...

"Ouch!"-The doctor probably thinks that I'm out of my mind.

"Are you Nagisa's relative?" This time I let him finish - I already learnt my lesson, not to irritate a doctor, he can make you regret in many ways.(like the one in my dream)

"Yes, and Nagisa's..."

" She is transfered to ward 257" 257 - That's a very lucky number. Suddenly remembering from my facts from school that 257 is a prime number.

"and..."

"She is...unfortunately... in a coma...But don't worry she might wake up, the first week is critical."

I was already not listening...I was already dashing straight to ward 257.

(in ward 257)

Nagisa's face look so white and pale. She looks so calm in her sleep, her smile was so gentle, yet, so cold.

"...she might wake up, the first week is critical..." What the doctor said echoed deeply in my mind. I made up my mind. After managing to take a one-week leave, I settled down comfortably on the chair, beside Nagisa. Inside the ward it was quiet and cold, so sad and depressing. As the night draws closer, I put an extra blanket over Nagisa. I had decided to stay here, in case Nagisa woke up.

Seconds ticked by, and from the distant, I could heard an old grandfather clock chimes. One, two, three, four, five, ... It's already 12 midnight, and I'm still wide-awake. Not because the chair was old and rather uncomfortably hot, but I was in high hopes (a*hem) that Nagisa may wake up in the middle of the night. Finally, I gave up on trying to sleep. I took out my laptop, connected it to the hospital WiFi and surfed the net. I found out some ways to help Nagisa and also, I found out something else... when you don't want to sleep, God will MAKE you sleep, somehow.

I woke up with my head on the keyboard. The letter 'N' is missing. Maybe I ate it up. If I said that to Nagisa, I bet she will laugh. Her laughter, her face, her smile. I missed her so much that I think my heart is going to 'burst'. Hopefully, it will. Then, I can be with her. But, deep in me, I knew I could not be so selfish, I could almost hear Nagisa reprimanding me. So cute. Ironically, I missed it so much - maybe that is what they call it 'Scolding from your lovers is love.' From the net, I found out that talking helps, somehow, so I decided to have a go.

"Nagisa, remember when we were in..." I talked the whole day, not even stopping to take a sip of water. My whole mouth was literally dry - I'm 'out of' saliva. My throat have parched and I was weak from hunger. Still, Nagisa did not even stir. THIS STUPID THING IS NOT WORKING! Still, I decided to try the rest of the tips, one every different day.

It was the end of the week, Nagisa have yet to wake up. I was tired, depressed and hungry. The exact formula to make a man grumpy. I learnt a valuable lesson: NEVER, EVER TRUST THE FREAKING NET!