The day after Harry had been hospitalized again the trial of his three attackers had taken place. Sirius and his husband had both gone, Remus staying home for the world believed that Harry was home with his dads recovering from the attack. Harry's dads had been shaken to the core more then the first time they had been to the hospital but when they learned he had fallen off medication and was cutting himself they were even more shaken. They hoped though once they got him back on the medication and back to school he would be in better shape. He would no longer have to deal with the attacks on him and he would have proper time to settle in.
The day after the trial had started the three boys were sentenced to three years in a juvenile detention center style half way house where they would be seriously regulated and where they would be required to do community service among other things. None of the parents argued for they knew as old as their sons were they were lucky they had been tried as juveniles and not as adults for they would have faced prison time.
On the third evening after Harry had been sent back his husband and Severus had both been summoned but Harry was not automatically to be released this time. He was brought into the office still in the hospital clothes and was motioned to sit.
Jonas turned to him. "Harry you will be released into your guardian's care again but there will be serious new rules around your return to the school."
Harry just wanted out of the hospital. "Okay."
Jonas explained for now Harry would be under strict supervision at school. He was now on a balance of anti psychotics and his stabilizers and it was even more serious for him to slip off the medication. He would be monitored to ensure he was keeping to the medication and checked for cutting. His counselling would continue, Jonas coming Tuesdays and Thursdays but on Sundays Harry could come to the hospital where he would be examined as well as have his counselling.
Jonas sighed. "Any sign of you refusing potions or self harm and you are admitted. And this time will be involuntary, you will be here till we say you're ready."
Harry was shaking with the thought of being there for months, something that definitely could not be hidden. "Please can I go home now?"
Jonas nodded and Harry was handed some clothes and sent off to dress before he could leave. A spell had been added to his wand to prevent burning or cutting and while he would be permitted lunch in the hall, he would have dinner and breakfast with his husband or Severus so they could be sure for now he was taking the potions. They hoped with time and more counselling and potions that they could loosen the restrictions on Harry but for now they couldn't. His food in the great Hall would come cut and served so he would not handle any knives. They hated treating him like this but his cutting was as dangerous as his attempted suicide, it was like when he had been starving himself, a slower form of killing himself.
When Harry returned he was taken back to school through the floo by his husband and Severus. It was Friday evening so Harry would not have to return to classes till Monday though he would have to see about being allowed to return to quidditch on Sunday morning.
Lucius looked at his husband. "Severus and I have spoken and you will be having a meal with me every day and slowly returning to our rooms, though own bed."
Harry they had expected perhaps an argument from but he nodded. "I can handle that."
It had been encouraged by Jonas who thought now the fear of the students attacking him were gone he needed to work on his feelings of betrayal with his dads and his relationship with his husband. He had made some progress on both before this hospitalization and Harry had spoken during counselling in the last few days of wanting to make things better. Though he had been angry at his husband for Lucius had been the one who noticed he had been cutting himself, he had at least come to the realization that there was no one to blame for his hospitalization except himself.
Lucius asked Harry to come through for he knew his husband had not eaten dinner yet and he wanted to show Harry his new rooms. Severus was all for it so Harry agreed and even to spend the night. There was an extra potion bottle on the table for him this time around but Lucius found dinner easier then before.
Lucius reached out for Harry's hand and was happy Harry did not withdraw it. "I hope you know I just wanted to help you. I have continued my counselling and...."
Harry cut him off. "I know Luc. I know you had to show Sev. I just don't want to go back there, I am scared. I am so scared."
Lucius knew his husband meant he was both scared about going back to the hospital, and going back to wanting to kill himself. It scared Harry how desperate he had felt and not feeling like he had any other way out. Lucius kept his hold on Harry's hand and swore he would help Harry walk through this with him.
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On Sunday Harry was allowed to return to quidditch though he changed for practice before he went down there, for he was scared of the change rooms right now. The team was relieved to see him back and feeling guilty they had not been there to protect him. After practice his husband accompanied him through the floo back to the hospital where Lucius was left in the office. Harry had to undergo a physical exam, both to see what kind of physical take the meds might have on him, and to ensure he was not cutting himself. Having passed the exam he was brought back to the office where his dads were waiting as well.
Harry allowed Remus to pull him into his arms. "I have missed you cub. We're glad you are doing better."
Jonas motioned them to sit down. "Harry spoke to me during his stay about a deep desire to mend fences, missing the two of you a lot."
His dads were surprised but relieved to hear that for they had been hoping they would be able to have a place with their son again. They had agreed to any counselling sessions Harry wanted him at and would wait for any other contact Harry allowed with them. They remained for the two hour counselling that evening and Harry found himself clutching his husband's hand from time to time, oddly finding strength in him.
Harry looked at his dads before they were leaving. "The next quidditch game of the season in next weekend, I was hoping that maybe you would come for it."
Sirius got a chance to hug Harry this time though Harry still held back from it a bit. "You know we would love to see you play again cub. We have missed it a lot."
Though it was not like he was inviting them for dinner or something, but to a game where hundreds of other people would be, it was the first time Harry had shown any desire for them to be there. Well except when he had fled to them the night Lucius had almost raped him, and had wanted to be at the ultrasound. They hoped it was a good sign, wanting to build the bridges again not just for them but because of their daughter who they wanted to have their son in her life.