Obi-Wan woke as a force ghost. He felt hallow. Emotionally and physically. He still felt like crying. Yoda was there.
"Vader killed you he did."
"Yes."
"Force ghost you are now."
"I guess."
"Okay, are you?"
"No."
"Oh? But completely dead you are not."
"I lost him Master Yoda. I truly lost him."
"Lost him a long time ago you did."
"I know. But I truly knew that I lost my Anakin today."
"Yours Anakin is not."
"The Anakin that I knew. The Anakin that I loved."
"Like a brother he was to you I know. Sorry I am."
"A brother? No. That might be what I said to you back then, but now it doesn't make a difference. I truly loved Anakin. Like a partner, and lover, and a husband, and a friend."
Yoda looked startled. He didn't seem to have anything to say to that.
"And Anakin loved me too." He smiled tentatively and sadly. "But Anakin is dead now. I killed him." His voice became harsh and cold.
"Against the code that was."
Obi-Wan laughed without any humor. "You know what? You can go fuck yourself, Yoda. I just died, any hope that I might have had that Anakin was still there just died. And then, then, you tell me that 'against the code it was' for Anakin and I to love each other? For fucks sake, do you not think we knew that? Because we did. That's why nothing ever came of us. Because I gave a shit about the code back then, and Anakin didn't. Because Padme didn't care, and I did. So fuck you because I don't need this right now."
And Yoda really didn't know what to say to that. Obi-Wan huffed.
"Well. Sorry I am then." Yoda said after a while.
Obi-Wan blinked. He didn't expect Yoda to apologize. Perhaps Yoda had grown soft in old age.
"So. You don't mind? About Anakin?"
"Accept you I shall if the light side does."
"Thank you."
Obi-Wan let a few moments pass. "So this is what death is like? Is it supposed to feel this hollow, or is that just me?"
"Get used to it soon you will."
Obi-Wan looked off into the distance, and he blinked back tears. Somehow hearing Vader tell him that Anakin was dead was so much worse than just knowing that Anakin was dead. Hearing it from his own mouth just tore Obi-Wan apart.
"I wanted to die." He said suddenly. Yoda looked at him, confused.
"I couldn't do it. I loved Anakin, and hearing Darth Vader tell me that Anakin was dead, and that it was my fault… I already knew that it was my fault but hearing him tell me that he blamed me… I couldn't stand the idea of living anymore. Why did the force let me live on like this, when I didn't want to live?"
"In mysterious ways the force works."
"That helps." Obi-Wan drawled sarcastically. Yoda shrugged. Obi-Wan sighed.
"I want to see Luke. I want to see how he's doing on his journey.
"Sad he is to see you died."
Obi-Wan smiled sadly again. "He's just like his father."
"Darth-"
"Darth Vader is not Luke's father. Anakin was."
"But-"
"Just... please don't. Darth Vader is nothing like Anakin. Like he told me, Anakin is dead, and I killed him. It just so happened that when Anakin died, Darth Vader was born. Now I just want to see Luke."
"Interfere you cannot. Too dangerous it is."
"I know that. I just want to see him."
So Yoda showed him Luke. Showed him mourning Obi-Wan. Showed him escaping the Death Star, alive. Obi-Wan breathed a sigh of relief, thankful that Luke was able to escape the death that had befallen Obi-Wan himself.