CRIMSON REGRET Chapter 16: CONFESSIONS OF THE HEART, a naruto fanfic

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Naruto moved on from that scene and watched the next few years of her life feeling a bit numb. He saw that Jiraiya occasionally gave them updates of his life and that he had told them about the merge and his pregnancy. And on and on it went until the uzumaki clan was now in wave country which would be there last stop before konoha. That was when naruto decided to return to the present and sat in the office thinking. From what he had heard, they would be here in a few months . Sighing heavily, he began to make plans for the future after making five thousand clones and sending them to go train. After seeing what his mother had done, it made it so much easier for him to forget about her and move on. As for as he was concerned , she was no mother of his, after all she made her choice.

Later that evening he teleported into Hiashis bedroom and quickly undressed before slipping into bed next to him. After the third time they laid next to each other and tried to catch their breaths. He felt four of his tails, which he had acquired after his second change and always kept sealed , begin to throb and whimpered in pain as each tail divided into two, signifying that he had just grown more tails. The pain was so excruciating that it was all he could do not to scream and alarm Hiashi. When it finally stopped a second later, he was eternally grateful. Finally relaxed again , he turned to Hiashi.

"hia-chan." he said softly .

The older man turned to look at him. "what is it Naruto-kun?" he asked pulling him closer.

Naruto flushed a bit and looked at him. "um… it occurred to me that I've never gotten a chance to invite you to my place for dinner before. So will you come tomorrow?" he asked nervously.

Hiashi felt pleased that the boy was finally willing to admit that they were in a serious relationship by going this far . He was also very happy since it was common knowledge that out of everyone in Konoha only a select few had ever been allowed anywhere near his family or home. To receive an invitation was not only the highest honor, but also a sign of trust on his part.

"I'd love to naruto, thank you." he said with a pleased smile.

Naruto's flush deepened and he laid a delicate hand on Hiashi's naked chest. "um… will you spend the night in my bed as well?" he asked too nervous to even look at him.

Hiashi smiled at his sudden shyness and placing a hand under the blonde's chin, tipped his head up until they made eye contact.

"you do realize that if I do then everyone in your household will know that we're lovers." hiashi said gently.

Naruto nodded. "yes I know that but I don't feel ashamed of it. Before you start to even think that I'm only doing it because the traitor is back I want you to know that its not the reason why at all. I know that we had originally agreed on a casual relationship but we both know that that time has come and passed for the both of us. I'm sure that one day you may want to leave me and move on but until then I don't mind staying by your side. I-I feel safe with you. You are one of the few people that I trust and I guess what I'm trying to say is that I care about you too. I want my family and children to know about you at least because I'm not ashamed of our relationship or anything." he said seriously.

Hiashi nodded and kissed him. "it will be a shock to your family but that's fine with me. To be honest my family already knows so its not really a problem for me. I want you to know that I care about you too. In fact I think that I love you , even more than I did my wife. But I know that you'll need more time to accept this so I wont pressure you, but I am all for making your place in my life permanent if you let me." he told him , shocking the blonde.

Naruto teared up at that. "um…give me some time to get used to this first and I will tell you what I decide soon. Right now, with the battle I am facing among other things, I'm a bit lost." he replied.

Hiashi nodded . " I know and I understand Naruto. You have all the time in the world to make up your mind. Now enough about that , tell me about your mother."

Naruto scowled and then told him everything. At the end of it all Hiashi was not only shocked at Kushinas cruelty to her own son, but disgusted as well. Even when he was annoyed with Hinata he hadn't gone that far.

"hiashi don't make the same mistake that she did."naruto told him. " make hinata your official heir so that she doesn't have to keep doubting herself. I will be ordering the removal of the bird cage seal from your family in few days in place of a better one on all families with kekkei genkai without the seal to cause pain. This is your chance to make things right with her before I do that so that it wont seem as if you were forced to. The time has come to unite your family as one hiashi not divide them. Do you understand?" he asked.

Hiashi nodded. "yes I do and I agree with you. Thank you for doing what I have been unable to do . " he replied.

Naruto nodded. "hiashi , you should also know that your council is going to feel my wrath regardless of how this turns out. They have been left unchecked for way too long Hiashi and they will pay. I hope for your sake that they don't make this even worse for themselves as I will show no mercy. The last person I showed mercy to tried to kill me. It will not happen to the undeserving ever again." he warned coldly.

Hiashi nodded. " I know and I understand." he replied. "thank you for telling me in advance."

"good." said Naruto. "there's something else. In about two months I'll be going into what we demons call heat and I'm already starting to feel the warning signs of it. Purebloods tend to start feeling it sooner than others and since I'm not only a full pureblooded demon but royalty as well, the warning signs come a bit sooner. Its natures way of making sure that I can plan ahead I guess. As such there are a few things I need to do to you since you're my lover. I'm gonna be a lot more aggressive in bed when it happens and more demanding. There is a certain drink that you will have to drink every day , three times a day starting tomorrow if you agree. It will make your body much stronger temporarily. It will also speed up your healing ability if I accidentally hurt you. The drink was made for humans who mated with a demon. Since your not my official mate you can only take that drink for a certain amount of time, which is whenever I'm in heat. As soon as my heat is over you wont be able to take it until the next mating season. It will also heighten your senses and make you a little bit more aggressive in bed, meaning it will work like an aphrodisiac during my heat when my pheromones are released without my consent. I will also subconsciously attract other men due to my pheromones and I will find other men attractive. I will not be having intercourse with anyone but you so you don't need to feel threatened. I also wont be able to stop myself from jumping you so you will need to work around it. So do you agree?" he asked embarrassed.

Hiashi nodded. " of course, when will you bring me the tea?" he asked.

Naruto smiled. "thank you . I'll give it to you tomorrow." he replied.

"what do you normally do when you're in heat?" Hiashi asked curiously.

Naruto blushed. "well, during the last few heats I had since becoming a demon I would work and train myself to exhaustion in order to take the edge off until my heat ended. It was a living hell." he replied.

Hiashi laughed a bit at that. "okay . Now go to sleep , we both have along day tomorrow."

Naruto nodded and then went to sleep. It had been a rather tiring and emotional day for him.

Hiashi followed soon after.

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With the Akatsuki…

The paths of Pain, Zetsu, Konan and Madara met up at their base via holograms to discuss the current situation.

"as with Kisame, Itachis ring is gone." zetsu confirmed. "I saw a small toad hurrying off with it in the direction of Konoha. Should I go to konoha and retrieve them?"

"yes ." said pain. "we need those rings for the sealing. Go to Konoha and make sure that they are the ones who has them. If they do, retrieve them if you can or report back to me."

Zetsu nodded and was about to leave when Konan said. " I think I should go along too, to make sure that it's a success."

"I don't think that that's a good idea." pain began but was cut off by Madara.

"I agree." madara said. " she would be good for this recon mission as well and if anything goes wrong all she has to do is fly back."

Pain frowned but agreed since Konan wanted to go. " be careful. Gather information first before you do anything."

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The next morning…

The next morning Naruto sat sipping his tea at his own table with his babies when kakashi, iruka and the others walked in and sat down to join him. He had returned to his own home earlier that morning and had gotten ready for his day before making breakfast. They exchanged greetings and Naruto sighed since he knew he was probably about to shock them.

Running a hand through his long blonde hair as he looked over at them. "hiashi will be coming over for dinner with us tonight." he told them calmly.

The others were startled by that and looked at him questioningly.

"that's unusual." said Tsunade. "even when I was Hokage he wouldn't do that. Is it a business meeting of some sort?" she asked curiously.

"no." naruto said but didn't elaborate.

" I didn't know that you two were that close." said Iruka looking a bit worried . "are you sure about this. I know that you don't normally allow anyone to come here because of your children."

Naruto took a sip of his tea before answering. "hiashi and I have been in an intimate relationship since the night of Jiraiya-sensei's funeral." he said bluntly.

Iruka and Tsunades , "WHAT!" could be heard all the way in suna.

Gaara was sitting having breakfast with his family when he heard it. "must have finally told them." he thought to himself. "I wonder how neji will react when he finds out."

Taking a sip of his tea. He shrugged and continue watching his babies drink their milk.

Back with naruto…

Kakashi had suspected it of course but he had been hoping that he was wrong for sasuke's sake.

A part of him would still identify with Sasuke and somewhere inside him he had been hoping that naruto would eventually forgive him. He wanted his dark haired student to have a happy ending like he did and become a part of his family since he knew that it was something that Sasuke had always wanted. He silently wondered how he would break this news to sasuke.

Naruto just blinked and continued to calmly drink his tea as if they were discussing the weather.

"what do you mean you're in an intimate relationship?" yelled Tsunade.

"it means that we're lovers." naruto said shrugging.

"isnt he a bit old for you?" iruka sked worriedly.

"I take it that you don't approve?" Naruto said uncaring.

"its not so much that Naruto but are you sure about this?" Tsunade asked beginning to worry.

Before naruto could reply Kakashi said. "are you sure about this naruto? He is old enough to be your father. I mean I know that sasuke hurt you but isn't this going a bit far to prove that you're over him ? Maybe after sasuke gets himself together you two can start over and be a real family. He is after all the father of your kids. Hiashi cant possibly be the right guy for you since he is so unemotional and cold." kakashi said reasonably.

No one said anything because it was obvious naruto was pissed.

Iruka looked at kakashi and shook his head at his idiocy. He couldn't believe that Kakashi had just said that.

Naruto calmly put his tea down and turned to Irukas cousins. "ladies please take my children out in the backyard and allow them to have an outdoor breakfast while I have a chat with everyone else. I will send everything out with my clones." he told them as he made twenty clones who immediately got to work.

The women didn't need to be told twice, they quickly took a child and left with the clones who were carrying the others.

As soon as they were out of earshot naruto looked at Kakashi and snarled angrily, baring his fangs at him.

"how dare you! How dare you you hypocritical asshole! Its always about the uchiha with you isn't it? Hurt me? Sasuke didn't just hurt me you prick, he fucking raped me and left me for dead or don't you remember finding me lying there bleeding and catatonic. I don't fucking care if he gets himself together, he fucking put two chidoris threw me , the very technique that you taught him, and have tried to kill me repeatedly. The father of my kids? Did you forget how they were conceived? He will never get anywhere near ,my children as long as I live and no council in the world can make that happen. If he even comes near them without my permission I will not only make him regret it but I will remove them from this realm completely! If it was up to me that asshole would have been executed the minute he entered the fire country! Even now you are still picking favorites you asshole! Its no wonder I will never let you teach my children. Sasuke is not father material and you know it! What is he going to teach them? How to become an avenger, kill your own brother who was justified in what he did and how to rape your lover? I cant believe that you can just blow off all that he did to me so easily. But then again you've been doing that since the first day I met you! Whenever he insulted me or sakura hit me for no reason , you would just act like it didn't happen kakashi. " naruto yelled angrily before tearing up. " its ironic. I thought that I was over all of it but it seems I'm not. You are wrong kakashi and you know it. You and all of those villagers have a lot in common. You all think that the pain I've suffered at your hands will just fade away without even an apology. You want to know the real reason the Uchiha clan was murdered kakashi? Its because of what they did to me. They would be the main ringleaders in the beating and rapes when I was a child. Fugaku raped me when I was only three and a half years old and then dumped my body in the trash . Itachi was the one who found me and helped me a few hours later. It was right after I had been kicked out of the orphanage. Itachi didn't know at the time but over the years he and I became really good friends and I was the reason he agreed to become and anbu. It was so that he could protect me from everyone. When he first found out that his clansmen would always hurt me , he tried to stop them but they didn't listen. When he found out that his father was one of the people who raped me every time he got the chance, I was six years old by then. He couldn't believe it and did some investigating. He also found out that his mother knew about it. The bitch had always known but pretended it wasn't happening . When madara came and told him to kill them, he did it without remorse as I think he was planning to anyway. But that wasn't the worst of it by far. There was also the fact that the uchiha clan was planning to overthrow the hokage with Danzo's help and take over konoha and kill me. Sarutobi gave him the mission to kill them and he did . The fact that it coincided with Madaras request didn't matter. Sarutobi had already been told about madara and had told itachi to go along with it and gain his trust and by doing so, infiltrate the akatsuki. Itachi and his partner was our spy in the akatsuki for years until that little prick killed him. So you see Kakashi, your prize student really is like his father after all . He should be proud. Sarutobi sealed my memories of it all and I began remembering after itachi was killed. So now you know and I am officially forbidding you all to tell anyone as it is an sss-rank secret. Those who need to be informed will be when the time is right. "naruto hissed angrily, tears running down his face. "and as for my relationship with Hiashi, better an older man than a traitor who raped me and tried to kill me repeatedly." he said standing up. "now Hiashi will be here for dinner today whether or not you like it." he said and stormed out the door and up to his office.

The others watched him go before turning to kakashi angrily.

"what the fuck is wrong with you !" yelled tsunade pissed off. "how could you say those things to him and especially about Sasuke. Because of your stupidity , he had to remember all those horrible things. And to make it worse , to find out that sasuke's father did that to him too is just…" she broke off sobbing .

"I cant understand you kashi." said iruka angrily. "how long will you keep playing favorites? Sasuke is in the wrong here not naruto. Its time you take the uchiha off that pedestal you have him on and admit that he is no good."

Kakashi didn't say anything, he just got up and went after Naruto.

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With Naruto…

Naruto was in his office crying. When his memories had first began returning, it had shaken him to the core to remember some of those things. The fact that he had been raped as a child by sasukes father made it even worse. He had been handling it well enough, but for kakashi to say what he did had just made it all come out. All of this was becoming a bit too much and he was starting to feel the strain. He would need to hurry things along a bit to keep his sanity.

Wiping his tears away, he was unsurprised to see time stop around him and the shinigami appear. It had become a common thing in his life these days.

"hi dad." he said sadly.

"you're crying." the shinigami said. It was a statement , not a question.

"yeah, I just lost my temper a bit that's all." naruto said sadly. "I'm gonna have to move things up a bit because I have a lot going on and with my heat coming soon, well you get the point."

The shinigami nodded . "now will you tell me what made you snap today?" he asked.

"it's the whole family thing I guess. I keep praying that I'm being a good parent to my children and that they'll never be like their father but I'm afraid. What if they do? What will I do then? My own mother abandoned me so I must not be worth much. I wish that that traitor never came back but what can I do. How dare him judge Hiashi when he isn't much better than him. For him to actually suggest that I get back with that traitor pisses me off so much."naruto growled angrily.

The shinigami nodded again. "you are worth more than a million humans to me so don't even think that your not worth much. You are the king of the demonic realm and is the reason why there is order there now. You have overcome unbelievable odds to get where you are and is unique in every way. As for your children , they are happy and well cared for but most of all they are loved. You've already succeeded where your parents haven't by being their for them. You love and nurture them as a mother should and it shows. I can tell you that you're a good leader and an even better mother. As for sasuke, do what you think is necessary son . I can completely agree with you for not wanting him near your children. I don't want him near my grandchildren either." he said firmly.

Naruto nodded and smiled. "thank you father, I owe you one. Now aren't you supposed to be doing paperwork by now?" he asked.

The shinigami laughed. "I took a page out of your book. My clones are currently doing it which means I have enough time to relax and read icha icha in peace." he said grinning.

Naruto rolled his eyes. "why is it that almost all the men I know are perverts." he said shaking his head. "anyway dad, are you mad at me for saving them?" he asked referring to jiraiya and the others.

The shinigami laughed and shook his head. " no son, I was actually expecting it. As a matter of fact you did the world a favor. You should also know that I approve of your plan for Zetsu as well." he told him.

Naruto nodded. "thank you dad." he said smiling .

The shinigami nodded and then disappeared after promising to visit again soon.

Naruto grinned and was about to summon a few demons when a knock sounded at his door. Sensing that it was kakashi , he sighed and told him to come in.

Kakashi slunked in shamefaced. "naruto about what I said and for everything that has happened, I'm sorry. You're right I did favor sasuke and sakura and ignore you and I was wrong. You managed to achieve your dream without much help from me and for that I'm proud of you. You must understand though that at the time sasuke needed me more. He had his family killed by his own brother and had the sharingan …" he trailed off when he saw the disgust on Narutos face.

"and I was a child with the most powerful bijuu in my gut and the villages' scapegoat. I was also sacrificed by my own father and abandoned by my mother and have never really had a family. So tell me again that you did the right thing." naruto said coldly. "but don't worry about it kakashi, I've always known that you didn't care about my well being as much as sasukes and sakura. I'm a big boy now I can take care of myself and I am stronger than you so there is nothing that you can actually teach me anymore so your work is done here sensei." he said sarcastically.

Kakashi immediately became apologetic. "naruto I'm sorry but I did what I thought was right at the time." he said sadly.

Naruto nodded. "of course. Now is that all Kakashi, I have a lot of work to do." he said in dismissal..

"no." said Kakashi. "I think that you should tell Sasuke that he still has family and at least let him meet the children. Even if you don't like it they are still his children. I also think that I'm the best person to teach them how to use the sharingan since you're busy running the village." he began but Naruto cut him off.

"that is my decision not yours and if I find out that you disobeyed my orders I will make you regret it even if you are Iruka-tousans lover. As for their training I will be getting them today so that they can train them. I will be teaching them to use the sharingan myself so there is no need for you to get involved. They are technically half demons. Actually, theyre more demons than they are humans and will be taught by demons who will also double as bodyguards. My children are royalty, they have an abundance of teachers on hand but thank you for the offer. I will decide what is necessary for my children not you or anyone else." he hissed . "now hiashi will be here tonight, please make him feel at home. If you cannot accept my decisions you are more than free to go."

Kakashi nodded shamefaced and left the room. Naruto growled and got back to work.

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With kakashi…

He left the estate and then teleported outside the torture and interrogation building where sasuke and his team would be leaving soon since the interrogation had gone well to go to the uchiha estate. He wanted to be there with his wayward student. He figured that maybe this time around he could finally put him on the right path. But as he sat there, his mind kept going back to what Naruto had told him earlier and to the reason for the uchiha massacre. Had the uchiha clan really been that cruel? In his heart he knew that it was true since naruto had never been the petty type and he frowned. Sasuke would need to be told but he knew that he couldn't disobey Naruto. All the things that Naruto had also said about him this morning was true and he knew that he had wronged the blonde. It hurt him that he wouldn't be able to train the children but in a way he understood. Why would Naruto let him train them when he had been a lousy teacher to him as a child. Still, it would have been nice. Perhaps he could change Narutos mind eventually. It would be nice to train the future uchiha clan. As soon as he thought that he realized something important. naruto was right. He was a fool. It seemed as if deep down the real reason he had wanted to teach the children was because they were sasukes. Naruto must have known and that's why he refused him. He really had a lot to make up for. He would have to figure out where to start though. Just then the door before him opened and sasuke and the members of team Hebi came out. Perhaps he would start with Sasuke. Smiling under his mask, he decided to begin cleaning up the mess that he had made so long ago.

Tbc.

Authors note: hello again , this is unedited so I apologize for the errors . Thank you all for reading and please review.