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Chapter 14

Ash and May decided to stay at the Pokemon Center over night, even though they were to catch a plane at three in the morning. They would postpone it because of Pikachu. The two of them waited in the waiting room. Ash paced around the room while May found herself taking five minute naps every so often, she would drift off to sleep and then wake up and see Ash still pacing. But they weren't alone; there were three other trainers with their own problems. All of them having worried faces. There was even this girl crying softly in the corner, but no one else seemed to notice. Just as no one seemed to notice May going in and out of sleep. All the trainers were in their own world, oblivious to each other. But around one AM, the trainers decided to sit down and once they did, they instantly fell asleep. Ash, on the other hand, continued his pace ignoring the fact that he was exhausted. May took it upon herself to try to calm him down, but there was no use, he kept on pacing. May shrugged it off and sat back down. Through all this commotion, she forgot to check if Drew had replied.

From: Drew Almond-(556) 812-4459

To: May Maple-(556) 582-2875

May, I'm sorry about cheating on you. I really am. And although I did call you, I never did expect you to return them, calling you, know that you knew I called just made me feel a little bit better.

Yeah, I guess asking to be friends is a little much.

I've always found you attractive May, and I still love you. Always did, always will. I didn't text message you to tell you we were done because I myself don't want us to be done.

I have no excuse for cheating on you. I guess the best reason I can come up with is one thing led to another. It happened so fast I hardly knew what was going on. Although it is perfectly understandable that you hate my guts. I sort of hate them myself right now. Because I did something so horrible to the girl I loved and have no excuse.

Why can I only tell you? Because you're the only one I trust with this stuff. Truth is is that Amy, and I know how much you must hate her now, well, I dumped her after you dumped me but she couldn't take it. Said that she was the right one for me or something. Said all I needed to say was "I love you Amy." and she would be alright. But I told her that it would mean nothing to me to say that to her and she threatened to do suicide. I don't know what I was thinking May. I was just annoyed of her and told her I didn't care if she did do suicide. I didn't think she'd do it but she did. Amy did suicide because I dumped her and now everyone is trying to figure out who she is and I know who but I don't know if I should go right now. I just figured out a few days ago that her parents were cold to her and partly abusive. I know they know that's they're daughter who did suicide but they're not budging; they didn't even call me to see if Amy was okay. And now, I just don't know what to do. I think I'm going crazy here, there's so much guilt in me, I just don't know what to do. I want to tell, but something keeps stopping me.

I don't really expect you to reply, because you probably wanted Amy gone. Look at me, ruining 2 girls' lives.

May stared at Drew's text message. Amy. Dead. And Drew was going crazy. She stared, reading the message over and over again trying to make sure she read it wrong. But it was all there, and true, Amy did suicide and Drew didn't know what to do. May quickly looked around before putting her cell away. "Yet another person," she muttered tiredly. "Relying on me."

She sighed and looked over at Ash again but could only see Drew. I don't know what I was thinking May he had written. And she didn't know either, she didn't know what to tell him, but now that he had said that, she had to help him. What would she do? She thought, if she were in Drew's situation? She closed her eyes and pictured Amy again, in her dream, in bed with Drew.

I don't really expect you to reply, because you probably wanted Amy gone.

Had she wanted Amy gone, yes she did. There was a sort of pleasure in hearing Drew say he had dumped Amy for her. A message sent through her mind saying Drew wants you back! And then she saw Amy, killing herself because Drew had dumped her, and it wasn't fair. As happy as May would have been to get back up with Drew, she knew they couldn't, because he had cheated on her and the girl he cheated with was dead. May sat up, no; this wasn't the time to think about it, there was Ash to think about.

May stood up and gave out a big yawn before walking over to him. She was about to tell him something to comfort him when Nurse Joy and a Chansey came into the room. Suddenly, the room had life again, and all of the trainers were on their feet. Nurse Joy gave them each smiles before saying their Pokemon were going to be alright. Everyone let out a cheer and a long overdue laugh; the sadness seemed to float right out of them.

Nurse Joy smiled again. "Tommy," She said to the tallest boy there. "Your Charazard was suffering from a broken leg and wing so you'll have to keep him from training for some time."

Chansey waddled over to Tommy, giving him Charazard's pokeball.

"Okay," said Tommy as he left.

Next Nurse Joy turned her attention to a smaller trainer, "Sam, has your Ninetails suffered from shooting out fire like that before?"

Sam shook his head quickly.

Nurse Joy smiled. "Your Ninetails just has asthma, make sure you use this inhaler for it and it will be fine."

Sam nodded his head obediently and took the inhaler and Ninetails' pokeball from Chansey, "thank you Nurse Joy. I don't know what I would do without you." Then he exited the room behind Tommy.

"Rebecca," said Nurse Joy, turning to the girl who had been crying earlier. "Give your Kirlia some time to heal, I take it she took quite a fall in battle today."

Rebecca's eyes watered as she took her pokeball from Chansey. "I'm a b-bad trainer."

"No you're not, you are an excellent trainer; not many trainers can become Pokemon Masters on their first try."

When the room was empty and it was just Ash, May, and Nurse Joy, Ash asked. "What about

Pikachu, Nurse Joy?"

Nurse Joy looked over at Ash and slowly shook her head.

"B-but you said all the Pokemon were going to be fine, didn't you?"

"I did," admitted Nurse Joy. "And Pikachu is going to be alright, but we need to keep him here for sometime. He's overused Ash, exhausted. He's still out cold, but he's breathing, so he's going to be alright. But I'm afraid I still am not sure why Pikachu just collapsed. Although he was exhausted he shouldn't have stopped breathing. You should be thankful that Chansey and I got Pikachu to breathe again, but we're going to have to ask you to leave him here. You, on the other hand, have to catch your plane for tomorrow and make it to the dinner in Saffron, Ash. Because it's very important to Lance."

Ash stared without making any movement. His face was pale and his eyes seemed to be sucked out of its color. May looked over at him worriedly and tried to give him a hug, but he shrugged her off and headed towards the door.

"I wish I could say more," said Nurse Joy turning to May. "But right now there's nothing else to say."

"I understand," replied May, keeping her eyes on Ash.

Nurse Joy disappeared behind her desk before emerging out with an umbrella. "Here," she said. "Your hotel is quite sometime away from here and it's raining out so you'll get soaked."

"Thank you." said May, taking the umbrella from Nurse Joy. And with a quick goodbye, she ran after Ash.

It was raining outside, pouring. May had to immediately put up the umbrella so she wouldn't get wet. Ash on the other hand, was getting soaked, and he seemed not to notice. He was walking way ahead of her, by himself. And just by the way he was walking; May could see it was not to the hotel. He was miserable, it was easy to tell. The way he didn't say anything after Nurse Joy's description of Pikachu's state. The way his shoulders hung low and he walked dragging his feet on the wet sidewalk.

And May could feel herself again, being pushed out of Ash's life; being pushed out of Ash.

You have to help him May

"I want to," she whispered as Ash's figure became smaller and smaller in the rain. "But what am I supposed to do?"

You have to show him you care.

"I do care," May gulped. "I do care for Ash."

He was there, she knew he was there. Through all the rain, she could still see him, dragging his feet, beating himself up for Pikachu. Although it felt like he was in a different dimension. It felt as if he were leaving her there at the Pokemon Center too. It felt like he was leaving her with no intention of coming back. As if he was leaving himself there as well. The self she knew, the self who always showed excitement at the sound of Pokemon. Who showed interest in his friends' lives and smiled at their happiness. Who always was first to volunteer to battle with anyone and was always eager to try something new. May felt her knees becoming weak, Ash had grown so much since the last time she had seen him. So much that his old self no longer seemed to exist. What are you doing? she wanted to ask. Why are you beating yourself up when you can tell me what happened? When you can come to me to cry? Come back Ash Ketchum, come back and be yourself.

And, I don't know, I didn't think it would hurt this bad, but it does.

May blinked and noticed she was crying, she seemed to be doing that a lot lately. She turned and stared up at the sky. The rain was still pouring down from the heavens and the sky was covered with big grey puffy clouds. "If you can hear me," whispered May. "Ash is miserable without you Misty. And I don't know what to do."

Maybe it's because I'm so sleepy, but I guess having you around would be good.

Ash was so small in May's view now that she could hardly see him. Her vision was blurry due to the rain and the tears in her eyes. What would anyone else have done? Followed him, hugged him? She tried to hug him before, and he pushed her away. And now, now she wasn't even sure he wanted to see her. "Are you sure now?" she asked. "Are sure now that it would be good to have me around, Ash?" She held the umbrella tight in her arms as if she were holding onto her life. She had to follow him, he would get drenched other-wise and eventually get sick.

Anyway, we're sort of an item now.

May reached down to her abdomen, the baby. It would grow up fatherless and if May and Ash never spoke to each other again, the baby would never have any father-like figure in its life. And it would be all May's fault. She began to walk towards Ash, then jog, and eventually run. She couldn't allow him to do this to himself. She couldn't allow him to cut himself off from everyone.

You came to Pallet so you could see everyone.

"No," said May shaking her head, remembering what Ash had told her earlier. "I came to Pallet to see you Ash. That's the only reason I came, to see you."

She could see him now, still dragging his feet to nowhere. Still drenched in the rain, beating himself up. May could hear everyone, Brock, Misty, Ritchie, Gary, and Tracy; all of them telling her that she was their last chance. That if she didn't get through to Ash, he would be gone. May quickened her step, tears flowing from her eyes. "I'm sorry!" she shouted. "I'm sorry for not being as helpful as I promised!"

Ash still didn't turn, stop, or even give her any hint that he heard her.

"I'm sorry." She said again, picturing Ash as he used to be so many years ago. Doing that made her cry more, cry to the extent that she was sobbing. She didn't want this to happen. She had wanted to go to Pallet and see Ash. She had wanted to talk to him again and help him in anyway she could. She really did go to Pallet to see him, and when it was Ritchie who had picked her up, she was saddened. She knew now why she was so sad to not see Ash at first and why she was so happy that he had called. She used to think it was because they were best friends, but the truth was was that what she had for him in her heart was passed the friendship level. She had fallen in love with him and she didn't even know it. That was what pained her most now; Ash would be gone and would not be a part of her life anymore. And he would never return her feelings. What pained her was to see him pained. "I'm sorry." she said again, to make sure Ash had heard.

He just wants you to have fun.

May could see Ash now; he was getting closer with each step. With each heart beat.

Um, thanks. I like you too May.

Her heart was in her mouth now. She could hear it loudly. Ba-dum…. Ba-dum…. Ba-dum….

It looked so beautiful that I thought you'd want it and I had it gift wrapped for you.

May dropped her umbrella as she neared Ash, as she neared his back. The umbrella fell onto the sidewalk with a SPLASH! The Pokemon Center logo facing the rain.

Thanks May, I think that's what I needed.

Ash turned around, finally noticing May. The brunette was crying when she saw Ash, his eyes were dead and half closed. May nearly jumped on him, wrapping her arms around him. It was dark and pouring and now both of them were soaking.

There is something actually.

Ash stared down at May, confused. He didn't want her to cry, he didn't want her to get sick because of him. This time, he got himself to talk. "Did I make you cry?"

May had her face buried in Ash's chest until she noticed it was his voice that was asking her that question. She looked up at him, but it didn't sound like him. The voice was so cold and emotionless, as if he were past emotions. She began to cry again. "I made myself cry."

Ash stared back down at her, confused. She wasn't making any sense. Why would she make herself cry? But May didn't allow him to ask any more questions. "We can't do this to ourselves, Ash. We can't k-keep hiding our feelings. We-we'll become e-emotionless dolls and w-will never be able to tell any one if we're s-sad o-or not." She squeezed Ash harder. "I promise I will stop keeping everything inside and start telling you guys what's b-bothering me i-if you do the same. Y-you mean too much to me Ash, please d-don't do this to yourself, p-please don't push us out of your lives. Y-you mean too much to us all, and I can't stand watching t-the m-man I l-love suffer."

Ash's eyes widened and slowly, he pulled May closer to him; allowing her to cry into his chest. "Love?" he repeated, as if he weren't sure.

May nodded and looked back up at Ash. She had told him the truth, she did love him. When she looked into his eyes, they weren't the same as before, they were different somehow. She could see they changed, but couldn't put her finger on it. "Love."

The two of them were staring into each others eyes as rain poured down their faces. No one knew who did it first; maybe they did it at the same time. But soon they were nearing each other, May standing up taller and Ash leaning over her. And soon, she could feel his cold lips against her own.

Ba-dum… Ba-dum…

She could feel excitement, happiness building up inside of her. Her heart no longer was beating out of sadness but happiness. When they broke the kiss, May looked over at Ash closely. His eyes were no longer emotionless, they were no longer dark, May could tell he had enjoyed the kiss as well. But he was still worried and sad.

He stared into her sapphire eyes before saying. "I don't know what I'm going to do without Pikachu; I don't think I could survive without him."

"And you don't have to," answered May, with a small smile on her lips. "Because Pikachu isn't going anywhere."

Ash stared and then slowly, formed a smile. It wasn't forced either, and his eyes were smiling too.

May felt so happy to see him smiling she couldn't help but squeeze him harder. And in response he leaned over and kissed her again, in the privacy of the rain.

End of Chapter 14