Amelia POV
I was working one of those 48 hour shifts at the hospital and not even a quarter of the way through it. I was exhausted and quite frankly sick to my stomach, but thankfully I made it to the twelve week mark in this pregnancy so it was worth it. We would finally be able to tell everyone else. It was coming onto 7 a.m which was when Owen was expected to be into work so I decided to be a nice wife and greet him with coffee since it was his first night alone with Bella so I'm sure he was exhausted. I got a large cup of black dark roast coffee for him and a medium cup of decaf for me. I was walking down the main stairs to the lobby when I saw Owen at the bottom of them with Bella in the stroller and some dinky nurse trying to flirt with him... He wasn't flirting back but he wasn't doing anything to stop it. Instantly my blood came to a boil but I took a deep breath to keep my emotions in check regardless of how mad I was. It couldn't even be fully blamed on pregnancy hormones- a lot of it was my normal feelings. I tried my best to not storm down the remainder of the stairs over to them.
"Who is your little friend here, Owen?"
"Oh uh, this is Nurse Sarah Benson. She's an oncology nurse."
"Nice to meet you, Benson. Here Owen, I got you some coffee."
I set my cup in the cup holder on Bella's stroller and headed for the elevator to drop her off at daycare. Owen hurried up to finish his conversation with Sarah and tried to catch up to us but the elevator doors were already shut by the time he made it to us. I had just got done signing Bella's name into the check in when he came running in. Apparently he decided to take the stairs.
"Amelia, what's wrong?"
I kept walking through the daycare to one of the nursery rooms so I could feed her and relax for a minute. He came in right behind us.
"Stop ignoring me. What is wrong with you?"
"Nothing is wrong with me. I decided to bring my husband coffee and he is just flirting it up with some nurse. That is what's wrong."
He sighed and leaned against the changing table.
"I wasn't flirting with her. She was talking to me about Bella on her way out."
"So that explains her goo-goo eyes and your blushing about your "tender smile and strong body"? Yeah right."
"I wasn't flirting back. She said I looked adorable taking care of Bella."
"Yes. You're her father, that is your job."
"You're jealous."
I glared at him for being insensitive to the situation at hand.
"Clearly you don't get what I'm saying. We are married now Owen, I even hyphenated my last name. I shouldn't have to worry about any other girls flirting with you... Not now, not ever, and especially not after only a week and a half after getting married."
He stood back up and adjusted his shirt and tie, coming closer as he spoke softer.
"I'm sorry. I didn't think it was like that. What can I do to make it better?"
We were interrupted by his pager.
"Take that page. I have to feed her. I'll see you around."
He scowled as he stormed out. I just needed to think. It wasn't like he cheated so it's not like I could really be that angry. Things would just have to work themselves out.
I was about to scrub in on an eight month old's brain tumor removal after lunch time when Owen came busting into my scrub room.
"Can we talk?"
"I am busy right now."
"Amelia, it isn't like I cheated on you."
He really had the nerve to try and justify himself like that.
"Owen, get out of my scrub room. Find me after my surgery and we will talk. I have a young life to save."
"I didn't even flirt back."
He was angry, if not livid. I knew it wasn't just from this morning but that is what he was set on fixing now so he could have all his anger on whatever else it was. Maybe it was his lack of sleep, or him being annoyed with coworkers, or maybe he lost a patient this morning. Who knows. I didn't have time to deal with it.
"This time you didn't. However, you have been that husband that has cheated before so excuse me if I am hesitant with trying to figure out how to deal with this situation."
His jaw nearly dropped to the floor.
"That's a low blow. I really am starting to think you're jealous of Cristina. Amelia, I love you. I would not cheat on you."
"I don't think you realize now that we have two kids involved, it's not just me you are hurting. It'll be Bella and any other babies we have. If you portray me caring as jealousy, that's on you. I've lost too many people in my life so I care a lot about my family that I still have. That includes you now that you're my husband. Not everything is about Cristina either."
"Then don't bring up how I cheated on her."
"Don't give me reasons to."
"Why did I even marry you if it's going to be like this?"
Talk about a low blow... I finished scrubbing in and gave Owen one last look before walking into the O.R. Tears kept forming in my eyes and Bohkie, mine and Derek's favorite scrub nurse got one of the towels and blotted them away.
"I'm fine. Thank you Bohkie. Fifteen blade please."
The surgery was successful and the baby was recovering in the PICU. It was 4:15 which meant time for my 12 week ultrasound with the midwife on the floor below me. I checked in and was expecting to see Owen there. He was a no show but when I was called back, she told me he was in a surgery Meredith was in. Again, my blood came to a boil. He chose to be in that surgery. She was more than capable of performing it on her own and it was scheduled, not even a trauma or anything. I laid up on the bed and had my feet in the stirrups for the lady to insert the ultrasound probe. She was moving it all around and I looked at the screen to see the baby but there was no heartbeat echoing through the room. That couldn't be right. I started panicking. I needed Owen with me even if we were fighting and he wasn't here.
"Dr. Shepherd-Hunt, I'm sorry."
"Get Robbins. Get that thing out of me, and page Robbins 911. She will do this. My baby is alive, you're wrong."
She scurried out of the room and I started losing it. Huge tears streamed down my face. I could not be losing this baby. I was over losing my loved ones. Nearly three minutes later, Arizona came running in.
"Amelia, what's wrong? Why are you crying? I didn't even know you were expecting."
"I'm twelve weeks today. We were concealing it and was going to tell everyone with a cake. There is the baby but we couldn't hear a heartbeat. Owen isn't here, it was just me with the tech. I need you to find the heartbeat."
"Which machine did she use?"
"Internal probe."
"I'm gonna try external. Your baby could've just moved too far for the internal to catch it. I'm sure everything is fine."
She got my legs down and covered with a drape before lifting my shirt to expose my stomach. She squirted the cold gel on and moved the probe all around. She paused right on top of the baby and you could not only see the heart beating, but you could also hear it. Then I was crying happy tears.
"Now because your baby is in this position, I can't exactly tell you the gender today, but it is definitely alive."
"Oh my god. Thank you. I want that tech fired."
"Amelia, she's new."
"She was also starting to tell me that there was no heartbeat. She is fired."
She forced out a smile.
"Of course. Whatever you say."
She finished out the ultrasound and printed out some of the pictures of our little baby. Once again I found myself in one of the nursery rooms with Bella afterwards. I had been working for eighteen hours once I went to my ultrasound so I was just on call until the following morning. I had a little bit of freedom since I kept my neuro team fully scheduled. Owen came busting in as pale as Casper.
"I heard about the appointment. Are you okay? Is the baby okay?"
Instantly again tears started to flow. He was finally back.
"The baby is alive. We're okay."
He knelt in front of me and pulled me in for a hug.
"Oh Amelia... It's okay."
I sobbed into the crook of his neck. I was so exhausted and over all of this.
"I needed you... You weren't there."
"That won't ever happen again"
I remembered what he has said to me questioning why he married me, so I pulled away.
"Owen, I have gone through two pregnancies all alone. I also did the single mom thing pretty damn well before you came home. It isn't the most ideal scenario, but I have no trouble doing it all again."
"I know. I'm sorry. I said that because I knew it would hurt and I was mad. I regret that so much."
"I won't bring up you cheating ever again, just don't let dinky nurses flirt with you. We have two kids now Owen, we need to get serious about this."
"I know why I married you. Because I love all of you... Your dimples, your eyes, your strongwilled and independent personality, and even all your insecurities. You are definitely a lot to handle but I am more than capable of doing so. You have given me so much that I could never do. I swear I didn't mean to say that. You're the love of my life."
"I won't say it's okay, because it wasn't, but I forgive you Owen."
~Okay, I promise things are settling down and next chapter will be a genuinely happy one through and through- no arguing. Thank you for all of the lovely reviews and be sure to leave another! Look for a new update Saturday.~