His finger started to pull the trigger and he fought with himself even more violently. No, please dear God, don't let me hurt Relena…

Somewhere I Belong
Chapter 12
For the love of Heero
By: Miguela

Heero watched as Relena looked up at the instant that he was about to shoot and looked straight at him. I won't, he swore to himself as his finger slowly eased off the trigger, No, I won't hurt her. I love her! The intense pain entered the base of his skull as he pulled the gun down and put on the safety before he tossed it away from him. I won't hurt Relena, I love her too much…

The two of them locked eyes, Relena looking at Heero with question and doubt while he looked at her with pain and guilt.

The intense pain was starting to cause him to have flashes of memories. A little girl playing with her dog near an Alliance base, fighting Epyon in the final battle, hanging out with the other Gundam Pilots on Peacemillion, playing chess with Quatre as they talked about the best way to deploy the Winner resources to the Preventers…

He collapsed forward to the floor, laying still as Duo picked up the gun. His fingers were having spasms as he gripped the rifle in hand and looked at Heero. Heero fought his body and gripped the hand gun that has in his holster, pulling it out and training it over Duo's chest. "Don't," he whispered to his best friend, "No Duo, we shouldn't…"

"Should've thought of that before defying us, 01," Duo said coolly as he took aim with the rifle.

Heero shot Duo in the shoulder, causing him to loose grip on the rifle and let it fall to the ground. Heero pulled himself up but he was loosing control of his body fast. He pressed the hot barrel of his gun to his chest. For Relena, he thought quietly, She'll understand when they do an autopsy why. Please Relena, forgive me.

He squeezed the trigger on his gun and the bullet ripped through his chest. He coughed in pain as he sank down to the floor and lay on his side. His blood ran down from the hole he made in his chest with his own gun, but he now could think clearly. He concentrated on the pain from the wound in his chest as he heard several foot steps coming over to Duo and himself.

"Help Heero," Duo whispered quietly as Heero closed his eyes.

Mission complete, he thought to himself quietly, they didn't get Relena like they planned and once I'm dead, they won't be able to harm her ever again. She will be the president of the ESUN now, and Chambers won't get his way. He opened his eyes again weakly as he heard Sally coming through the crowd. I have to tell her, he thought desperately as she pushed her way through the crowd. I have to tell her about Chambers and about the chip in Duo's head. He took deep breaths as he tried to control his own anxiety and pain. As soon as Sally got close enough to him, he gripped her arm with a bloody hand.

"It's Chambers," Heero whispered, "Duo's being… controlled by them. Check the back of his head… for a control chip. Tell Relena…"

"Tell me what, Heero?" Relena asked as she came through the crowd and went to his side. "Oh God Heero," she gasped as she saw the wound in his chest. "Heero, what happened?"

Heero lay back on the floor and released Sally's arm as she pressed bandages to the hole in his chest. "No Relena," he whispered to her as he looked at her, "You're… not safe here…"

"Someone call an ambulance!" Sally called out as she let Heero lay on his back on the floor so that she could start to tend to his wounds. "We have two officers down, get Foreign Minister Darlian out of here!"

Stay safe Relena, Heero thought to himself quietly, I'll fight as much as I can, I won't give up on us, I learned that much through this. I love you, Relena, and I'll keep living for you so you won't be sad.

"No, I'm not leaving Heero," Relena yelled close to him. He felt her fall to her knees beside him and grabbed his hand, "No Heero, you can't leave me Heero, I would never forgive you if you leave me now." He felt her tears drip to his hand as she started to sob against his hand.

"Miss Relena, we have to get you somewhere safe," Quatre said to her gently, "Please Miss Relena, Heero would never forgive us if you died after this. I promise you that the two of you will meet up, but right now, Heero's in danger of loosing his life."

"Relena…" Heero whispered quietly as he opened his eyes for her, despite wanting to just close them and fall into oblivion. "Relena, don't cry… you're too pretty…"

He heard Relena gasp in surprise to hear Heero's voice. "Heero, oh God Heero, don't die on me, please," she whispered as she kissed his hand.

"Please," he whispered as he looked up at her, "Please Relena…"

She nodded reluctantly, "All right Heero," she whispered, "Don't die…"

He closed his eyes again as he tried to control his emotions and his pain. "I wont," he whispered to her and he could feel her take comfort in his words. I'm not going to leave you, Relena, he thought quietly as he started to slow his beating heart so the loss of blood would be minimal. I still have to apologize and make up with you, so I can't die yet until I'm completely sure that you don't want me in your life. He felt her release his hand and she was pulled away from him as Sally tried to get him to open his eyes.

"Where is that ambulance?" Sally shouted irritably, "Heero can't last much longer like this, where are they?"

"They're on their way," one of the men posted close by replied, "Lieutenant Po, the paramedics are arriving just now!"

"Send them over here," Sally ordered as she pressed on Heero's chest. "I'm not going to let you die, Heero, so you had better not give up. Relena would never forgive you and neither will I."

Heero let Sally take care of him, though he knew that he had missed all the vital points in his chest or lese he would've been dead at that point. The blood wasn't as much as he thought it would be. He smirked to himself, I guess that they don't call me the perfect soldier for nothing.

Heero let Sally and the others take care of him while he fell into sweet oblivion and slept. He awoke in a soft bed with bandages on his chest, side and around his head. That wasn't long, he thought to himself as he slowly came to his senses. As he usually did, he didn't raise his heart rate or his brain waves to be sure that no one would realize he was awake until he was sure that he was in safe company.

"I don't understand," Relena was saying quietly, "Why did he shoot himself? If he was trying to commit suicide, then why did he shoot himself through the chest? It just don't understand what was going through his mind."

"We found a chip implanted in Heero and Duo," Sally said to Relena, "It was controlling them completely."

Relena sighed angrily, "That's despicable," she murmured, "Whoever was controlling Heero probably ordered him to shoot himself or something."

Heero groaned quietly to let Relena and Sally know that he was awake. He heard two female gasps and someone took his hand. "Oh Heero," Relena said to him gently, "Don't move around too much, okay?"

Heero opened his eyes slowly and blinked to clear away the fuzziness from them. "Relena," he said to her as he gazed up into her relieved face. "You weren't hurt, were you?" he asked her worriedly as he gripped her hand gently.

She shook her head quietly, "No, I'm okay," she said to him gently, "Heero, you saved me."

He considered her words. Did I actually save her? he thought to himself quietly, Hm, I guess I did save her. He turned his gaze to her, "Is Duo okay?" he asked Relena gently.

She nodded, "He hasn't woken up yet," she said to him as she slipped her hair behind her ear. Her face was red and puffy, probably from crying in worry over him, and her hands gripped a wet tissue.

He smiled at her tenderly, "I'm glad you're okay," he said to her gently as he closed his eyes tiredly.

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