Ok... So first let me say sorry for not updating sooner. These last few months have been crazy.
And now lets clear up a few things. I didn't get a chance to reply to all the reviews, but i read a few and one mentioned confusion about Dumbles refering to "the States". This is the United States of America, so thats where Ted and Andie will be staying for a while. And also regarding Dumbles saying "the protection of the Light". He is talking about bad/good guys. Dark/Light simply refers to what side of the war you're on.
Ok! Now that that's done, I posted a HG/SS one shot the other day, kinda fluffy. If you're into that pairing go ahead and check it out. On to the story!
When I got back to my room I was exuaghsted. Tiredly collapsing on my bed, I tried to let sleep take me, but my mind was swirling with thoughts. I couldn't believe I had just agreed to be a spy. For Dumbledore. I would be going agaisnt all I had ever been taught, all that had ever been beat into me.
But it was a sacrifice I was willing to make. I wasn't about to let Andie die because of a war she wanted no part in. So, I traded my life for hers. Well, not literally, since I wasn't about to go up to the Dark Lord and say 'kill me instead', but as I spy I would probably get found out eventually. I didn't doubt my acting skills. Nor was I in danger of betraying myself with my mind, since my father had drilled occulemcy into me since I was 8. But this was the Dark Lord, the most powerful wizard in the world, not counting Dumbledore. I would be found out.
As I lay on my bed, the thought occured that maybe I would be a double agent. Tell Dumbles I was spying for him, but really spy on him. But if I did that and he found out... I sighed. I wouldn't do that, since I preferred to stay out of Azkaban.
Was I Light or Dark?
I groaned and sat up on the bed. Everything was so confusing. I made my way to the bathroom, splashing cool water on my face in an attempt to clear my head. Catching sight of my reflection in the mirror, I already so the signs of war on my face. I had dark circles under my eyes, making my overall appearence look tired. My eyes had this kind of oldness to them. The kind of oldness where someone has seen something that is forcing them to grow up fast. I had lost weight this year, making my already sharp angles sharper.
Turning off the water, I returned to my bed, praying for sleep to overtake me. This time I did fall asleep, but my dreams were haunted...
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I was dancing...with Severus. We were in a huge beautiful ballroom, twirling around and around. He said something, something funny I think, because I laughed. Then all the lights turned off, and I tried to move away, but Sev held me close and we kept dancing. I knew something was was wrong, and when I treid to tell Sev he just looked into my eyes. Suddenly I wasn't dancing anymore, and Sev had disappeared. In my hand were two black marbles, the exact shade of his eyes.
But then the marbles turned red, and I looked up. He was standing in front of me. He didn't look anything like they said, he didn't even look human. More... snake like. Then he took up my hands, and we started dancing, twirling around and around. He looked into my eyes and I looked into his, a fascinating deep red. Something in my head told me to stop dancing, but I ignored it.
I just smiled up at him. At some point I was dimly aware of people around us, throwing curses at each other. But we kept dancing, until a green light hit me in the chest and I fell. But no!... I wanted to keep dancing with him... I could only watch from the ground as he fell to the ground, lifeless. Then I screamed.
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"Bella! Bella wake up!" Someone was shaking my shoulder. I opened my eyes, turning to see Severus staring at me, concern in his eyes. His eyes... dark and obsidian...
"Are you listening to a word im saying?"
"What?" I snapped out of my thoughts."Uh...no. Sorry, I was just thinking.", I said sheepishly.
Sev only rolled his eyes, the corners of his mouth lifting in a trace of a smile."Are you ok?",he asked, worry in his eyes again."You were having a pretty bad nightmare."
"Yeah, im fine",I said as I sat up. Suddenly I was aware that my hair probably looked like a mess, so I grabbed a hair tie from the table beside my bed and put my hair up. "Hey Sev, how did you get in here?"
He froze, and looked like a kid caught stealing a cookie from the cookie jar."Yeah, about that...I sort of...have all the passwords for the common rooms...and the Prefect's rooms...and the Professer's rooms...and their offices...and pretty much everywhere else..."
"You what?!" My mind was awake again, turning through the possibilities of pranks we could pull on the school.
Sev only sighed, shaking his head as if reading my thoughts."Don't even think about Bella."
"But Sev-"
"I said no! And no I wont tell you where I got the passwords from either." Then as an after thought," And don't call me Sev!" Oh this was sooooo not fair. " Are you going to tell me about why I found you sobbing in the Room of Requirments?"
My turn to freeze. If Sev really believed in what the Dark Lord was fighting for then I couldn't tell him about Andie. He would just go to the Dark Lord and tell him I was a spy working for Dumbledore. But I couldn't just ask Sev what he believed in because it would seem like I was having doubts, and I needed to be a picture perfect Death Eater starting this summer. I needed a cover story, just hopefully not tonight."Could I just tell you in the morning? I'm really tired..."
Sev stared at me a moment before nodding his head, and turning to leave. As he made it to the door I picked up a pillow and tossed it at his head. "Ow! What was that for!?"
"Don't come in my room without asking!" I shouted as he fled.