AN – Thank you so much for the response to this story. Here is the next chapter. Like I said the story is already completely written so I should be updating daily.

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EPOV

It hurt me to see her in so much pain, if I could cry I would be crying with her as I held her to me. I had gotten here as soon as I could once Alice told me that she needed me. Her tears eventually ran dry and I led her to the car, wanting to carry her fragile human body in my arms, to take away her pain. The drive home was silent, I held her hand and waited for her to say something, anything but she just looked out the window, leaving me to worry about what she might be thinking. When we arrived at home she asked to be alone and that worried me more than anything else she might have done, Bella and I were inseparable and the fact that she didn't need me right now hurt me deeper than I would ever let her know. I gave her a hug and a kiss, desperately trying to read the emotions in her eyes before I reluctantly let her go. She went up to stairs to our room and I followed her every move until she closed the door and I turned to face my family. Their thoughts let me know that Alice had already filled them in on the situation at hand.

Sitting down with a sigh I faced them, their thoughts of concern clear. They all looked at me, waiting for me to talk first.

"Well you all obviously know what is going on with Bella," they all nodded their heads. I wasn't sure of the best way to approach this conversation. "I'm not sure how advanced it is but have the impression that it is rather severe," I looked at Alice who looked away quickly her face clearly distraught. "I haven't gotten much information from Bella but we need to discuss the best course of action."

"Is that really our decision to make, shouldn't we discuss this with Bella?" Esme never could escape her mothering tendencies.

"Of course we should but there are some things I want to discuss in her absence," everyone looked at me, questions running through their minds. "I think we need to discuss the possibility of changing her," the room was suddenly filled with thoughts of shock and surprise; this was the last thing they had expected; from me especially.

It's about damn time, Rosalie always to the point.

Finally, Emmett sounded happy.

"Why now?" It was a simple question but a valid one and one that deserved to be asked.

"I can't bear to watch her die, can't bear to be without her, I am not strong enough to see her in pain knowing that there is a way I can help her to avoid it," Carlisle nodded, satisfied with my answer.

Alice kept her eyes down the entire conversation and that worried me, trying to read her mind only yielded Romeo and Juliet in Latin. I would worry about her avoidance later.

We all discussed the best possible way to approach the change, trying to determine if there was a way to avoid the pain, to make the transition easier for her. Carlisle and I agreed to talk more in depth later but for now I needed to check on Bella, to make sure that she was okay and I excused myself.

I couldn't wait to get upstairs and let Bella know what we had decided, she was going to be so excited. She had wanted this for so long and although I didn't want to take her life away, we all agreed that this was the only way, although from the families' thoughts they had all felt that way long ago. I just couldn't be that selfish, I couldn't take away Bella's humanity, her chance for a normal life. If she ever decided that she wanted more I wanted to be able to set her free, I loved her enough for that. Now everything was different though, I couldn't let her go through all of this and then still face the possibility of losing her. Although I knew it would happen one day I never dreamed it could possibly be so soon and under such circumstances.

I reached the door and wished once again that I could hear her thoughts, know what she was thinking right now. Knocking lightly I called her name and opened the door, brimming with excitement at the news I had for her. She was lying on the bed; the sadness in her eyes was heartbreaking to see. I sat next to her, smiling as I explained that we had come up with a solution, her head leaned to the side, questioning.

"Bella, my love, we think that the best thing to do would be to change you." Smiling down at her I reached for her hand, needing to feel her warmth, her happiness at my solution.

The look in her eyes was indecipherable; there was something there that I had never seen before. As I tried to determine the meaning there she finally responded, but her voice was lacking the happiness and the joy that I had been anticipating and it took a second for her simple no to register with me.

Shock and confusion filled me and I got down on the bed next to her, reaching under her chin so her eyes meet mine. Her eyes that were overfilled with tears and sadness and I couldn't understand if she had heard me correctly or not.

"Bella, my love, did you hear me?" I was truly getting scared by the look in her eyes, a look of resignation, like she was ready to die if necessary and it was like she had already given up.

"Yes," her voice shook, "after over a decade of pleading you are willing to change me, may I ask what changed your mind?"

"Bella," I gently caressed her face with my fingers, "I always thought I would be able to accept the time that we had together, every day with you is more than I could ever ask for. But I can't sit here and watch you in pain and know there is something I can do to stop it."

Something passed through her eyes, something quick that I couldn't understand and she sighed. "Edward, don't you know that every time you refuse to change me, to accept that I want to be with you for all eternity that you hurt me, I couldn't handle the rejection anymore so that is why I stopped asking." Tears were shining in her eyes and she was fighting to hold them back.

"Bella," I scrambled to find something to say to her, "it was never my intention to hurt you, I just couldn't be selfish as to….." she held her hand up, stopping me and I looked into her eyes that were filled with fury.

"Damn it Edward, do you know how many times I've hoped you would be selfish? How often I wished you would break this rigid control you have over yourself and throw aside your sense of morality. You may not want to be so selfish as to take away my so called human experiences but Edward can you seriously believe that I don't want more from you?" The anger emanating from her body was palpable. "If I were to die right now Edward it wouldn't be the human experiences that I would miss, it would be the vampire ones, never having you wrap your arms tightly around me, never truly kissing me, never making love to you; that has been all I've wanted since I met you, you forever." With that she broke down, her body heaving with the force of her tears and I sat there, not knowing what to do.

I placed a hand on her back, attempting to draw her to me so that I could comfort her and she flinched at my touch. Never in all the time that we have been together had Bella ever shied away from me and I knew that I had broken her and I wasn't sure what I could do to make things right again.

"Bella," I whispered her name, for the first time not sure what she wanted from me.

"Please Edward, please just leave me alone," I nodded, not trusting my voice to speak and walked out of the room. Walking downstairs I could tell that everyone was concerned, that they had heard the entire conversation and I couldn't bear to talk to them right now, didn't want to listen when Bella's hurt was so clear in my mind. I went to the door, walked outside and just started to run, attempting in vain to run away from the pain I had caused and try to figure out where we could go from here.

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