First, God Bless to all the readers of this series and hope you are enjoying. I love the responses I get o all my stories and if you want to share some of your walk with God, I love hearing how others walk is going.
In this chapter, Ash starts out with a minor temptation but his honesty quickly calms the minor unintended situation. The rest of the story will be more of Ash and Misty talking to Serena. She has had a night to think about everything she has heard so far and she is confused. She grew up in a strict church and she remembers all the so called rules they must follow.
She will ask questions; confess her guilty feelings and also some surprises.
Here is a list of the stories I have set so far for this series.
Bike Ride (Completed)
After Graduation (Completed)
Day Two with Serena
Church
First day at work
Summer Vacation
Day Two with Serena (Sequel to After Graduation)
Ash woke up and heard giggles in his kitchen, he almost forgot he had guest. He quickly showered and then he went into the kitchen and stopped in the doorway. The girls heard him and looked at him first smiling and then look of confusion.
"Umm girls, how come you are not dressed?"
"We are covered Ash so what is the big deal?" Misty did not mean to sound harsh but girls walked around like this all the time and she had on a loose shirt and her breast were not big enough to really show anything. She did look down and noticed the chill was doing something but not real noticeable.
"Misty, I understand girls feel comfortable like this but you both are very pretty women with nice bodies and I can tell you are not wearing bras and probably panties underneath so my male mind starts to imagine all this and not with very pure thoughts. The temptation to want to see more is difficult for a guy to fight."
"Sorry Ash" both girls said and went and changed back into the clothes they wore yesterday.
"I am sorry I might of over reacted but in case you were never told, guys sexual urges are very visual and not to embarrass you but if I was to be honest seeing you both like that gave me thoughts I should not have about my girlfriend and my childhood best friend. I like waking up to see you both here though and for the first time in many years I wake up not feeling lonely."
"Can we go shopping today since I start my new job today? I also would not mind have one or two changes of clothes to have here and I promise to not walk around like I did before and to wear proper clothes under any shirts and pants I wear. I grew up with no father and three sisters so what you saw today was normal morning wear until we got our day started."
"I lived only with my mom so the same here," Serena added.
"What would you think if I walked out here with no shirt and in my boxers?"
Both girls paused to think and smirked but he was right, the thoughts both were having proved their minds would not behave and the temptations would be too easy to give in to.
"We can go shopping today but the clothes for the house I will get and not a lot. As much as I love having you here, we need to be proper and not give into temptation. Last night I almost let you sleep in my arms on the couch and I know that is pretty innocent but one thing could lead to another and we might have regrets."
The girls made breakfast while Ash had some work he needed to finish. During his final semester he was an intern at Berk Engineering Corporation when the semester ended they hired him full time even though he needed to wait two weeks to get his diploma. He was working on a project and the rough draft needed to be turned in on Monday. He wanted to get it done so he could spend the rest of the day with the girls and tomorrow was Sunday and he did not work if he did not have to on Sunday's.
He heard his office door slowly open and then felt arms around him. "Sorry about earlier Ash and thank you for being the person you are. I did not intend to make you uncomfortable but I appreciate your honesty."
He told her it is okay and he wants honesty between them even if it is the littlest of things.
"Breakfast is ready" and then she started to walk out before turning back to him "So you think your childhood friend is sexy too, do I need to worry about that?" she said with a smirk and wink and he moved to her quickly and gave her a proper good morning kiss.
"No more worries" she gasped out short of breath from the intense kiss that drained her of any worry she might have had about him liking Serena too.
"Can you too keep it down, Single girl here" as Serene pointed to her and then giggled before she then looked sad.
"I am a wicked person and all last night I thought of everything I did for the wrong reason. I could not forgive myself for all I have done to you Ash, trying to have sex with you and get pregnant because I knew you would not turn me away, all the guys I have had oral with but I have not done anything more but I know it was for all the wrong reasons. I act bubbly and lie life is great but honestly I am so miserable."
Ash and Misty let her vent but both had forgiven her for everything but she needs to confess these acts.
"I have cheated my way through two of my classes by ummm, well making the teacher happy, one was a girl. I have let teachers dictate what I wear and then I would sit in front and show off under my skirts to get their attention. I have very little money so I have stolen from my work and I am afraid they will find out."
"How much have you stolen, remember the amount does not matter but I need to know."
"About 500.00 to pay for the past two months share of my rent. Daisy was being flexible but she is not a rich person either and I felt guiltier about not paying her than stealing from work. We have a tip jar and with the past few weeks of tournaments at school and the graduation, tips have been really high and we are supposed to put our tips in the jar and one weekend I made over 300.00 in tips but I only put 100.00 in the jar and then when the jar was divided out amongst all of us I gladly took what was given to me. I did this a couple weekends in a row to pay of Daisy and also hit a few parties. I think the boss knew but since we kind of have alone time and he is married, he will not tell on me."
"After this weekend we will talk more about this and I will help but no more. We will shop today and then we will talk more. Sounds like you can make good money but spend it wrong and to miss manage your funds and cause your debt to affect others is wrong too. How many months do you have left with Daisy's contract?"
"I am their until the end of the summer and then she told me as much as she loves me, she will not renew because I was always late with rent, snuck guys in and was not very good at helping out."
Ash felt bad for her but he was not going to tell her that. She needed to work through these issues. "Misty, do you mind writing a few things down for me?" She said she would and then he thanked her with a peck on the cheek.
"First line of business is not shopping, sorry girls but I am rethinking this and we need to become planners. I am okay if the next time you come over you bring a change of clothes to leave here but us buying clothes is one, leads to temptation of staying her and making this your home, second is spending money on clothes when I already know Serena has a lot of clothes because I have been dragged with her before. Bring a few things over too but no shopping until you get your bills taken care of."
"Besides rent I really do not have much for bills. My mom pays my cell phone, I do get a monthly bus pass to get around, and Daisy pays for everything at the apartment."
Misty interrupted her "Actually we all knew you were not from a family of money so we all bought the food and paid the electric and utilities and Daisy as a friend never asked you to help." Serena was shocked by this and also mad at herself for putting Daisy in this situation. She could not help the tears.
"See, I am a terrible person and you two are wasting your time on me." She got up to leave but Ash stopped her. I will not stop you from leaving but think about what you might do to make your hurt go away. The man you find, whoever it is will not love you or care for you after you please him, we love you and care for you no matter if you are wrong or right, sad or happy, angry or joyous, we love Serena as a person and who she is as she is."
"You might give up on yourself but we will not" added Misty.
Serena stood in the middle of the room and was torn between going back to her old habits or staying and facing the music for her actions.
"Serena, Daisy chose to not include you in the bills because of what she knew so it was not you who asked her. You cannot feel guilty for something you did not know. I pitched in extra to help her and so did May. We chose to do this to make life better for you. We love you and care that is why we did what we did."
"Misty is right" and Misty gave him a playful 'of course' look "you can only be responsible for your actions and not the actions of others. Some of your actions led to the decision made by your three roommates but it was their choice. If you both want you can stay here tonight to and we can talk all day about this and also Jesus. I love sharing the word of God with non-believers, make me all giddy and like a school boy on Christmas morning. Each day I receive knew gifts but yesterday at the graduation was my best 'Christmas ever'."
Misty kisses his cheek and Serena looked away "I am jealous" so Misty kissed her cheek too.
"Not from you" said Serena as she wiped off the kiss.
"Hey, I do love you like a sister and my sisters and I kiss each other on the cheeks and my mom and I have done lip pecks. She is my mom and I love her and not embarrassed to show my affection to her in a daughter kind of way."
"Isn't the incest to kiss your mom?"
"Ewww, it is not like we use tongue or anything, gross."
Serena giggled at Misty's reaction, "I am teasing you, my mom and I do the same thing. I love you like a sister too." They shared a hug.
Ash watched the nice moment between Misty and Serena before taking the tablet from Misty and started to write some things down.
"Serena, we need to get going with a game plan for your life and also your spiritual life. I will never make you accept Jesus Christ as your savior but I will battle hard to help you get there. I love you and to see my love ones not have the gift of eternal life hurts me more than losing friends on earth. Here is the game plan."
Ash started to make a list:
Starting today, bible study with Misty and I
Learn to pray
Go to church with Misty and I
Learn to respect, love and forgive yourself
Leave your job after you pay back 500.00 that you took
Figure out how much you have not paid to Daisy that everyone else paid
Get a new job
Talk to someone besides Misty and I about your sexual issues
Find a place to live after the lease is up with
Become part of any group that involves people who do not drink or go to wild parties
We will stop here as I see your eyes about ready to pop out. I know this looks like a lot but you have the two of us who will hold your hand as long as you need your hand held. Let's first get started with a very short bible study, a verse we talked about yesterday but let's focus on the second part of this teaching.
Jesus already told the Pharisees that he who is without can cast the first stone. At this point Jesus already knew we are all sinners but the hardest thing to do is admit we are. He busied himself by drawing in the dirt and when he looked up he saw all the Pharisees were gone. He then turned to the woman, this would be you in this case Serena and not because she was a prostitute, that is not important of what the sin is. Jesus said to her 'No one has condemned you and either do I, go and sin no more."
Ash then read her the whole passage John 8:2-11 2 at dawn he appeared again in the temple courts, where all the people gathered around him, and he sat down to teach them. 3 The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group 4 and said to Jesus, "Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. 5 In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?" 6 They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him.
But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger.7 when they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, "Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her." 8 Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.
9 At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there.10 Jesus straightened up and asked her, "Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?"
11 "No one, sir," she said.
"Then neither do I condemn you," Jesus declared. "Go now and leave your life of sin."
"Why would he forgive someone like me" Ash expected she would ask this.
"Do you think Misty and I deserve forgiveness?"
"Yes, you two are amazing and I am scum" stated Serena.
"Do you know what my thoughts were when I saw you and Misty with your legs showing, shirts and no bras and the thoughts of only panties underneath, you would have thought of me as scum with the thoughts. I am not perfect and Misty will probably tell you the same thing."
Ash looked over at Misty hoping she was not mad that he included Serena when he said he was not having good thoughts but she did not show any signs of anger or hurt. "Serena, Jesus is so full of love that he forgave a criminal who died on the cross the same time Jesus did. The criminal admitted he did wrong and asked Jesus to remember him when he sat on his throne in the kingdom of heaven. This criminal did not deserve forgiveness but the grace of God and love of Jesus forgave him and the promise of eternal life was given to a person as you refer to as 'scum', why would he not forgive you."
"How so I even begin to ask for forgiveness, I mean sound like the criminal knew Jesus but just did not know how to live his life right and the woman saw in first person the forgiveness and kindness of Jesus, what do I have to witness? I have a hard time believing if I cannot see it and he is not on earth anymore."
"First, why did you ask me and Misty to talk about God to you?"
'I saw how happy you two were at that moment and also Misty trusted in God every day that he would bring you two together and it happened. Then you the kindness I see in both of you and after admitting all I did you two have not turned from me. If Jesus is anything like you two, then He must be great."
"Jesus commands us to go out and make disciples and spread the word of God that is what Misty and I are doing. We are not perfect but we have so much love for God that we take chances, we trust and we wait. We did not push you with words but with actions, but I will admit that I did not expect you to ask us but I prayed for your eyes to open just a bit each day and finally that time has come."
Misty listened and the more Ash spoke, the more in love she felt with him. She prayed to find a man of God and she listened to him and she was feeling renewed with her love for God. She whispered to God "Please let him be the one Lord, the one I marry and we have children together. Please let him want to share in my dream to do missions with my husband and children. I pray his I our Saviors, Your Son's name, Jesus Christ, Amen."
She was brought back to the current situation when she saw Serena crying, not just sobbing but crying. "My life can be changed?" she kept asking.
Misty put her arms around her "yes, life can be changed, no promised of it being easy but trust that God will be with us. He never promises an easy life but he promises when life is tough he will not leave us."
Misty held her for a while and Ash went to get each of them water. He knew the emotional swings dehydrated a person and a sip will comfort them.
"What if I mess up after I …accept Him as you put it?"
"Do you see me lying here dead after my morning thoughts, no? He forgives and then he does not dwell on it. You will find it harder to forgive yourself more than the fact God forgave you. You might question why you deserve this love but it is there to stay. God does not leave us, but we at times separate ourselves from God and find ourselves back in our old lives. We then have a hard time admitting we are wrong and might not return to God. Pride is one of the deadliest emptions mankind has and the cause of many downfalls in man's history."
Serena was still clinging onto Misty as she thought long and hard about everything she has heard the last two days. "Do you mind if I go home now?"
Misty let her go and she got up, grabbed her purse and left without saying good bye. Misty wanted to follow her but Ash stopped her. "We just gave her so much to think about and she is so overwhelmed."
"Ash, she was invited to a party tonight and I know it is a kind of part with drugs, booze and open sex acts. She cannot go Ash, we cannot let her go."
"We need to trust God, let him get into her heart and make her feel what she is doing is wrong and if she fails and come back to us, we will be here for her."
Misty was not happy with this but she then heard the following.
Dear heavenly father, we ask that you look over our sister, your daughter Serena as she battles with all of the emotions she is experiencing now. Please protect her tonight and bring her back to us safely. We love Serena as a sister and we will battle all the evil in the world to bring her to the peace you can offer her. Give us strength Lord to stand by her in the bad and the good, give us knowledge to lead her in the right path, give us patience to understand her needs and give us the ability to be with her even if she hurts us. I also ask for Misty to understand my ways and talk openly to me if she disagrees. I thank you for answering my prayer to find her and ask for guidance that I will be the best boyfriend and maybe someday best husband to Misty. I do not believe you would bring us together to have us be separated so I accept the path you have chosen for us if this is the path Misty wants with me. I pray this in Jesus name, amen.
Ash looked up and saw Misty crying. "I hope you are not mad at me for letting Serena go."
"Did you just propose to me through God?"
"I guess I kind of did. I trust God would not bring us together unless he had the intent of us being together forever. Over three years ago I asked if he did not intend for us to be together forever then do not let me meet you and we still met and in not a normal situation. I do love you Misty and I trust God to do what is right for us."
"Yes" was all she said and then put her head on his chest and he put his arms around her.
Serena
Ash was sound asleep after he drove Misty home and then returned to finish his project. He had a hard time concentrating trying to grasp all that has happened the last two days from finding Misty, Serena wanting to learn about God and now he is engaged to Misty. He promised her in the next week they will get a ring but she said his promise is more important than a ring.
They did agree to a longer than normal engagement and no announcement for a couple months. She has told her family of the boy she was waiting for and why but she has yet to call them this weekend to let them know they found each other and then when she told Ash it would be funny to add after she announced they found each other 'oh, by the way we are engaged.'
Ash was having one of those dreams he should not be having but he did think Misty looked sexy in his shirt and he loved her nice long smooth legs. He was not dreaming of her nude but he was sitting across from her and his eyes kept scanning over her body and thinking about the wedding night.
He was woken by bang, he thought it was his front door but then it was just one bang and why not use the doorbell. He closed his eyes again and he heard it again and he thought he heard his name.
He got up and cautiously approached the door and then he heard his name again and recognized the voice. He quickly opened the door and Serena fell into his arms.
Serena was in bad shape but not drunk, beaten up; her clothes were ripped beyond repair and exposed her bra. Her skirt she was hanging onto but when she put her arms around Ash it fell off and she was I her panties. He brought her over to the couch and put a blanket over her.
He went to get the first aid kit and took that time to call Misty. He knew it was two in the morning and she promised to go to church at eight in the morning but this was needed and he could not do it alone.
"Hello Ash, is everything okay, it is two in the morning" Ash started to cry as it finally hit hi Misty asked him to stop her and he said no, this is his fault. "Serena is here and she has been abused and it is my fault, I should have listened to you and not let her go. I am sorry Misty."
"I will be right over, I love you Ash."
A half hour later the doorbell rang and when he answered it, Daisy and May was at his door "Misty called us" we live closer so we got over here as fast as we could.
The two girls pushed past Ash and ran to Serena and held the girl. Both treated him kind of bad and ignored him. "Did Misty tell them what happened and they held him responsible, Help me Lord" was all he got out when he felt two sets of arms wrap around him.
"You cannot be her father too Ash, we know you let her go and Misty wanted you to stop her but Misty is not mad at you. Serena is a big girl and can make her own decisions and not all of them are correct. I do wonder were your God was and why he did not protect her."
"God gives us free will to make our own decision just like parents let kids make mistakes, I just feel bad I did not give her proper direction or hold on a little tighter but then I would be forcing her to God. I feel so bad" and then he collapsed in a ball and the tears fell freely.
"Ash, Ash it is okay, I am not mad at you for letting her go Ash, she made a choice and I understand if we tried to stop her then we would of angered her more." Misty had just arrived as he went to the floor.
"Ash, I said no and he hit me and then he raped me Ash, I said no and he would not listen. Why Ash, why would YOUR God let this happen to me, were was He when I needed him. I am ruined now for my wedding night if I ever have one. I am a whore now and might as will live my life this way since men only want me for my body and not anything else. Is this what YOUR God has planned for me?"
Ash got up and left his condo. He slammed the door and the four girls were shocked since two were scared and the two who knew him never saw anger like this. Was he mad at Serena, God or who or what was he mad at then, they did not know he was mad at himself. He could have been more forceful and made her understand that actions she takes are her choice but she has to live with that choice. He could have told her to listen to her heart and if she feels what she is doing wrong is God telling her to turn from that path and go a different way but no, he let her leave not known what she planned. He had failed her and probably Misty too since he cannot take care of the people he loves.
Back at the condo, Daisy helped dress Serena into the clothes she brought and then she helped her to the car. "Come with me Misty" Serena asked her.
"I did not think you would want me with since I did not push for you to not leave us."
"I am sorry I made Ash that angry, he does care about us, doesn't he?"
"Yes" then Misty followed as the four girls went to the hospital to get Serena checked out and to file a report.
At the hospital they asked if she was on the pill of protected in any way and she said no, she never planned to have sex unless she was going to marry the person or wanted kids before marriage.
"Do you want a morning after pill in case you could get pregnant?" asked the nurse.
Serena never really thought about that and then after some thought she remembered this would have been the perfect time to get pregnant, but she did not want to. The nurse gave her the pill and at this time it was just Misty and Serena in the room.
"Serena, I know you already hate me but going to say this anyway. If you did stop from getting pregnant and you were going to be, that is like ending a life. Sure you probably have not conceived yet but maybe the plan is for you to get pregnant and see love through a child's eyes. If you were meant to get pregnant and you stop it, what choice does the unborn child have? I know you blame Ash but did he demand you go to the party, did he tell you to get o your knees and start things with the guy who too it too far, did he not warn you about this kind of lifestyle. You might be mad at him but he respected you last night and let you have your freedom of choice. I was mad at him at first too but you are 21 years old and will be a college graduate in six months, you need to take responsibility and not blame those who gave you freedom to choose and love you enough to still be there for you when you fail." She stood up and left before giving Serena a chance to say anything.
In the waiting room both May and Daisy heard it all and they were upset with Ash but also understood what Misty said. Daisy has babied Serena for four years now and that has taught her nothing but to live the free life and others will pick up the pieces.
A few hours later Serena was done and they left the hospital and the sun was starting to rise. Misty looked and it was five in the morning and she knew she would not sleep any more so she let Serena go with Daisy and she drove home to change.
After showering and changing into a nice dress and fixed her hair, she enjoyed looking nice at church and today she was going to Ash's service, if he is there.
She decided to stop at his place but no answer so she went to church and she looked inside and saw Ash sitting in the second row on the left hand side, he was in the exact same chair she always sat in the eleven o'clock service. She approached him and from behind whispered into his ear "Excuse me sir but I normally come at 11 and this is the exact chair I always sit in and would you humor a girl and let her sit her."
He turned back to her and she saw he was crying still. She put her arms around him "Ash, I love you and nothing that has happened has changed the path I want with you. We will get through this."
"Are these three seats taken?" Ash and Misty looked up and saw Daisy, May and a much bruised Serena behind them. Ash was confused but he smiled, he was feeling better.
"Please forgive me Ash, you gave me freedom and I failed and I hope I did not ruin our friendship."
"I love you Serena as a friend and you will need to do more than that to get rid of me."
Serena smiled but a forced smile as she sat next to Misty. She leaned over to her "You promise to always be my friend" Misty nodded "I did not take the pill."
A/N: this one was tough to write and the reason I did not go into the details of the abuse is one I know I have younger readers and I will not make this M rated, plus abuse on women is a tough read and write. I have known women who went through this and only by the grace of God did they get through.
I hop in the beginning I wrote well enough to show the struggles of a person fighting with the love of God against their current lifestyle. Serena was excited enough to ask to learn more but she still struggles with her past and having a hard time letting go. This is what directed her to the party.
God gives us free will on our lives; if he controlled us then every one of us would believe in Him but not by choice. We make many mistakes but by the grace of God we are forgiven and also we get as many chances as needed, just open your heart and ask God for help with your battles.
Next chapter I will show the church service hit home for Serena and also show a couple of other girls, whose life's are not as rough as Serena's, at least not on the outside but also have skeletons in the closet that they have kept from their closest friends. You ever sit in a service and look around because you feel like the pastor is talking directly to you and want to know if others he is talking to you, this is going to happen to Serena.
When the Devil finds out a person is leaning towards God or curious about God, he puts bad ugly things into their lives. You feel like you are in this internal battle and no way out of the fight. This is the time you lean on the person or people who introduced you to God, find a church, learn to pray and fill your heart with the Word. God is good but he is so loving he gives us freedom, make the right choices.
I will also be adding a chapter for One God today or tomorrow, please read and enjoy. It is based on How to Train Your Dragon but the message of God is in it. The main character, Hiccup had the seed of God planted in his soul when he was six and I try to show how that seed grows how he gets older and he wants to spread the word of God as he learns more about Him. Again the story is on my profile so if interested please read.
