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A/n: lots of pov changes.
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Mitchie POV
I've made up my mind. I finally know. I know who my heart lies with. Its Shane, it's always been Shane, who was I kidding?
Of course I like Nate, but strictly on a best friend basis. Sure he's good looking and but hell Shanes like a god. I've known how i've felt for a week now, since Christmas day to be exact, by far the best Christmas I've had seen...well, since I can remember. Not because he gave me his car, which was totally amazing, but how safe I felt in his arms when we were having our movie marathon, how right it felt, how our bodies fitted together perfectly, like jigsaw pieces.
I guess even when I was angry at him, I still couldn't help but think about him, about his hair, his smile, even his disgusting habits, none of it phased me. This wasn't a stupid little crush, this might be love.
I glance at my watch -7:56 pm party started in a matter of minutes, yet i didnt want to be on time, i'm a girl for crying out loud, i had to be fashionably late. I glanced at myself in the full length mirror, nodding in satisfaction at my outfit. I had picked out a revealing, but not too revealing little black dress accompanied by a pair of red stilettos. I looked pretty good. After all i was out to impress. I inhaled deeply as I glanced at the clock again- 8pm, four more hours till I lay my heart on the line and tell him. Its either going to be the best beginning of the year ever, or the worst.
Let the party begin.
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SHANE POV
What do I say? 'Hi Mitchie I love you,'? No that's not good enough.
'Mitchie I love you, I always have will you be my girlfriend' better, but not romantic enough
'Mitchie I love you more than anything and I have for a while now and I was wondering if you'd do me the honour of becoming my girlfriend.' Meh, It will do.
I continued to pace around my room, as I buttoned up my shirt nervously, my hands shaking slightly in the process, I'm going to do it, I'm going to tell Mitchie that I think she's the one. That she's constantly on my mind, that i'm head over heals in love with her.
"Shane?" I turned around to see Jason at the door dressed in black jeans and a neon pink t-shirt and a neon yellow sweatband....interesting.
"Shane? Stop pacing, you'll ruin the carpet"
"What if she rejects me?" i say out of the blue, letting my insecurities known.
"I'm sorry what?"
"Mitchie. What if she rejects me and I ruin our entire friendship, and she never wants to talk to me again. Oh my god I can't tell her... I can't!" i feel my breath quicken and i swear to god i'm beginning to hyperventalate
"WOAH WOAH WOAH! Shane calm down, you're rambling. Everything will be fine."
"No it won't, I can't tell her I can't risk it"
He put his hand on my shoulder supportively "Life is about taking risks Shane, if you always play it safe, you'll never get what you truly want"
I took a deep breath "Okay, you're right, I can do this, I will do this." Maybe.
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NATE POV
I've watched Mitchie from the corner of my eye for the past few hours now, completely mesmerized in her beauty. It was getting harder and harder to ignore the feelings I got whenever I saw her, I had to try my chances again.
I know we had agreed after our last 'incident' that it would be better for the both of us if we stayed friends but I can't, I simply can't spend every moment with her and not be able to....kiss her, call her mind. Since when have i Nate Grey, become a mush?
but the thing is, I can't get her out of my head. It's driving me crazy. I was going to tell her, at midnight.
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SHANE POV:
I gulped down my third beer of the night so far as courage for what I was about to do, my hands are still shaking and I feel slightly light headed, God I can't do this. Yes you can, you can, just breathe Shane, breathe.
I enter the house, as loud party anthems filled my ears;Abba?! jeez whose music collection is this? Actually I probably already know the answer...Jason
I look for Mitchie through the endless amounts of crazed party animals dancing and drinking their bodyweight in cheap alcohol until I see the back of her huddled in the corner.
I smile admiring the back of her dress,which hung to her figure perfectly whilst i mentally prepared myself as I make my closer to her.
Hold on what the fuck...
Mitchie POV
I searched frantically through the crowds of people for Shane as the clock counted down the final minute of 2008, where the hell was he? I had to find him.
I had nearly gotten out of the living room before I was pulled back my a strong grip, I spun round hoping it was Shane but it was, Nate
"Mitch, I really need to tell you something"
"Not right now Nate I've got to do something really quickly" I glanced at the clock – 45 seconds, come on Nate let me go!
"Please Mitchie it won't take long"
"I really can't" Ahhh! 30 seconds!
"Mitchie" he whined slightly, his eyes begging with mine. No dont you even dare pull those puppy dog eyes!
"I can't I have to-"
Before I could register what was happening Nate's lips crashed upon mine aggressively, my eyes widen as I pull away from Nate almost automatically in complete shock to see Shane turn on his heel and leave the scene as quickly as he could. Shit. Shit, double shit. I snapped my head back round to look at Nate
"What the hell was that for?!" I exclaimed, my voice raised slightly
I stared at him intensely as he stuffed his hands into his pockets and looked towards the ground, not daring to make eye contact with me "I-I-I" he stuttered, causing my patience to run even thinner
"You what Nate?"
"I really like you Mitch"
Fucking hell! Does god really hate me this much? I finally make up my mind after hours of agonizingly painful thinking and then he has to proclaim his love for me. Thank you very much.
I shake my head, I haven't got the time to listen to him or even begin to even speak to him, I had to run after Shane , I had to explain.
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Shane POV
I felt my chest tighten and my blood run cold as I watched them lip locked. It was as if my world began to play in slow motion. I gulped hard as I quickly turned around, feeling the overwhelming urge to collapse on the floor and cry.
I picked up my pace through the house as I heard a familiar voice following me
"SHANE!" it was her. I swallowed hard, fighting back the tears pricking the back of my eyes
"SHANE!"She repeated, pushing her way through endless amounts of people.
I had successfully made it out of the house and into the front yard before she grabbed my shoulder and spun me around "Shane" she said, clearly out of breath "Please let me explain"
"Mitch, I don't want to hear it" my voice caught in my throat even more, I needed to get out of here; I wanted to lick my wounds on my own.
"Please" she begged "It really wasn't what it looked like, I swear"
"Really? Because I'm getting this weird case of déjà vu. I happen to recall you saying it wasn't what it looked like the first time I found you sucking face with my brother!"
I was now getting aggravated. I was angry. Angry that I had prepared myself to wear my heart on my sleeve and admit how I feel and she had to go and do that. Angry that I hadn't told her before and could have perhaps prevented it from even happening. Angry because he's got to kiss her at midnight, when it should have been me.
I tried to turn away but she kept a firm grip on my wrist "Shane" she choked back a sob which caused me to automatically turn towards her. My expression softened ever so slightly as a saw a tear roll down her cheek. My one weakness- seeing Mitchie cry.
"Leave it Mitch" I tried to keep my voice as blunt as possible, not wanting to show any emotion
She dropped her hand to her side helplessly as I walked up my porch, pulling my keys from my pocket, I needed to get away from here, before I do something I really regret.
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Mitchie POV
I watched as Shane reversed his car off the driveway and sped down the street, it was 12:15 and already this is the shittest year I've had. Fuck 2009. Tonight was supposed to be perfect, I was going to tell him how I felt on exactly midnight and hope he'd feel the same. But instead one grey brother has made a move on me and the other has stormed off.
I let the tears continue to roll down my cheeks, by now my mascara must be everywhere, but I couldn't give a shit. Maybe I just wasn't meant to be happy.
I stood watching the same spot where I saw Shane's car disappear for a good few minutes before I reluctantly dragged myself back indoors. A short black dress was certainly not appropriate atire for a January evening.
I pushed my way back through several drunken people as I stumbled into the kitchen to see a large crate of beer unattended, obviously begging to be drunk. I grabbed a bottle and literally chugged it down as quickly as possible before opening another.
I had never been much of a drinker, heck I'm 16 of course I'm not going to be much of a drinker, but apparently drink makes all your worries go away, right?
I slumped down on an unoccupied chair in the corner, resting my head against the cold wall, my mind reeling of all the complexities that makes up my life.
"Mitchie, are you okay?" I looked up to see her, Sarah.
"Yes" I grumbled before turning my gaze back to the half empty glass bottle
"Have you been drinking?" she asked shocked
"Yep! So what"
"You shouldn't, you're under aged"
I laughed at that comment, oh she was a fine one to talk "That's funny because as I recall so are you. But that didn't stop you getting completely wasted and sleeping with Shane did it?"
Silence. She bit her lip. Ha she deserved it, bitch.
"Mitchie, c'mon what's wrong? she asked again, cant someone take a hint that i dont want to talk about it?
"Nothing,"
She sat down opposite me, looking at me straight in the eyes "Tell me, whatever it is, it's bad"
"I said it's nothing"
"Then why do you have half your make up dripping down your face? And drinking beer, when I know for a fact you hate beer, Shane told me."
I stood up, now annoyed beyond words at her persistent nagging "Why does it matter to you anyway"
"Because I don't like seeing my friends upset"
I let out a bitter laugh, as I felt the drink begin to kick in "WE'RE NOT FRIENDS! WE NEVER WERE AND WE NEVER WILL BE!"
"But I thought..."
"You thought wrong. Why the hell would I want to be friends with you! I only did it to please Shane. You've ruined my fucking life and I wish you never fucking existed."
I continued to breathe heavily, all my pent up emotions and anger bubbling towards the surface. I shot a icy glare at her
"Mitchie, this is the drink talking"
"The only thing the drink is doing is giving me the confidence to tell you what's been on my fucking mind since the minute you gate crashed into our happy lives, ruining everything in the process"
"That's not fair..."
"DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHATS NOT FAIR?" I shouted, my voice loud, but still drowned out by the blaring music, I knew I was about to say something I could potentially regret, but I didn't care. This felt good, finally telling someone exactly how I feel "ITS NOT FAIR THAT YOU HAVE TO HAVE A FUCKING KID WITH THE GUY I LOVE!"
"What?!" she stood up, her eyes widened with shock
"You heard me. I. Love. Shane. And you've ruined any chance I had with him, so thanks. Thanks a fucking lot. I hope for his sake you don't mess him around, because" I stepped closer to her, my eyes full of venom "If you dare hurt him or do anything that prevents him from reaching his goals, I will personally stamp on that pretty little face of yours"
I stepped back, downing the rest of an admittedly vile beer before slamming it down firmly on the table beside her
"Happy new year Sarah" I said sarcastically before I barged past her making my way to where the rest of the party was taking place.
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Sarah POV
I sat down and let out a tired sigh as Mitchie left the kitchen. I felt sick, not due to morning sickness but guilt. This was ridiculous, I could barely live with myself when I thought they were only friends, but now I know that she's in love with him. This has to stop
I pick up my phone and call the only person who knows exactly what's going on
"Caitlyn, I need to talk to you"
She groaned "Can't it wait; Jake and I are kind of in the middle of something..." Ah that's right, Jake and Caitlyn turned the New Year's party down because they wanted their own little 'celebration"
"Caitlyn, I can't do this any longer, I'm going to tell him"
"WHAT! Right I'm coming over stay where you are and don't speak to anyone"
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Jason POV
I finished dancing, as I wiped the sweat off my forehead, nothing better than spending the evening dancing like a crazed fool to some party classics. So far this was by far the best party I've been too, all my friends all under one roof, seeing in the New Year in style. Talking about friends, I don't think I've seen any of them for the past hour... Oh well!
I danced my way through the crowd of partiers through to the kitchen, my thought dry as sand paper. I got to the door way when I stopped dead in my tracks
"I can't do this Caitlyn!" I heard Sarah's voice echo through the kitchen. I've never been the one to eavesdrop but this sounds interesting. I stood in the door way out of sight from the pair of them.
"What? Yes you can, you've done it so far..."
"It's different now"
"How the hell is it any different? Last time I checked you were still pregnant and Shane was still acting like the perfect to-be-daddy"
"Because it's messing with people's lives"
"Duh, course it is, didn't you think of that before, you knew this was going to change Shanes life" Think of this before? What the hell...
"That was before I knew Mitchie loved him!"
Hold on... Mitchie loves Shane? But Shane loves Mitchie! Oh my god! MY PLAN WORKED!
"What?!" Caitlyn exclaimed
"Exactly! She just completely lost it and admitted everything, she's right I've ruined her life" i watched as sarah put her head in her hands
"Well she can still be happy with Shane"
"But I can't live with this guilt, its tearing me apart Caitlyn" I knew she felt bad about the whole pregnancy thing but I didn't realise quite how upset she was, I just blamed it on hormones.
"You've got to push the guilt aside, this is the only way you can assure a stable future for you and the baby, this was meant to happen. It's like fate."
"What that I happened to sleep with Shane?"
"Yes! And now look at you! You've got a great guy who is loaded by the way...who is going to look after you and the baby"
"I don't care about the money anymore, this isn't fair, I can't ruin their lives like this. Mitchie likes Shane and it's become pretty obvious that he feels the same, they deserve the chance to be happy"
"Sarah stop being irrational!"
"I'm not! This is going to end." She inhaled deeply "I can't keep pretending that this baby is Shane's"
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SPOILERS
NEW YEARS PART 2
JASONS REACTION TO THE NEWS
ERR SHANES GONE FOR A DRIVE BUT DIDNT HE DRINK
NITCHIE REJECTION???????????????????? OR NOT
JASON CONFRONTS CAITLYN AND SARAH
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