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MITCHIE POV
I sat frozen to my chair, my mouth hanging open slightly, either I was dreaming or this was one cruel joke. There was no way this could be real, Shane can't be admitting that he loves me. Even though I had dreamt about this moment for the best part of my teenage life, I can't help but not believe it now it's finally come true.
I couldn't speak, heck I'm struggling to keep my breathing steady, as soon as those words left Shanes mouth I moved my gaze from his bruised features to the numerous 'get well' cards on his bedside cabinet as if they were the most interesting things in the world.
I was going to wake up any second, I'm sure of it. I'm going to wake up in a cold sweat and laugh uneasily at my stupid unrealistic dreams.
"Mitchie, can you please say something, you've not said a word for the past five minutes" his apprehensive voice brought me out of my thoughts as my gaze shot back to his face
"W-what?" I managed to stutter.
His expression fell a little as he ran one hand through his dishevelled hair,
"God, I've made a stupid mistake haven't I?" his voice was quiet "I've gone and ruined everything. Now you won't even want to be my friend and I would have lost the best thing in my life in the same day as I've lost the title as a dad. My life fucking sucks" he bowed his head, hiding his face from my view.
What am I supposed to say? My hearts telling me 'c'mon Mitchie snap out of it and kiss the poor guy' whereas my head is thinking ' he's been in a trauma, maybe it's his medication speaking. He doesn't love you, he's confused.'
"You haven't gone and ruined everything" I said as I tried to collect my composure. I watched as his face shot up, his expression changing as hope was evident in his eyes. "I just don't understand Shane"
"What don't you understand Mitchie? I love you, I'm head over heels, completely and utterly 100% in love with you."
Those words caused millions of butterflies to erupt in the pit of my stomach, this is what's supposed to happen in fairytales. But I'm not a princess, more like Cinderella minus the prince charming
"B-b-ut I'm nothing special. Why me?" I mentally slapped myself for letting all my insecurities flood out of my mouth
His eyes widened "What?! Nothing special?" he asked in disbelief "Mitchie you are not 'nothing special' you're single handily the most amazing person that I know. Why can't you see it? And you really want to know why I love you?"
I nodded meekly
"Because you always put everyone else before yourself, even if your own emotions are at stake. Because even when life seems completely unbearable, you still manage to find a positive. Because you can just be wearing sweats and a hoody but still manage to be the most beautiful girl who has graced the earth. Because that even though I'm a complete asshole, you've stuck by me through thick and thin and you're always there when I need someone to talk to. I just can't believe it took me now to realise it all."
My heart began to race in my chest as my head struggled to process the words just said
"But it's not a question about how I feel, how do you feel Mitchie?"
"You know how much I like you Shane, the song pretty much told itself"
"So...err" his eyes darted back and forth between me and his hands "Maybe we could give it a go, you and me, we could be really good together"
Oh my God, Shane was actually asking me out. Shane grey, my best friend, my unrelated brother, but boyfriend? Could we really make a go of this? Would we go through the honeymoon period like most couples and eventually drift apart, realising that we were destined to be just friends. What if that happens and things become too awkward between us that we just lose contact altogether. I don't think I could bare Shane not being in my life.
"I" I took in a deep breath, not believing that I was about to say a sentence that could potentially ruin everything "Shane, I need time to think about this"
I got up off the chair as the tears that were previously threatening to fall started to cascade down my cheeks, leaving Shane staring helplessly at the door.
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Five days. Five whole days have passed since I practically destroyed what could have been the most romantic moment of my life. He had laid his heart on the line, told me everything, everything that I've dreamt of, and what did I do?
Tell him I needed time.
For what?
Why did I need time? What the fuck is wrong with me.
I didn't need time to think, I needed to grow a pair and let my guards down. Truth be told, I was scared to say those four words 'I love you too'. I hated feeling vulnerable, I didn't want to confess everything to be told its one big joke.
But five days have been and gone and I haven't as much as exchanged words with Shane. I had visited the hospital several times yet I never managed to walk into his room. Sometimes I got as far as the corridor leading to his room, other times I could even exit the car.
And that certainly didn't help matters. The car, the car he gave me for Christmas. The same very car which has his scent running through it, his favourite CD still in the player, one of his old checker shirts lying in a heap in the boot. Well it was in the car boot, its not a substitute for my pillow at nights.
But today he was finally allowed to be discharged with 3 weeks off college to have bed rest and I was going to pick him up.
Would It be awkward? Most probably.
Do I know how I feel? Yes.
Will I be able to tell him how I feel? Yes...no...Maybe. I don't know.
Nice one Mitchie, it's taken you five days to get... absolutely no where.
I pulled up in the hospital car park, borrowing Nate's SUV after much persuasion. I would have driven my own car but there was no way Shane could access the car and fit a wheelchair in the back of the mustang.
That's right Shanes in a wheelchair. Only for the next 6 weeks, crutches are an impossibility with not only a broken leg but a broken arm.
I got out the car, mentally preparing myself with facing Shane for the first time since the confession. He had no idea I was here to pick him up.
I walked down the now very familiar corridors which lead to his room, stopping metres from the room. I inhaled deeply, okay Mitch here goes nothing. I entered the room to be faced with Shane squirming uncomfortably in the chair
"Hi" I greeted quietly, causing him to look up towards me
"Um...hi, what are you doing here?"
"I'm here to pick you up" I stated simply
"But I thought Nate was going to collect me?"
"Well Nate's busy and well I wanted to"
"Oh" silence fell between us again as I felt the atmosphere between us grow ever more edgy.
"Well c'mon then, let's get you out of this place, I'm sure you've had enough of hospitals to last you a life time" I cracked a small smile, hoping the awkwardness would subside slightly, yet no such smile was returned
I made my way behind his hair and began to push him out of the room and out of the building. After a somewhat interesting struggle to get Shane in the car as pain-free and as easily as possible, he finally spoke up
"So how've you been?"
I took my eyes off the road for a second to take a glance at him, only to see him staring out the window blankly.
"I've been okay, you know the usual."
"Good"
"Mitch" "Shane" we said simultaneously causing us both to laugh slightly
"You first" I offered
"No you"
"I'm sorry." I said sincerely
"No, I'm the one who should be sorry, I have a habit of not picking my moments correctly"
"I was the one who couldn't figure out what's been staring at her all along"
Out of the corner of my eye I saw Shanes head snap towards me, I pulled up outside his house and turned the ignition off before facing him
"Shane, I've thought about it, I know what I want" This was it, the moment where we started a new phase in our relationship, where we would no longer be friend yet would be boyfriend and girlfriend
"I-"
"Sarah?" he questioned out loud.
Erm what the hell? I'm about to confess my true feelings towards him and he goes and blurts out her name. Well this is a turn on. Not. "What?" I asked confused
His focus was no longer on me but the sight out of my side window, I raised an eyebrow as I readjusted myself in the chair so I could see. And there she was, in the flesh, that bitch sitting on the Greys front porch staring right at us.
Perfect timing.
"I need to talk to her" he said, unbuckling himself with his able arm. "Mitchie help me out of the car please?" Before I had the chance to argue back he had already opened the passenger door, trying to get out. I hurriedly exited the car, retrieving the wheelchair from the back seat before he ends up on the pavement in a heap from not being able to stand.
Once he sat down he looked at me "Look we'll speak later okay?" he looked apologetic
"Okay"
For fuck sake, was this going to get any worse?
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SHANE POV
I wheeled myself up the porch to come, near enough face to face with Sarah "Shane, I've come to explain" her voice was desperate and her appearance untidy , grey bags forming under her eyes. It was as if she hadn't gotten any sleep for days.
"Okay" I said monotonously as I led her through the back path and into the kitchen
"So..."
"Look Shane I never meant for this to happen, it's just that when I found out I was pregnant I was scared. I didn't want my baby to have some druggy as their dad. And when I remembered our night together, I couldn't help but want the dad to be you. You're sensible, caring and amazing and you really didn't deserve any of this"
"But you did it anyway, I had finally come round to the idea of becoming a father and for what? A lie, a stupid lie."
"I know! But you've got to believe me the last thing I ever wanted to do was to hurt you" Oh that's rich "If I could turn back time I would. I never meant to get in the way of you and Mitchie, I guess I only realised how much of an utter bitch I had been until Mitchie had told me what she thought."
She caught my attention when she mentioned Mitchie "What?" Mitchie never told me that she had spoken to Sarah that night.
"Just after you left, she came into the kitchen, distraught, I guess you guys must have had an argument or something, she completely lost it, she told me exactly what she thought of me and how she felt towards you. As soon as she told me that she loves you I knew I couldn't keep up this game any longer, you both deserved the truth. If I knew you guys bloody loved each other I would have never of done this, I swear"
Hold on, she loves me?
Maybe something good can come from this.
So there you go, I'm evil, I've kept you waiting for Smitchie for 26 chapters now, but guys, the end is near, I can't believe I've got this far and had so much support from all of you! You truly are amazing. So keep reading and reviewing
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QUESTION: NOW THE END IS LOOMING, DO YOU WANT A SEQUEL? was this chapter shit?
NEW FIC IDEA: SMITCHIE? OR NITCHIE? LOVE TRIANGLE? OR NO LOVE TRIANGLE?
SPOILERS:
WILL MITCHIE EVER GET ROUND TO TELLING SHANE HOW SHE FEELS
WELCOME BACK NATE!- HAVENT YOU ALL MISSED HIM?
AND I'LL FIT IN SOME JASON FUN TOO!