I shot down a swig of rum. Here I was at 2 in the afternoon getting drunk by myself. The end. I wanted to say goodbye to Emma. As soon as this was over she wouldn't remember me, not this me anyway, and I wanted…no. I needed to kiss her one last time. I needed to say goodbye to Liam, I needed to call Henry and say goodbye. He would understand. He only ever wanted what was best for Emma so this he would understand. I wished I could say goodbye to Baelfire because despite everything, he was still that little boy on the ship, he was still Milah's son. And he was still going to have his family torn apart by a pirate, have his father turn dark to save his life and go through hell to get back to this world. I wished I could say something. But he would suspect something and he would tell Emma and Emma would stop me from doing what had to be done. I couldn't risk that. I should say goodbye to Dave. He may hate me but sadly he was one of my best friends here. No one really trusted a pirate. Maybe Lieutenant Killian would have better luck making friends. I looked around at the empty tables. This was my wake. My goodbye to this town, the goodbye to my life. And I was utterly alone. What a perfect metaphor for my life.

I stood up shakily. No point in waiting. I had to see Liam and find out the particulars. I swayed out of the joint and found my brother sided up with Ruby.

"Well, well, well. I guess I'm not the only sailor who has a thing for younger women, eh brother?" I winked at Ruby. "Although if you have daddy-issues dear, you should remember that I'm a few hundred years older than him." She rolled her eyes and stood up.

"Deal with your drunk brother, Liam. I'll see you later?" She asked with a smile. He nodded, oozing the Jones charm.

"I count down the moments." Ruby blushed prettily and walked back towards the diner. "I take it there's a reason you've interrupted a moment between myself and that beauty."

"I went to see a seer. Emma has to pick him. I'm going to hurt her. Worse than anyone has ever hurt her and believe me, that's saying a lot. I can't do that to her. She deserves better than me. She deserves him. The good one. The kind one. The one who isn't broken and completely messed up. She deserves someone whole, and wonderful who will still love her more than anything else in the world. And I know that he will. Because we're soulmates, Emma and I. So it doesn't matter what version of me is with her. He could never help but love her. How do I do it? How do I fade out, or whatever."

"You go back." He said simply.

"What?"

"There is a field of giant beans here in town, but it's been watered with water from the wishing well. That water flows through the magic of the well and into the bean's roots. That makes them extra special. They have the magic of transport as well as of time. We shall go find them together and take a few handfuls."

"A few handfuls?" I sputtered.

"That won't even make a dent on these beans."

"According to whom? Have you seen these?!"

"No. That's just what the man in the cloak said." I sighed. We are putting a lot of faith into this man in a cloak. I mean, how did he find all of these things out."

"One thing at a time, brother. You are in bad form, completely drunk. I'm not sure how well you are currently processing information." I nodded and off we went, searching for beans based on some loose description of a meadow behind a cave this man in a cloak had described. I will say this, it sounded like the description of a man who wasn't paying attention when he learned of such a place. Well I didn't like this man. He sounded like an idiot.

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